JANE;

Saturday, October 20, 2012 / 1:56:00 AM

So many things have happened within the past few months. And I'm actually feeling that slight change in attitude and character in me after so much that happened.

I used to not have that much worries and I now realised I took everything for granted. By any chance if you are reading this post... please, please treasure every single thing you have now.

I was flipping through my old photos, and I wonder if I could ever be that Jane I once used to be. The Jane that has a healthy and happy family, good grades, best of friends and everything I could ever ask for. But in late July, many things start to change and I feel that my life is going haywire.

Too much to say but this feeling is really unbearable. The pain, stress and the brave front I have to put on all day is tiring. It really is.

As depressed as I may sound, I will never give up. Really. That's something about me that will never change cos how ridiculous can it be if your failure is caused by you losing to yourself?? Then I wonder if this is a challenge from god, and how god is testing my limits and how far I can push myself. I used to ask god 'why'. Why me, why us, why now, why suddenly? And I know I can't do this. I can't doubt god. So I start to ask god in my prayers, how. How long, how much, how true? And I realise I need to trust god.

Lord, I trust you and please take the wheel to show me what is best for me. Amen.

Saturday, July 14, 2012 / 2:26:00 AM

Why is it that everytime I tell myself not to lose faith in all that is happening, something must happen. Just how long can I hold on for you guys. Really.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012 / 11:35:00 PM

Sometimes I wonder if it is really true that you can't fight your fate.

Cousin was such a strong woman with one of the greatest will power anyone could ever have. She battled for four years. She never once gave up, never once grumbled about all the pain and suffering she was going through. She was such a great woman I admire so much.

Leaving four kids behind, she passed away on Sunday.

It really pains my heart to see that her younger kids are still not really aware of what is happening. And it even more pain my heart to see her eldest daughter witholding her tears. And her only son had to go through all the prayers on behalf of his siblings. I'll try my best to help them in any way I can.

Rest in peace, and I know you are in a better place.

Sunday, July 8, 2012 / 3:40:00 AM

I feel like a Cinderella who lost everything past midnight.

Life is so uncertain right now for me. Just cause of a decision Dad made impulsively. Talked to him for only about two sentances for the past few days. I'm not exactly angry with him, but I know what I say will not make him change his mind. I guess I'll just let him cool himself down with time first.

Why am I losing so many things out of a sudden? I can definitely say this is the most difficult period in my whole damn life. Really. My once peaceful life is filled with ever changing problems now. Nobody knows what I'm going through. No one knows. I don't expect anyone to know either.

For once, I'm using booze to numb myself.

Friday, June 29, 2012 / 3:04:00 PM

We drifted, or rather we became strangers. You are clueless on what have become, but for I chose everything that is happening to us. Maybe I can’t be any more patient with you, or that the incident in Bangkok have left too much of a scar in my heart.

I thank you for being my pillar of strength on many occasions. But I have also stood by you countless of times and offered you help readily. It was mutual; we were always willing to help one another. Then, I felt that I was only the only one giving, and many said too so. I asked myself, why am I doing so much when you don’t even seem to appreciate.

I wanted to see how much will you go for me, or how important am I to you. But you didn’t prove anything and I just saw how vulnerable our friendship was. Maybe it’s god’s will that V gave me an advice before he left. And it struck me hard. I gave you another chance, but you let me down once again. This time round, I’m really disappointed. I’ve never got so disappointed in any one else in my life before. Probably that’s cause no one matters as much as you before.

Maybe I’m just your life buoy. Someone you turn to when you need help. I’m always willing to be your life buoy, but you once threw me aside because you found a better one. 14 days – the amount of days you didn’t talk to me after you found Sam. Then you needed help to forget her and I tried my best to help you in every possible way I can. But the Bangkok incident was too much to handle. I never fell so sick in my life before, and you didn’t even care less. All you cared was Sam being affectionate to you. There are a thousand more reasons why I’ve got so tired of you. Too much for me to say but I guess this is enough for me.

I’ve got to let you go, for it’s painful for me.

Bye gff

Monday, June 25, 2012 / 12:42:00 AM

Sometimes, I don't know who can I tell my problems to cos he/she may already have a lot of personal problems to attend to. I really don't, which is why I turn to blogging.

I wonder how many people take me for granted. For I'm always there for people when they need me, but when things really happen I don't really know who to go to. Or perhaps I'm defensive in the sense that I don't want people to see that I'm weak. So I don't go around saying.

So on saturday, something happened that really hit me hard. I got very afraid and helpless. But when friends message me or call me, I pretend to sound like my usual self. I contemplated on telling them, but something held me back. I've no idea what is it, but I just don't feel like saying becos nothing is gonna help. I didn't cry, I didn't panic. But I felt awful. Very awful.

And now again, I don't want to say what exactly happened. Argh, what's with me and my defensive shield.

It's been 11 days since we last message. 30 days since we last converse properly. I chose this I know. But this is the only way out though when I was at my lowest, I really needed you by my side.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012 / 1:31:00 AM

Sometimes, I really think a lot about life. Like how will I be in future? How many kids will I have? How much will I be earning? How will my parents be coping when they are old? Many questions. Many uncertainties.

I've made many conversations about life with my best friends. We all have dreams. The greatest dreams. But I wonder, how many of us can achieve what we want? And all of our talks about life mostly revolve around ourselves and our careers. What about love, friendships and family ties?

So I thought to myself, what exactly is the most important to me. Then I use my choice of university course as an example. Through my poly years, I didn't touch much on numbers. My course was mainly about ideas and presentation. I love and enjoyed marketing. Then I thought, I needed more money in life. So banking and finance would be a better way out for me to earn big bucks. A decision between passion and money. I chose money. I've no idea how much or how long can I do this but I hope it will be long enough to get me sufficient money to do very much where my interest lies.

Then I reflect on what I have been doing since holidays started in Feb. Going overseas, enjoying and slacking every single day away with my own friends. But recently, guilt struck me. I realised I haven't spending time with my own family. What on earth was I doing. So mother's day was the perfect day for me to pamper my mom. I brought mom to a jewellery shop, got a necklace for her, and mom was so happy. I pause and reflect again. If Mom can be such a happy woman with a single gift, what about me?

So what exactly am I chasing for in life? Money? I don't know but I'm trying to set priorities right now.

Friday, March 30, 2012 / 11:37:00 PM

For the past one month, I went to Hong Kong and Bintan. Both are impromtu trips and no words can express how awesome the trips were. Not to mention travelling with my fav bunch of people. Been spending really alot on these trips and also on shopping. Time to control! Going Batam in one week time for 7 days to help the less fortunate. Think it's gonna be a life changing experience. (:

Joined an online tv business competition with three other friends. Really a good experience and was able to network. But I don't get it. Why is it that everytime I think that something is gonna be mine, it wouldn't be? Is it that I must walk through the long way before I can savour anything nice? First is the freaking all rounder award and now is the best presenter. Just when I'm so freaking confident in getting something, I just have to not get it. Seriously, I will take the humble pie. I should get what I deserve.

I knew the client was impressed by me. And I so want that iPad sponsored by her omg. Such a marginal lost. ): But then again, I knew god had a plan. Thank you lord for the path you have given me and I will treasure it. Monetary gains isn't everything. I know. Thank you.

At this point in time, I'm facing a dilemma. Which uni to go? How will my future be like? What should I major in? I so want to succeed. I so badly do. But I just keep reminding myself, less haste pls.

Saturday, February 25, 2012 / 12:06:00 AM

So ever since school's out, I've been trying to have fun, shop and do things that I have sacrifice for the past three years. But sad enough, most of my buddies are still having their exams.

But good enough, I had a fun day at Universal Studios on wednesday! (: Been three months since I last stepped into that place. And it's the first time I'm paying to get in. Sighs, internship days. But I really had lots of fun! Short post today, ciaos!

Monday, February 20, 2012 / 2:37:00 AM

Suddenly, I have nothing to do. No more projects, no more tests, no more school. Going out till late every single night. My body is going to break soon. Waiting for all other friends to graduate and I hope then my life will be super fun and exciting.

I said I've forgotten. I said I'm fine. I said I'm moving on. But why is it that everytime I see you, my heart still ache. But just a little. A little, with a bit of hatred.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012 / 12:18:00 AM

Life been pretty much busy with projects. Trying to catch up with friends amidst all these work. This semesters' projects are the hardest to deal with so far. Last semester, just go only!

Still trying to live life without you. No idea why I'm reacting this way. I hate to see your tweets. I detour when I see you down the corridor. And I get angsty when you don't talk to me first on msn. But it's alright. Cos the feelings I have for you is fading. And I guess this is the best remedy.

Sometimes, behind all the wide smiles and the strong character I show, I'm still afterall just another girl. Yes, I admit I've got quite a strong character. But it's tiring fighting alone. Just need a shoulder to lean on at times, and someone to reassure me that all is fine and I'm not alone.

Sunday, January 29, 2012 / 12:54:00 AM

Something is not right. We both know it. Something is missing, but I just can't seem to pinpoint any. Is it that we are not caring much anymore, or we can't be bothered? I used to be able to share everything and anything with you. But now, I don't think you know what's really going on in my life anymore. Maybe I've changed, or maybe you did. Maybe we both realised that we really have different lifestyles and different dreams we are chasing for. Maybe you have found a better someone that can better entertain you and keep you happy.

I want things to be like the past, but I just do not have the time and energy to keep up with you. Prolly I was living too much of your lifestyle but now I can't afford to. So am I just gonna let you leave? I've no choice, or prolly that's the best way out... finally.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012 / 1:26:00 AM

Time flies, & here goes my 3 years as a volleyballer in TP. Officially ended my last competition on friday and most prolly I won't be playing competitive volleyball again. I thank god for the awesome team he gave me for the past three years. This bunch of people are people whom I really wouldn't forget in my life, because we have been through too much.

I appreciate those who stood by me during the toughest times. I appreciate those who share the glory with me, shoulder the burden with me, grumble with me, ran with me and take care of me. I really appreciate every single person in the team, especially my batch of volleyballers.

Thanks Weizhi, Weixin, Jingxian, Shanice, Michelle, Weishi, Sean, Apple, and Seth ge for going through with me 3 polite, 3 ivp and 15 days for Bangkok. It's all god plan for bringing us together, and to bond us to become bros and sis.

I could go on and on talking about my team. But I shall leave it for another time. For for projects cos school is really hectic now. Till then!

Saturday, January 7, 2012 / 2:37:00 PM

Been two months since I last updated my blog and it seems like I've completed my internship donkey years ago cos too much have been going on ever since I went back to school.

Really enjoy life in school but honestly, I've got too much to handle. Never felt so time pressured before in my life. My last competition, tons of projects, crash course modules and many many other things that are really important to me. Then again, who really understands. Who can help me. I know, prioritise. But now I feel that my last competition is something that I want to do well first. But this may be unfair to my groupmates. So I'm already trying my very best to juggle both well. At least for now.

Mentally exhausted. So much that I've made up my mind, it's still difficult. I struggled and struggled and I just can't get over. How much do I really mean to you? What if I disappear from your life?

Sunday, November 20, 2011 / 2:39:00 PM

Been quite long since I last blogged. How time flies! Two more weeks to the end of my internship. Internship have definitely gave me good insights about the corporate world. Kind of sad that all is coming to an end. No more free entry to Universal Studios, no more privileges. But then again, I'm really excited to get back to sch to be with all my friends again. The next three months in sch is going to be fast-paced. Then we'll all graduate. We see friends going to army, we see friends starting their career, and we see friends further their studies. Everyone's gonna lead their own life.

Shouldn't bother about that now. It's better if I focus on life as it is. Life have been rather awesome with no stress. Nothing much is bothering me except for one thing. It always have been Volleyball. I don't know why I let it bother me so much. Seriously, Volleyball is a chore in year 3. Year 1 and year 2 was awesome with awesome people, awesome teamwork. This year is messed up. Screw this year. If not for a little sense of commitment and the teamates I have fought with for the past two years, I would have long left.

& then again, so much of commitment. Everyone's selfish. But I can't bear to be selfish to my buddies who are still in the team. I could just walk away, and let another setter be the main position. Then during IVP I will just be there to watch. Not as a reserve, but a spectator. It's planned, but I can't bear to do so. & what about my buddies. I guess they are staying cos of the same reason. When did our passion become a burden?

Prolly its my fault. I let perception manipulate me. But afterall, I'm still a human.

Monday, October 3, 2011 / 10:55:00 PM

Was back in school on Saturday and it felt great! Catching up with friends and all. Meeting friends for dinner after work is also one of the best things that can happen now. May this two months pass fast and get me back to school. Afterwhich Bangkok trip with TPVB (:

Okay that's about it for now. Peace out.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011 / 5:00:00 PM

Deleted some of my old, negative posts and I guess I'm more or less able to move on! (:

So I've finally finish up this semester with my business calculus exam yesterday. Manageable paper I guess? I really need to score to pull my grades up. Sighs, this semester's gpa sure would be quite bad. But oh wells, I'll treat it as a wakeup call and do better next semester then!

This semester is the most challenging semester in my whole poly life. Not just about studies, but about everything else. Wasn't rational enough and didn't manage to prioritize my workload. What to do, just learn from it lo. :<

But not all is negative about this semester. At least I got to know more people, and have better shaped myself to be a better person. But tsk, I think I grumbled quite a fair bit. haha. Must control if not all my friends run away already haha.

Okay, so I've got 21 days of holidays before my internship starts. But I'm gonna spend 4 days working at Canon for Comex Show and 3 days for tpvb chalet. Plus tmr have to get my ass down to school again for client presentation. What.is.holiday??

Ohhhh weellllllls! Tbh, I don't know what to expect for internship. :/ Please let it be a fun one k? I'm gonna spend 3 months there alone on pulau sentosa leh. Be kind to me! Actually, I would have prefer to go intern at the agency side instead of a client side. Aiya, but internship only! Also not say really work there right? Okay, enough of talking to myself. Peace out.

Thursday, August 18, 2011 / 2:06:00 AM

Today's a good day. Well, of cos there's some unpleasant moments but I guess I handled them well. If it was the past, I would have flare up and lost it all. But today, I kept my composure and left with dignity. How nice, a sweet defeat.

Sunday, August 7, 2011 / 11:45:00 PM

Bro's in army! House have been so much quieter without him around. Won't be seeing him for two full weeks before he gets to come home. So now its my turn to accompany my parents. Everytime I go out I feel guilty:x

If only women have to go through army, I will be more than willing to go! Experience new stuffs, get to know more friends and earn money stress free! But oh wells, it will never happen. And no, I won't volunteer to go army. As in I will be more than willing to go only if all are compulsory to go. Won't want to lag behind for two years. (:

Life's getting awesome and I'm becoming more like myself. Prolly that's cos volleyball have been out of my life for the past 1 week. I freaking have so much time for myself! Without trainings, I don't have to face people I don"t want to face, I don't have to try to perform well for coach, and I don't have to reach home at godly hours. It really decreases the amount of stress I currently have, by more than half. This ascertain the decision that I have made. This time round, I tell myself try not to be so emotionally attached.

But I know when I announce it out, some will just follow me and it becomes my fault. So prolly. Its going to be a slient one. A real slient one.

Oh wells! That apart, I'm enjoying every bit of my life now with all submissions done. (:
Thanks god for the strength you have given me to pass this semester. I became a stronger woman.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011 / 12:46:00 AM

Threw the medal on the floor, hard. I really hate this medal. This finals is really screwed up. Screwed up.

It's really hard to accept defeat, especially in my final polite. If only all of us were less nervous, if only all of us had more discipline, we might win. Self discipline is the key word. We can only be better if everyone listens to instructions, give and take. But all is not happening in this team. We played our own game with no teamwork. Half a battle was lost. Such an ugly defeat.

I didn't cry, I was just pissed off with myself and prolly part of the team. I didn't cry until I saw my ex-captain when she gave me a big hug telling me I've done my best. I felt bad. And it made me start thinking of what is a captain's responsibility. I tried my best to avoid whatever captain and vice captain position. But when the vice captain position was being pushed to me, I thought everything will be good since I'm not the captain. But I was wrong. Very wrong. It seems like everyone bypass this captain position and comes to me instead. Advisors come talking to me etc etc. I just hope that I can stop doing captain stuffs for once. Cause I am bloody hell not a captain. So now when the team lose the title, its all my fault again. Fml seriously. I am not a captain. JUST STOP COMING TO ME.

Thursday, July 28, 2011 / 12:19:00 AM

After Polite in year 1, I told coach I wanted to quit. Then we had some talk, and I stayed on.
After Polite in year 2, I really wanted to quit. But the buddies there were the main reason why I stayed on.
Then suddenly its Polite in year 3. This year feel so much different.

It just feel different when winning is so much more important than anything else. Its about retaining the title the seniors and us fought for the past 5 years. When the advisors and management ask if I'm confident to win this whole thing, I just don't know what to reply. I don't want to overpromise, but yet at the same time I think we can do this all together.

So everytime when an opponent's score is close to ours. I just get stressed out. And once I get stressed out, I can never set well. Who knows that actually before every match I will have this 'Can I skip this match?' mentality. Its not that I'm being afraid. But most of the time I'm playing a match with like only 1.5 to 3 hours of sleep. How to perform well with so little energy? I just hate the feeling that others may think that I'm a lousy player.

But anyway we fought hard. And I think this team is bonded now already. Just one more to go this coming monday.

Once again, our slogan for finals.
Lets do this for coach, for ourselves and for TP.

Sunday, July 24, 2011 / 3:07:00 AM

My blog says, the love to laugh. What an irony.

Thinking back, when have I become such a pessimistic person.

I remembered I used to laugh heartily every single day, had little worries and enjoyed my life to the max. Literally to the max. But now, everyday I worry about something, sad about something, and I don't enjoy life as much as I used to.

Probably its part of growing up. Whereby you will be more stressful, experience more stuffs and all. But when will all these stop? I don't know. Right now except for whining I can't do anything much. And I don't really know who to whine to. Others have their problems too. Not that they are any much better. So I guess sometimes I should just suck it up and things will be fine.

Thursday, July 21, 2011 / 5:14:00 PM

Helpless

I never once teared for my project. But now I do.

Monday, July 11, 2011 / 12:30:00 AM

Who made the promise. You did.
Who broke the promise. You did it too.

Thursday, July 7, 2011 / 8:51:00 PM

High Expectations.

I so want to excel in studies,
excel in life,
excel in volleyball,
excel as a person,
& excel in everything else.

But afterall, I'm just a human.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011 / 12:44:00 AM

I really wonder who still read this blog, but oh wells!

Life. So far, so bad. Kind of crazy cos shit stuffs are all happening to me suddenly. SUDDENLY. Why me?! No one really knows how much I'm going through recently. Part of me just don't feel like sharing. But seriously, I have no idea why everything is happening to me. I ask myself and I think I don't deserve such karma. Prolly yes but not that much.

Its draining. Mentally and physically challenging. Sometimes, I just wish to break down and cry. Cry like there's no tommorrow. But what for. At the end of the day, not like its going to change anything of everything. I just need someone to give me assurance, be my listening ear, support me, accept my shortcomings.

Just wants everything to be over ASAP

Wednesday, May 11, 2011 / 1:10:00 AM

This semester gonna be a huge challenge for me.

Sometimes I get really angsty. I don't understand the way some people do things. Perception plays a huge role here and I try to tell myself not to view people with certain perception I had of him/her already in mind. But normally this don't work.

Coming to projects I am always the more dominant one and I don't wish to deny that. But somehow somewhat, I'm a follower now. I never liked being a follower. I wish for people to use my ideas, to recognise my efforts. Prolly its only the beginning, and I hope things will change for the better. But please let it be fast, cos school's really taking it toll on me already.

Volleyball have been rather alright. Team is good and my buddies are all there. Competition coming real soon, and this time round all eyes will be on us. Really hope to retain the title so that we can lift our heads up high.

An irritating cyst decided to plant itself on my face. Next to my eye and the root of my nose. Been to the doc, and he referred me to the hospital. To be honest, I'm quite scare. Cos its the first time that I've been diagnosed with stuffs like that. Researched quite alot on it, and it seems like this cyst gonna leave its footprints on my face. Zzz. Operation gonna take up my time and I don't think I would be able to play volleyball for a period of time too to minimise risk of infection and what happens if the ball happen to hit my wound! So yeah, this cyst bringing me quite a fair bit of trouble.

Bro's on holiday with his friends now. ENVY!! Waiting for my turn to come. (:

Jane

Monday, April 25, 2011 / 12:32:00 AM

Tmr (or probably later) is the start of my final year in TP. How time flies! From freshies, to junior year and to final year! I guess junior year is the most fruitful year of all. I get to know more people, be more outspoken, learn to take things in my stride and was offered more opportunities. But at the same time, junior year was the most stressful year of all!

But I think final year is gonna be more stressful right. Internships. zzzz. Talking about internship, I just can't seem to find an appropriate company for me to work in. Self secure deadline is just this friday. Dang, prolly just gonna let school assign me a company.

New semester, new class, new people, new personalities. I hope everything will go well. (:
Okay, time to sleep. Orientation for yr 2 marketing students tmr. Shall blog about week 0 the next time!

Sleep well, cos its another battle again. don't be complacent

Jane

Sunday, April 3, 2011 / 10:53:00 PM

Bought a new camera today! Liked it alot. Awesome color and functions. But most impressed by the panorama function. I will be bringing it everywhere I go from now on. I really hope this won't get spoilt. Cos I'm sick and tired of my gadgets being spoilt! Handphone, laptop, ipod. ZZZ. Talking about my handphone, I just sent my Aino in for repair today. The person say its gonna cost about $100+? Seriously man. Sony Ericsson is such a disappointment. I'm not gonna buy a phone from there again!! They have just lost a loyal customer. So thats one reason why I didn't went to see Sony cameras HAHAH. I know no link but the word SONY just pissed me off today. Okay spending too much. I'm gonna stop shopping. Or prolly after I buy my boots and necklance. :D Jane

Sunday, March 27, 2011 / 11:17:00 PM

Enjoying every bit of my holidays right now!

Happy happy & happy. Two weeks ago my group and I were called back to school to present our project to Quaker Oats. Good for resume! Not much pictures to share for this.

And the long lost Celebration Of Learning(COL) pictures next.

MIG main comm year 2 girls

My Class!

Girls & Ms Reena

The guys

& my project mates

COL marks the end of year 2 and we are going to our final year! How fast. Just one more semester, then internship and we will all graduate. The past one year was really tough and it went by really fast. We just kept working on and on for deadlines. But it was all worth it. (: Next semester I will have new classmates. The Business Calculus class. Hate that subject the most! Amaths all over again and I remember how badly I scored during secondary school! Argh, but I chose it myself. So I better start liking the subject and work hard for it.

I thank every single person in my class for making year 2 enjoyable for me. They are really nice people. Nice to joke around with and had fun with them! Even though we didn't bond much in semester 2.1, but we started to get really close in semester 2.2! It always happens this way! Just when the class starts to get bonded, we will all get splited up! Looking forward to class gathering nowwww. (:

To coach's house for dinner. Saw coach's 1mth old baby. Cute maax! Fun joy laughter w TPVB. How to not love them!

Always wanted to try working at IT fair cos it seems that you will be able to earn alot and it looks like an easy job. But I was wrong! Didn't expect myself to work at this IT fair though. It was all by chance haha. Only started working on the second day of IT fair cos Epicentre needed more manpower. So when I was asleep I received a call from Jelly and I rushed down to Ion Epicentre for training. Got to know Apple's HR person and I talked to her about internship and all. She was telling me how bitchy the girls in their Marketing department is. :/ How to work there like that?!

But anyway, forget about the internship part. Working at IT fair was really awesome! Everything is about commission, so it was hell competitive there. Water break, toilet, lunch time or dinner time is your own call. But it also means lesser sales which will reflect badly on you. So for the 3 days there, for 12 hours straight I had no food, 1 cup of water and 1 toilet break. I think for the whole 12 hours I talked for 11 hours 59 minutes. Seriously, I just kept pushing sales like no tmr. hahaha and after IT fair i fell sick for a week. Must be cos no food my body cannot take it! ): But it was really fun! At least I managed to try working at an IT show. Really must try once in your lifetime. hehhee. Guess I won't be working anymore this holidays but if some fun jobs come around I will wanna try! hehhee

TPVB chalet at coasta sands pasir ris. Didn't drive there cos I'm scare I will get lost. Its so hard to find my way to PIE la. haaha. But lucky enough weixin drove there and she picked me up from mrt. Had bbq and played in-between. In-between was fun! Zisheng called ALL-IN twice and both he had the same card! So the first time he paid $40+. And the second ALL-IN he paid $95. Saw his face turn red and was damn hilarious. :S

Haven met up with Ivan, Jereld and Jelly for a long time. All busy with school work and especially we are all from different diplomas. So we decided to go to Jereld's house for Ivan's belated bday suprise. Jelly and I met early to buy food and cake for Ivan. Nearly died from the heat. hahaha. So Jereld the saviour came in his bmw to fetch us to his house. We are his first passengers after since he pass hahha.

FOOOODDDDDDD (: There's more okay!

Happy belated birthday Ivan!

The awesome outdoor area at Jereld's house

Plus pool

Ktv

Kinect Set

All thanks to Jereld the host!

I think without them I would have slack off in terms of academic wise. Cos all three of them always spur me on, reminding me to do my best (:

Steamboat was not satisfying but it was the company that matters more (: Too bad the other four guys couldn't make it. How sad ): Next outing I will ensure all 10 of us make it. Promiseeee.

One more month of holidays to go.

Motto: Live each day as enjoyable as I can

Jane

Thursday, March 10, 2011 / 12:10:00 AM

Haven't been updating my blog for the past two months! See how busy I was with schoolwork and stuffs. But it's holidays now! Oh yeah time to find companies to intern at. Have been anticipating for this day to come. Where I get to experience the dog-eat-dog world and finally come to realise that schooling is still the best.

Much stuffs have been going on for the past two months! Good and bad. Well, I can't always expect only good things to happen for me right?! (: But I managed to go by them, and become a better woman!

I had my driving test today and I passed! YAY! (: The tester was really fierce and he looked grumpy. Can't stand it! Road conditions were really bad. Worse of all my driving lessons. Bicycle suddenly pass infront of my car, full of cars when I need to overtake four lanes, green light turned amber when I have decided to accelerate. But oh wells! All is over. (: You know what, I will really miss CDC. I miss the instructors, not all but some. They were really nice people. Enjoyed talking to them and listening to their stories and all. We joked and talked without any real motives. It was nice la! Anyway, if you need any recommendations for fixed instructors ask me okay! (:

Feels really happy now that I'm done with driving. Okay, I'm free! Who wants to ask me out noooooowwwwwwww!

Jane

Tuesday, January 4, 2011 / 2:04:00 AM

Sick sick sick. Sick for 4 days, over 4 important days. Went to see a doctor on a sunday which caused my dad a bomb. Was really expensive. Probably thats cause very few clinics are open on a sunday. But oh well, gained me a MC which caused me to skip my presentation. Gonna present alone next week. Sucky or what.

It's January again. Hate January alot. I foresee that this month its going to be a very busy month. Projects, Submissions, Presentation, Tests, FTT, Driving practicals and IVP. Gah, just saw the IVP matches fixtures and it clashes with many of my stuffs. Suayyyy.

Really angsty this few days. But hope I will be okay after awhile.

Just recently, I had a conversation with a friend that confessed quite a number of things to me. I actually liked it. I wasn't turn off or what, in fact I admire the courage to saying all these things that might change the perception of the person in my mind. I start to let things go. And accept that friend. I think life will be better if everyone were true to one another.

Saturday, December 18, 2010 / 12:09:00 AM

I'm feeling really awesome right now! Midsem tests are all over and there's 2 weeks of holidays! Bangkok trip, birthday parties, christmas party and countdown to new year. Gahh, really excited! Okay, short post today! Will post when I'm back from Bangkok! Till then, take care!

Monday, November 29, 2010 / 11:49:00 PM

Today was really awesome! Started out with a solo presentation today with a weightage of 25%. So huge! And I was really nervous! :/ Guess it was quite alright. And I went to meet a client with my group for project today. The client was reaaaalllllyyyy hot. The moment he stepped in, we girls were like 'WOAH, you must be kidding'. We did our mini presentation with him and he insisted on treating krystel, cheryl and I frozen yogurt. HOHOHO TAKE THAT. :D and his eyes were really gorgeous. hehehe. shucks, I sound like some crazy teenage girl out there now. nooo!

And I went shopping at Nex. Such a big mall so near my house. Super happy man! Bought some stuffs. Satisfied! Okay im going off to bed! :D

Jane.

Thursday, November 18, 2010 / 2:00:00 AM

Hi guys! Life's better now. But soon enough, my life will be filled with nothing but projects projects and projects. I really want this semester to pass real quick! I want my next holiday to be a fruitful one! Getaway and all. hees.

Went to be mystery shoppers for my project yesterday. Was really fun and cool! The staff was really knowledgable. I really wonder if she knows that we were mystery shoppers and thats the reason why she was so nice to us? hehe. And I remembered this part where we need to test if she was bilingual? I swear it was really funny! We tried speaking in mandarin but she just replied us back in english, till finally she said something like 不会的 and we just looked at each other and all noded our head. hahaha. I also saw my secsch teacher shopping there and I got to lie to her that I'm there to purchase a gift for my friend. No choice, mystery shopper! :S

I'm sleeping really late these days even though I have early lessons the next day! I need to change my body clock! Its been like 3 weeks since we have started school but I still can't get use to the jane-need-to-sleep-early-wake-up-early girl. ._.

I just booked my driving practical lessons online. Cost about $500+ for like 7 lessons? Seriously, why is driving so costly! Like $68 for a 1.5 hour class ya know. And you need about 20+ lessons and not to mention those practical test theory test and all. And for goodness sake I'm booking for the month of Jan! Its like so limited car slots till I must wait at my computer to click. Last month, I wanted to book my practical lessons just 2 days after they open the booking system for the month of december and guess what! ALL RAN OUT. walaoeh. ):

OMGGGGG. As I'm typing this post I'm craving for milk tea. Those with lots off milk in it! MANNNNN. ):

Okay, I'll try to go to bed early today.

Jane.