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applied yoko2 on G on his strained right knee at about 445am today and then went back to sleep.

and as usual when i woke up at about 7am, in my battle against sinus, i rubbed and blew my nose with my hands.
Within seconds, my nose was BURNING.

and it actually took me quite a while to figure out what went on. like WHY is my nose burning?

ohhhh man

i must say it's pretty hilarious.
yoko-ed nose is not that bad after all. it's like having washabi there constantly for a few minutes.

Labels: nose, yoko

{3:33 PM}

"Confessions of a strained heart" - 4:14am 12 August 2010

To say that it doesn't affect me wouldn't be the truth. In fact, deep
down I'm finding it so hard to drive towards any point of acceptance.

I AM TRYING with every ounce of strength within me to push forward
for any kind of acceptance or progress but it's just not happening.
And trust me, this non-acceptance is making me feel so bad sometimes
to the point of being disgusted with myself because it works against
my innate desire to be all embracing but it's just so hard. It's just
killing me.

And so I took the easier route of being indifferent and detached, in
the hope of protecting my heart and finding some form of temporal
rest. I'm painfully aware that this would inevitably lead to layers of
cold hard calluses weighing down my heart, it may look like a defense
mechanism which would work just for a while but I know it's escapism-
escapism which do not lead towards any kind of resolution.

Boy, I hate this feeling of being stuck! It is unreasonable of me to
have my way but yet to accept this, is way beyond my pathetic heart
and frail human capacity.

To turn a blind eye and to keep a cold front seem best to me, for now.

Labels: strained, stuck

{3:31 PM}

Monday, November 16, 2009

jeanne has always thought that carla lilies are very elegant and poised; they look like they can take on whatever may come in their way in a cool and gentle composure.
the lovely carla lilies were bought by alethia tan deqi for gerry and jeanne's wedding casual shoot. nice. jeanne adores them.

jeanne yee yahui will be going through changes.

2 major changes.
within 2 months.

one is expected and jeanne really looks forward to it. in fact, it is one which she celebrates, cherishes and embraces.
as for the other, it is full of uncertainty and extremely unexpected. she is not even sure how it would be yet and definitely, it is not within her comfort zone. this change wasnt initiated by her. this change came knocking urgently one day.

so what does one do when change comes knocking loudly one day? does jeanne simply ignore it or even shout out 'go away, you are not welcomed' or does she open the door and invite it for a nice chat over a cup of nice thick milo peng?

it's pretty scary (oh you don't know how much whinings she has thrown to her loving Father) but jeanne knows that He will surely sustain those whom he calls.

besides. isnt this what Paul was talking about? His strength is perfect when we are weak?

{8:18 PM}

Friday, October 16, 2009

Children's Day 2009 - Recess Time!
really like the balloon sculptures

{3:28 PM}

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

went over to Auntie Elsie's place 2 weeks back and learnt how to wrap dumplings :)
was really fun.
started out with odd-shaped dumplings but eventually i got the hang of it and managed to attain the pointed ends at the dumpling.

met up with BFF Le En, Xi En and Yen Yee for breakfast yesterday at railmall subway.
and BFF Le En made me a beauiful bookmark and also gave me a gift from the zoo.

been really busy with the mission trip preparation lately.
i'm really glad that i have this stretch of a few weeks to do so.
this trip really taught me about patience.
and it brought me back to what someone said to me. are you okie if you are wronged? are you willing to let it go and let time tell the true story.

on another note, due to something not happening, i am beginning to doubt about my significance in that particular issue and to that particular person. it's like i'm being squeezed out. yes, i've been apologised to and hey, i tell myself it's no big deal but yeah, it'll come up once in a way, out of the blue and would just spring up alarmingly and catch me unware.

i am really trying hard to fight off this negative thought but yea, i guess it's just tough at times.
it's really in times like this, that i need to listen to my Creator's gentle and assuring voice.

{2:12 AM}

Thursday, May 28, 2009

like the framing for this picture (the bigger one).
dont really think it's that perfect yet but still, i like it. *contented smile*
well, there's always room for improvement.

TNH - hard at work balancing the sounds and recording Cove Red's EP launch at Sg Arts House.

Btw, i lent my camera to Liping so I've been using my hp to take the pictures as reflected in this post and in Wed 27 May 2009's post.

{12:47 AM}

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

raph and di's wedding :p
was really good meeting up with chums from secondary school - all so pretty and sweet.
and it was school-themed wedding so we had stuff like name tags
di and da: thank you soo much for being a wonderful part of my life.
and i'm always proud to be part of the "no french fries can die" club

{11:52 PM}

tuesday's walk

{9:19 PM}

Cove Red's EP launch

realised that i was at cityhall area many many times this past week
sat - Di's wedding at Chjmes
sun - Cove Red's EP launch at Sg Arts House
mon - farewell lunch for John & Angie then walked from Suntec to Cityhall to Bugis (with Maggie) and back to Cityhall again
tues - went to see Angie off at the airport then walked with Maggie, Jackson and Lily from Dhoby Ghaut to Asian Civilisation Museum, then to TCC at Clarke Quay then walked to Orchard - Dempsey - Holland Village

loads of walking. i like!

went to swim at CCK sports complex today and suddenly there was this 15 mins of WAVES. yup. choppy waves.
was stunned for a moment but it was cool.

{9:02 PM}

Sunday, May 10, 2009

wad a lovely picture that speaks of fun and freedom.

this little girl dancing reminds me of the hymn Lord of the Dance

Dance, then, wherever you may be,
I am the Lord of the Dance, said he,
And I'll lead you all, wherever you may be,
And I'll lead you all in the Dance, said he.

really need the Lord to guide my every step in this dance of life

had initially thought that i would have more time for myself after handing in all my assignments and realised that it aint going to happen any time soon.
quite a short run way for the 2 projects at hand but i'm just going to hand it back to God.
but on the other hand, i am thankful for God's enabling and empowerment; for all the people whom he sent along the way to help and encourage.

during family dinner just now, Vincent dished out his iphone and showed us a picture of a few of our toddlers in little lambs' celebrating one of their bday and they had this gigantic cake.
and TNH poignantly highlighted the fact if the kids in mae salit would ever have such privileges.

my heart just sank when he said that

that just so true.

i mean some of them may not even know when their dates of birth are.
TNH suggested for me to learn how to bake cakes in the most simple way (due to limited resources available) and he volunteered to decorate them so that we can celebrate monthly with the kids.

think it's such a brilliant idea

{11:20 PM}

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