finally ! new Post

so ! I have not been update this blog for ages, ! ahahha cos really kind of busy with my study and as well as the dance.

study and school work getting stablised and now just a discipline and keep the routine. on the other hand, I also decided to treat dance more serious now and start to take up some jazz lesson and train hard to learn ... of course I never forget and give up my major dancing style, popping and locking ! heheheheh

now in popping course 2 ... learning news things and free style more and more often, and I guess finally I really know my weakness and start to finding solutions to it ! besides the course, and locking lesson as usual is very fun ! and it is like give me a locking music I can just move with the beat! hahahaha

besides funk style ( popping and locking) I also start to learn jazz, learn how to turn, how to have the line, how to express the music... really tough time especially under a good instructor, but guess really learn alot and I must determined to learn and able to execute well ...

2nd year of uni is really impt ! haha so really must study hard! hahaha really really must put in effort in it! but good ... guess I will really have a fulfiling sem !

BINTAN TRIP

so !!! I am BACK from the trip ! .. it was fun and guess all guys outing is really good in some sense as in we really DUN CARE much thingS !



Being crazy, noisy and just out of our mind sometimes ...

overall the trip was great though the price there is REALLY REALLY REALLY expensive ..

First day, we were called at the Ferry Terminal ( singapore) to hurry go check in and board the boat ! hahaha this is funny ... then when we touched down .. we were welcome by some dance and drum beat perform by the resort people ... really very INDONESIA .. check in then ... hmm we just drive the Baggy around to familiar ourselves with the surronding .. The dinner was good though pretty expensive

Second day was exhausting and it is how my stomach get damaged by me again ... we went to play ATV .. some car that can go in harsh terrain and just up and down up and down .. really shiok ahhaha then afternoon went to play beach volleyball with some locals and kayak .. really tired to the max .. so went to restaurant to award ourself some good food .. so i just whack and even eat two plate rice ... then after that ... next day .. my stomach gone liao .. it is just spoil and I am so weak that I jsut went to sleep ! ahahha but luckily no much "xiong" activities ...

Third day , we went out of the resort area, went to this place call pasar oleh oleh ... another place to "chop" the tourist .... then get to know a local who want to do business with us ... charge cheaper than the hotel taxi then bring us to the same designation ... so we just hop on his car and went on with our thir day journey .... we went to kelong to eat sea food .... "hot plate tofu, steam fish , vege and chili crap " pretty sumptous ... then went to another town ... one of the bigger city in Bintan ... watching shouwen and yuzhong do their polo shopping .. then I got a bigger drum for myself there ! ahhah ... but my stomach still trying to show its existence by making me feeling the pain ..... then before we head home ... the driver drive us to the village ..... he call the people there "ayam" so by the word you will roughly guess that ... "chick " yah a village of prostitutes .... omg I never imagine there will be a village of that ... we were actually pretty shock rather than amaze ... as in the living condition and everything ... I thought I step into some africa hill villages ... really really bad .... it is just shocking .... oh yah I forget to mention the driver's driving skill ... he is almost like the malay version of "jay chou" in the movie " Initial D" ... he is just powerful and skilled ! hahaha really ... so we head back home .. eat our "da bao" KFC and I went to rest with my weird feeling stomach .....

Forth day ... feeling a bit better ... but is our check out date ... went to swimming pool a while then just book out and leave bintan ....

my stomach till now still in a mess ! ahhaha hope it will recover soon ...

A bit of side track ... if people ask me what is BEST about bintan beside the place I stay in .. i will really recommend the "LONG ISLAND TEA" at the SILK BAR in Bintan Resort ..... ahhaha it is really one of the BEST long island tea I ever drink ! hahaha BEST ..

popping course !

so I finally finish stage one popping course,
last lesson which was yesterday .. guess is the day i learn most things out of the whole 8 weeks, I see myself trying to dance and freestyle infront of the opponent while battling ..
also realise how nervouse I am and how easily I get nervouse and how bad am I in keeping myself calm...
though I did something I like and indeed display how I truely feel but at the finaly round versus Robin ( another friend in the course) I OFF BEAT !!!!! omg ! ahahah and I started to not so popping freestyle but rather more of hip hop ahahaha
though a little bit disappointed with myself as not able to really put in my technique and perform the task .. but I guess only through defeat and seeing the barrier within myself then can further improve ...
one day ... I will be able to freely express myself anytime, any situation through the art of popping ...... .

kk I got to go packing le heheh I am going to Bintan for a short holiday !! finally ended work yesterday (yesterday is really busy lah)

side track abit, among all the busy thing, I lost bidding in the cors system... OMG winning bid is 2000 plus but I only have 1766 leh !! (due to marketing at the previous sem) .. how how !!! hope the office can help me accept my email and appeal sob sob ......

before I go ... AUGUST is here ... hoping some friend of mine can come to singapore during their this holiday ! ahaha then that will be a perfect august !!!

crytsal JADE, ICE cream and St JAMES

so my second time go to st JAMES !

GUESS what .. No SMOKE and ironically , the air in the the club is better than the air outside the club, all smoker went outside to smoke, the whole st JAMES looks like it is in the mist or some foggy thing ! ahha

went with lisa, her bf, erushi , hx, elaine and her husband ! haha the atmostphere pretty good and the clubs are GOOD ! Especially the MOVITA ahah the Latin music, the reggae .. the singer and the passion in the songs! omg hahahaha everyone is like high with the music and sing with them !

and really thanks to Lisa, treating us crystal jade and Erushi for the ice-cream ... guess I will really miss the time working with them especially LISA .. ahaah my so call direct boss, she is funny, pretty and unique ( in a good way of course ) and sometimes just amazingly make people laugh .. and her temper is really good though always scolding something but I am very sure that she is good temper ! hehehe

what is blog for ?

blog is for NOW when I want to shout out loud and when I want to SPEAK MY MIND OUT ...

WHAT THE **** , my sis's result is SUPER DUPER bad for her mid year , am I suppose to be responsible for this? everyday will have shouting and nagging, I just don't understand why people just see result as the only things in their life, there is much more than that, if a person willing to study, she will, if a person need to be push and scold then might as well let her be a cow and not a human, human is different from normal animal because human can THINK... REFLECT and react to the mistake and learn from it.... that is the most important lesson for everyday little fall down.... if test result is being consider as failure in life, then I dun what to call those people who totally give up study or totally can't study ... aren't they human too ? aren't some of them actually become very successful in their life ? (being a good citizen is also a success and contribute to the world) ..

people will only want to excel in things they wanted to do or when they realise the importance of it, without realise it, one can never know their goals and stuff... sometimes some people are luckier, being bless and able to realise their goals and aim without much detour or fall down in their lives, but I admired those who stand up from their failure and realise what they want to after a down fall. they are indeed another great warrior in the battle name life......

come on! stand up, I will stand up now and teach you how to fight ! the battles in life, the battle that we all have to face .....

I am indeed piss off ... but guess if I can;t keep cool , no one else would and if I can keep my cool ... there is surely a solution to all problem ....

2 more weeks

2 more weeks in RP , guess I will kind of miss the people and place. I am kind of attached to the office and feels good that I have somewhere to go everyday. guess I am pretty weird as most of the people prefer to stay at home the whole day. However I think I will prefer that I have somewhere to go everyday, can be the same, and sometimes slack and dun need to go but when I want to go somewhere, it is always there! haha maybe that is why I never skip school ! cos I just like to go somewhere ....

Stay at home doing nothing really not the thing I like to do in the world. some people can say can stay at home read book or watch DVD. But the fact that reading book and watching DVD actually bring you into another world so actually you are also "going" somewhere !!

hahahaha anyway will work hard for next 2 weeks and finish it with a happy feeling.

then I am going to see the sun rise and sun set at BINTAN! the SUN, the sand and the SEA ... can't wait for holiday and can't wait for school to start !

freestyle

.. before talking about the freestyle ! let me say this .. today is the slackest day ever in office... haha guess I am really a workacholic !

so after work I went locking class .. as usual, the warm up and the choreo .. pretty happy .. as locking is always a happy dance to me though sometimes will not execute properly but haha it is fun anyway ...

Following the steps is not really a problem to me nowadays but rather to do it freestyle ... with groove and variations of steps and must be clean too ... before went on freestyling with micheal , I actually got think through what I want to do later .. but realise haha it is all gone le ! so just follow the music and let the instinct run ... although I know some "vocab" but it seems I always use the same "word" ahahha bad bad ! some word just out of my mind !

lesson learn is need to make dance a natural language to me to communicate and express the music .. guess it is what micheal trying to tell me in the msn .. I will remember it !

stay funky ! stay style ! stay free ... I want to be a funky freestyler

I WAS BORN TO LOVE YOU

I was born to love you

With everything single beat of my heart

Yes, I was born to take care of you,

Evrey single day of my LIFE !!!!!!

far far away

in the land of far far away,
there, lives a princess ....

shit ~ where is my white horse !!

- Prince Not Charming ( cos he can't find his white horse)

end of june

june has come to the end !!! soon GST will become 7% !

today almost get injure on myself, lucky never happen, else I guess I will broke my arms, instead of that, I injure my last finger ... lucky I would say...

a long day, and the other two temps leave the office today ... guess today is the last time I will be seeing them ! really nice to work with them !

thank you crystal and thank you cherlyn hehe ^ ^

July is my last month in RP, guess I must work harder and getting busy again ! haha and oh yah ! I receive an SMS from NS today ! ahah it is about the pay slip ! HAPPY ..

Time Machine

I receive a package ! I called it the "TIME MACHINE"

It brings my back half year ago, my birthday.

memories flash back... looking at hte photos and reading the letters, again and again.... besides lost counts on how many "thank you" you put it down ... I dun know how to describe my feelings besides looking at it and smile .. but some how I realise my position in your heart ... that really makes me happy ^^ ... what else should I say ? I guess the photos of us and our smile express everything that is in my heart .....

happy memories ..

why ask so many question?

"why ask so many questions?" , you asked ...

actually I also not sure, but guess I want to know more about you,

"why ?", you may asked,

guess, any normal guy will want to know more about you ba !!
since I am a normal guy, instead of being fake and pretend,
there is no much to hide and be straight forward ...
knowing a friend like this definitly is also another blessing in life

get to know you in a coincident manner, pretty accidental ..
have to thank my colleague and of course the photographer!

hope we are not just acquaintance but rather friends that can eat supper, share happy things and sad things

silver, timbre , TIMMY

got a silver ! happy ! ahhaha

Timbre was great, a band call TIMMY IS ultimate !

just love them,

love the PIZZA, love the Edinger, love and BAND

IPPT + TIMBRE

2:32pm now .. going to take my first IPPT as an NSman ! shit I think I will die ! ahah hope to get a silver or at least pass it man ahhah

something else to look for after the IPPT at Khatib, going to timbre with shouwen hx and yh, dun know who else will go ! but guess sat night seat some where with good friends and good band is really good ! somemore no entry charge ! hahaha

fall in love

When I comes to like another person, it needs to go well or there is chaos
I become weak
I am unable to easily communicate my feelings
And sometimes do things I don't understand myself
and then
I come to hate myself

hungry !

i have not been eating at home for like almost 2 weeks, almost everyday dinner outside !! ..
either having dance class or tuition so kind of busy BUT .. I guess it is really good ! haha
anyway waiting for dinner now ! was thinking of blogging in chinese but just kind of no inspiration like last time ! guess hmmm my life now really kind of easy, peaceful and simple ! hahaha no much SUPER happy also no much of saddness !

-274 degree

-273 degrees, the lowest temperature , 0 K ...
lowering to -274 degrees, -1 K ...
new temp , new mood, new thinking, new life ...

-274 degreee

random

just a random thought..
one month has passed from the the last paper..
holiday also finished about 1/3 hehe pretty fast.. just work and work ....
I dun know how to put it .. just feel hmmm something is changing.
and something is disappearing

OTOT

so nowadays kind of OT often ! haha but I kind of enjoy working with them

my Direct "BOSS" Lisa ! ahah she is one time funny , two time messy but she is very capable oh ! haha

then come to Erushi .. very friendly and helpful ! ahah always have a smile on her face !

Elain .. just come to RP few days later than me ! another girl who is smaller than me, but ... SHE IS MY SENIOR SENIOR aha a graduate from NUS electrical engineering !

Catherine ... SUPERD gamer I just get to know ... hahah seldom met female gamer ahaha recently the magic show was her event oh

Benjamin .. ahha though seldom work with him but he is a nice guy !

Cherlyn and Kim Seah ! the other two temp staff like me.. super friendly and helpful ! ahha .. kid of lucky to get such a part time job ! ahhah RP ... not bad!

VIRGO !

ahah I kind of scare of virgo .. guess cos my dad is a virgo ..
but recently jsut got to know a virgo friend... actually not tat bad !
ahah pretty cute and lovable !
who who who ?
hahah

BLOG!!!

aahahah I seldom blog or type in computer, you know why ? ahah cos I type damn lot in the morning when I working.... ahhaha yah ! "data entry job"

but lucky the woman I assist is pretty close to my age, and kind of pretty and crazy! so nice to work with! ahhaha she just sometimes lack of some nerve but talk about work ! haha she is pretty good at it wahah

I have been work pretty hard, monday to friday, then give tuitions on weekends, the rest of the time or rather beside work place , the place I visite the most is studio le ! finally start to dance more and learn more things! also sign up the poping course which I miss it during my exam period! finally got a chance to learn more new things and get more funky ( I hope ) ... most imptly got to find my own style in the dance man which I have not see it in my poping ! ahha sad sad! but well will work hard!

this will will really try to blog more I guess got have some regular readers, cannot disappoint them else everytime see the same blog same entry really kind of peisei ! ahhaah already so busy le and kind of lost contact with some people, guess blog is an another venue to let people know what happen to me nowadays!

exam result will release soon!! omg ! kind of scare though I told me student dun need to as it is already over! but actually I also pretty scare and really hope I can do well or at least maintain what I have and the application of minor in biz can go through! if cannot I will APPLied aGAIN ! ahhaha

guess that's all for now ! ahah my life just amk and RP ahhah and DANCE ahah simple yet fulfilling ! haha

life now

it has been ages that I blog.. mainly is lazy and also busy lah
exam had ended and I hope I can just maintain what I have....
almost one week of not sleep welll not eat well ... this really killing me
health wise i feel it is not very good, stomach and other function start to give me some problem that I never experience before , ahha guess it is time to do some body check up and using this holiday to do some maintainence ahhahha bad bad !
has started working in republic poly, pretty a okay experience, guess the xiong part will slowly come to me, as the anniversary come near but who cares, I am just a part timer! ahhaha people are pretty nice ard me and also ard my age so guess it is not that hard to work in such an environment.
yup ! waiting for result, hope people in australia are having a good time and safe trip , of course this one goes to those who are in thailand as well.... safe trip and fun trip !
will start to blog more I guess and I still need to go and find my bak kou teh ! ahhaha
I never forget, just need some time though ahahahha

coffee with empty stomach

less than two weeks to the starting of exam, argh got to chiong faster, today is my freee day so stay at home mug ! kind of sleepy head due to last night sleep late so get a coffee without eating breakfast ! ahha this is kind of bad habbit, cos .... I forget that it will make me jsut uncomfortable and hands will just shake... shitty feeling ahhaha i also can;t differentiate that I feeling hyper or just lack of rest and feeling weak ! hahaha but who cares ! as long as my eye sight and brain still can function properly now .. guess I should just hug my books and understand them hahaha

everyone is mugging now, guess if I can see from the sky what happen to singapore's universities and see all the uni student, guess it will be a amazing view from the top ! ahhah top student, middle student, trying to get lousy grade student, ALL ... hhaha just mugging.. SUPERD society that we have ...

PE!

so just taken the Practical exam on the saturday ! guess my thought just die on the key board , hte question is pretty cool though I can't really solve it on the spot, but guess yah I kind of like programming ahah though i sucks at it and many other people are much better ahahah but it is kind of addictive and guess a sense of achievement if I can do the question ba even my method is the slowest ! ahahah but who cares! ahhaha

few more paper to go ! and less than 3 weeks to exam , hahahha just study ba what else is there in the world I should do ? haha I Also dun know , since occupation is student ! just do the job that describe who I am the most ba ahhahahaha

cheers! my blog is like dying ! ahhaah oh no

another post !

just another stupid post I guess !
11:09 am in the empty tutorial room, the day before yesterday, I did not sleep , doing CTW paper with ck and john in ck's room , really really bad , cos aftre that non of us survive from the fatique, I again found a empty tutorial room, thought I can do some stuff but ended up just sleep. images keep jumping and changing in my mind, I am dreaming ~
ck went back to his room , guess he also knock out le cos he never reply my msg !
as for JOHN ! ahhaha he went to sleep in library then later msg say he can't tahang le going home !

really exhausted, manage to last till the last lecture, then hurry went back to home, after dinner just keep sleeping sleeping and sleeping,

today is princess' birthday ! haha HAPPY BIRTHDAY princess =) !

going back to my marketing le !

thank you ! and sorry !

long time never blog, suddenly just feel like pen down some stuff ...
have been long time since we last time talk I guess though it is over msn ,
feel great to tell you how I feel and stuff and what happen to me recently,
just feel that woah ! you actually listen and support my decision regarding on anything , of course you also give me some advise and give some thought of yours, this really help me a lot time and after times again ... so I thank you, deb , for always give me a listening ears

so ~ recently somethings happen , dun know how to spell it out but just some things happen that change the pace of my life a little bit ... put in the blunt way ... just I am pretty broke ! ahhaha though sounds like normal to many people , but yah to the extend that I think I have to share some load for my family ? haha yah so guess life to me now kind of pressure and giving tuition is no longer just to earn some pocket money ... like will see it more of hmmm SERIOUS issue if I dun give tuition now...

academic wise , I feel the pace before sem break is horrible, just not like my first sem, so I am trying to get back the pace and at least not ahead but also dun want to lag behind ...

suddenly change of situation and stuff really make me seat down and think what is the focus of my life now, I am letting someone down, time to time, again and again. I know. guess sometimes I just not up to fullfil the expections. I guess though I think I did try to make both of us happy sometimes, but sometimes things just dun seem as happy as I thought it will be. No much time to go out and even just to spend my time on talking phone over some trival issues ( to me ).. though I am definitely willing to listen when there is some serious issues, cos to me you are still my good friends. I got to say sorry.

haha guess this is really a good time that I learn somethings from life, I dun know, I just feel that this period of time may be the time that I looking for myself and learn the most from the reality ? and bring away something or some lesson out of this year.

time flys second to second, hour to hour and day to day, though I did not join any cca or participate in any great event, REALITY, this teacher actually suddenly come and open up his black board ( I guess he is old school ) and tell me formulas and teaching me and asking me to bring something out of this period . .... hahaha what else I can say? I guess ....

AZA AZA FIGHTING !

C++

Dear C++,

I love you ,
pls love me back okay,
stop making me feeling sad and hopeless,

yours Sincerely
jerhsuan

friends, friends? friends !

ever wonder who are your friends ?
how to define friends ?
ever ask yourself whether the person you look at , the person you trust ( you think you trust ) is really your friend ?

maybe we all know the answers, maybe we all dun know the answers,
understanding a person takes a life time , and this person definitely include yourself , OURself, do you really understand your behaviour ? the way you think ? why you do such things ?

I believe time will tell, those once regard as good friend may not be friend any more, those never regard as friend maybe one day you will realise, actually that person is really nice and sincere just he/she not very good in expressing himself/ herself.

this lead to questioning myself about the definition of sincerety,
Sincere has the following meaning in the dictionary :(adj) not pretending anything or deceiving anyone ; genuine and honest.
so can people pretend to be sincere? I guess so , cos just adding the word in ( I am an engineering student, adding to me means PLUS )
Pretend to be sincere : pretend not pretending anything or deceiving anymore ; pretend genuine and honest.

hard to tell huh ? right ? ahha I guess it is really hard to say who is sincere and who is not , who is genuine and who is not, cos it is all very subjective and this subjectiveness is come from you , are you sure you are truely objective when you see things ? when someone claim that he/she has an objective view , isn't she being subjective about herself being an objective person ?

haahha this is confusing, but again , time will tell,

open your eyes, open your heart, see it and feel it,
friends , stranger or foe,

sunday morning !

cold weather which is good , singapore should everyday like that , no rain , lower temperature and a little bit of sun will be even better
woke up pretty early, going to give tuition soon , haha busy busy, sat and half a sunday burn ! my tuition time is like 2 modular hour lah ! hahah but guess I really need to money, else surely BROKE hahah
what else to say ? nothing much , a peaceful sunday, got some work to do man ! haha

world peace !

critical thinking and writing !

finally I got this module ! ahha critical thinking and writing,
just woke up from a good sleep, last night went drinking with friends, some beer then after that had some martini ! hahah guess it is really rare occasion I will drink like that during school days. Luckily, my lesson for today will start at afternoon ...

kind of feel ease in the mind when I saw the module is allocated to me. initially really scare thinng won;t turn out well, but guess as long as we do our part, sometimes it will just do its best to turn out the way it is best for us. I guess as long as people have such an attitude towards the stuff they do or the problem they encounter, one can always put in the maximum amount of effort and yet not over worrying on what is the outcome.

alright got to go to school le ! eheh

curse of hte GOLDEN flower !

went to watch tat movie last night, with siao wen and her big sis, the show is better than what I expected it will be. never fall asleep though my body is pretty tired aftre dance class! ahah actually no much comment to that movie , but guess it is not a MUST catch show, neither it is a lousy show. anyway , a good show ba.

today's dance lesson is okay, steps are hmm different style, first time attain his class, but luckily still able to make it and pretty happy with myself to make one and half turn on the spot ! ahh next time going to try 2 turn on the spot ahahah

bidding round now is round 2, I still can't for my critical thinking, then friends told me cos the slot is full ! wth ! since I pass QET already, they should just allocate to me ! why I still need to bid and now NEED to appeal , if never get it , guess I got to do SOME SS or GEM le ahahah who knows man, hope I can get it ! anyway this sem GOT TO BE 6 mod ! ahhah

from you !

your story make make me sad, or rather angry ... heard that you are crying , I feel sad and angony as well... dun understand why HE is like that , piss me off , even me treasure you much more than he do and I dun even own you ..... but you will be fine, we all know it ^^ keep smiling and there are many other people treasure you too ^^

cheers

BACK!

these few days really have problem with internet, super duper slow and I can't access some of the website. Blogger is one of them. guess it is due to the earthquake in taiwan. the earthquake cause quite a big damage in southern part of taiwan, many were die and injured. besides that few under sea cables broke down. I can't called back to taiwan at first, but luckily now is okay and the internet service seems getting better.

Xmas eve... thought will be staying at home and do nothing , then a friend msg on msn to sing K with HIM ahah a guy oh ! haha then we went to marina square and count down and sing at K box till 4 then by the time I reach home is already 5 ! .. Merry Xmas...

recently no much outing, or what . just at home stoning and playing dota, bidding round start le then will be taking marketing with yh , 6 module, 25 mc , guess this sem will be EVEN busier ... rather MORE fulfilling ! ahhaha

2nd day!

2nd day !
woke up pretty ... hmm the timing is just normal, so everyone wash up.. today is a food eating day ! as we promise the princess, must do our best to try to taste as much food as possible..

first station !
thomson road, roti prata house. guess princess really really long time never eat le ! but instead of ordering a lot of various type .. she just ordered on prata with egg ! ahha guess she is saving the stomach for the later !

second station !
maxwell food court ... so what we order ? ahha chicken rice, fish porriage, carrot cake, sugar cane, curry puff ... after that ...we all really SICK of eating .. not the food , but the motion of eating .. sick of it ..

bring her to vivo city for a little walk, bought some candy at the candy empire ! took some photo here and there ! shop ard, walking beside shuyi and princess ... this only happened 3 years ago ! ahah really , it only happen 3 years ago .. really felt great and happy, walking beside her ... vivo city is new, memory is old, feeling is old, accompany is old too ... I wish time could just stop or goes back .....

after walking for like really long, 3 of us went to meet princess' jc classmate, today is their normal gathering, at the end become my bday celebration ! ahah yeah ! 20th was my bday, so first time in my life celebrated with my bday with only girl , purely just girls, omg .. ! I really thank them yah thanks everyone who sang the song for me and share the cake with me.

the dinner was great, princess and shuyi went to try ultimate bungee when walk pass it ! ahhah she is brave , guess both are brave! ahah then went back to hotel ....

so tonight is my bday night , get the gift from her... sleep in the middle .... lol pls dun think anything funny ... these 2 girls just sleep like no body's business while I almost whole night never really close my eyes ....

looking at you , sleeping so deep beside me, you were smiling ! ahah guess you really have a good dream .... at the moment, I wish the time could just stop , let me looking at you longer, a birthday wish I made, I wish that you will be happy always, no matter where you are, who you with .... deep in I know, knowing you happy, surely make my life happier ^^

princess calcium

so here comes the princess !

arrive at airpot early so just find a place to have nap ! haha kind of tired to wake up early and after a long mrt ride ! but the wait surely worth it, waited for 3 years , what is another hour of waiting ....

gate 21, I saw her walking down the staircase and towards the luggage sections. she never changed, but guess neither did I change as well. Meet up , hop on to a taxi and head straight towards her hotel. it still rain heavily though singapore seems Sunnier and Brighter with her around.

3 days, 2 nights, she will only be here for 3 days and 2 nights, really really really very short. on top of that , there are still so much things to be done here. so after touch down , we went to meet up with her aunt to collect some document then went to see doctor, then went to immigration center. luckily, we are able to get all these done by the first day. at night, we meet up with elain and shuyi, went for dinner and went separet ways after, I went home to pack stuff and they went to shuyi's house. meet up again at the hotel lobby, then went to baby face to chill out and have some drinks ! ahha wonderful atmostphere ! really nice..

looking out of the window, rain never stop in the night, it was cold and windy, everywhere was wet and it was so inconvenient to travel ard. But her voice , her smile really make the rain seems less heavy, make the air feels warmer ... even the wind, smell of her fragrance ......... cocoa butter !


to be continue.....

xmas !

recently, went to a church at amk, under the invitation of my good friend lenny. he acted in the show. Though just 2 lines, his acting potential can be seem from there le lah! hor ? hehheh next year you will surely get the lead actor, must inivite me again !

in a more serious tone, the session in the church was indeed fulfilling. the words from the pastor about the real meaning behind x'mas was great. some how I feel it can resonance with me, not just one ear in and another ear out. The video too , really feel touch by it. ahhaah lucky my hand is fast enough to wipe a away the extra water in my eyes and counter the feeling of pH < 7 in my nose.

in the past year, x'mas just means holiday, parent's wedding anniversary, and the day the Jesus born. But after this session in lenny' church, guess I feel more and understand more over what is x'mas

thanks lenny and thanks to people ard me that day, and thanks Him.

sc chalet 2006!

the hightlight of the year has just ended which is our annual chalet !
it was really great and fun , lots of new events and games ..
so must take this chance to thanks this year's committee,
lenny, clarence, joycelyn, peiqi and siao wen ..
of course, I believe it can't be fun without this whole group of great people ..

the night cycling was really good and tgt with the a little bit of night walk,
the elements of exercise, bonding and advanture was really felt by me and I believe others feel it too.

the captain's ball, it proves that ruth and shishi are guys and not girls, ahhah I will want it to be a compliment here, ruth really move swift and fast, and determined to win and play it seriously, wonderful sportsmanship , shishi is really good, shooting, catching, you name it, she do it ... so guess if there is MVP award, they really deserve that award, as for guys, we just have a lot of fun lah hor!

the BBQ was good too, though food still a bit too much , but I think the package really worth it, the fire was set up pretty fast and food is cook with efficiency, haha well done people,

games was fun, the wish ,wash , the bunt house, hold down , and big titi cow girls, guess to a point of time, it was really exciting and fun to see people sabo each other and have coordination problem, 007 game once again proves ... we guys are not good at it hahaha but it was fun though, drinking session , ahhah I slept the earliest, oh man , miss some good stuff ahhaha (oops) but overal it is good lar, thank you huixia for having the thought of give me a pillow, ahaha really thank you for that...

oh yah , not be forget, the polling result, heheh must congradulate ruth (again) to win the grand prize of being the next chair person for chalet 2007, and I am really looking forward to it ahha (putting pressure now) , but dun worry, you teamate are good and the rest of the people will sure give you a helping hand when you need it ....

last but not least, once again, thank to the organiser and the participants ahahha FUN .. and what is the next event ? hahaha let's look forward to countdown and chinese new year visit ? ahhaha

少年

故今日之责任，不在他人，而全在我少年。
少年智则国智，
少年富则国富，
少年强则国强，
少年独立则国独立，
少年自由则国自由，
少年进步则国进步。

--------------------- 梁启超

I am peace lover!

kill it or get kill ....

dun killl me cos I am a peace LOVER ...

KILL KILL KILL

you are so sad!

I dun know what exactly happen, only those things you had mention then I know.
Think there is really a tsunami of emotional roller coaster you have went through ..
really want to cheer you up but I dun know how..
problems are too individual yet at this time provide a listening ear is the hardest thing I can give ...
just a while more , just a while more , haah then lend you my ear !

and think more positively k ^^
because day still carry on ...

02:41, we are burning

02:41 am ...that is how I started my friday hahaha feels ...
energitic now , no drug no coffee ..
just that I slept already ..
the night is really quiet except the noise in my earphone
... sean paul " we are burning"

and I am burning by the thermodynamic handout in my hands!!!
we are BURNING !!!!!!

6th floor, 10 am , this is the scene in my eyes

I am standing in one of empty tutorial room , 6th floor in engineering block, 10am. Thinking of last night, thinking of the conversation ,a choice was made. so let it be. Recieved your msg, the content was a little bit surprising yet glade that you msg me. Though just a simple reminder, it still saddens me. Looking down , wanting to share with you what I see here, I took this picture and want to tell you ... at this moment, even after the decision , you are still the one that I want to share what I see and feel at any point of time.

Recovery button.

peaceful life~

life is getting more peaceful and regular
pretty like it ..
simple is also a kind of happiness ba

8th Oct

.. another special day for me ...
overall I am still not as healthy as I thought ...

a little be surprise and dun know what to do with it ...
people out there ... drink more water yah .. take care

7th October

I will remember today ....

.... ^_^ ...
and I am sure ... the coming days willl be fun

Record Value

HP = negative infinity ....

SPIRIT = positive infinity .....

Record Value = undefine ....

what is next?

move on ... and fly .....

Red or Blue

Red Ocean VS Blue Ocean ......

guess we all in an ocean ...
some dun know they are in ... but some do ..
among those people ... most of them in the red and very little in the blue ...
and soon ... maybe .. blue will turn red ...

hahah I also dun know which ocean am in ...
guess it is RED ba ahahha
BLOODY

nike

... wth ... dun ask

JUST DO IT

another friday night !

Term break starts from today. One week had just passed quielty without any trace of memory ...
CA is coming up after the term break .. WAH !! my first official test in uni leh heheh hope I can finish prepare them ... at least I just hope I can finish study or do what I want to do ...

today yh pass me the song .. we went through it tgt ... guess ... maybe I still not up to the standard to match his guitar hehehe ^^ looking forward to the rehearsal ahead and it will be our first LIVE heeh !!!

econs is fun .. but study it and read it ... really not fun ahha pretty bored ... I have no idea why I will jsut fall asleep after read through certain pages ahha ... they just make me feel bored though the concept is interesting when attending the lessons .....

anyway .. pace of life now is fast ... which is good hahah ... guess without much thinking what should I do tml ... uni life is already about to over ... pretty sad for a freshy to say that whahah ... but I will treasure and have fun in this four year ... now is just a beginning !!!

a will that never fullfill .....

... I cut my hair .... I failed .....

enlighten

... Let's walk towards the light ....

/* do I love you ?? */

/* some symbols cannot be display by blog, so I just use others to replace them .. hehe so got error yah */

#include (stdio.h)
#include (math.h)
#include (ctype.h)

int main(void)
{
double x;
printf("Please enter the amount of money in my bank: \n" );
scanf(" %lf " , &x );
printf("\n");

if ( x > 1.0e1000000000000000 )
{
printf ( " I love you. \n" );
}
else
printf(" I can't love you \n");

char c;
printf(" can i pour out the water in the pacific ocean? ");
c = getchar ();
printf("\n");

if ( c = Y or c = y )
{
printf ( " I love you \n");

else
printf ( " I can't love you\n");
}

char a;
printf(" do I have wings to fly to the sky ?" );
a = getchar ();
printf(" \n");

if (a = Y or a = y)
{
printf("I love you.\n");

else
printf(" I can't love you.\n");
}

printf(" sorry ... I can't love you though I will love to do so ..... \n" ) ;
return 0;

}

truth and illusion

is truth really truth ?
illusion really illusion ?
how about the truth in the illusion world?
how about the illusion in the real world ?
are truth still truth itself?are illusion still just illusion?

who cares ? Who does not somehow live in the dream ?

I think ....

a truth in a illusion word is still truth .. cos the rest are all illusion ...
a illusion in a real word still truth ... cos everythin is the real world is real ...

I think
... the factor is the courage to face it .....
then ..... illusion will be known as truth and accept ..
then ..... truth will be known as illusion and ignored ..

I am a coward ...

the poem in your heart

so .. I think there is a poem in everyone's heart,
a poem that describe the inner feeling of yourself,
a poem that describe the world build within yourself,
it records the memories of you ,
it also records the dreams of you,

what is the poem in my heart?
guess I can answer it to myself with feelings,
but I just can't write them out ...
I still composing this poem,
hoping someday, I can find someone to share with ,

listening to jay's new songs,
pretty sad, really just his album ,
you are right, the more I listen , the more I like it,
like its sad , like its cool ,
the song writer is good,

a good song writer is not the one who's lyrics can really sell,
a good song writer is the one who can write out the poem in my heart with beautful words.
give me a . sad sad and sweet sweet feeling ...

爱， 懂爱

我一直在找那,让我爱的人,和,让我懂爱的人.

我不要她是两个不同的人，

我会不会太贪心了?

贪心的要,贪心的给, 也叫贪心吗？

爱，如果不贪心，那，不就是自私的爱？
爱，如果不贪心，那，不就是无法拥有的爱？

我要爱，我也要懂爱，
那是世界上最奢侈的需求，
那是世界上最困难的习题。

31st August

now is 23:35 ...

25 minutes more , Septermber will come.
3 weeks have passed
between amk and nus,
between Lt and library,
between books and msn,
between so many hi and bye,

it passed just between the 8 o'clock and the 6 o'clock .

long time never update my blog,
I wanted to pen down a lot of things. But at end , the thought and feeling just slowly went back to the deepest part of my brain .. cover by laziness and dust of thoughts...

it is okay I told myself, at least the feeling still THERE ..

For the pass few weeks, I felt there is a change of myself, of being not so me. or rather behave more like another me ....
I am surprise that there is always a battle in my mind, however it is getting better .. guess I getting use to it ... so .. one question I often ask myself: "Am I happy?" .
Guess it is really really subjective, subjective as in the clashes of the thought that both I agreed with .. hmm guess my the above sentence structure only deserve a cross from my English tutor ba ...

Lastly, really thank you for visiting here, ( Still visiting here) though the update here is really really really slow, but guess I will put on more post since I started with this one now ....

walking on the fence

are we all "walking on fences"
right is .. right
wrong is .. wrong ..
are you sure ?
what you think is right is right and what you think is wrong is wrong ?
left hand, right hand...
we all trying to find balance ba~

so .. after 3 years

after 3 years ... we met again
text .. no longer seem enough ..
surrounded by different people
did we all change ? YES we all did ..

a globe with a missing piece,
a cup with Gaius Julius Caesar's saying,
embedded within, are my memory of you..

"Is your world still incomplete without me?", you asked..
I quiet ...
"Is my that peice of world still with you?", I asked back..
"......" is your reply

"how is the mickey mouse? " I asked
"Beside my bed." you answered ...

random topic, random memory,
your smile, your smell ..
deep in , my thought, stilll linger at the first day we met, 4 years ago

Web cam

such an amazing stuff ...
though we are not talking to each other now, I still can see your silly smile~
looking at you laughing at your friend ...
guess this moment, I feel your happiness as well ba~

沉默玩具

变成了一个影
隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸
我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限情
模糊我自己
不愿深深把爱情
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决拥抱
我看到

为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意

寂寞点点不休息
而让甜蜜却也忘记
幸福不再美丽
可是我会在意
这种对你的深情
我不会怪自己
不愿意深深的情意
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决了拥抱
我看到

为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
喔~~爱~~ 为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
喔~~爱~~ 这么爱你的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
说在而情意

I love this song ...... so sad ...
but why this song does not appear in my jc times leh ?

at the mean while~

she went to wash up ...
so AT the mean while .. I just feel like write down something ..
I went to K box today ..
as usual, sang some songs and listened to people sing ..
a old duet song that everyone sang in the KTV session remind me of her ..
guess .. many of my KTV memory is with her presence ..
dun know how to say ...
just will thought of her when I see duet songs~ lol

hmm she is still washing up ~ ahhaha while I am going to finish my dinner ~
she is back ~

lonely season~

Being alone is not feeling lonely ...
Feeling lonely is not when I am alone ...

There are 4 seasons in a year ..
Spring, summer, autumn and winter ..
Guess there is another season in my year..
I call it the "lonely season"
There is no specific month for it ...
no specific duration for it ...
it comes and goes ...
And I guess .. it is coming ba ~
Welcome to the lonely season ......

Phuture ~

Nothing has changed ....
music is good ...
play it on ..

the promise~

the meeting with you was great,
the time was great too ...
food is good though too much in take of meat,
movie was good though it does not have an ending ...

while you say it is a "bad" movie cos there is no proper ending,
I agree, with agony that is has no ENDING
BUT I secretly thanks the director that this movie had secretly planned an another outing with you to "to be continue".

Though time tgt is short, and we visit many places all over the island,
dun worry, I did not push myself, it is my own will to do so,
it is own will to do even you ask me to go one round of singapore in one day ...

Union CAMP (CAP 5)

I went to union camp the past 5 days
It was really fun ~ hehehe
First day I Report, people told me that my nick name was winnie the pooh ~
so I simply thought everyone here play with nick name one ..
when I Report to my group, ( CAP 5 ), the OGL asked my name
I just ans "my name is Winnie the Pooh" ... end up the OGL stunned in front of me and burst out laughter

Then first day play some finding the clue game,
my group still very quiet .. guess the bonding still not there yet ~
Then second day was pool game, some of hte game is really creative heheh
Then the third day was beach game at sentosa, I was appointed to be the cheer IC of that day, haha I really cheer till my throat lost my voice haiii resulted now got soar throat and can't sing anymore hahaha
Then the fourth day is WAR game, everyone get SO dirty, I got paint, flour and mud all over my body, hehe but it was really fun though the sun is really blazing, that night , we played games and get each other's contact.
It ended on the sat afternoon .... looking forward for OG outing heheh ^^

damn ,, I am so forgetful

Union Camp was fun ..
program was fun ...
Never get much sleep
Cheer like mad
I can't help but think of you ..

everyday waiting for tml's programe to come,
I also waiting for that Day to come,
the day we promise to meet

no phone call,
stupid me actually even forget I have to sms you ..
I felt guilty, I felt bad,
I felt sorry that I can't even do the simplist thing that I can do
I should set an alarm for myself ..
Damn me , I am still so forgetful ..

Glass painting~ and Name Crafting

"Glass painting " was my major activities these few days before I went to Malaysia. It was really fun and guess I learn something new. I neglected the blog for quite a while because, I am not suppose to blog what I was doing the past few days.

But I felt bad over the colour I choose during the making of it. I realised that I Should choose silver or gold instead of WHITE. After painted the white patterns, I still left with the chinese words.

Finding the font was pretty a simple job. But I never thought that craft the chinese word from the printed one is kind of .. hmm tricky ? Luckily it can be done and the effect on the glass is not bad at all. By the way, it wsa the first time I wrote someone else name for so long other than my own name. Stroke by stroke ...... hahaha

Yh did a photo to put on the glass, it was really nice and made the gift more meaningful. I really hope she will like it. and use it often as her white board, as her tag board or just simply a mirror.

爱情白卷

一叠500张的A4印表纸，
一台彩色的喷墨印表机，
印出来的，却是一张张的爱情白卷。

The Road to Guantanamo

So .. I went to watch this movie today after I gave tuition... Though it was just like watching "Channel News Asia Special".
Whatever in the movie was real .. the people is real, the person who speak infront of the camera were the people who went through the whole thing ...
It was about 3 people who went to Pakistan to attend friends wedding, the 4 of them decide to go Afghanistan... they encounter war and was capture by US Army and send to prison ...
The movie showed how they being treated , how they being tortured and how is their life in the prison .... the treatment was expected, but it was still shocking and stunning when it "played" in front of me ... I mean ... these people are really innoncent ....

Who is right ? who is wrong ? who is the justice .... then .. Who is the bad guy then .....??

23rd June~ my new assignment ..

.. last friday ~ met siao wen in singapore .. haha .. it was quite a happy day , we went quite a few places and it was the first time I go to LOT1 ahahah ... K a few songs with siao wen .. guess I still need a lot of practices ..
She passed me a CD .. a lot of new songs ~ guess before this coming thursday I got to know how to sing some of them .. otherwise she will dager stare me again le ~ haha time to do work ~ that is my new assignment for this week ... whahaha
Anyway ... thank her to bring me such a CD heheh , some songs are hard to find hehe

FM Taiwan~

Scenery~
hey hey ~~~ so since nothing much to blog nowadays~ I will choose some photos to upload here~~~ ... Do you see the rainbow in the picutre ?? hehehe really nice leh ~ it is taiwan strait ( I guess , I forget I facing the east of west le ^^) .. the wind there is really strong ~ very comfortable ~ we rode motobike there one ~ cos the place really kind of big ~ if no transport, think kind of hard to travel and visit all those places~~~~ if I remember correctly, this place is call Mao Tou Bi ~ cos there is a rock in the sea looks like a cat lying there ~ LOL~


Funny Accident ~
So as I mention~ we rode bike but most of the time is Yh carry me one ~ I only ride in the circuit~ ahhahah WHy ??? you know why ?? cos I even "Buang" myself in the circuit ..LOL

It happened when we first when to the circuit~ so I just seat on top without knowing how much to turn the grip ~ so it just full speed mount the passage way and "fly" into the air ~then I fell out from it ~ the reflector drop off ~ lol .. lukily the shop owner did not see it ~ where is the reflector ?? haha now is it in Singapore ` I brought it back wahahah ~

taiwan broadcast~

K ... back to singapore about a week, back to internet world about 4 days ...
have not spend times here to blog down what had happened to me for the past 2 months ..


Before I fly back to taiwan ~

I dyed my hair ~ that is the before I fly back to taiwan ~ hmm .. so think it is a new image, pretty happy with it ~ and I like the colour~ parent did not say much too ... then the first person I saw is yh ~ then is len and hx ~

it was done at the supercut at cine ~




During the trip ~


so many photos were taken ~ this is the sunset at the Ah Li Shang~ hehehe think from my friends blog there are more photos in their blog~ so I just upload one that I like one ~ There are sunset ~ and the black and white photos.. of couse there are water sports, the beach and the fun life there ~ hehehe
I meet my taiwan friends too ~~~~ hehehe
So both the guy and girl are my best friend in taiwan ~ when I am in the secondary school ~ hehe we were eating steamboat ~ ahahah the meal was good ~ but the accompany of old friends are even better~ though see them pretty often online, it is still different from seeing them on face~.






Then ~ I conclude the trips in taiwan ~ then back to singapore hahahah really hmm yup think that's it for today ba~

From the book : The Shadow of the Wind

"As long as we are remembered, we remain alive"
-Carlos Ruiz Zafon

in the middle of the holiday ~

surpirsed ~ I blog after such a long time cos of internet cutting and away for holiday at taiwan.. so now was at some place playing pool with the guys and since I am not in a hurry to play, I decide to blog ... it is cheap here anyway ...
the holiday was great, I think I really miss taiwan ... every piece of land I walk these few days fresh my old memory ... it seems like I can see the little me walking the same path I am walking right now .... be frank , when I was in singapore, I dun think I miss taiwan .... but I miss taiwan much more when I am IN taiwan ...... I feel that I still belong here no matter where I go, or what citizenship I am taking..
tomorrow, yh will fly back to singapore le, the rest of the people will be going back on the coming friday, where as for me ... I will be back at the 8 of june, and think by the time I restore my internet and get connected again, that will be hmmmm maybe end of june ba ... ahhh but ... nevermind , I pretty like the days now .......... anyway just come here and drop a notes .... heheheh hope everyone is fine and good ~

announcement ......

So ... today is the the LAST day of MARCH ...
also the last day that I will have pacific internet ...
so which means .. since I have not apply for any other company...
I will have a period of time that have no internet access and of course there will no blogging , no MSN ... and also by the time I get it fix up ~ I might not be in singapore anymore ..

think we all forget the life where there is no internet , where there is no handphone .... think should be pretty quiet ba .. haha no more MSN , no more chatting online .... heheh

I will be back

You'll Shine again

* I know that you've been watching over me
You're up so high the brightest in the sky
You know that every night i pray my soul for you
Tomorrow won't be as blue

Oh girl i hope you can understand
That the song will always shine again
Now that you've found your way onto a better day

You'll shine again You'll shine again
Give you strength and love to fight the days ahead
I see the light see a rainbow
See the beauty that's within you
You'll shine again You are so beautiful

Repeat *

You'll shine again You'll shine again
Give you strength and love to fight the days ahead
I see the light see a rainbow see the life
Ooh i promise you'll be there
There no reason to be scared
You'll shine again You'll shine again...
You'll find your life Find your reason
Everything will be alrightfor tommorow just begining of your life

-----------------------------------------

a song that I just knew recently,
from a movie name "2 become 1"
really a nice song ....
I have sent to some people,
hope those receive like the song and feel good over it,
For girls, I wish the guy you like or you think about will do the same for you.
For guys, I wish the girl you like can hear you sing song for her,
For you, I hope you know I am singing this for you .........

西洋棋

纷争，古往今来，千年历史，
兵荒，马乱，
民不聊生，
血，刻画了英雄，也塑造了枭雄，
泪，歌颂着王者的胜利，频吊着败者的凄凉。

战场从黄土，推上了棋盘，
黑女皇，黑国王，
白皇后，白骑士，
杀的你死我活，
一颗，又一颗的，
离开了棋盘，
离开了战场。

棋局从棋盘，搬上了人生，
嫉妒，猜忌，
拉拢，暗算，
肉弱强食，
一个，又一个的，
输掉了人生，
输掉了战争。

生存法则，
是如此残忍，是如此悲哀，

你是下棋，还是观棋？

今夜的我

夜晚的世界，
风扇，转阿转，
五月天的温柔，
王力宏的爱错，
周杰伦的枫叶，
再加上陈升的把悲伤留给自己，
男人们的歌声，唱出了我的悲哀。
杨丞琳的理想情人，
蔡依林的你还爱我吗，
阿桑的叶子，
女人们的歌声，唱出了她们的挚爱。

一个孤独又忙碌的深夜，
我，敲着键盘，
MSN的叮咚声却是如此的忙碌，
似有似无的网路世界，
或许只有她的叮咚声才是真实的，
只有她的叮咚声才能证明我灵魂的存在，
今夜的我，
是没有灵魂的躯壳，
今夜的我，
灵魂化成了思念，
飞向街道的另一端，
在漫漫的长夜，守护，她熟睡的笑容。

Blue Collar

Second post of today ~
I become the blue collar today~
I become a Painter ...
painted some window frams~ some door frames~
do some work ~ here and there ~
Just like a worker ...
50 bucks I earned today with my hands dirty by dust and paint~
today is really hard earn money ~
but I like it ..
the feeling of getting money after sweat is good ~
and I always think ~
"To know how vast the sky is, you have to know how big the land is"
Let's start from the basic ba ~

Sharing

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is his good, pleasing and perfect will"

I have an impt friend ( to me ) shared this with me ....
I appreciated it and did spend time think about it ...
it was great, simple and meaningful ...
it becomes one of the mirror that reflet my thinking, my choice of life and the path I had walked, I walk, and will walk ...
I am greatful, thankful and ...
undeniable ...
friends ard are the greatest gift in my life,
their existence is by fate, by destiny ...
each of them carry a purpose and take part in my life in any aspect ...

if today, anyone ask me ...
"have you ever regret?"I will say NO,
"have you choose the wrong one?" I will say NO, too
There may be always a reason ....
Maybe I just yet to discover it , OR
Maybe I already did .....

Another Monday morning~

woke up ~ ....
Thinking about what should I do for the rest of the day today ...
Yesterday went out with Yh after I met some parents for giving their kids tuition. I have another 3 new students. I thanked the parents of my current student for introducing more students to me. It was fun to mingle around with kids. They are smart!! Among the 3 new students that I am going to teach, one of them is a Hyper-active boy. He now currently at Em3. I saw him, he did not wave to me when the parent introduce me to him. I smiled at him. ( guess he did not see it) A unique child, and I believe the parents did come a long way to bring him up , and the road ahead will not be any easier. The parents are very understanding and they told me about their expectation about their son. Surprisingly, they are very well prepared, the dad said " we dun have veyr high expectation on my son, we just want him to learn as much as he can, with FUN in learning...... "

The conversation lasted about to an hour. Honestly I am scared, I just started to teach tuition and now I have to manage a kid with a little bit of problem. I scared that I can't manage him well and meet the fun learning expectation. Teaching him is not only pass the knowledge, but explore him as a person how I should approach him, and which area he good at. However, I feel honour and happy more than scare. I am glade that the parent give me the trust to know a new friend. I am glade the parents give me such an allowance to use any of the facilities at home to teach him. I dun know I am ready to teach him or not. but I do know, I will try ... At least be his friends ? I will never mind to have another little cute brother =)

Recently, I met YH almost EVERYDAY , hahaha besides talking about the trip , we also walked ard to look for sunglasses ~ haha it is quite fun but think me and him become a public nuisances and it is like so "brokeback" ... two man , laughing and talking crap along citylink, walked into the 7-11 and get two Pink dolphin (with baby blue packaging ) ... plus we are walking in steps .. OMG (not intentionally) ~ ahahaha and we keep suan-ing each other ~ this is fun ... lol~

Lastly, hahah about my previous post ~ hahaha I just wrote it when the feeling come to me hor~ not really write for anyone or what ~ and referring or anyone ... actually wanted to write another one name " wo de xiao rong" but ... I HAVE NO IDEA how to start ... SHIT hahahaha so wait ba~ hahah

她的笑容

走在人潮凶涌的街上，
孩童的嬉哈声；
情人的打骂声；
老人的叹气声；
朋友的玩笑声；
各种的喜，怒，哀，乐
各种的表情，
尽入我眼里，
在我心里看到的，
只有.... 她的笑容，她的笑容 ....

浩瀚的宇宙，广大的地球，
我的世界却只能容下..她的笑容....

who you look alike ~~~ ???

http://www.myheritage.com/

so i get this web from siao wen ~ ....
today is the first day of actually take back my freedom .. nothing much to do
so I went to check it out ~ hahaha

for all gender .. my face smiliar to ...
Nicholas Tse ... 71%
Gemma Ward ... 63%
Lee young-ae ... 62%
Won Bin ... 61%

that is above 60 % one ahhah

ORD loh~

so today ...
IT IS TODAY ....
13/03/06
I ORD ...
waking up at 7 am ...
leaving house head to camp at 8 am
reach camp at 930 am
945 am I saw my BLUE IC <----- still PR mah ~
walking out of camp at 1015 with another 2 officers ...
feeling suppose to be happy ...
I am happy ...
smell the air of freedom ...
but I am not SUPPER excited leh ~
think .. I just get retrenched
will be looking for part time ...
but still happy ... ORD LOH~
another phase of life has passed .... 23 years old, not yet in uni ... road ahead ~ I foresee is getting tougher ... though no more left right left .... and ops order .. and POI duty .. but there will be tons of project, tons of work to do ... the passed two year, I was fighting for the pride, honour and man's welfare... from today onwards , I am going to fight with more pride, self honour and my future ..... and .. most imptly ...
lead a colourful life ... play hard .. study hard ...

one has only one life .... live it , light it, shine it ....

joy bday~ what a joy day ~

Joy's joyful 21st bday party has over on 11/03/06
it was great and honestly I have never involve so much in a party before
heheh ^^ .. luckily the result is not bad, never let joy down
me and the brothers spend about one day to prepare the balloon wall ..
some disagreement in between ,
but we manage to come to common understanding
some laughing moment , my boss lenny, is good lah ~
a lot working moment ... heheh was great to work tgt and see our product ...
it was fun, at least to me ...
though a bit nervous when things get a bit wrong~
must really thanks the following people ...
the BROTHERHOOD ... without them , think I can't finish this project ...
Joycelyn ... hehehe .. cos she actually trust me so much and give me such an impt task ..
Joycelyn's family, heheh sorry we work till so late, thanks uncle ~
the event itself was great, joycelyn is pretty, food is nice, people were happy~
just a happy moment lah .. and so much gifts heheh
really a joy day hehe ^^
though her bday is at 17/03 ... but want to wish her happy bday and wish come true oh ~ hehe and welcome to the 21st club heheh ^^

人的一生会遇上的四个人

from my friend's multiply, I get this ... pretty nice, so decide to copy it and put up on the blog ..
Maybe some of the sentence do resonance to some of you
人生就是为了找寻爱的过程，每个人的人生都要找到四个人

第一个是自己,
第二个是你最爱的人，
第三个是最爱你的人，
第四个是共度一生的人.
首先会遇到你最爱的人，然後体会到爱的感觉 ;
因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；
当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，
才会知道什么是你需要的，
也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。
但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人；
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？

没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，
可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，
他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；
同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。
当一个人不爱你要离开你，你要问自己还爱不爱他，
如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；
如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐，
希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了，
而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？

爱不是占有，
你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里，
但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。
换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有，
让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆，
如果你真爱一个人，
就要爱他原来的样子─爱他的好，也爱他的坏：
爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点，
绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子，万一变不成就不爱他了。


真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
你只知道
无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你；
真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，
也就是没有丝毫要求。
毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得；
分开是一种必然的考验，如果你们感情不够稳固，
只好认输，真爱是不会变成怨恨的。
两人在谈情说爱的时候，最喜欢叫对方发誓，
许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓，
就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人，
而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际：
海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱!
明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒；
就算会，也活不到那时候。
许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言，
最好是承诺做不到的事，反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧，
请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人”

在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套；讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。
你呢？找到了第几个？茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？

I dun know how many of you will agree, or how many of you actually experience some of the things they mention in the passage.
.. sometimes,
somethings are hard to let go ,
some feelings are hard to put down,
some people will never move away from your mind, your heart and your feeling,

you will just think about him/her.
happy time want to share with him/her,
sad time want him/her be there with you ...
his/her presence really make life different, make feeling different, make atmosphere differernt,
I can choose not to like her anymore, I can choose not to love her any futher,
but .. I have no choose to not think about her

feeling ....
feeling is ....
feelings are ......

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yesterday was tiring ! .. I sleep like ard 11 pm , and it is like straight knock out ~

girls really good at shopping ~ really good ~ but I am not saying they are good at walking~ and trust me it is two different issue at all ... walking with heavy loads and with guys for road march is super super different from walking with a little bag and with girls do window shopping .. girls can just keep going ~ the shopping mental strength is godlike

cheerobics~ it was amazing~ maybe cos it is my first time seeing cheer leading competition .. some of them are really cute !! the energitic face they put up during the performanace, the stun they do and the hardwork they put in , from the passion they have, I believe all of them are winner ... and lucky manage to see joycelyn, cass and huixia ~ otherwise , I also dun know who should I support when I go there ( by the way, they are the organising people , not the competitor for cheer leading ), must say really good job done, a nation wide events, finally you all have a little break ....

girl.boy.prince
this was a post by my friend on her multiply, a short story that caught some attentions among my friends, beside curious on the story, people also leave some comments on it ....love matters, actually... sometimes we do have a choice, sometime we just don't have, we can always force ourself to make a choice or certain decision, but it can be wat your head says but not your heat says or the other way .... so it is confusing ~ hence I think as long as dun make the decision that you will regret on day, everything will be alright after sometimes ba, anyway, I like this kind of story ...

love ...
love is .......
love are ......

tuition~

I found my first student ~ hehe hope everything is alright~ suddenly feel a little bit of pressure and feel a bit nervous~ cos the student is a girl~ a small girl ~ scare I scare her man .. though teach maths, but aftre 2 year in army , I think a bit rusty le ~ so think need to read up and do homework with her le ~ hehehe hope everything will be fine~

and I realise to make a wall of balloon ~~~~ not easy leh ~ tring some methode and now using UHU glue le ahhaha hope joy dun scold me ~ but even using tat also not easy~ think friday night will be a tough night for me ... aftre try~ ... though can stick ~ it can take out too ~~~ what the ~ ^^ .. nvm ` will do my best to make it look good man ~~

Telemarketing~

my FIRST part time job ... Telemarketing ..
was very lucky that this opportunity was introduce to my by my good brother Lenny ~ hee thanks Bro .. and also quite fortunate that we are not calling people for selling things, or promote some products, we merely invite people to go for one seminar ..
I only choose to work for one week, though was offer to work for another one week, I dun really think that I have the time, cos this week quite busy with other things,
the working experience was great, I believe the communication skill has definitely improve by a little and we met some new friends ... and also got to know hx's friends elaine better . .. and really think she is a nice lady that make me feel much more comfortable on my first day of my first 8 hour with that company ...
basically ... we called to many many many companys spread through out singapore, maybe now when I go to shanton way or some places, 60% of the company we have called le ... ahahah challenging thing is not only talk to the people like Managing Director, it is also to keep calling though sometimes the morale is pretty low ` hahaha some bad times will get some inpolite receptionist leh ~ hehehe .. anyway a nice working exp ... will rest maybe for one week then find a new part time to gain more experience man hehehe

months of CELEBRATION

this month ~ next month ... and the month after next month ~ !!! so many celebration ...
really HAPPY, enjoyable but hmmm ....... taxing months man
many good friends' birthday, also most of us are ORDING ahhahaha so happy , finally finish the service .. seems short, like blink of an eye .. but we all know is a long journey .. I met many goood friends, brothers .... and learn the meaning of brotherhood ..
love shopping recently .. with lenny, ck and yh , cla and sw .. that pretty fun ... spending money on myself and you can see the thing you bring home, do really MAKE people happy leh !!
while enjoying the holiday , getting worry of days after ording .. out of job, need to find a job and also the planning of the tw trip ... not concrete yet, think this time really have to settle everything before end of feb, after my citizenship interview ... heheh

Valentine's day~

"NO woman NO Cry" ...
haha dun know how many of you know this song it is by the Bob Marley, it is nice and I think really depict how I feel sometimes....
OKOK not to purposely give a whining on the Vday about dun have a DATE ... hahaha just express out how I feel about this song ... I love this song even not in Vday
TODAY will be celebrate with the brothers man ~ hehe
so I went out with lenny and ck to accompany lenny to change his shirt..... on the way meeting lenny, me and ck was walking on the street, many people was selling roses and balloons ... one thing caught my eyes, there is a young girl , holding a donation box on the street and asking people for donation for the charity .... hahaha ... I seldom donate to those kind of box... but since it is Vday .. I decided.... I took out some coins and walk towards her and wish her a happy Valetine's Day ... and really hope that she can finish her work early.... gladly, she also greeted me ...
I Can't remember how she looks like, but was pretty happy that I do something that not just make me happy but make other happy too.
happy Vday to the world man ....

memoirs of geisha

a wonderful movie ~ was really thinking watching with her .. but think quite hard ~ and another impt woman to me ( my mom ) wants to watch that show ~ so at the end we watched it ...
I have been wating to watch this movie for quite long since last year ~
I simply love this movie , not because of there are 3 good and beautiful actresses in the movie, though they are really really pleasant to the eyes ...
Actually ... now is 14 feb .. I draft this at the chinese new year, heheh so yah lol~ I now have no much comment on that movie, one word, ... NICE ....

UPDATE ..

the last update was the movie ... many many many things happen after that .. and of course I believe ..I have a good beginning of 2006 though I fell sick , I started it as a happy man...

COUNT DOWN ...
First of all , must thanks to CK, HX, YS and LENNY... it was really fun .. we all slowly gather at yh's old house, then ordered pizza hot, many envolopes with names were hanging on the wall for people to write new year wish and put inside .. the theme is AJ .. so we all oblidge to wear clothes that related to AJ, though some forget to wear it .. but they brought a AJ heart ... hahah we had dinner, wrote cards and sing songs with yh and gerald playing guitar hahah then we started our game of the day by lenny and ck gathered us at the living room and gave us the briefing, it was a so call treasure hunt, not hunting for treasure but hunting for paper with related to our Orientation ... then after that we had a candle light walk way prepared by hx and ys .. really heart warming .. REALLY .. then have a sharing section by everyone .. some touching moment , think our SC is great, really I mean after graduate so long from school .. we are still that close .. I am happy and I think I am lucky ...

020106 ... SENTOSA
Shouwen .. was going to fly to Nz .. so we all decide to go sentosa , I was pretty late, went there with aud cos I just handed over my duty to the next office , then was really sick so after handover the duty, went to see doctor .... haha but since bro SW is flying .. must go lah .. so I went there .. it was fun as usual

ICE CUBE .... 040106
went there to have a small gathering fort he farewell of SW hehehehe a nice supper .. and think the gathering was fun too .. took many photos .. and me and len and ck make a stupid video ... it was cute ..

060106 ... ORientation 2006 ...
went to my dental appointment in the morning .. hehe then went to orientation at aj at night .. the intake is smaller ... saw the new dance second time ... okay lah ... think quite easy to teach and learn which is good hahaha ^^ took many picture too ... with ms koh, mr lim and mr tan .. then after the whole thing finish we went to MOS burger at AMK to have our supper ... our gathering like never get bored of it hahahaha POWER .....

070106 ... JUST ANOTHER OUTING .....
this is getting amazing .. we almost meet everyday since countdown .. I mean look at the outing date .. it is like almost every other day hahaha a short meeting .. me , len , ck , Hq , cass and ruth .. we meet up for lunch in the afternoon .. hehe .. must say sorry to Ruth .. make you rush then wait for me at the AMK mrt at the end ahahha ^^ sorry miss deng .. went down to taka to eat lunch .. then found out no seat at the KFC so went to cine to eat KFC hahaha then went to play pool .. dun know why .. just sucks today .. REALLY .. hahaha then I have to leave early cos ... got to meet my dad to buy furniture .. then I meet up with yh ck ruth len and cla again ahhaha hx too .. but all in sequence .. went to sing KTV with cla yh and ck .... len and ruth drop by visit us .. then meet hx after she finish watching her KING KONG hahahaha then was thinking to eat supper .. but when hx say 10 more minute to the last bus .. WE all DECIDE .. let's go home hahahahahahah so that is the end of yesterday ...

ABout today ... whole day rain ... later book in ... draft a mail to all the SC people to invite them for chinese new year outing .. hope the turn up will be great ...

ABOUT this NEW year .. hehehe .. since I started it happily .. think it will be happy ...going to ORD ... going back to taiwan aftre ORD for a while .. really happy finally I can go to university ... and want to read more books I mean those interesting book ... want to learn more about BIBLE .. really ... think it is really an interesting, profound and extremelly important book across the pass (history) , present (the way of living) and future ( view of world, expectation , aspect) ...

The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch And The Wardrobe

just back from watching the movie .. The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch And The Wardrobe .. pretty nice, simple plot, a simple story, with great meaning ...

a separated family .. left with 2 brothers and 2 sisters ..
an old house, with one professor , and one house keeper... and a magical wardrobe.. a story full of biblical meaning, the betrayal of whom they should be trusted (little brother), the existence of evil whom try to separate the people with temptation as well as force and implemtation of fear(the witch), the great love and sacrifise for the sin that the little brother had committed, the resurrection after the sacrifise (the lion), the turning back .. the faith everyone have in the prophecy in Narnia , the faith they display in the lion and his teachings, the braveness they display in the war against the evil for the freedom of narnia .. the faith and believe will lead the world to peace, to warmth, to happiness for those who believe ...

isn't it depicte the world of christianity ? isn't it display the believe and faith of christian .. the believer and non believer, the good and bad , the justice and unjustice, the great love, the sacrifise , the sin.. the understanding, repent ...

I am not a christian .. however I never doubt His existence, a good movie and think it is really meaningful and the faith and believe brought to the audience in a nice and simple way with a simple yet great story ...

礼物

I decide to put it up again ... cos this is my place .. my blog .. my feeling .. my territory

爱, 不是种强求..

或许默默的爱, 看心爱的人开心,

那也是种幸福.....

我是幸福的

至少今天的她是快乐的，

至少今天的我是幸福的..

圣诞快乐

MoS, Live Firing, Shopping and Enemy

Before I started, I must state what is the time now , 3 am , 23rd Dec 2005, wondering why blog at such a timing ... cos .. I just got home not long ago ... and today is cold ...

MoS was fun, and birthday song was great, a delicious cake and a group of super friends and a special guest .... my 22nd birthday is better than my 21st birthday .... Really thank you .. thank to those who plannd the activity, thank to those who present and thank to Ruth who dun club at all ^^ ...

Live firing ... on the monday .. 19th of dec .. process not really amazing because it was the second we did it. however, I still did not get the marksman and the 200 dollar, thanks to ??? one of the men ... haiiii .. anyway it is not the most irritation part, the most sian part is... it always drag till beyong 2359 ..... so as you know .. happy birthday to me in the RANGE ... yeah ~

Shopping~~~~~ TUESDAY .. actually I only reached home on Tuesday's early morning ard 2 am .. by taxi from camp ... cos the live firing is on the MONDAY .... so I RUSH HOME ... cos tue is impt .. I want to feel comfortable then go for shopping later .... so I went out shop .. bought two pair of shoes, one for myself , one as a gift ... though people keep saying buy shoe as present not very good, but .... it is a nice shoes ( I Can't believe I will say it when I have no experience at all .. but I Can imagine my friend wearing that shoe.. WILL be NICE) ... rush here and there ... cos the shop is closing soon .. but lucky I manage get what I want , cos I got to rush back to camp TML ...........

Enemy .. so here come the wed .. I wake up damn early and take a cab back to camp ... 0700 no move .. I become the enemy OC for the Exercise executed by 2SIR .... tiring .. so this thing ... do all the way ... till just now .. which is friday 0000 then I reached back to camp ... so now it provide a valid reason why now then I start to blog .. cos just too many things ... tireD~ today is the starting of my leave day ..... YEAH

Such a busy week ... but ... I settle my present ... thanks for people who help me ... it is pretty hard to decide and choose what to buy ... reason .. cos IT IS JUST SO DIFFICULT ... next week will be easy ...(hopefully) .... hope no one call me back to camp lol~ ....

On leave~

today is my first time taking leave .. feeling .. GOOD ..
I went to swim with lenny this afternoon , from 12 to 230 , it was really fruitful, much more to improve and I think I had learned a lot today. also I think I begin to get use to stay in water and swim, actually .. all along .. swimming is a obstacle that I have not cross yet ...
then went down to town with ck and lenny again , walked ard and crap joke as usual, having a good dinner ...
I really enjoy the day .. i can't believe that I went TOWN in the weekdays leh .~ ahha so happy ... feel like I am an ORD personnel le ..
oh yah ~ actually I only left about 80 plus days to my ord date ? hehehehe .. so happy ~ no long 3 digit le. .. more leave to clear .. hehehe !!! GOOD

chalet~

the 2005 SC chalet sentosa just over, it was really fun and great except I lost my wallet ..
first of all ... must thank the other 3 people in our committee of the chalet 2005,

SPEECH.....Without the chairman (sw) drive me ard to buy things~ think I will die of carrying those things..... Without the treasurer (cass) help us to caculate the money and collect it back, think I am broke on the pay day.... Without the program ic aka food asst (hx), there will be less fun and I can't think of what to eat .

1st DAY ....... was fun, though initially me and sw were late due to shopping at seng song for the BBQ thing, then sw drive down to fetch joycelin ... then drive down to the orchard road to fetch deb and cass ..then we finally arrive at sentosa~ after we all settle down ~ follow the program, we went to play the "hide and seek" .. it was new to some of us, not the game itself but playing "hide and seek" tgt is NEW .. so we pair up buy lucky draw, I pair with cass, lenny with joycelin (fated), ck with hx and the two sw .. shouwen and siaowen .... the ghoust are ... kt deb and pq .. .. really a highlight~ everyone has quite a lot of fun ~ ..

2nd day~ we sleep damn late~ then wake up damn early that is for the committee people , cos we went to the market to buy sea food, was thinking if pasir pajang wholesale market ,... then realise .. it is VEGETABLE market .. NOT for sea food .. Oh~ no .. then we met very nice uncles and aunties. who help us and tell us where to go ~ so we went to the wet market .. cos .. who will sell 500g of prawns in the sea food wholesale market?? think the person will just look at us and laugh~ ... so we bought the sting ray, prawns, and sotong~ hahaha due to all need to be process. .. so we went to my house .. cass and hx play the web cam and take numbers of photo , then yh come to my house .. after everything is done , we head back to sentosa~ went for lunch then go kayake ... then play ball for a while~ then kayake again when ruth and hq join us .... when we headed back to chalet to prepare for BBQ .. I then realise .. MY WALLET IS GONE .. OMG .. .. so rush to police station . went to find sentosa ranger ... feel like crying ... really .. mood swing down to the bottom of the hill ... but lucky have my brothers . yh, ck, len, cla and sw .. really .. I mean really make me feel much easier .. especiall yh ... thanks .. so we BBQ ... and afetr that went to play game in the pool till one indian came a chase us .. then we go up , wash up .. then play drinking game ahhaha 007 ~~~ really fun .. and realise ... girls .. really can play this game leh ~ hahahah or just GUYS .. we just thirsty lah come on` hahahhah

3rd day ~check out day ... hahaha really happy ~ cos the chalet is fun .. but at the same time .. sian .. cos I lost everything ... hahaha okok ~~~

REMARK ... really glade to see HQ , RUTH , KT, AUD.. cos even though they are in singapore ... really seldom meet up .. and also .. Siao Wen and Deb .. hehehe ... happy that both can make it for the chalet ... as for the BROTHERS ... as usual .. we always meet up .. and I never get bored of it hahahahaha ...

OMG~

.. THIS WEEK ... is CRAZY ..
first of all .. must claim something first .. I don't go club ..
and from my post you will know my first time go club is .. on the 12th of OCT at MoMo
AND as for this WEEK .... amazingly
WED ---- I went to ZOUK and PHUTURE
THU ---- I went to dbl O
FRI ---- I went to ZOUK, PHUTURE and VELVLET (forget the spelling, the one beside)
....... 3 DAY is a roll man .... though tired .. but it was really fun .. I mean with friends .. just like joke and laugh and drink ~ and dance .. and see my friend go pick up the girls in the dance pool ... ahhaha and MOST IMPORTANTLY ~ .... DRINK IS ALL FREE ahaha ... so it is like SO FUN .......
BUT something I will want to reinforce ~ I AM not A REGULAR CLUBBER~ :P