第一次没你的旅程

明天就要去曼谷玩咯。心情很复杂，因为这是我第一次一个人去机场，而原本我的身旁是会有你的。这个曼谷行也是因为你才有的。因为你说想去，我才计划的。没想到最后没去的人是你。老实说，没了你，我也不那么想去了。因为无论去那里都好，只要有你，我都无所谓。所以一路一来，我都去你要去的地方。而我也真的已经计划了年尾去澳洲，计票我们上次也查了，还问了姐几月去才是最好的。只是你不相信我，你以为我没计划。说穿了，你也真的不了解我。我是一个不爱说了才做的人，我会做到才说。不过你从头到尾都不信任我。所以你才会对我说，没未来。

你一直以来都否认你是一个贪慕虚荣的人，你还说如果你是你都不会选我。但到最后，你离开我给我的理由是，你觉得我养不起你，也就是因为钱，你选他也因为钱，那你问你自己，你还觉得你是一个不看钱的人吗？你是，只是你不承认。

很多很多的承偌，我给了你，但你不相信我。我也自问，我从来没一样东西是做不到，给不到你。

还有，并不是每个人做老板才算成功，你家人那样看为免太肤浅太古老了，就算你爸爸，他也不是老板，他也没店没家族生意，但你觉得他成功吗？你选人，人家也会选你，在你嫌弃别人时，也先想一想自己是不是那么好那么成功，不要忘记你还有俩个弟弟，以后如果别人那样嫌他们不是老板，你会怎样感受怎样想？人生是很长远的，但你看的东西却是那么短。

我说过，你记住，我一定会成功给你看。我会要你后悔。

Happy 23th Birthday Small Pig...

小萍，今年是那么久以来第一次没有跟你过生日，而你身旁的也不再是我。虽然到现在我还没能原谅你，因为你对我的伤害真是太深了。我反复的问自己，到底什么问题，你会这样对我，难道他比我好吗？为什么你会这样对我，为什么你会变到这样。真的想不通。我跟你那么久的感情就那么容易被别人动摇吗？我们一起经历的事那么多，你能因为一时的不如意就忘记掉。我不知道你跟他的感情有多深，但我能预料的是，你再这样看待爱情，把爱情看成金钱，一时的感情变淡，刚巧别的男人对你稍微好，你就变心找别一个，那你一世都不会得到幸福。因为你从来都不会珍惜别人对你的好，请记住男人刚开始和在追你时对你的好，只是短暂的。你因为短暂的诱惑而放弃你多年经营的感情，这样你只会一直更换男人，不会永久的。

最后，有样东西要送给你，虽然不是礼物，但我觉的这个比礼物还要来的更刻骨铭心，更深刻。每年都会为你做的事。希望你没忘记。生日快乐。

小劲

生活。

不知不觉已在Centrix工作了两个月，开始对这份工有了兴趣和期望。希望真的能在这行做出一番成绩。也算是我的第一份认真的工吧。至于我的小萍，就更加不用多说了，她终于找到了开心的工作，也做了5个多月，算是找到了她的兴趣，最重要还是能看到她天天都那么开心。我就心满意足了。至于感情，虽然时间上，我们相处的时间少了，但感情也似乎没什么变到，可能跟我们答应对方每晚都要一起吃晚餐的关系吧。庆幸我们还是那么好，希望能永远保持下去。让我们一起为未来努力吧！加油，加油！Ole Ole Ole!

小萍，这次我更新了咯，不再是“一段难捱的苦日子”。没什么东西写，只是。。你不要每次都叫我去冲凉啦，很长气啊。嘿！爱你。希望以后能跟你生一个像阿轩那么可爱的小劲/小萍。嘿！

看回以前我写的东西，好好笑哦。哈哈。很傻嗨！Very very freaking pretty.. 哈哈！so noob..

一段难挨的苦日子

终于过完了求学的日子，是应该要出来面对社会的日子。虽然还没出来前是已经预料到，但没想到原来社会的压力是比我想象的大。丛使我已经有了心理准备而且还 应付得来，但我却担心另一个人--我的宝贝，小萍。看到她为了工作整个人都变得不开心。在这一个月以来我真的从没看过她有过一个真实开开心心的笑容。只有 当她要回家时，我才真正的感受到她的快乐。也许我带她来这里住是一个错误，我很不希望看到她在这里受委屈。最近我慢慢觉得她并不是很适合能接受我这边的生 活。我不想看到她不快乐。我真的好想对她说：“宝贝，你别做工了，让我来养你吧！”我不想看到她每次放工回来那个很累和受气的样子。我和她在一起承若的事 到现在从未改变，就是要她每一天都快快乐乐。我喜欢看她开心快乐的样子。不是现在这样。
小萍，好想对你说，我知道现在的日子很难挨，给我点时间好吗？先苦后甜，希望你能明白这个道理。我们挨过这段日子，我一定会给回你快乐的日子，就好像以前那样，看回我们以前的照片是多么开心。突然好怀念你以前的笑容...

Tough Time Past..

Finally the exam is over.. finally could take a deep breath..During this period,my life have been upside down,so do my dear..can't sleep well,everyday sleep in the morning,only have a meal in 1 day..causes an unnatural life in us..But..finally the tough time had just past..now waiting for the Langkawi trip,of course with my dear also..we never separate with each other during this 3 weeks..every second we were been together..really can't used to the life without her..So,should enjoy the holiday even though it's just 2 weeks time..Last but not least,finally i can see my dear slept early tonight..it's the first time i saw her could sleep so well without any disturb,for of course during this exam period she been pressure so much..i really felt pity and sad to her..and also have to say sorry to her..coz we have some quarrel in this few weeks..i felt like i had changed,but everytime after i had scolded her,i will think..why should i scold her?she is my gf wat..i should love her..i know her well and know that she is a simple minded girl and this is why i love her..i really start regret..please take off my bad temper so that i can stop talk loud with her..i really feel sad and regret everytime i scold her..i want to love and pamper her like last time..sorry my dear..it's my fault..and dun misunderstood coz i never complain that u r stupid coz you are always my cute baby..love you cp..

There's a song for you..

Specially for you,my dear..In the past 4 months, i found out something had changed between us..i couldn't figure out what's the problem but it did changed us..something like my attitude,talking tone,emotions and some other things..this 2 days i was alone in the room,whole day by myself and i think of many things happened in the past 10 months..we've been together for 10 months..time is fast..there's one thing i still remember since the day i hold your hand..I promise to take care of you in the rest of your life,never speak loud at you and do whatever for you..but..along with the time,this promises seems fall deep in somewhere of my mind,because i started to angry you,speak louder to you,bad temper and ignored..but you are still the one who never angry at me,tolerance with me and you are always the one who start to talk with me after we argued..you never changed..At this moment,i recall back the promises..i was keep repeating listening a song now..and the lyrics of this song is the words i would like to tell you..爱很简单

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我

i love you
无法不爱你
baby
说你也爱我
i love you
永远不愿意
baby
失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单

i love you

我一直在这里

baby

一直在爱你
i love you yes i do
i love you

永远都不放弃

这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do..

7 Months Love Story..

It's already 7 months since October of 2008..i still be with my most love and maybe would be longer in the future..7 months,somehow it's just 7 months but i feel like we had pass through many things..still love her that much and we spent almost all the time together..i really dunno how to describe the feeling i had in this 7 months..i only know the most important thing is i'm with you..Jealousy and unbeatable are my personalities..sometimes i will feel jealous when i heard about your past or maybe other things..something like ur 2 ex bf..ur "1st time"are not for me,ur family seems prefer ur last bf,ur relatives all sounds like look down on me..many many of these thing bothering me..we've talking about this problem few times alr,but it's still can't terminate the shadow in my heart..no matter what,i still wanna to make apologize from you..sorry maybe sometimes i've been too serious or too jealousy about something..sorry my dear..but it's the prove that i really care about you..i know i'm getting controllable and i really sorry about that..i never meant to be like this..somehow i just scared i will lose you..perhaps when we are marry i can only overcome this problem..hope u will understand me for everything..dun worry,i'll never leave u away,i promise..to carry on our love story till forever..
Ok la,dun wan always write those emo words la..have to write something happy..remembered i told u before since we been together i will only write happy thing in my blog coz the time onwards will be happy all the time..last few weeks,we started to do our 1st cooking experience..it's your 1st experience in kitchen too..i really appreciate it..u will do it for us..when i saw u r so taking serious about that,i really touched..from that time on,i knew u r trying hard to be my good wife in the future..really love you so much..now i'm waiting for our 1st year anniversary..i know we could reach it..that day re-viewed our chat logs..feel sweet about it..think of it will smile automatically..love you ar small pig..muackssss..
(Now i'm Titus,u got Gc alr dun wan Titus anymore...sad...)=(