:(

After one and a half year...this is what I got.

I hated myself for falling deeply into u.

I hated myself for loving you so much.

I hated myself for wanting to know every moments of u.

I hated myself for calling your name everytime before I fell asleep.

I hated myself for looking a fight with u.

I hated myself for stepping into this long distance relationship.

I hated myself for not having the courage to give up.

I hated myself for always crying alone in the middle of the night.

I hated myself for unable to win your heart.

I hated myself for not being the one u care the most.

I hated myself for not understanding your situation.

I hated myself for being the one who miss you more.

I hated myself for getting myself into this kinda situation...

a situation I don't know how to handle;

a situation I have got no assurance of future;

a situation that made me so miserable;

a situation everyone is opposing yet I insist to continue;

a situation I need to stand all the loneliness;

a situation he is in control of everything;

a situation I'm not myself anymore.

Who am I? What situation I've got myself into?

Miss our happy moment back then.

Sigh.