love, unconditional

After 5 years of studying pharmacy, finally I'm done with the last of university exams! *YEAY!!* Well hopefully Pharm Practice won't spoil it all since that was the most WTF paper I've ever sat for.

This week, cellies are going back to Malaysia for holidays one by one, and I had to make 3 trips to airport in 36 hours (the last one being 4:30am this morning to drop Jou and Ivy off). While we were queuing up for check in, I couldn't help but wished I was the one who's going for holidays too :( Too bad I'm starting full time work next Tuesday.

Speaking of full time work, God has such wonderful timing for each event that happened last week. In combine cell last Friday, Yee Mei and Karen were sharing about giving thanks to God. It's really easy to give thanks when you receive what you ask for, but in times where we are not lacking we may tend to be ungrateful. It was God speaking directly to me when I relate this to work. I have a job which I should be thankful of and such smart preceptors to work with, but I was about to give up (even before I started) when there were many issues that I thought would be very hard to resolve due to my temper, impatience and grumpiness. I was tempted to leave my current place to look for another place to do my intern year. It was only when I realized how God made it so effortless for me to get a job offer in this place (it only took 2 days from the day I got interviewed to the owner giving me a call to say I got the job), that I believe He has something in store for me here. It's never easy to get rid of unthankfulness when you are blessed with all these things and when the things you are blessed with do not always go the way you want it.

God turns it around for the better when you realize it's really not just about us and our wants and needs. More of Him and less of us.

Not our will, but His to be done in us.

And God's grace and mercy did turn things around for me at just the right time, that I can now look forward to internship here when all you need to do is surrender all your desires and problems to Him. Praise the Lord!!!

I love my cell :)

Tom & Jerry FTW!

finalest uni battle

where the students camp at during study breaks...

...and yes, I AM graduating!

47 days to go

he'll be home for Christmas :)

SFAS!

Happy (Australian) Father's Day?

It's strange that I no longer celebrate Father's Day in June, but rather, remember Father's Day in September instead.

I still find it weird that Australia is one of the only countries that celebrate Father's Day in September and not in June.

But nevertheless, my dad gets 2 Father's Day wishes from me, and he would prolly remember it in June but not so much in September. And as for me, the September version of Father's Day means more because our church celebrates it in September.

Anyway, I think I have the most awesome dad I can ever have. I am truly blessed by God who gave me an earthly father who would do anything to fulfill our needs as a family. Although sometimes I reckon he spoils us once in a while but I see a father who really wants to make his kids happy. I would never ask for more than what I already have now.

I had a short discussion with dad on who do I look like more - him or mom. And I replied, "Of course I look like you lah! And Tim looks like mom". My dad just laughed and he knows that I really do have very close resemblance to him, even though some people say I look like mom when in fact I really don't. He made this remark about me being a scanned copy of him - only difference is that I'm female =P

I love you daddy!!

May the Lord continue molding your heart to be like our Father in Heaven :)

though I seriously disagree about this so-called truth about women, this video is too cute to not post!

After many weeks...

of adjusting to the new rotation pharmacy

of getting to know colleagues and customers

of getting frustrated with the number of customers there is and the weirdest, strangest requests they have

of getting into conflict with people and finding ways to resolve it

of tears and laughter, and even helplessly watching a man pass away in front of me in Centro after the medical team did their best to try to revive him :(

of free Gloria Jeans ice blended drinks on cold winter days

of Corica's apple strudels and cheese cakes (YUHM!!)



...I am finally done with my 2nd rotation!!



Holidays have just begun after a very crappy attempt on the 2nd rotation Oral Exam. Hopefully everything goes well by the grace of God!

My 2nd rotation was quite the eye-opener especially the time when I witnessed a man pass away, and hearing other people say that no one tried to help him when he collapsed. Makes me wonder why do people see something and not do anything because "someone else will help him". I felt that with all the good and (mostly) bad things that has happened, God was still reminding me that no matter how bad things may turn out, He is still in control of everything. All He wants us to do is to persevere and turn to Him, because everything will be fine after that. On my last day the pharmies surprised me with an apple strudel and a sinfully delectable cheesecake! :)

  

And after many weeks....

... I am finally home in KK :)

youmakemesmile :)

A few days ago I was questioning myself where will I be in the next half a year considering that I haven't found a pharmacy to commence my 2000 hours intern training. I was so frustrated and worried, and at the same time questioning what is God trying to do with me especially making me go through a very agonizing wait to hear any results from the places I have applied at, where most of them have declined my application because they got other successful applicants.

Being very discouraged and frustrated with my uncertain future along with the stress my current pharmacy placement is giving me, I came to the point of blaming God for not giving me what I want and complaining about what I wish I had and what I dont want to go through.

Then again, He made me realize again that I should not be living by what I see or what I feel... but by faith and by putting my entire trust in Him. He planted a vision in my mind - of me on a trapeze, and surrendering my whole life in the hands of the one who would catch me as I let go of the trapeze.

Putting my entire trust in Him was never easy. The word perseverance kept appearing in my mind, in the scriptures and even through stories that people tell me. There is no such life like a bed of roses, and instead of praying that our lives will be made easy, we should be asking God to mould us into stronger men.

A few days ago, Andre got offered full time at his work place. Praise the Lord!!!  He reminded me about how good the Lord is despite all the hurdles and obstacles we have to go through God still provides a way for us because He's got everything in control.

I told him I shall be waiting for my good news to come soon :)





This morning as I went for work placement, I received a phone call from one of my interviewer's mobile. She said I got offered THE job!!!! Oh my goodness I was so happy I almost burst into tears. I told my parents shortly after that and they were happy as well since they've been praying for me for the longest time ever. My mom even mentioned how she told God how nice it would be to have some good news today and a few minutes after that I told her about the job offer.

WOW!!!
How great is our God!!

Despite all the troubles and discouragement we all have gone through, God is still our anchor, our fortress and our refuge... He still has everything in control even when things doesnt appear nice and easy, but again, He will never leave us nor forsake us :)

Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"

"In an acceptable time I have heard you, and in the day of salvation I have helped you." Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.

.So let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.



Because God is so much more bigger than our problems and all things are possible through Him!






Nehemiah 8:10, Isaiah 40:29-31, 2 Timothy 1:7, 1 Corinthians 15:58, Phillippians 4:6-7, 2 Corinthians 12:9, 2 Corinthians 6:2, Hebrews 12:2