Its amusing to read back all my old posts and notice i have been rather an emo and negative person.
Or should I say my mindset and world was too small.
Surprise Update! Though am not sure if anyone actually still reads? drop me a whatsapp if u did!
After the life changing trip and some change in life events, there was no longer a need to pour out my thoughts on the social media.
In a short span of 4 years....i see myself changed a lot.
Limits are no longer in my dictionary.
Approaching all aspects with an open mind
Experience love and out of love
Falling in pieces and getting back together stronger than ever
Its amusing how the different stages of life you thought there could not be any more hurdle harder than this BUT there will always be bigger and harder hurdles as life goes on, challenging yourself each time.
This time, its at work.
I pride myself experience in a lot of work areas having been working almost all my life since the age of 5 (child labour at hawker lol). Seen all kinds of people and were numbed. I really develop such nonchalant attitude because its nurtured with time and the only defence i strongly believe is believe in what you do and do it right. Time will reveal.
Yet now...i understand i have to really squeeze my time out to be more tactful because it could be draining others trying to protect you. You can't always be like a dumb and don't care.
I've become so used to be quietly doing my work, with occasional opinions but doesn't mean I am reserved but I am just able to read more into things which i don't see why i should waste my time challenging on.
"I listen to your opinion but doesn't mean i agree with you. "
It has come to another higher hurdle at work, a culture which is hard to penetrate on the fixated narrow bureaucratic mindset.
You don't judge a person by his or her rank first without looking at his/her at work.
Worst you are reluctant to give opportunities to people because of their rank?
A leader will not do that.
I'm fortunate enough to have a boss who recognises it and gave me many opportunities to learn and explore and I'm very thankful for as much as I do not wish to put her into a difficult position.
I have no one else to vent out to sadly but here only.. given office is a politically unsafe place.
I cannot trust anyone.