无心之过

今天，一个旧同事告诉了我一件令我非常在意的事。我不知道自己向别人提起的一件气事会一传十，十传百！而且，知道的人竟然是一些无关紧要却会伤害别人（尤其是我的朋友）的人。我不知道该怎样开始写这件事。
其实，这一件事应该只有4个当事人知道，但由于我的大嘴巴，我告诉了某一些人（我也忘了我是否告诉了不该告诉的人！）。而这件事让一些非常危险的人知道了。她（或她们）告诉了一个非常消极的人，而她告诉我的朋友，有些人知道了这件事！在那个时候，我非常气这两个朋友，所以我那一段时间对他们的态度是非常不好，但我不知道，我一时说出来的情绪，会让不该知道的人知道了！

现在的我非常地内疚，因为我知道，她当时听到的时候一定是非常非常伤心的。尤其她已经是四面环敌了，她已经感觉那么无助失落了。她知道的时候，无疑是一种落井下石的行为。

我真的是无心之过，我当时真的是在气头上，我当时不知道这件事会传得这么快。
我现在很内疚，真的真的很内疚。我竟然会在那么敏感的时期，管不住自己的嘴巴，管不住自己的情绪！

我希望，我伤害到的朋友能谅解我，我真的是无心之过，我在此郑重地向你道歉！对不起！

Post Xmas Blues..

I haven't been real happy for the past few days.. In my mind, I have been thinking of something that happen in school the other day.. It affected me so much that everyday at a point of time, i will be thinking of it... It is my fault that I didn't communicate the idea to both parties and if there should be any price that i should pay, i would.. It's a learning point.. To consult everyone and make sure i get the idea esp from the one up there.. Though it's not at all easy to catch her (physically and mentally)..
I know i shouldn't be so unhappy, i know being so negative won't help.. But somehow, if u ask me why i feel so unhappy, i don't know too.. Is it the stress? Is it the work? Is it the people up there? Or is it my own perception? I no longer enjoy the work i am doing now.. I like to do things that i enjoy doing and I do it well.. When i find it being stuffed down my throat, I hate it! And now i have a HUGE THING being stuffed down my THROAT! I am choking on it and suffocating! So i am thinking of vomitting it out and get out of this stupid place..

AP said april.. Put a reminder here..

保持乐观的心境

谈谈快乐的事吧，即使少了你的悲鸣，
这世界也已经够悲哀了。
没有一条路是从头到尾颠簸不平；
寻找那些平坦清爽的地方，
并且谈谈这些平顺的地方，
好让我们已经听腻哀声叹气的耳朵得到歇息，
让饱受长期透支的地球得到喘息。
- Ella Wheeler Wilcox -

这世界上永远没有绝望的处境，只有绝望的人。
黑暗之所以存在，是因为光缺席了，
一旦把光带进来，那么痛苦、迷惑、黑暗的幻想就无法继续。

阴沉的天气敌不过开朗的心情。
套句哥德的话，当阳光普照的时候，灰尘也会闪闪发亮。

所以我们应该乐观点吧！

-取自《有这么严重吗？》

HK Trip 17th Dec 2006 - Day 4 (Last Day!!)

17/12/06 (Sun)
Boohoohoo... Woke up after less than 6 hours of sleep and we woke up to check out the hotel.. We packed the stuff and made sure everything that belongs to us is not left behind.. Checked out of the hotel and left our luggage there while we go out for some last minute shopping...

Finally took a pic outside our hotel..

We took the train to Sham Shui Po where Robert said that there are alot of wholesale stuff that are sold.. Wow.. It looks like Concourse but the stuff sold there have more variety and they are nicer lor!! Cool siah.. But luckily i manage to control myself not to buy so much stuff.. Next yr, maybe can go there to buy children's day presents le...

Then Robert called Ice and he introduced another place called Flower street.. So we went there lor.. It's actually quite near to Ladies Market la.. But cuz it's a Sunday, it's super packed and we din manage to buy anything except to go there and squeeze with other ppl.. Luckily the weather is good lor.. Oh, we did eat the roadside food la.. Some hotdogs, cold squid and fishball.. hee hee.. Luckily no stomachache..

We went back to the hotel after a while and re-packed our bag.. We lugged our bag all the way to the bus stop.. Along the way, Ice finally bought her sweet pototoes and we ate it along the way to the airport..

No food provided on the plane, so after checking in at the airport, we went to source for food.. I initially was thinking of KFC, but then we saw this restaurant tat looks like KFC, so we tried it lor.. It's a Chicken and Biscuit restaurant called POPEYE! Hee hee.. And there's this milk BISCUIT that taste like a cross between cake, biscuit and bread... Hmm... But quite nice la..

Our Dinner

We went in to look for a courtesy phone to call Robert and 黄师傅.. But there were none.. So we decided to use up all the coins that ice have to call them.. Since our flight is delayed till 9pm, we have lots of time.. So we called Robert first to get 黄师傅's no.. And we chatted with him.. Thanked him once again for being a wonderful host and had a short chat with cherry.. Hee.. I talked to everyone in his family. His 2 sons are so cute, only know how to say Merry Xmas.. haha.. We tried calling 黄师傅 but he didn't pick up the phone.. So we had no chance to thank him again for his hospitality..

To the plane, there's no walkway and we had to take a bus to the plane and then board it.. So while waiting for the queue up to the plane, we took pics again la.. As usual, we can find ways to entertain ourselves..

A kind lady offered to take a pic for us..

Then the best part came when someone tapped Ice on the shoulders, we turned and saw a person, he gestured to us to follow him.. Haha.. he brought us to the wing of the plane and took a picture for us!!

I tink this is the engine right??

He then put his cap on me and we took a picture of ourselves..

While waiting on the staircase, he asked us if we were interested in taking a picture in the cockpit after the flight!!! Haha.. Of course la!!

We went up the stairs and dear ice asked,"are you coming up with us too??" DuH! haha.. He answered,"of course! I am the pilot!!" Hahaha.. Of course he had to go up the plane, if not, how we fly??!!

That kept us so excited in the plane lor.. Can go into the cockpit leh.. Not that we often have that kind of chance right?? Even if we were asked to be the last passenger to leave, we are totally fine with it!! hee hee..

Whilst waiting for the passengers to leave the plane, we started to entertain ourselves again.. hahaha... But the passengers who passed us, looked at us as if we are weirdos.. CUz we didn't rush to the door like them and we were leisurely sitting there as if we are not planning to alight.. Hee hee..

Our self-taken pic!

Woohoo!! Me in the pilot seat!!

I must say i am a better photographer.. haiz..

Micheal Klapp - The Pilot!!

Juan De Carlos - The Co-Pilot!!

Arrival gate

Me with the garbage bag of Ice..

Her Garbage bag!

Oh ya!! This is the garbage bag of Ice.. haha.. Inside is actually her stuff toys.. And cuz her bag is all packed so there's no more space, she decided to check in this bag.. At the airport, the officer was asking wat is in this bag? (Think he's quite amused that we can actually check in such a flimsy bag and it's a black thrash bag.. haha..) And i answered,"Oh, Stuff toys (rubbish)!" haha.. So when we were collecting the luggage, we must take a pic of this famous garbage bag of Ice.. hee hee..

Ok.. This marks the end of my HK trip and my holiday!! Wah wah wah!! I am so sad..The school is reopening soon and i am not at all happy lor!!!

CAn't wait for the next holidays le!!!!

P/S: If i were to compare the 2 trips, I would say both trips are great.. But of course, with the experiences i had for both, I tink the better one will be the Vietnam trip.. There're more things to discover, more experiential and more memorable for me.. Of course, i will still visit these 2 countries again la..

Robert and family might be coming to S'pore before Easter.. So this time round, me and ice will have to be the host and bring them around le lor.. Hee..

HK Trip 16th Dec 2006 - Day 3

16/12/06 (Sat)

Woke up late late again.. So shiok man.. People who go for package tour will have to wake up very early to go out.. But us leh, lucky fellows, we woke up at our leisure time.. And we slowly strolled to Ladies Mkt..

But i realised me and ice have very different lifestyle.. She doesn't need to eat breakfast one lor.. And she can eat junk food and then say she's full le.. But me hor, i cant drink cold drinks in the morning and say i am ok le..

Anyway, we saw a Neo-Print shop and we went in to take neo-prints.. Wah we wanted to take the card type and then at one look, we simply dun know which one to choose lor!!! And we jus chose anyone that catches our eyes and jus take la.. And we have no idea how to choose and design the cards lor.. Aiyah.. To put it simply, we are too old le la.. Dun know this kind of stuff anymore.. It's all in Japanese!! How we understand???!! So ppl who always take neo-prints, they memorise how to use it one ah?? Hee hee..

But i am very happy with the neo-prints we took.. We look quite good in it.. Though some of the pics are taken when we are lost.. hee hee..

YEs.. we are lost lor!!?? How to use it??!!!

After we shop and buy (not forgetting how we "kill" prices) our clothes.. We went to collect our gi! Wow!! So nice.. I like it very much..

We left our purchases in the hotel and off we go to Robert's house loh!

The MTR station.. Po Lam

Robert's sons are so cute!! 宇庭和宇轩.. But initially when we reached his hse, they were screaming and running around the hse.. But the elder one manage to calm down first and took pics with us.. haha.. 宇轩 is still as "screamy".. But i think robert has a way with them.. hee hee.. He's quite serious and fierce! After having the pizza at Robert's hse and chatting with Cherry, we went to see his dojo jus downstairs.. But while he's changing and we are alone in the living room, we took pictures... hahaha.. will show Robert the pictures later..

Manage to take some cute pics!!

Went down to the dojo to see how the training is being done and we could see a huge difference in the training.. They are more traditional like the senpais will stand in front and they are more disciplined.. The training is also more fun lor..

And there was this time when robert left the room, wah!! Chaos!! haha. They started to talk loudly and all.. Then i told ice that once he comes in, they will be quiet le la.. Hahaha.. True enough, they went silent when he came back.. Like as if nothing happen.. hahaha..

After that, we went back to Robert's hse and he changed out of his gi, took a picture with his whole family and off we go to the KTV!!! hahaha... the long-awaited KTV!!! Before we left, Cherry lent us her jackets as they think we are wearing too little and we might be cold as the temp is expected to drop drastically.. So nice of them..

A blissful family!!

This is taken at the life lobby of Robert's apartment.. Super nice lor.. Just worried that it cant take my weight.. hahaha..

We took a bus to a KTV near our hotel.. And Ah Gen is already there in the room waiting for us.. Wah... The ktv is something like K-box but the room is small la.. MAybe there's too many ppl le lor.. So we din have a bigger room.. But as usual, we were amazed at how well they can sing la!! Robert is suitable for those ballads and Ah gen, he sing beyond songs!! wah!! Fantastic man!! So me and ice for the first time, get to dedicate songs for others to sing lor.. Cuz normally we will be playing our songs and we dun even bother to help others dedicate songs.. Hahaha..

I tink after a while, Ice got quite bored of singing, she started to take pics with Robert and she started the 10 连拍！wah... So everyone of us kana take pics.. She with Robert, me with ah gen, she with ah gen, me with robert, her own pics and my own pics.. wah!! so imagine how many pics we took..

Below are "SOME" of the idiotic pics we took..

Ice with ah gen

Robert with Ice

Me with Robert

Ah Gen with Ice

My Personal Pics but with Ah Gen as the backdrop

ME with Ice


Happy four!

We sang till ard 3am and decided that we should call it a day.. Cuz the 2 guys looked so tired le lor!! hee hee.. Wah!! Look at the bill, it's ard S$150.. Wah.. So expensive!! So i told ice to ask robert if we can chip in a bit or not.. But robert says it's ok..
Robert walked us back to the hotel before going home.. He even told us the places to go tmr as he is unable to bring us ard..

Ahh.. So tired.. Must go and sleep le..

Bathe, pack bag and then slept at 5am... Ahh.. Had to wake up at 11am leh!! OH MY!!

Be4 zzzz, must take a pic in our new gi! With our name on it one hor!! Dun play play!! We even took a pic on the hp and mms to robert.. hahaha..

HK Trip 15th Dec 2006 - Day 2

15/12/06 (Fri) - Day 2
Woke up around 10 plus and after some dilly dally, we stepped out ard 11 plus.. hahaha.. Wonder how come we can take so long lor.. hee hee.. It was drizzling outside and it makes the weather even colder... Seems like the weather forecast given by Robert not very accurate one leh!! It makes me even more sure that i will need to get some winter clothing very soon..

We went to the shop that sells martial arts equipment.. Robert brought us there yday but it was closed.. So today, we thought we could go there and see if there are any things to see or not.. WE DIDN'T EXPECT TO GET ANYTHING ONE LOR!! Haiz.. But being woman, when the word "Discount" is on the tag, we will take a second look right?? Ha! That's Tokaido gi on sale woh.. My sensei wears this particular brand.. SO "HALF PRICE"?? Wow... Cheap now.. HK$580 convert back only S$116 leh.. For that quality, that is cheap.. Okok.. Should we get it?? Hmmm... Both of us stood there.. Figuring it out.. So after trying it on, we decided to get the gi.. Then the owner asked if we wanna sew our name on it, we decided to do it and at the same time, sew the dojo name on it too.. So the total is HK700 = S$ 140.. Ok la.. When we walked out of the shop, we both thot : Huh?? Buy Gi in HK, are we mad or wat?? So heavy, still must carry it back lor.. Hee hee.. If we tell Robert, maybe all the more he wants us to train in his dojo le.. Haha..
Went to get our breakfast in a restaurant opposite the road(rec by Robert).. Got dim sum.. So we went to order whatever we could.. (Based on our prior knowledge of dim sum, we can order a bit la) Some of it were recommended by the waitress.. The food's not bad.. But when the food came, i was trying to figure out wat it was.. So i tried naming some of it.. Well, the ha gao became xiao long bao? siew mai?? Ice was amazed at how i can get the names all wrong.. Hahaha.. Well, not my fault wat.. Normally i just eat and dun bother to order one wat.... Hee hee..

Our breakfast spread...

Ice couldn't finish her share, so i had to finish it.. Haiz.. No wonder i think i gained more weight after coming back..

While waiting for people to come and fetch us, we went to shop ard.. The shopping centre's stuff were too expensive and we wasn't too interested.. So we decided to go back to the hotel.. Robert called me and said that he's unable to join us in the afternoon as he needs to go back to the office and so only 黄师傅 is free.. It's ok.. So I called 黄师傅 and he came shortly..

黄师傅brought us to the Ladies Mkt（女人街）.. Along the way, we saw the ICAC.. Ice was so excited cuz that's wat we normally see in the HK serials.. So we took some pictures here too.. Err..

The Renowned ICAC!!??

After getting some shopping, i bought a skirt, Ice tried her Smelly Doufu（臭豆腐）, we went to the little shops along Tong Cai Jie（通菜街）... We bought some stuff and then 黄师傅 suggested going to the Huang Da Xian Temple （黄大仙庙） to take a look.. So we hailed a cab there..

黄大仙庙

We met a school girl there who claimed that she lost HK$1000, so we told her to go to the police lor.. 黄师傅says she might be a trickster.. Which school girl will go all the way to the temple and have so much money on her??

We went to collect 黄师傅's car in a carpark (actually it's a open space la.) and then went to a very beautiful buddhist temple.. But i think that place looks more like a garden.. It's contributed by the famous stars in HK like Anita Mui.. It's the 南莲园池！The place is very serene and once we stepped into it, we simply kept our mouth shut! Haha.. 我们根本不想打扰这一片宁静的土地。似乎如果我们一吵闹，这里的一草一木都会被我们惊醒。

While we are in it, we were totally mesmerised by the plants and the stones..Every tree, shrub, rock, flower is a piece of art.. And the best thing was, how much did they spend on this place ah?? We spent close to 2 hours in this place and we didn't even finish the whole journey cuz some of the areas are closed!! Wah..

At the entrance

One of the beautiful stones we saw

This tree is called 九里香(Orange Jasmine).. So It's me la.. Hahaha... 这棵树比周杰伦的七里香还厉害呢！它多了两里！haha..

Ice was acting stupid in the rock museum.. while i jus relaxed one corner.. haha.. All the stones in here were imported from China.. Can't remember where.. hee hee..

黄师傅 had kindly, graciously invited us to his house for dinner.. Oh.. So another free dinner.. hahaha.. So we had to leave the place slightly earlier so that he can go home and prepare dinner!! Wah!! He's cooking woh!!

SO we went to New Territories where he lived.. He dropped somewhere to get his dojo's jacket done and then in that short span of 15 minutes in that shop, Ice bought a top and i bought a white pullover.. Hahaha.. Got good discount cuz he knows the owner..

And 黄师傅 was so kind and sweet, he remembered that i wanted to eat roast goose so he went to buy to 加菜!

黄师傅大显厨艺！

家常小菜但有浓浓的温情在里头哦！

吃晚饭后，黄师母从深圳回来了！haha.. Jus by talking to her for less than a minute, she actually can guess that i am 南方来的，a Hokkien!! Wah!! 高人！Had a very nice talk with her as she is very bubbly and chatty.. We even taught her how to dl and email pictures... haha.. 黄师傅's daughter 紫彤，is a very clever and good gal.. She has so many certificates and all.. Initially she didn't want to talk to us.. So after taking a few pictures and after dinner, she kinda warm up to us but she's still quite a reserved child..

After taking this picture, it seems that 黄师傅 got 2 more daughters le woh!! haha.. Anyway, he's old enough to be our dad la.. He already got a 21 year old son wat.. hahaha.. That's y me and ice thought that for the whole day, it seems like 我们在和爸爸逛街！

As we were about to leave at around 11pm, Robert called and confirmed with ice the itinerary for tmr.. So when he heard that we are at 黄师傅's house, i think he's quite shocked! haha.. And he's still persuading us to train at his dojo.. Wah.. Go HK for training??? haha..

After which, 黄师傅sent us back to the hotel..

Took a picture with the newly bought pullover.. hee hee.. and ya, must mention this, ICE bought this for me.. Hahaha.. Thanks Ice!! I love u! Hugz..

HK Trip 14th Dec 2006 - Day 1

Before departing for HK, Ice came to fetch me to her house to do the cookies for frenz in HK.. So off I went to her hse at 10 plus to do the cookies... The cookies took us the whole night to do.. So once we finished it, off we were to the airport le.. Very rushed..

We took pics to prove that the cookies r really done by us!!

14/12/06 (Thurs) - Day 1

Reached the airport ard 12 plus and the first thing we did was to take pics! haha.. After which, we used the courtesy phone to call Robert.. He told us the bus to take to our hotel and he said he will meet us for lunch..

Waiting happily for our bus..

We took the bus to Nathan Road.. The bus was very tourist friendly.. There's an electronic signboard to tell u the present stop and the next stop.. So we definitely won't miss the stop.. And in any case, Robert already told us to alight at the 10th stop.. Hee hee..

However, when we alighted at the bus stop, we couldn't find the hotel.. Cuz there were too many signboards and i couldn't see the hotel's signboard! I checked out the locality map and thought that the hotel was opp the bus stop.. So when we crossed the road, we still can't find the hotel, so we asked ard..
OOps.. Guess what, the hotel was jus behind the bus stop we alighted!!!! Haha.. Sorry sorry.. Me cant read maps.. hee hee..

Hmm.. Are we lost??

Finally, we found the hotel.. Robert was already waiting at the lobby.. Robert was wearing a suit!! Aiyoh.. Not used to it lor..

Hahaha.. He was there 1/2 an hr ago.. Ahh. SO pai seh to let him wait lor.. Anyway, we went up to our room to put our bags and went out for lunch.. We took a bus to 好彩海鲜酒家.. While waiting for 黄师傅, he ordered some dim sum.. 黄师傅paid for the lunch and they brought us to the Avenue of Stars just opposite the restaurant..

In the restaurant..














Along the way, we were taking a lot of pics.. Though it's drizzling, it still didn't dampen our spirits!! We saw a lot of couples taking bridal shots along the way.. So Ice had this crazy idea of asking a couple to allow us to take pictures with them.. Hahaha.. Guess Robert and 黄师傅 must be thinking we are mad.. But they helped us to ask the couple la..

We took a boat across from Kowloon to HK island.. From there, 黄师傅got to go off for work and he said he meet us in the afternoon tmr to bring us ard.. He will be our chauffeur too.. WOw.. Cool..

We saw the International Finance Centre.. Robert asked if there's a viewing gallery and then we went up to the 55th storey.. Wow.. Nice scenery..

After which, we took a cab to the base of the peak.. We bought the Madame Tussauds and the tram tickets up to the Peak..

Tram's Coming!!

Before going into the Museum, we went to see the scenery at the Peak.. In evening time, it's not that beautiful but Robert said we should see the difference..

In Madame Russauds, we took so many stupid photos but we had great fun in there.. Robert and Ice are simply too creative le.. Hee hee..

Robert thinks he's Andy.. Hee..

Hmm.. Me with Jay.. Haha..

Our Forefather.. So real lor..

Ahhh.. I touched his chest!! Oh my!!

Yes.. That's the way...

Psst.. Let me tell u a secret...

That's the difference at the PEAK!!

Wah!! There's a real BIG difference between evening and nite!! We are so lucky cuz there was rain in the noon.. So the sky cleared and we could see the night scenery.. Plus the cold wind.. Wow!!! It's simply Fabulous!!!

Since it's so cold, we decided that we should eat some ice-cream.. Hee hee.. Haigen Daz.. Here we come!!

Ice-cream in the cold??!! Great!!

Robert called his fren and he brought us to eat at 大排档．. He ordered so many dishes that we had difficulties finishing it lor..

Part of our dinner only..

Robert sent us back to the hotel before going home..

Once i touched the pillow, i fell asleep.. So tired..