Tough Time Past..

Finally the exam is over.. finally could take a deep breath..During this period,my life have been upside down,so do my dear..can't sleep well,everyday sleep in the morning,only have a meal in 1 day..causes an unnatural life in us..But..finally the tough time had just past..now waiting for the Langkawi trip,of course with my dear also..we never separate with each other during this 3 weeks..every second we were been together..really can't used to the life without her..So,should enjoy the holiday even though it's just 2 weeks time..Last but not least,finally i can see my dear slept early tonight..it's the first time i saw her could sleep so well without any disturb,for of course during this exam period she been pressure so much..i really felt pity and sad to her..and also have to say sorry to her..coz we have some quarrel in this few weeks..i felt like i had changed,but everytime after i had scolded her,i will think..why should i scold her?she is my gf wat..i should love her..i know her well and know that she is a simple minded girl and this is why i love her..i really start regret..please take off my bad temper so that i can stop talk loud with her..i really feel sad and regret everytime i scold her..i want to love and pamper her like last time..sorry my dear..it's my fault..and dun misunderstood coz i never complain that u r stupid coz you are always my cute baby..love you cp..

There's a song for you..

Specially for you,my dear..In the past 4 months, i found out something had changed between us..i couldn't figure out what's the problem but it did changed us..something like my attitude,talking tone,emotions and some other things..this 2 days i was alone in the room,whole day by myself and i think of many things happened in the past 10 months..we've been together for 10 months..time is fast..there's one thing i still remember since the day i hold your hand..I promise to take care of you in the rest of your life,never speak loud at you and do whatever for you..but..along with the time,this promises seems fall deep in somewhere of my mind,because i started to angry you,speak louder to you,bad temper and ignored..but you are still the one who never angry at me,tolerance with me and you are always the one who start to talk with me after we argued..you never changed..At this moment,i recall back the promises..i was keep repeating listening a song now..and the lyrics of this song is the words i would like to tell you..爱很简单

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我

i love you
无法不爱你
baby
说你也爱我
i love you
永远不愿意
baby
失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单

i love you

我一直在这里

baby

一直在爱你
i love you yes i do
i love you

永远都不放弃

这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do..

7 Months Love Story..

It's already 7 months since October of 2008..i still be with my most love and maybe would be longer in the future..7 months,somehow it's just 7 months but i feel like we had pass through many things..still love her that much and we spent almost all the time together..i really dunno how to describe the feeling i had in this 7 months..i only know the most important thing is i'm with you..Jealousy and unbeatable are my personalities..sometimes i will feel jealous when i heard about your past or maybe other things..something like ur 2 ex bf..ur "1st time"are not for me,ur family seems prefer ur last bf,ur relatives all sounds like look down on me..many many of these thing bothering me..we've talking about this problem few times alr,but it's still can't terminate the shadow in my heart..no matter what,i still wanna to make apologize from you..sorry maybe sometimes i've been too serious or too jealousy about something..sorry my dear..but it's the prove that i really care about you..i know i'm getting controllable and i really sorry about that..i never meant to be like this..somehow i just scared i will lose you..perhaps when we are marry i can only overcome this problem..hope u will understand me for everything..dun worry,i'll never leave u away,i promise..to carry on our love story till forever..
Ok la,dun wan always write those emo words la..have to write something happy..remembered i told u before since we been together i will only write happy thing in my blog coz the time onwards will be happy all the time..last few weeks,we started to do our 1st cooking experience..it's your 1st experience in kitchen too..i really appreciate it..u will do it for us..when i saw u r so taking serious about that,i really touched..from that time on,i knew u r trying hard to be my good wife in the future..really love you so much..now i'm waiting for our 1st year anniversary..i know we could reach it..that day re-viewed our chat logs..feel sweet about it..think of it will smile automatically..love you ar small pig..muackssss..
(Now i'm Titus,u got Gc alr dun wan Titus anymore...sad...)=(

好心好报...

落力为你好得不到分数你决定要跟他日后同步他不懂爱惜你我乐意操劳

我决意爱他祝我愉快吧你最明白我痛极亦留下伤得很重也不怕我愿意等他

还看着你(他会感动吗)看你在悬崖走路他却放下你(他已跑掉吗)只照顾自己

我惯了爱他你怎样做在悬崖还是我无退路

对你好无人稀罕我好无人欣赏我好原来你习惯他一套从来没有爱我看得清楚我知道不必得到不妨 陪衬但愿为你好

他从来都比你差仍然死心爱他垂头再度听他欺诈祈求他说爱可能这秒时辰未到

是受罪也好听听你哭诉你说难过总比分手更好

我说几多的女主角也受过煎熬?

情况坏到(他也许做到)你信任来年一日他答应做到(他也许做到)统统都做到

我也似你的无从劝告宁愿牺牲都不愿却步

对你好无人稀罕我好无人欣赏我好原来你习惯他一套从来没有爱我看得清楚我知道不必得到不妨陪衬但愿为你好

他从来都比你差仍然死心爱他垂头再度听他欺诈而明知你爱我我竟扮未知道好人恕我未能做到

你当我是知己我看得到我当你是一生前途

彼此也是沉迷盲目控制不到
怎么好都等不到

怎去做无人珍惜我好无人喜欢我好原来要学会他一套从来没有吻过记得清楚我知道不必得到不妨陪衬但愿为你好

好从来都知你好(未够好)为何他不够好(我不够好)为何我又与他拥抱

仍然相信我会有好心得好报可能到某日会知道


好心真的有好报吗？

Past,Now and Future..

Long time din write blog already..actually i really dunno why i will switch on my laptop and log into my blog..maybe i feel like wanna write out my feeling at here..somehow i really dunno where can i start from..
Recently i had been frustated by a thing which was alr a PAST..i know i shouldn't talk or even think about it..but it doesn't mean that it never happened..i juz can't stop thinking about it..so this few days i had did many things that need to use my brain to do it so that i can stop thinking about that thing..i played mahjong,i sleep,i cooked..but when it's till night,before i sleep,the thing will automically appear..i can't get rid of it..sorry i shouldn't make u cried,but i really do mind it..because i really love you very much..everything u done to him make me feel like i'm far far behind him compared to last time when u love him..you really do listen everything to him and even u'll do everything for him..he had played an important role in your heart before..u told me that this thing can't be comparing..isn't it means that things that u did for him is can't compare with mine?and i'm lesser?i don't know..it getting serious and it almost appear everyday in my mind..when i think of those everything u did for him,i'm jealous..i wonder will you do the same for me if i was him?Past doesn't means never happened,i mind because i really care of you and love you..
Now,i do enjoyed my life now..because i'm happy with it..everyday i could spend my time with my beloved..actually i never beg for anything,even we're at home the whole day i'm still that happy..as long as you are with me..All i need and All i wan is only u r mine and totally mine..i admit i'm a strong owning desire person and i'll never let myself lose..
Future?maybe now i already think of my future..if impossible,i would like to say "our" future..because i hope you will be with me in the future..but future i not dare to make any promise with you..when i'm still mind of your past..hope u could give me some times in the future so that i can get rid or forget about your past..

Sorry My Darling..

First of all,have to say sorry to my dear..bcoz i scolded her the 1st time..but i think she knew why i will so angry..but no matter how,i have to apologize to her and sorry..i felt sad also when i scolding her..i wonder why my dear will lie to me..her 1st time..i really sad about it..Actually i knew she dun wan to be like that..But i hope she could understand,i really hate and dislike about that..I think now she understand it..So it's my 1st time to scold her and also her 1st time lie me..so we're even now..this case ended..(i din angry u anymore la)..=p
Second,i am so exciting to give her the surprise that i had prepared for her on her birthday..haha..my stupid dear still dunno wat happen..she really thought i will be celebrating her birthday with a gang of frens..really not understand me..but nvm la..wan her to wait for it..i wonder what's her reaction on that day..(hope could surprise her)
Finally,dear dear ar..no matter what happen,u r my wife forever,i won't leave u away..i love you forever..(hope same to you)