I'll not follow your footsteps

Bday was a diaster. Teo got sick & I had send him to the hospital during the wee hours. Then he, of course, rest the whole day. As for me, my beloved zharbor & friends bought me a cake & gave me a surprise at hg plaza. SWEET! & it was on the dot, 12am, 24th dec 09. (: After that to Teo's place, hospital & home-d. Slept all the way till night & got up just for dinner with my family & vivo to meet joash & clique for another cake celebration. After that trained down with sista wk, Kevin son, Dawei Shifu & ahben to jurong. Got off the wrong station & yea, cabbed all the way down to arena country club to meet peggy my another love for drinking. She spent a total of 160 bucks on my bday. Touched ttm & I love her! & thanks for everything guys!

Christmas, I had a high fever & so no town area for me at all. Home-d before 10pm. All alone till my family came home to look after me. ):

That's all, currently at Darius's house. & I really regret for playing on with them black jack, esp woth LIANGRONG & DARIUS, whole time scammers! Hate them ttm. I've lost 15 bucks to scammers! & Junjie the moron, laughing his ass off because the movie actors got hurt!

Really enjoyed my days though. I've all the friends I love around me already, what more can I ask for? I love you guys ttm, nobody but you guys man!

P.S: to those who's my past, you're really my past. I've thought through how you treat me, & I totally feel I was dumb to actually feel sad from the start. & I really regret feeling sad. If even the one you loved the most don't stand by you, don't expect others too. Byebye cause you've hurt so many people around me too, my bestfriends & all. I don't wish to talk about you anymore, heartbreaker ! :D

You've turn me this way, no turning back

Back to normal, quarrels one after another. You left with your yaya papaya attitude, so can I. Let me tell you this, I'm better then you for your yaya papaya attitude. One day if you ever lose me, don't ever regret cause I'll leave with no regrets. MARK MY WORDS.

You'll never change after so many promises. You break your promises again & again. I'm sick & tired of liars. So what if I always believed what you did after so many empty promises? Don't take advantage. I just can't stop myself from thinking about that incident. Thought you were all my close friends, instead of his. What did I earn at the end of everything? Lies from all the one I loved the most, helping each other just to make me so called "Happy"? So you guys don't understand me still, you guys always think I'll get angry & yea all of your thinking were, lie to her at least she won't know the truth & not get frustrated. & when I found out the truth, you will go, oh I'm afraid you'll be angry & yea so which means I won't be angry at you for even having the intention to lie to me to make me happy?

Anyways I've no time for you anymore, you wanna enjoy your way, go ahead. I've to study for next year. You & my friends go ahead enjoying, I don't care anymore. Your promises are just for me to listen & forget about it because it'll never come true, so yea.

Well just some ranting after so long, since I've no one to talk to, which I feel comfortable to talk to too, blogging is the best way.

Anyway for my birthday presents, Christmas presents I have got to get many things, FOR MYSELF.

-New clothes
-New accessories
-iTouch
-New phone
-Angel fit Foundation
-Loreal gel liner
-Chip & Dale tower & chippy's partner

Really hope my birthday there's at least something for me to do the whole day & I want people I miss to turn up on my birthday, provided that you're free.

K bai fck.

Counting down..

24th Dec, ask me out, nobody booked me. ): No plans, nothing. But yea, 17 wanna be, 16 so goodbye! I want presents like, angel fit's foundation, Loreal's gel liner, Maybeline's eye shadow & new clothes for Christmas itself. ): Lastly a new phone on my bday, as daddy promised. & one more chip & dale. Get me this & I'll love you like you've never been loved before.

Actually no presents also okay, hongbao with money inside also can, enough for me to get the items myself also can (:

k, gtg out with Teo to orchard now, bye.

You won't be mine for long, yes I know you won't

My off day today. Past 2 days was a terrible. Quarrels & more with Teo. Well I don't know, whatever he do, it just seems to pissed me off. Sometimes I ask myself, do I really love him still, or feelings fading away. Sorry to be so straight forward here, if you see this. Last time whenever I'm with him, I don't have this weird feeling. Well guess it's because I'm still angry with what he did, my mouth said yes I've forgiven him, but I guess my heart says no to my mouth. So afraid we won't go on long.

Will we be like the past? Your actions makes me think alot. Yes I guess I'm angry & jealous. You're lazy, always thinking of having fun, sometimes you just don't think about how I'm feeling.

When I'm sick you hesitate whether to come down & visit me. But when your sister calls for you saying she's sick, when she told me she was drunk, you went down immediately. This prove how much fun means to you. Having fun means much more then me. Don't tell me you didn't have fun the whole day, I bet you were. When you guys laugh & joke, I catch nothing. You said I don't laugh at your jokes while they do. You having fun almost everyday, while me working almost everyday. Why ain't you the one who's working while me having fun? Life just so different from others.

I'm breaking down soon, I need someone to talk to, but I haven't found the perfect one to talk to. Smiling still, with a broken heart though. Deep down in me, I've not forgiven you at all.

So many things to say, but just how can I explain what's in me?

Blamed for a wrong reason

Spend within your limits. Teo surprised me with a packet of nougat from Cocoa Tree just now. Was all so happy to see it, my all time fav!

Work tomorrow, Loreal, Maybeline & Nova, here I come!

We always think we're always right when we didn't get the facts right from the start.

& Yes life just so great..

Since you've said I meet her everyday, which was what you've always been thinking, I shall show you what's the difference between meeting her everyday & meeting her once a week or just because for supper. You always think your way & I think my way, stubborn, yes we are. Disappointed & angry, yes I am indeed, thanks for saying those things, which sounds partly untrue.

New life

Working a new job, tough but worth it. Loreal products, want any, ask me for advice, not expert though, but I'll give you the best advice. Wanna get any products, get it from me. (:

I wanna earn commission! Loveya guys \m/

Tied down with work

Got no time for others, just work & yea WORK.

Got over everything, I don't wish to explain anything. It's good that you've listened to your friends instead, to ignore me.

So many things to talk about, yet this ended so fast.

& I myself read your lj on my own, w/o anyone mentioning about it. Thought that this year's bday, you'll come & celebrate with me, because you've missed last year's celebration & the year before, you came, but for a short while only. Well guess you won't turn up this year again. Guess I'll friendship had come to an end.

Just wished we both were in our single life, bet things will be so different..

Things are getting out of my hands

Friends who stood by me? Boyfriend upset with what I've said?

Failure I am, yes indeed.

Don't really need anything now, just peace. Your words hurt indeed, my friend..

Someone who I loved & trusted you with my love, someone who doesn't speak out to me directly, instead through my friend then I'll know what & how you actually feel. Our relationship won't go anywhere further, it'll just end soon..

A lousy friend & a lousy girlf I am.

Bye, gone with the lovely wind to somewhere lovely.

To my dearests

Happy 17th birthday KevinCKT son, & happy 18th birthday Sista WK. My beloved ones, equally important to me. Hope you guys will enjoy your celebration with friends. As for the presents I'll hand it to you guys as soon as I pay off my debts first. (:

Practically nothing much about my friday. Slept once I'd reached home from steph's house, around 8plus. Slept for only like 3 hours plus @ her house & back to my lovely home, after having a free breakfast at VERY NICE with Teo. Well both the aunty & me had forgotten that I've not paid, neither did she remember to remind me to pay. So yea, free breakfast for the day. Teo sent me home & he left. Shifted my pillow, bolster & blanket out to the sofa & slept there. Slept all the way till afternoon. Had my lunch & laid back to the sofa & took a short nap. Dad came home, got ready & headed down to Chinatown for steamboat, with my family. Saw Hao that dog, LOL! Home aftermath. Onlined till now. Suppose to meet sam & jack under my block, because of their, LAST MIN CALL. Too bad, I'm lazy & tired to get my ass off my chair. Guess I'm gonna head to bed soon, Beauty sleep needed!

& yea Teo MIA-ed for so long. He just shouldn't get a phone, you can barely contact him. Neither messages nor phone calls. Fucka-licious!

As for Angel's birthday, I shall think whether to go anot. Cause I don't really feel like going out of a sudden. Most of you guys are fake. I don't like it!

Bye people.

Turn up the heat in the club people

Well friends having prom night today, kinda envy. & thinking back about me not studying hard, makes me feel so lonely & sad now. If only I passed my N levels, I'll be having prom night today at this very moment with my beloved ones. Thinking about the girls who're gonna have their hair nicely done, putting on make up & wearing beautiful dresses with a pair of lovely heels, looking just like a princess. How I wish I was doing all this with my girls back then in schools.

But it's ok, at least I've made new friends, be it at work or during ITE days. As I've made a promised to mom that I'll be back in schools next year after quitting twice this year, I've made up my mind, to get back & sit for O levels, if possible, though I've failed my N level.

At least I've passed those main subjects for N level, but not really very good grades. I'll make it this time round. Bet I'll be studying alone in the school. It's ok, since I've promised to study next year after 8 months of holidays.

Stayed home the whole day again & yea 2nd day w/o having Teo's presence by me. Let's see how long can we stop seeing each other. He asked me down today, but to KM's house to watch "Xia dao Xiao" or something on KM's lappy. Like, I don't really understand HOKKIEN & I've watched before! I'll be bored the whole night if I'm down at Bedok. Well, another day at home.

Now I'm just waiting for dinner to be back. MY CHICKEN RICE, OR MAYBE NASI LEMAK! YUMMY~

Lets put it to a simple test

He pin pointed his fingers at me, assuming that was mine.

Just being random. My mood ain't right for now, cause Teo just made me happy for one minute & upset or maybe angry the very next minute. Thought I could just see him later on in the night, but I was wrong. I think I need his presences every single day. Damn, no way.

Robinson's job over, like at last. Great experience, made new friends & it's tiring for sure. Gonna get another job soon, needa pay off debts & prepare for next year. Think I'll be back in schools next year. So when it comes to "raining days", which I think there won't be, in my dictionary. I've been depending on my parents whenever I'm in need of money, which I think it's time for me to depend on myself.

& forget about depending on my one & only Teo. If he's not so lazy, I won't be working so hard for money, just to enjoy myself. It's ok he will never change on matter who nags at him.

Spent my whole day at home, woke up for lunch, it rained & I fell back to sleep after having maggie mee for lunch. Had an apple pie & wasabi coated green peas for dinner. Yum, wasabi coated green pea, my all time favourite, for snacks. Trapped at home the whole day, meeting no one & yea not even Teo.

It's been long since I've last seen many of my friends. Thinking back, I miss schools alot. Wearing your school uniforms early in the morning, with a snook face, having the longest bus ride you ever had to a place where you'll see almost all your friends. Back then, I didn't really enjoyed schools, & I don't know why......

8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning..

Just try to understand me more, I'll appreciate it.

Have been working, hardly got the time to update, not even having time for friends & family. But glad some of them came. Saw their faces & of course I was delighted, that's for sure. Past few days had been a ferocious "war".

Bombed sista wk today, so sorry. I'm really too tired & lazy to even step out of bed though, don't even say my house door.

Tomorrow I'm starting work 10 am in the morning till evening, plus I have to pay back those time which Teo & me were late. Needa pay back around 3 hours or so. Damn.

Friday, Saturday & Sunday I shall do OT, to earn more money. That's all, guess I'll be heading to bed soon, gotta get up real early just to get over to Teo's place. My make up set it's all with him, angry! Nights.

Sometime, somehow, I wish we could turn back time & stop it right there.

Poor boy, he's sick & to think of it, I could actually flare at him just because of a text. Hope he's not angry with me. Can't believe I can actually get so paranoid just because of a late reply. He was gonna ask what to drink if he's having a fever. I'm just a failure, when it comes to "caring for your boyf" thing. Well, I used to takecare of myself, that's all. Didn't expect someone to appear in my life. Thought I'll just have friends & family around me. Gonna go over & cook some porridge for him, he has to eat it no matter how plain it tastes. He's down with a sore throat, flu & fever, now. Hope he's resting well right now, seeya later dearest.

I am so so sorry dearest.

I know you want me.

Starting work at expo, this coming Wednesday. Excited though, will'b busy to post/ meet anyone up, but feel free to text me up anytime buddies. (: So long for now.

Memories kept deep down in my heart, never be replaced

2nd day facing real customers at Robinson, though it was a 4 hours training, still it's enjoyable. Porky Teo too enjoyed the job & it's the first time he's not complaining to about quitting. Shall get him another job for cashiering after this expo sales. Later on, we both will start working at 6.15 till 10.15. Porky Teo said he'll send me home, hopefully he don't break his promise again!

Currently at steph's house blogging, just gone out supper with her. Counted as dinner for me, cause I slept once I reached home from work, in the late afternoon. Tiring job, but it's the best job I ever got, in my entire working life. Porky Teo coming over in the morning later on, will be home soon, I guess.


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K, that's all, bye.

You can never say never time & time again.

Long bob shall be my next hair style, random though. Can't wait for my lovely hair to grow faster, hopefully by my birthday or next year I can get my desired hair style.

NEXT

Had been busy hanging out, having late nights & going for trainings for my new job. It'll be held at expo, Robinson's sales. Baby's working with me. Well, ran away from home for 4 or 5 days, since I mia-ed from my blog. Mom, dad & sister Jo had been looking for me while I was away in malaysia for 1 day only. Well still, I enjoyed my stay there though, somehow.

& I've realized how much my friends still care for me, thought they'd already forgotten me long ago. I was so wrong. I love you guys so so much, especially Joash cousy, thanks for the big help cousy, was really surprised. Anyway, thanks alot cousy, love ya!

Had so much things happening lately. My room just all so spooky. Damn.

Tomorrow's my 6th month anniversary with Porky teo. Been with him for half a year. So many things happened between us, which always occur between couples. it's normal. So many a times, I've always wanted a break up, but still at the end of the day, we'll still be back as one. We'll just have to let each other at times, giving in to each other at times do really help alot. He's my longest & I'm his longest, unbelievable. Thought me & him will'b just another short term r/s, just another normal guy who wouldn't attract so much of my attention, but I was wrong. The longer I'm with him, the more I can't bare to see him leave me, he's way much different from other guys. He's not like my ex boyfs. I love him so so much. K enough of this.

Just thinking whether to head out with him or just stay home. There's practically no where to go/do. Movies? BORING. Shopping? Money please. Meet up & stone? Oh my, BORING. No idea, but it's ok. We both are used to it, not celebrating our anniversaries. It's just like another ordinary day, but just special by a little.

Last but not least, lunch at Peach garden, somewhere at novena, will'b celebrating cousin's birthday. Happy birthday cousin Charmaine!

I gotta feeling.

Well was trying onsugar this website & I swear I was so noob at it. Visit it http://JCMC.onsugar.com . Might be deleting it. Didn't turn out nice at all. Not what I've expected it to be. Anyway I've got my LJ which looks dead. Won't be creating too many of this kinda online dairy, because I'll only update my main online diary, BLOGGER. LJ just all so boring. Might be deleting it, still thinking about it.

Nothing much about today. Will'b home I guess. Or maybe meeting steph to get the shoes from her, then home? Won't be having late nights outside nowdays. Instead I'll have late nights at home. It's better. Once I get tired, I'll just head to my cozy bed. Tomorrow I'll be meeting JTCW & head to Raffles place for interview. Gotta get up real early, argh.

Baby's place > Raffles city shopping centre > Home sweet home?

We shall see, might be meeting Steph, after her court? Goodluck anyway steph.

Nowdays nothing much to do. S'pore just way too boring. I wanna go overseas, or go for a chalet, or maybe even clubbing! Instead of staying home from day to night, over & over again. Been so long since I've last stayed out of home.

2009 so gonna end soon. New year & yea, back to school as promised. But still no idea what to study. Damn it. Won't online so often, don't even say msn. Damn mom's laptop w/o msn, way too boring. I can only blog, update about me life.

Can someone put sparks in my life, life just way too boring.

Me hope to start work real soon, by then I can go out shopping & enjoy.

Just so you know.

Been out lately with JTCW. I've been seeing Mel & co @ cp lately too. Monday interview for expo Robinson's sale, with JTCW. It'll be pretty early. Mine's 9.30am, his 10am. Applied for cashier, hopefully I'll get in because I don't want to be walking from one end of the hall to the other end, most of the time.

Will'b heading down to his house to shake him up from his lalaland early in the morning for the interview. Make sure we won't be late. Really need this job because I'm left with 8 bucks or so in my bank. Need to replenish money into it. From 400 plus plus to 8 dollars plus in my bank, within less then a week, it's gone. Power to the max man!

Needa save money for my son's & sista's birthday. Mine too, though it's still far from now. Gonna hold different kinda temporary jobs for the time being, till end of the year. Then, it's time to get my ass back to school. Still deciding what course to take up & which school to get into. Headache.

& I wanna go clubbing. The last club I went was like 2 months ago or so? Well it was @ playclub. The dance floor was so small, but music was way much better then the previous one @ St. James, though there's still some "kuku" songs.

Ok, I'll be upating my LJ too & maybe that idiot's blog.

The nightmare you've never thought of.

Never thought that I could cry for more then 2 hours 30min, non-stop.
Was thinking so much, that I cried myself to sleep at first.

Then this weird dream appeared, swear no girls will want this kinda dream.
I was dreaming that I quarreled with JTCW, then we were fine.
But weird thing was I went home alone & it was to my old home when I was primary one.
Serangoon.

When I was on my way home, he already left me.
I cried & cried till my eyes were bloody red in my dream.

This whole scene were in bits & pieces.
I woke up, with tears rolling down my cheeks, w/o fail.

Then I will fall back deep into the same old dream.
This dream continued for 2 hours plus, no matter how many times I wake up.

Was crying even everything came to an end.

Swear I'll never want a dream like this again, it really hurts to see him walk away from me, AGAIN.

Life just so short.

Late in the night, really got nothing much to do.
Swimming session with steph, fong & JTCW in the morning.
Dinner w family in the evening at Marina Maritius hotel aftermath.

♥

You're just typical to call one a typical.

Face of a typical, thinking that you're the pleasnant looking one.

Don't call others typical, when you hang out with them too.

You act like a typical.

You speak like one.

Your temper ain't any better then those typical.

You got a normal face with a normal figure, so stop boasting about it.

There are girls who are way much better then you.

Don't act like a hero when you're not one.

You'll never be a hero, if you speak with no actions done.

Do it straight on the spot w/o telling anyone what you're gonna do, cause that doesn't make you a hero.

You'll never be a hero in anybody's eyes.

Let me tell you, even if everyone's afraid of you, I will never be, not even till the day I die.

BIMBO.

Best friends forever.

Was on the phone with CHEECHEE & Hs ytd night.

Swear CHEECHEE was funny, when she said the BEST FRIEND FOREVER thing.

Had some catch up done, my brain's updated with her life now.

At least I know what's happening in sec schools & with her, though I'm already out of that school.

Bare in mind CHEECHEE, 1 more week & you've got your freedom from that school, no faces shown to you at all.

Luckily I'm out of that school.

After hearing so much, I really thank god I'm out of the school.

It's so K-YOR-TIC, if you are clever enough to understand what I'm typing there.

Having a mask infront of your faces, ain't that tiring?

So you guys think you're having a mask wearing competition?

JOKERS.

You should just be your normal self & don't ever backstab.

This sentence ain't to any particular person, just a random saying from JCMC.

Today I'm free, will'b out with sissy jo later on, to orchard to get her stuff done.

That's all for today.

Tomorrow shall'b my shopping day with JTCW.

♥

What a 5th month anni..

Nothing to post about.

Angry with that noob, don't ever say you wanna celebrate any anniversaries.
I don't give a damn anymore.

Celebrate it yourself.

Am going home before his mom comes home.
Am going home to sleep my day through.
Am not gonna celebrate anything.
Am angry with him.

Box till you crack like the egg above!

& I'm sad.

♥

Live your life.

Tired, out in the night for past 2 days.

Work gone gone gone.
It's ok, at least I can enjoy now.

I miss everyone badly, text me up, tag at my tagboard.
Bitches & bastards.

♥

You're my happy pill.

Gonna get my ass home soon.
Out for the night again.

Guess I'm gonna start work tomorrow.

Hopefully no last min changes.

By then I won't have time for anyone, even my JTCW, don't even mention about gaming & stuffs.

Just text me up if there's a need to get to me.

Working 2 weeks straight, w/o off days & it's almost 12 hours a day.
Tiring though.

But it's the sick of money that's all.

♥

P.S, I love you.

I'm having mac now @ B's place.

Somethings wrong with him.
I don't know what to do.

Damn it.

♥

Baby cupid sent love arrows down.

Defeated by love.

♥

A leopard will never changes it's spots.

One word text?
Pissed.

Don't have to text me if you don't wish too.
I don't need your one word text, I'm not begging for it, fuck.
Keep it for others, I won't bother replying you.

Hopping to livejournal for now.

♥

You've found your love once again .

Currently at JTCW's place.
Bet I wont be home tonight once again.
Last night Fong's place, today his.

Well, glad there's no school though, if not I guess I'll have no time for my family, boyf & friends.
Exams stress.

But after all, I just have the feeling to get my ass back to schools.
I wanna learn all about lawyer.
I wanna be a lawyer when I grow up! ):

Hope everyone will support me, motivate me.

Guess that's all for now.

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JTCW brought me down to eat mac!
Imma happy girl.

He's a noob, whenever I said he's one, he'll start to disturb me by tickling me!
):

But still I luv him a million.

♥

FML?

Blogger is a pain in the ass.
Can't even upload photos I want, what's wrong man.

Damn it.

Yesterday night, headed down to Bedok to meet JTCW for dinner.
Ended up, only me eating, while he watched me eat.
He lied to me saying he was hungry, made me rushed down!

Went up to his house for awhile & bused down to punggol to meet Steph.
We're all bored I swear, nothing seems to attract our attention.

Cabbed home around 3 plus 4 in the wee hours.
JTCW over @ my place for the night.
Slept all the way till 3 plus in the noon.
Woke up for lunch, dad's cooking.
He's feeling unwell this few days, hope he'll get well soon. ):

Then headed down to meet Steph over at her place around 5plus.
Rp & cabbed to Fong's place.

Both Fong & steph sleeping like pig, while JTCW dota-ing, me blogging.

It's already 9pm.
Time passes real fast.

To my beloved CHEECHEE:
Meet up soon, don't stress ok? Everything's gonna be fine.
By stressing up, things wont be solved. CHONG better take good care of her ok! >:(

Let it snow, dear lord..

It's been so long since I've last see my dear son, KevinCKT.
He called me & I was shocked.

Well guess he reads my blog eh, he knows what's happening to me.
Well what a caring son he is.
Never regretted having a son like him.

I guess talking to him about my prob makes me feel comfortable.
He gives me advises which are good to listen too.

Though nowdays we hardly meet up & stuffs, still he cares.
Hope we'll never drift apart & he's doing fine.
Be good my son, mom loves you.

♥

The sunshine over takes the dark clouds.

Everyone, everythings fine between us already.
No worries!

Off to audi.

♥

Random, if only you know..

I will rather keep things to myself, I feel so much safer keeping things to myself.
I would rather talk to my reflection in the mirror about my problems then to talk it out.

I guess I know how much I mean to you already.

Just let me be for now, you'll never understand me.
When I'm sad, jealous or angry, you'll never see it.
You'll only see the happy side of me, always.
A kiss or hug just won't heal the pain in me anymore, it's totally different.
My heart, it's harden.

You didn't know how worried was I yesterday night for you, yet not a single text from you.
Till this morning, & the whole night you can reply to my Bestf's text instead of mine.
Asking where were you, is it that hard to reply?

So I see now, I'm nothing to you.

Trust?
BULLSHIT.

K, bye luvs ♥

Promise.

Been staying over night at Fong's place with JTCW & steph for straight 2 nights again.
Been seeing them for 3 days straight, be it I just woke up or going to my lalaland.

Now, it's the 4th day seeing JTCW.

Imma happy girl!

K, bye luvs ♥

Club was hot.

Clubbing was fun fun fun with JTCW, Steph, Steph's friend, Kathy, KevinCKT, SistaWK & Jevis emokid!

Club was hot hot hot!

Saw some familiar faces.

Thai pub after that.

Kathy's so friendly, I swear.

Nice to meet her too!

Supper & Fong's place after that with JTCW, Steph & Kathy.

Chit chatting now.

K, bye luvs ♥

Paranoid.

This are photos when I was at Thailand with cousins, uncle & my lovely mom.

Damn I miss my long hair.

Do I look like a tourist there or citizens living there?

Clubbings later on, hope I'll enjoy.

More updates on my livejournal.

K, bye luvs ♥

Happy birthday HappyWHM..

Firstly,

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY HappyWHM!

Meet up soon & I must get you a present too!

Luv ya.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHEAL JACKSON.

Do you guys even know it's his birthday?

I didn't know till I saw channel 5.

Secondly, I'm on facebook playing restaurant city.

That game's so attractive, my restaurant name's, SEX IN THE CITY.

Then I played pet society too. That's CHOCOSHAKE, I love him lot.

That's him sleeping, awwww, cute totally!

Sorry though it's kinda lame, I know, but I've got nothing to do?

Woke up & I didn't recieve any msg from JTCW.

Guess his gonna meet his ex to get his belated birthday present later on?

Well, I've got family dinner later on.

Won't be meeting any friends today.

Will'b spending my day with my family members.

Tomorrow I think I'll be meeting PeggyLim?

Monday, clubbing with Steph, SistaWk, KevinSON & JTCW.

Won't be home again, oh nooooooooooo.

Guess that's all to update, won't be updating so soon.

K, bye luvs ♥

Dead and gone.

Stayed out the whole night, home later on.
Waiting for JTCW to end that dota of his now.

I've lost my job & now back to my old-self.
Mom asked me where's the determination for working almost everyday gone too?
I really don't know how to answer her, mind's so blank.
Don't even know what's gotten into my god damn brain?
Don't talk about how I'm gonna answer mom's question, I can't even answer myself.

Damn it.

K, bye luvs ♥

Screamo emo like some freako.

Am gonna go out with this nooby JTCW to era for lan after blogging.
His smoking, me blogging here.
Ask this noob of mine not to peek at what I'm blogging, guess he's real pissed, HAHAHA.
I don't give a damn!

This nooby wanna dota that's why.
Gonna go now after getting my new playlist for my beloved blog done.

K, bye luvs ♥

Scream in pain ..

Nose piercing bleed, red nose ring went directly down the throat of the sink.

All gone.

Pain is all I get right now.

Upset, bye.

HAPPY BELATED 4TH MONTH JAMES TEO WEIWEI!

Was out with B for straight 2 days. Having him by my side for straight 2 days, how cool can that be? Met up with Steph & Fong 2 days ago at Simei ITE. My ex-ite school. Saw Familiar faces. Eg, Yunqing that bird face dude. He got his hair screwed, hahaha! Saw HappyWHM too! Me miss her a million!

Then we sat bus 2 to bedok singpan? Wanted to go for lan, but the K singing thingy caught our attention. Thought it was free but in the end it turned out to be 30 plus. Damn scam thing. After that we ate & headed over to Fong's house. Thought we could follow steph to her court thingy but in the end B was too tired. His a pig, serve him right for staying up late.

Then we ate breakfast & went seperate ways with Fong & steph. Bused home & slept all the way with B by my side.

Imma happy girl, hehe!

Was supposing to wake up around 3 plus but instead we woke up around 5 plus. Was shock, time passes so fast. Got ready, we both accompanied Sista Jo over to cp to get her G-string for her friend's birthday. She's a joke I swear. She said we have to dress properly to get her G-strings. WTF?

She's afraid peepo working there might say us. Lame her.

After that me & B went over to Bedok's night market & shop for FOOOOOOOOOOD. Then we bused to era for lannnnnnnn.

Audi, msn & L4D.

Back to B's place aftermath. His dad was funny I swear, hahahaha. Guess I'll be going home first thing in the morning. FIRST BUS! That's all for today.

Steph: Don't stress over the court thing, everythings gonna be fine. NO STRESS NO STRESS NO STRESS. Me luv you!

Peggy: Ignore that mfking bitch. Her boyf kena snatch, serve her right. Ask her try hong your boyf, make sure she don't regret only. She don't know how fierce you are only. Try you man. MAKE SURE WE DON'T SEE HER IN CLUB, if we're going. I make sure I'll ask her who she bought her tickets from. & I make sure I go to the person who sold her the ticket, I'll say to him/her. HAZEL says you're lame, v lame! Meet up soon bitch!

Pocket full of sunshine..

Now I'm at Fong's house with steph zharbor & JTCW. Will'b staying over at their place.

Tomorrow's steph's court case, hope she'll be fine. Me will pray hard hard, tomorrow will'b the last time she'll have to visit that place again. Hope she won't get probation or what, just pay that damn it guy. Hope he'll accept her offer, mfker.

I'm not MIA-ing from anywhere, just that my god damn com's so down. Mom's so not gonna repair it. Me wanna use com. Me wanna game, but damn the audi GMs, I got banned for no reason? Just because I mia-ed from audi for a long time, I'll be banned? Damn it, audi so waste of my time & money. Spent so much money, which I can use the god damn money for better purpose. Bloody mfker money sucker game. Cyber games are money suckers infact.

Anyways I wanna get my pay real soon. Me wanna shop, treat my family for dinner or something & lastly bring my CUTE GRANDMA out, "gaigai".

Me luv her, she's damn cute cause she's my grandma!

K guess that's all for now, bye.

Happy 18th birthday noob JAMESTEOCHINWEI!

Com down now at noob's house blogging. Won't be blogging soon, again. Gonna go out to celebrate his birthday with him.

Replying tags late.

Byebye.

Warning, this will be a long post..

Mom brought me to the saloon yesterday night with a last min decision. Was deciding on what style should I get, so yea, got it shaved & cut. It's obvious shorter then before, but better!

Was suppose to meet peggy today, but she gotta attend schools. It's ok, schools are way much more important then going out with me! Must study hard ok mafankia, bare with it, 'O' lvls are gonna be over soon. Get good grades for me to see k?! (:

This goes to the rest taking 'O' lvls too!

& I've read peggy's wordpress, was so touched with what she said about me, damn I didn't know I was so good, HAHAHAHA. Nah, I only help my real close friends when they're in need & those hi & bye I just don't give a damn, HAHAHAHA, just joking! As she said, within my limits, I'll help no matter what k!

k time to dedicate things to people, cause it's been so long since I've did it. Shall dedicate to people, not in order or what, so don't jealous of who comes first.

Cheechee: Hope you'll do real good for your 'O' lvls, remember our inside secret? (: I've promised you, I'll do it k? & whoever doing harm to you, just ignore them k cause you won't see them after 'O's. We've been friends for 6 years, since primary 6, can you believe it? It's been so long.. You're indeed a real good friend & I can always rely on you when I'm having probs! You never failed to be there for me! I luv you!

Steph: You uh, I miss you too! Everyday miss me, no wonder I keep sneezing! HAHAHAHA. Don't so stubborn k, when free go back home visit your mom, ahma & my 'Boyf' CASTIN. Meet up soon again ok? Can't believe I'll actually make such a good friend in ite, you brightened my days during my ite life, even after I've left due to some reasons, you still meet up with me & stuffs. I luv you!

Peggy: Mafan kia, Study hard k, & I wanna see you cry when you get your 'O' lvl results. It won't be like last year, instead of crying because you've failed, but crying because it's tears of joy. We've actually don't like each other when we first met @ ps, cathy? Hahaha. But we got closer & closer, hanging out every single day, doing crazy stuffs. I remember we had this heart to heart talk @ white tangerine one night, sitting at the stairs talking about all the things. That's when I got to know you more & more, all thanks to the talk! I luv you!

Happy Wong: We know each other true audi, & unknowningly we've got closer & closer. I remembered we first met was on the 19th dec 07'. We've got closer around 19 march 08'? meeting almost everyday, going different places, lan, "shopping spree" too! I really can't believe we could actually be so close, meet up soon! Me luv you!

Sista wk: Sista uh, I know you through audi too, it's only this year, we've got real close, hanging out almost everyday, but now, we've hardly meet up. You uh don't give girlgirl make your head spin around k?! Brothers & sistas first! The girls you love, just won't be there forever. Bro & Sis will always be there no matter what & it's forever, friends won't be that close to you too. So remember this, me luv you many many my prettiest sista!

KevinCKT: My beloved son! What's happening to you. Don't always have that, "don't care, do only" attitude, it will bring you no where. Mom will always be there for you, no matter what, I'll help you no matter what. Hope you don't dissapoint me, be it your studies, behaviour & actions. I remembered all thanks to the ite holidays we've got close & I got to know new friends, those who never fail to be there for each other, etc. Kianhao, Junsheng, yewfatt, melissa, doreen, zhenhao, sean & some more.. I got more friends it's also thanks to you. HAHAHA. Well my son, hope you'll be a good boy & think before you act. Mom luv you son!

Jevis: Yakult head, I knew you through GG SAMA, sista wk! You're a real funny friend indeed, we've met a few times & you're really funny! All the funny names created by you & sista wk. HAHAHA. Nice having a friend like you! Meet up soon YAKULT HEAD! You're gonna be 18 in 7 days! Happy bday in advance YAKULT HEAD \m/!

Lastly, My beloved noob boyf: JTCW, you nooby, you made me smile, cry, laugh like some mad woman. You're already my longest, though I'm not your longest still, I'll be, one day! You're gonna get into army maybe next year yea? I'll miss you every single day, guess I can only see you on the weekends by then. ): As for now, all I wanna see from you, is you getting a proper job, saving money & not spending money like nobody's business. Don't be lazy, cause I don't like my boyf being lazy. Don't laze around anymore, time to get your ass moving & start finding a job. I'm waiting for our 4th month, can't believe time actually passes so fast. 4 months being with you, I love it! I want a 6th month & more! Remember we've promised not to leave each other no matter what k?! You leave I'll go after you with a chopper, HAHAHA. Just joking. K, me luv you nooby Jamesteochinwei!

Bye, with love.

Day 1 with my hair real short..

I can't wait for my beloved hair to grow longer. I just hate the sight of me in real short hair, even my fringe. I'll be praying real hard to make my hair grow back fast. I look like a butch totally, though B don't mind me in this hair, but I mind. The sight of it erks me.

TITITATITU PIPIPAPIPU ..

I wanna get my hair shaved at the back, put some style to it, because it's really damn toot behind. Since it's already short, why not just get it shorter but nicer?! I wanna get it extended too, once it's long? Well, shall think about it.

& I wanna slim down, damn it, I'm growing fatter each day. I'm fat & still I'm gainging weight. I need to slim down fast! Gonna eat salad, excerise to slim down & grow taller!

Friday, me gonna help B cut hair, dye our hair together, trim his brows, make him look neater & smarter! Me gonna help him hunt for job. Me want him to work & not laze around anymore!

Me want find job too, me need money urgently too. Spent alot this few days. B's birthday coming soon, needa save. Gonna plan what to do on his birthday too.

Guess that's for now, me gonna edit blog.

Bye.

Snip Snap, there there goes my hair..

Hair short, like a butch. Damn it, boyf so gonna get shock, so is everyone. I hate my hair. Don't ask me out. I won't go out. The boy-ness in me, it's back. I HATE IT. My hair's way shorter then boyf's, kevin son's too. Damn it.

Bye.

What hurts the most, was being so close..

Alright I shall start from 2 days ago, which was Friday. Went out in the evening with B to meet my beloved zharbor & ahfong, for pool session. B followed with a last min decision. He wanted to go home, but I said it was only for awhile, so he said yes! (:

Played 4 rounds & we went to eat. After that, we went for lan session! Tagged hearts! HAHAHA, but the ring lvl 2 only. Zzz. Then we played till 9 plus & another last min decision to stay over @ fong's house. But before that we went to shop & save to get some stuffs to eat. Went back to fong's house, cooked prawns, fries, cambell soup, nuggets! Watched funny videos & played games till 5 plus then at last we settled down to sleep. Slept till 3 plus, we watched xiaxue's video till 5 plus. Me & B went off. Walked over to the coffee shop to have our dinner. Ate tomyam ban mian? B was lousy at eating hot stuffs! HAHAHAHAHHA, he himself admitted it.

Then he accompanied me home & he went home. Went homeI fell asleep straight. & woke up this afternoon, 1 plus. Nothing to post anymore.

I miss B.

Bye.

I bet you've gone bersak..

Was suppose to go for an interview @ orchard there for a bag stall, but my beloved zharbor, steph woke up damn late. So I've forgo the thought of going down for that interview anymore. A last min decision from sissy jo that we'll head down to orchard & yea it's O-R-C-H-A-R-D again for another interview. It's recruit express. Thought I can actually start work on saturday, was looking forward for it but a last min call from the guy saying only my sister was in because they don't have any slots anymore. & sissy jo appiled before me. OH WELL, I can't find any job at the moment, neither can I work at this time. No job & I can't hunt for job because the guy gonna send all my resumme to every company. & I have to have my phone with me all the time, because he might call me anytime if the hospital needs me.

I can slack for the time being, hope he gets to me real soon. I need a job badly. Needa save for B's birthday, it's coming soon, he's turning 18 soon & yea me still stuck in my 17 wanna be life.

He'll laugh at me for everything, because of my age. Damn it.

Ate at orchard, walked around & headed back to sk to meet cheechee & hs. Then walked home, & yea home sweet home. What a day, B fall asleep, thought of meeting him after dinner, but KM's so lazy to come down to sk & B fall asleep. PIGS!

Guess I'll be meeting B tomorrow. He's complaining BORED to me this few days, I wonder why. & no gaming for me, sissy's laptop down. She sorta screwed it with some pw. HAHAHAHA.

Bye.

Jealousy kills..

I hate my life, sister jo just selfish, i hate it when she shouts. I want my own laptop. Fuck it. She's always getting the best, yet I've never get any. Life just so unfair. Just because she's clever & I'm not. I hate it. So what if she gets into poly, o lvl cert, with a pass?

So many things happening, i don't know where to start.

Bye.

I've gotta plan my future already..

Well, really gotta plan about my future. Where I wanna be, what will I be doing in the next 5 years or so. Everybody's nagging me to get a job soon, stop lazing around like what I'm actually doing now. & to think about it, I guess I should find one soon. Can you believe even steph nagged at me about finding a job now? HAHAHA.

She's quitting school, that's what I've heard from her. She said she'll be accompanying me to get a job. Mom recommended me a data entry job, which I've longed for it. But I don't have their number, been pestering mom for it, but seems that she's not gonna help me get it. ):

Been audi-ing the whole day. & I saw B played beatup, beatrush, 8k & 4k. He's a loser in 8k & 4k! He cheats in 4k, 190. He thought me how to cheat, but infact I've found it before he told me the key to it! He's just a noob. He lost to me in 8k & 4k though he cheated. What a noob! HAHAHA.

Gonna get my ass back to audi again soon. I'm just so addicted to audi, how I wish B would get his ass back into audi with me & tag hearts! I want a saffaron or what ever it's called. I want that ring, it's nice! ): Anyways I've blogged finish, gonna get me ass into audi with Sissy Jo, to send kiss. Nothing much already. Missing B alot.

Bye.

Happy 18th birthday Sissy Jo..

Happy birthday Sissy Jo, may all your wishes come true.. Now you don't have to even go underage clubs man! Not bad!

Anyways nothing much about this morning. B called me just to tell me my show was on, roadrunner & it was on OKTO. HAHAHHAHA! How cute can he ever be, no matter how irritating he is, I still love him!

Audi-ed the whole day & at last lvl 34! I took my own licence myself & I passed it at the very first try! HAHAHAHA.

K, bye.

What's wrong..

I hate it when you gave me those attitude over the phone. You might think it's nothing maybe a normal chat over the phone with me, but to me, you're showing me some kinda attitude. What's really wrong. I don't like your this "so-so" attitude, I hate it. Just because of auditionsea, you gave me the attitude? Hang up on me?

What I want from you, ain't that attitude. I wanna hear something sweet from your mouth everytime we're on the phone. Something that will brighten up my day. When I'm down, hearing your voice just brighten up my day, but not your "so-so" attitude.

Yet today, when I'm at my most moody period of the month, you gave me that "so-so" attitude.

Thank You Very Much, but I don't need it.

Thanks for everything, you made my day worse. Was hoping to hear something sweet from your mouth because it's our 3rd month, but I was wrong.

I hate it when you talk to me like this. I don't like it when you show me your attitude. You love to put down the phone on me, fine, don't call me anymore.

Happy to see your tag on my tagboard at first.

Dissapointed at the end of the day, yet you won't know how I'm feeling. I feel like crying real hard, but I know it won't help at all. Sometimes I just feel we were not meant to be, because I'm just a bad girlf for you. It's always because of me, we'll start to quarrel.

Forget it. Hope everything will be fine soon..

Bye.

Happy 3rd month anniversary Baby..

Back to audi. Those who audi, add me up, JCMC my ign. Bored, audi-ed the whole afternoon. Gonna go over to grandma's place to celebrate sissy Jo's birthday in advance.

Sometimes I wish I could sleep & never wake up again.

Bye.

I promise I'll keep my words..

I slept super early yesterday due to the bad flu I'm suffering from. Slept around 9 plus, but to be exact it's 10 plus, because phone calls came in & none stop msges. Ignore some msges but I've to pick up the phone calls.



Boyf was being a noob to actually believe in the horoscope thing. He read mine & said someone better will appear soon around may? Lame, may it's over already. He scared I leave him la. If you don't believe this kind, everything will be fine. This kinda things only make you paranoid, then it'll cause quarrels.



Then son asked me to go online not long after I put down the phone with B. He asked me to wake up & talk to him on msn, but I told him when I wake up then I'll talk to him, in the end I woke up around 5.55am because my septum ring got hooked into my blanket & it hurts.



Son said he's gonna play webcam with me! (:



Now I guess I won't be going back to sleep, because I'm real hungry.



& to unknown, shall not name her, later she say I insult her again. It's both parties at fault, like what I've told you sis. So if you're not happy or you wanna clarify things with me, just text me up or maybe a phone call would be better, 96684330.

Everything's making me angry, nothing seems to please me..

I want to get MY OWN LAPTOP, so that I won't need to beg so hard just to get a patetic password from anyone.

I am real angry now, I don't know what's wrong. I feel so angry & at the same time I feel like crying. I know it sounds crazy, but it's true.

Life's just so unfair for me. I know I'm a stubborn & mischeavious girl, who stays out late, smokes, drinks, always going against everything, but do you know what causes this in the first place. None of you know.

Life seems so down for me. Sometimes I just wish waking up to see all those things I want beside me. I see you having things which you longed wanted, but me, having nothing but naggings & scoldings from others. Remember the smoking inccident in Malaysia. I was the one at fault. I've no choice but to say it was me who got the ciggs, though I did really paid it. I'm fine with it, really.

You play the good guy role, while I'll play the bad guy role. That's my fate.

Down with a bad flu,that makes me moody.

Bye.

It was you & me against the world..

Blogger just sucks to the core. I don't know what's wrong with it. If this still carries on, I think I might just use live journal, till blogger's fixed.

B dao-ed me on msn, damn it. Now I'm going to DOTA with sissy Jo.

Won't be going out today, I guess. Lazy, tired & broke. Needa save money for something, IMPORTANT. Shall not eleborate about it.

K off to Dota, people who know me, add me in garena, -JCMC. My new acc, lost my previous acc pw.

Bye.

Problematic blogger, fix the bug man..

4.22am & I am still awake. Tired but at the same time not tired. This is weird. My body still as hyper as ever but eyelids seems to be holding weights on it, it's shutting real soon. Guess I give up on waiting for B that pig to get up. Need my sleep too. & I am just too lazy to go out later on. No money, no talk.

I want moneyyyyyyyyyy.

Bye, nights.

Life's just so unfair..

Was webcaming the whole night with Steph Zharbor. It was super funny. We were introducing each others bears & tweety bird. Webcamed with KevinCKT son & sista Wk too. Sista Wk frightened me, damn it. Hate it. Then Webcamed with son, showing him my both cute furry bears. He said he was gonna steal it from my house, like no way! Nothing much happened. Waiting for B to wake up & online to dota with me!

I hate it when you nagged & question me.

It seems that I'm always in the wrong.

I hate the feeling, it makes my head spin.

I know I'm the one spending the most money.

You've been saying it over & over again.

Why not just ignore my health, stop visiting doctors.

I don't wanna be a burden to you guys anymore.

Just ignore my health, I'll take good care of it, no worries.

I need no doctors, it's just a waste of money.

As for phone bills, I'll pay it myself, once I get a job.

I've tried so many interview, but still I've failed.

I hate interviews, seriously.

I don't wanna laze around at home neither, but I just can't find a job.

I've tried my best, hope you'll understand.

I know you've been reading my blog too.

But I'll still blog the way I normally blog, I'll not change.

Don't come talking to me about my blog after you've read this.

I don't like being questioned.

I wanna be the true me, not the fake me.

& others don't KPO also, cause it's not for you.

Bye, 2more days to 3rd month, I Love You.

You took my heart with you..

It's 1.44am in the morning & I'm still waiting for B to come online & dota with me! I'm using sissy Jo's lappy to blog & stuffs nowdays. She's so kind, I love her lotzxc! TWIT! LOL! The SS above was taken by Sista Wk while webcaming with him. I did one batman style, but it was too unglam so he didn't blogged it. Swear me & sista Wk were laughing all the way. I did the actions & he told me he was laughing all the way. HAHAHA! Bored & I wanna play webcam with B, but he's still not online! Guess his dad still gambling @ facebook. ):

Just now went out prawning with Steph & F @ punggol. Then had our dinner @ there. It was a buffet & we were supper full. Ate beside the sea? LOL! Romantic siol! Talked alot & we walked out from punggol marina. Damn it, it was a 15-20min walk! After a full meal, we exercised. GRRRR, & the road was super scary. Damn it. It just freaked me out.

Then we cabbed home.

Online-ed & I'm doing nothing now. Edited blog, fs, for both me & B. & I miss him.

Heard from B about eclipse? Sounds cool eh! So does it mean that if one of the planet covers the sun, the earth won't get any light, then everybody so gonna get time off from school/work? :D The earth will be dark?

It's once in a 100years. We're lucky to see it. I'm gonna wake up early just to see it. (:

But heard from Sissy Jo, there'll be tsunami? So what is what? LOL.

To my dearest son, KevinCKT, Son don't be moody already. If there's something kept inside you & you need to let it out, I'll lend you my ears. & It's up to you whether you wanna tell me anot, but no matter what, I'll still be beside you, supporting you all the way. MOM LOVES SON!

Guess I shall end here.

Bye, 3 more days till our 3rd month, I Love You.

JEALOUSLY KILLS ..

Well, my com it's down right now. Damn it. Nothing to entertain myself. Was out with Son& Alfred for a movie, harry potter & the half blood prince, the movie was long&Boring! then the rest joined us after dinner. Sista Wk came Tiong to find us for dinner. Then home sweet home.(:

Took out my extendsions, damn it hurts. My hair got tangled up.

Hair short, short hair! YIPEEEE!

K nothing much already, I am broke, no money already, no outings this few days for me. Damn it.

Bye.

What's my plan now ..

I'm gonna get up early later on & get my ass down to simei ITE first to meet Son & co. by 12.15pm. Then to depot to pay a visit to yewfatt. It's the 7th day since you've left us, we miss you so.. & my schedule for this week is packed with activities! Today, paying a visit to Yewfatt. Saturday, LiangRongCOCKFACE's birthday, gonna be out the whole day, till late night. Sunday HappyWong's church first then Melissa's birthday in the night, another day gone.

Not gonna meet B @ all I guess, maybe next week? I'll miss you, don't worry! & you better stop singing to me your irritating song with the edited version song by you! You should know what song I'm referring too!*winks with evil laughters*

Ok I wanna be random now.

Here it goes..

I am craving for..

PLAIN WATER!

Ok lame, I don't know why, but I feel so dehydrated out of a sudden.

& I went for a job interview today, it's to promote channel 8's badgets. Guess it's some campigne or something. Hopefully I get this job this time round, because it's easy money & real short hours, as short as 2 hours! But the uniform, it's damn "kuku".

I NEED MONEY FOR THIS WEEK, ANYONE WANNA SPON ME? ^^

K last thing to blog about, this is for my dearest Sista WK, it's just my point of view, so others don't KPO okiie!

Sista, don't sad already, seeing you sad, moody makes me moody too. Seeing you this way makes me hate her, it seems that she's treating you as a spare tyre. When she's happy she contact you, meet you & stuffs. Once she's real down, she ignores you totally, making you worried as if it's the end of the world. I don't want you to be the one getting hurt in the end. Neither do I want to see you being a fool @ the end. I can't tell you what to do because it'll make things worse, moreover you love her more then you love me! *JEALOUS* Just joking! No one can tell/teach you what to do now, it's time to move & make use of your "CUTE LITTLE BRAIN" & think. No matter what's your choice, I'll still support you, cause we're S4L remember? ILY SISTA WK!

Bye.