and here we go again - 12WBT Round 2 2013

Well I am not proud of it, but I am back to the beginning and more. There are excuses and there are no excuses.... yet here I am and having to eat humble pie and admit that I have gone right back to unhealthy and unhappy and in need to starting again. I am here to make the commitment again and this time I know I can do it because I have before. But this time, the trick will be in maintaining my healthy weight and not allowing myself to fall into old habits and recycling my issues. I won't explain why I have put on the weight, it is personal and hard at times. I will only admit that I am here now and I will get down to my healthy weight again and be aware that I need to put things in place to keep myself there.

I have committed to this round of the 12WBT and so far have lost 2.4kgs (week two weigh in). My start weight was 95.2kgs and my goal for this round is to get back into the 70's. I will report in each week and share where I am up to.

This week has been tough as I have a nasty cold, work has been crazy and I have had family (my mum and nan) staying with me in my 1 bedroom apartment. I have been on a blow up mattress on the lounge room floor. I am sure I am too old for that. Anyhow, they left today and I am back to my space (other than one of my brothers occupying my sun-room/balcony for 8 month..... I'm such a good sister).

This week I will eat clean and exercise at least 4 days. I have also just signed up to the Great Nosh run next Sunday as an early week 4 mini milestone as I will be away for 5 nights over the long weekend and it will be freezing where I am going. I plan to walk every day while away and hopefully run a bit as well. Good luck everyone and some for me too (actually make that will not luck)! JFDI :)

Week six weigh in

weigh in at 71.8kgs (0.1kg loss) which is surprising considering I have been eating stacks - I guess the field work burnt a stack. Feeling uninspired and unhappy at the moment - I need to snap out of it....

week five weigh in

Well, after blowing out at the end of last week I have managed to weigh in this morning with no weight change - phew, thank goodness it was not a gain (although it was when I was on the scales on Sunday so I did turn it around before weigh in wednesday.

I am not doing real well this round and I need to get refocused. This is all very well to say, but actually doing it is proving difficult. I am using the blame game a lot at the moment, and some of the things are legitimate and others small. I really need to learn how to say NO better as I just end up with so much on my plate that I get very stressed and can't focus on anything. I am a perfectionist too and so am very hard on myself. I can acknowledge all these things, but finding solutions everyday is much harder.

So, what am I going to do about 12wbt? Not sure this morning. I have 6.5 weeks until the Triathlon Club Champs in Forster and I am going to have to get my self pumped and train hard or I will fall over as it is a longer distance. So, this weekend I will sit down and re focus and plan plan plan! I bought a car this week, so many of my exercise excuses are now gone (or at least will be when I pick the car up this afternoon or tomorrow - yay).

I would really like to be in the 60s for my birthday on 24th April - so here goes :)

Week four weigh in

I am not being very good this round. I am going to have to give myself a good talking to and get back on the wagon. I am not being all bad as am following pretty closely during the week, but the weekend is not so good and although I am still losing, it is much slower. This week I weighed in at 71.9kgs a loss of 300g. Lots of red flags the next couple of days as I am staying in town for work....

Week Three Weigh In

I plateaued last week as I had a big weekend away and did not make 100% good choices - although they were much better than in my past life. This week I lost 700g weighing in at 72.2kg and I am happy that I am once again losing and that hopefully the plateau is over. I am struggling a bit the last few weeks with way too much on my plate and some very big and stressful decisions to make. But life goes on and I will continue to keep my eating and exercise at the top of my priorities. I hope everyone else is doing good :)

Week One weigh in

Just a quick post today as very busy chicken here. Weigh in at 72.9kgs today (loss of 0.4kg since first weigh in of the round). I adjusted my ticker so it reflects the start of the round and not pre-season (I did lose about 3kgs in pre season - yay). Week one and I already have red flags as I am going to Canberra tonight, back tomorrow and then to Husskisson for Triathlon all weekend - always a problem as many athletes use a race as an excuse to eat many treats after..... I will be strong!

Pre-season week 4

Weigh in at 73.5kg this week - a 1kg loss. I am very unmotivated with exercise this week and I need to pick it up. I know I will next week, but what about this one? A bit flat and not really happy at the moment. I get nice moments of happiness, but overall I am frustrated and am finding it very difficult to find the time and motivation to do the things that matter to me. In this case I am talking about my PhD. I just want to get the damn thing finished so I have more choices.

OK, whinge over. I have the pre-season task for "Organise and Diarise" playing while I write this blog and Mish is giving me a good talking to. I am going to listen and apply all the 12wbt pointers into my PhD as well. I am going to be so planned that I can only be inspired to do the two things that will help me get to happiness - 12wbt (and my triathlon) and my PhD.

I do have some awesome goals for exercise this year and am excited to get into them. I have the Husskisson sprint triathlon next weekend (750m:20:5kms) and Club Champs triathlon in week 11 (1:30:8kms). I do the mother's day classic run every year, but have been doing the 4km run at the Domain in Sydney, this year I am going to do the 8km run. I also do the city2surf each year and this year I want to run the whole thing (including heartbreak hill) - I also fundraise for Endometriosis Research for the city2surf if anyone wants to join me. So I have a few big goals, i just need a couple more to put in for this round in weeks 4 and 8 (or close to).

I am looking forward to next week and the start of this round. Tomorrow will be good too when the first week of recipes and exercises are out. I hope there are some good new ones as I am hanging for some new stuff.