I Knew I had Found the Happiness...

It's been long time din update my blog alr..more than a month..suddenly dunno which part should i start from..there is only a word to describe this 1 month.."Happy"..but now there is another word that was appeared in my mind.."Happiness"..I knew i had found the happiness that i looking for a long time..Even it's short,but i knew it..i knew there are no needs for me to waste time and look for another girl..because it had appeared and it was in front of me..i just can't and dunno how to describe and speak wat's my feeling..the feeling of "Happiness" is just incredible and..i really dunno how to describe it perhaps there are no such words to describe on it..Within this month,i shared a lot of thing with you..get to know you well and deeper,ours dating time,ours happiness and also my birthday..This year is one of the happiest birthday in my life..My beloved and best friends were celebrated with me..most important you are the one who beside me all the days..thanks for giving me such unforgettable and surprised day..thanks for letting me to know you,thanks for giving me chances to be with you,thanks for giving me time to share with you,thanks for letting me to love you and million of thank you..coz i just dunno how to say how many times of thank you to you which in my heart..What i wanna tell you now is,i'm really felt lucky and happy to be with you perhaps since the day u giving me chance,i alr felt lucky and i told myself pls appreciate it bcoz i am the luckiest guy..Although we've just been for a short time,but i had used to be with you to spend my daily days..Used to have all my meals with you,used to see you,used to go class with you,used to listen your voice,used to see your smile,used to talk with you,used to hug,used to kiss you,used to sleep with you..All these things had become my habits..i juz can't get rid of it..I had no idea with it if suddenly u had disappeared in my life..For frank,i really worry there will be one day u are leaving me..i really worry..maybe i'm juz lack of confidence..because there are a lot of men with good condition and better than me..good looking and rich men are all around you and u still have a lot of choices..i afraid i will lose you one day..the more love i put into this relationship the more pressure i have..i was getting more afraid and worry to lose you..Actually do you know i'm really love the one of you now..i really worry u will changed one day..that's why sometimes i was so sensitive when i found u had changed in a little thing..i afraid the one i love will change to another..even though i know u will change in the future,but i hope the day won't come that fast..pls dun angry or blame me on it..actually i'm not that "small gas"..juz i'm really afraid to lose you..i hope you'll understand me more in my feeling and thinking..U know i love you very much..i try to give u all the best because i afraid u will feel that it is not the best and others will give you better..u get me?actually i also dunno wat am i talking..seems so complicated..but at least until now,the things u had gave me are all sweet and happy memories..I'm glad to own you as my girl..i won't forget and i'll kept those memories forever..The "You" which appeared frequently is "You"..the one i love the most and the most important in my heart..My dear,my small pig,my anna and sin chan's mother,my lao po,my bao bei--Joanne Leong Chooi Peng..You are always my lovely baby and my lao po forever..I hope u'll become my Mrs.Wong one day..I wish to walk the long journey together with you,will you?This is my wish for my birthday..I LOVE YOU FOREVER.

16th of November..

Another sweet day of our relationship..today we've been together for 16 days alr..hehe..feels like alr 16 months..Woke up so early today,get up at 11..coz have to go Mid Valley to meet her family..so gotta woke up earlier..Then met her family around 1..Went to Sushi King to have lunch..but my dear doesn't like japanese food..so went to Little Taiwan with she and her mum..3 of us had our lunch at there..Chit chat there and for surely her mum will asked sumthing about me..hope i din said anything wrong=)..Before they left,we went to a chinese medicine store to have the cool jelly..After that,my dear's parents left alr..and we continue our dating...It was so enjoyable to date with my lao po..We took photo in the Gardens..and went for ice-cream in Baskin Robin..Finally could buy the 1st clothes for my dear...It's the 1st thing i bought for her..a Converse T-shirt..Hope she like it and also the size...haha..it's really suit you la dear...your body very fit..Then went back and reached home around 7..Rest for a while and then...my dear knew it la..Then went to jalan Ipoh to have pah guk teh as our dinner..after pak guk teh,was planning to have dim sum as second round..Unfortunately,the store din open..so have to go back...But i suggested to go Mcd before going home..Then had our second round over there..My dear gonna become fatty soon...haha...After that,went home already...Took bath and talk..I like to hug and talk with my dear bcoz i feel very comfortable to talk and hug her..i can tell her everything and wat i'm thinking..she could understand..she's so understanding...i think i had found the woman that i've been looking for..love you forever lao po..muacks...dun leave me and appreciate each other ok?i really felt lucky to be with you..

2nd Week Anniversary

14th of November..We've been together for 2 weeks alr..Glad that 2 weeks alr we still having our sweet days and relationship..nothing has change..I really enjoy the time with you in this 2 weeks..15th of November..Celebrated our belated 2nd week anniversary..Went to Pavilion with my lovely darling and had great time over there..even though the time is short(juz 5 hours in Pavilion)..We reached there around 2..and had our 1st meal-Pan Mee(my dear favourite,so do me^^)..my dear spend me the meal..haha..next time our 3rd week anniversary must be on me k?but this time my lao po really spend a lot on me..hope no next time..bcoz i not used to let my gf spend on me..after lunch,we went to buy movie ticket..the movie is on 4.30..Then it was kinda a big spending..We went to "Forever 21"..one of my favourite clothes shop..I had chosen 2 shirts and my dear chose 1..Unfortunately,the clothe that she like the most had no size for her..So bad the shop dun have her size..Then,my dear bought the clothes for me..Thanks dear..I really like the clothes a lot..especially it's bought from you..Next time i'll buy back for you..juz choose and buy whatever you like..After that,we went for the movie--"Ouantum of Solace 007"..erm..actually can be considered a good action movie la..not bad..most imprtant is the person sit beside me is you..I was surprised that u told me it's ur 1st time sitting couple seat..But dun worry,i had giving you the 1st time and i wish in the future i will be the person who always sit beside you in the couple seat..Then,it was the most nervous time of the day..1st time met hers family and had dinner with them..lol..i was so nervous,i'm just pretend calm..Sorry my dear for being so quite during the dinner..bcoz i really dunno wat to talk and i was so panic..Hope ur parents won't mind..I could understand why ur dad is saying that..coz he really worry u'll get hurt again..but dun worry,i won't be like the guy..i won't do anything that will hurt you..i'll prove to your family that i'm serious and can treat their daughter as good as i can..i won't disappointed you all..After dinner,we was planned to go to a hill which is nice environment and romantic..Unfortunately,we couldn't find the way to there..Sorry dear,once again disappointed you..i know u wish to go there with me..but next time ok?Then we reached home at 11..we were so tired alr..but something i have to apologize to my lao po.."Lao po,sorry for making it so fast,i know u still need more longer..sorry sorry..hehe=) "Bao bei,tonight it's the 1st time u sleep earlier than me..usually we used to chat and then sleep together..So i know u are really very tired alr..Then u sleep tight tight la..i will come in and hug you after this..Now only got time to update my blog..Good night my dear..love you forever..muacks muacks muacks..hope u r having sweet dream and inside the dream have me..


Happy 2nd Week Anniversary..Jayjing and Joanne.

P/s:Din take any photos..so cannot upload...by the way,hope u r happy today..i'm happy as long as you are with me..^^

7th of November--1 week anniversary..

To my lovely small pig,today is our 1st week anniversary..glad to be with you all the time, and inside the week,i was so happy and maybe u can see sometimes i will smile without any reason..Actually that's the smile of happiness..i also wonder why i will smile when i thinking of us..All the times we share together,even though it's short ,but feels like we alr been together for quite a long time..It's true that we still not enough understand each other perhaps the time's short.But i know that ours time won't be that short..Remember what i always told my frens?"This 1 is different,she is for marry.."So i know that there is still a long journey for us to walk together and the time is still long..Hope u're willing to be with me at that time and we might get through another life..Now i really used to see you everyday,even 1 minute din see you i already started to miss you..hope u won't mind..i just worried u everyday see me and will see me till sienz..=p Anyway,today u'll be going back Ipoh,we can't meet for 3 days,hope this 3 days i could stand for it..Actually i'm really worry and sacred that you have to go back by bus alone,i really have the impulse to accompany you back..hehe..but i know it's still not the right time..so u must be very vey very very very very very very very very careful ok?

Last but not least, Happy 1st Week Anniversary..For the sweetest double "J" couple(Jayjing and Joanne)..love you my dear..muackss..

3th of November--1st date..

Today is our 1st date since u promised to be with me..i'm really happy today..really..the most happiest day in this year...Had our 1st dating in mid valley,damn excited..i'll remember all the "1st" incident and things happened today..our 1st movie-"the coffin",our 1st dinner-"Kim Gary",our 1st game-"bowling",our 1st photo,and so on..i'm glad to know you,happy to talk with you,and lucky to own you ..i'll appreciate the time onwards as long as u are with me..i won't leave u alone when u r moody or sad,my shoulders are always save for you..no matter happy or unhappy things,u could share all with me..my ears are always save for you..when u need someone to chat with you,my mouth are always save for you,if u need someone to take care of you,i'm always save for you,all the time..For me,your smile are always the sweetest moment..Wish you are my last,my only 1,my longest relationship..i hope our relationship could remain like this and lasts long till u get me a twins..Love you very much,Joanne Leong..=)

31th of October

31th of October..Miss Joanne Leong,pls remember this day..It's our 1st day to walk through the future together..and also the 1st day for us to start our happiness road..I'm really appreciate the chance u gave me to be with you..Neither you nor me will think of we could hold each other hands to create a new life..It's my pleasure to be with you..I feel that u dun deserve those bad things as u had put much effort on it..So now it's my turn to paid u back the efforts that u had put..Remember what i said to you today..Suddenly really dunno how to describe my feeling by words..It's too much and hard to describe my feeling now..I'm really happy that this day had came to me..glad to have u be my girlfriend..Among billion words,still the old words i wanna said to you..I l_0\/3 Y0u..=)Joanne..



By,
Wong Chong Keen
(JayJing)

29th October..

Today...lol..A freaking tired day..exhausted..woke up at 9 in the morning,summore last night slept 3 hours only..Evening still have to go futsal..lol..need more energy..Today is quite an interesting day,saw her during break time..but..feeling so weird..we seems have many things to talk with each other but when we met in a large group of ppl,we like can't talk out much things..suddenly like stranger..paiseh la..dunno why..It'll only happened when we are in a large group of friends..stupid that small pig..she paiseh make me feel paiseh also..=.=..After finished class on 2,went KLCC with yee teng,renee,jeff,danny and kelvin..bcoz it's renee's birthday,so we hang out for a movie..Anyway,happy birthday to renee..After hang out with them,straight away go puchong for futsal..lol..like a superman..dun have that much energy la..exhausted alr..Reached home around 12,as usual,part of my recent life,chat with that small pig..It's alr like a thing must do everyday..but i'm willing to do it..Still waiting for your "answer" la..keeps so secret..Today is the 9th day since we knew each other..^^

28th October..

Went class on 4..but woke up at 12..coz her class at 12...sms her see whether she got go to class or not..She was in the class ho..^^haha..but not so surprised la..It's 12pm class wat..After finished my class,went dinner with her at Old Town in Danau Kota..We've stayed at the Old Town for 3 hours..wow..like many things to chat..but it's true that we really have much thing to talk..and she's really changed a lot..She said it was because of me..omg..was feeling happy inside heart,but really dunno wat i've done to change her..I only knew her for..erm..7 days and 19 hours..haha..can remember it..but now is alr 8 days in this time..Enjoy the time be with her...But..haiz..dunno she stupid or i not enough obvious..told her many hints alr..she seems like not understand..fainted..But actually it's good also la..i think now it's not the time for her to think about it..she's not that confidence anymore..i dun wan to force her..i respect her..She gonna start her new life,let her choose the life she wants..I'll just wait and stay beside her..


RE:haiz..very frustated la..wanna let her read my blog and wat i feel...but heart keep telling me that it's not the right time to let her know..just let it be..=(

27th October

As usual we chat all the time..A miracle for her,she woke up earlier than me today..^^But i also knew she will sleep in the afternoon la..knew she'll tired..A sufficient rest is important for her..Really worried about her when she was driving back to kl from Ipoh..A long journey leh..Luckily she arrived safety when she gave me a call..not that worried anymore..=)At night,i back kl also..called her also..but chat not too long..Sadly,she got flu last night..I rather i am the one who get flu..All the sicks pls stay away from her..Hope she can get well soon..Take care,small pig..If u dun mind,big pig willing to take care of you..I may not the best,but i'll try my best to give u all the best i had and the happiness that you looking for..Take care,my small pig^^good nightzz..


p/s:Today is alr a week since we knew each other..but feels like alr 1 year..=)

26th October

Finally can hear her voice today..=)although couldn't talked nice with her(coz the craps Maxis)..But i'm happy and satisfied also la..at least can hear her voice alr..haha..like her voice so much..make me no worry..To be frank,i think maybe i'm fall in love with her..At least the feel is telling me that i am..

25th October..

Miss her very much also today..but so fuckup la..miss her voice so much today..wanna hear her voice but the lousy Maxis..craps line..can't talk with her today..not a good day..In the end,we juz ended up our night by saying "Good Night"..sigh..miss her voice so much...=(

24th October..

25th midnight..1st time chat with her on phone..Talked about 2 hours..Inside this 2 hours,get to know more about her and understand her deeper..Actually she is quite a good girl also..She is good and actually not wat other ppl see from outside..I understand her more that night..i think i really couldn't resist my good feeling to her..starting to miss her everyday..used to chat with her everyday already..hope this could maintain till...haha..just let it be la..let the god decide..i won't force anything included her..

An enjoyable night..

Last night went sing k with my bro and sis..In Puchong Neway..2nd time we went sing k together in KL..But it's a damn long way to go there..I drive for 2 hours to reach there..My leg pain like hell(my car is manual)..I was stucked in the fuckup trafiic jam ..Somemore rain so heavy..all the cars move slowly..From 6 o'clock i started my "journey" till there was already 8..Damn tired..After we reached there,i was soooooo hungry coz din eat at all the whole day..Luckily there was a buffet,i eat like a hunger wolf..like never eat for 1 week..=.=..Finally full like hell..Then we started to sing..haha..my sister is quite a good singer..not too pro but at least can sing..However my brother and me...sigh..dunno how to describe..sob sob..We were there till 1am..all of us sing till no voice to come out..so it's better to leave..Called for the bill and surely it's on my brother..haha..After that send them home and i have to start my "journey" again to go back Melati..But it's alr midnight so traffic is smooth and less cars..Reached home around 1.30..Damn tired alr..After played a DOTA match with my housemate then went to bath and straight lye on the bed...Enjoy the time that i spent with my brother and sister..They were being so good to me all the time..They treated me so good and always beside me when i need them..Proud to be their younger brother..^^Love them so much..

20th of October..

Today is one of the happiest and memorable day in 2008..why?because..finally get to know the girl that i wish to know on the 1st day in diploma..She is the 1st girl that i've been watching out for the whole semester..can't imagine today could have a meet with her and face so close..We met at the Cola Club in genting klang..She's not that cool type girl i thought at the first sight..I not really know her that much coz it's juz our 1st meet..but from the 1st meet she gave me is quite comfortable and friendly..Feel like talk with her my mood was getting excited..And not so dare to look at her too long..coz she is really very very freaking pretty..Lolz..I think if i told one of my fren that i had yam cha with her, he sure won't believe or maybe he will jealous..haha..I admit really got a bit good feeling la..but..sadly she's got bf..somemore is sweet relationship..=( Somehow,i'm really a bit disappointed about it..coz she's the girl that i've been looking for..But i think i can only wish they could have a good relationship..Hope she is happy..I'm satisfied that i could know her and be her fren..But can't cover my disappointment la..I'm glad to know her..Her name---Joanne...

说好的幸福呢？

你的绘画凌乱着 在这个时刻我想起喷泉旁的白鸽　
甜蜜散落了情绪莫名的拉扯　我还爱你呢 伴你断断续续唱着歌
假作没事了 时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择 你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始都不快乐 你用卡片纸写着 有些爱只给到这 真的懂了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢 我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了 开心与不开心 一一细数着 你在不舍 那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得你
不等了 说好的 幸福呢 我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了 只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着 要怎么停呢

An Empty Heart...

Something just changed me..maybe i had experienced a lot of thing..too many thing happened around me and i had learned a lot..learned that how to be calm,not to be impulsion of making a decision and consider clearly..

Because of i had made an unwisely decision, i am regret now..but it's too late...something juz can't be change after it was happened..it's already a fact..now i had realized that i can't turn it back anymore..it's past..i should not think of it anymore..maybe it's time for me to release and put it away...

From now on,problem will be leaving me and happiness will be coming to me..start a new life and be who i am..but one thing that cannot be denying, my heart is empty now..will be no longer to anyone and it'd gone...