Come Home.

Alright yes i know Terms start in TWO DAYS!
After school today, emms, ferlica, rach & i had lunch and htht.

Rach went for chinese while we tried to study.... NOT. the construction was so noisy ! Sigh.
Emms and i cabbed to gut after rach & ferlica went for trng. i was contemplating whether to go for a run with them but the sun was so hot and my shin (AGAIN-.-) is still aching.

well i kinda miss training ): and hockey. rahhhhh.

So, GUT. calvin was there, and so was xin. gut was rather quiet and conducive today :D love it. i tried to chiong my Bangkok Case Study but i took forever. and i'm hardly done with my math tutorial. i need to do London Case Study BY TONIGHT!! sucks mans ! i can't believe GEOG AND ECONS ARE ON THE SAME DAY !!!!

sacrifice, physics again -.- damnn.

emms and xin stayed till 930pm or so. my sister sent charles to come pick me up and buy icecream for her, lol. he really embarrassed me when he saw all my things sprawled out on the table -.-

YESTERDAY. i came home right after school, ate, napped, and went for a run. GOODNESS. i really am getting very unfit after hockey has stopped for me. the run back was extremly torturous. i was so delighted when i saw the Esso at my hill, lol. the woman probably thought i was some weirdo. panting like a dog and perspiring like a bull.
i tried to study after showering okay!

I kinda over-saw a situation that took place in school today and i just realised how real it was. I'd never expect people to behave this way and have such a shallow attitude in dealing with facts of life. It really grossed me out. Well, i'm just upset that it's affecting a friend of mine. I mean, why can't people just see the bigger picture? They think that the whole world is hurting them, and that whatever they do is perfect, that whatever they do doesn't hurt anyone esle. It really, really, sucks to see my friend having to go through all these everyday she steps into her class. I just wish i could be there for her every hour, but not being in hockey anymore just lessens the time that i can spend with her. Sigh.
Yes, someone out that is getting hurt too, but the whole matter drifted away from its main topic and i've no idea why. They can't see, they can't tell. well not all of them, but some. they can't notice that she's suffocating under all these unneccesary pressure.
i know i'm poking my nose too much in this whole issue. But i'm sorry, you've gone too far, you're hurting my friend too much, and it hurts me to see her go through this. She's trying so hard to be strong and not let it affect terms & hockey. but there's a limit to her endurance and i really hope things will just turn for the better from now on. I'm not blaming anyone, perhaps it's just this period that everyone's so stressed about terms and hence have mixed emotions about situations around them. I'm just praying that you'll all let the matter die down soon and not make another mountain of this silly molehill. She treasures all of you cos you guys mean alot to her too.

i'm gna go back to London & Math now. sian.

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the sun will set for you

They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love.

Maybe Bleeding Love will remain my fav for long. Haha.

aa2 girls on valentines day.

i am tired.
struggle after struggle after struggle i wonder when will everything end.
the feeling of uncertainty tires me enough.
plus, i don't seem to be awaken by the fact that terms are in a week's time cos they're just too many things going through my mind at this point of time.

omg.

anyway, it was amazing how i managed to stay awake today throughout all the lessons. DT made us watch some SUPERHUMAN dvd that really freaked joyce and me out. it's so gruesome ! and i had a sharp pain in my stomach during pccg. i felt horrible ): joyce and kenneth concluded that it was gastric. sch ended soon after so ferlica and i went to buy macaroni! the warm soup was good and i was feeling better :D
shushu, chengjia, barney and i joined the hockers for trng today.
8 rounds of continuous jogs & sprints.
5 x 300m sprints followed by pushups/sit ups with the timing that everyone overshot (EXCEPT CHARMAINE!) cos we were really like zombies already.
then it rained. blahblahblah.

MY THIGHS ARE HURTING SO BADLY I CANT WALK DOWN THE STAIRS PROPERLY ! it was from ystdy's squat jumps during mass pe! sucks man. You should have seen my class girls walking around in school today. we all looked like some old aunties with bone problems ! it was very bad. joyce started screaming in the toilet when she couldn't sit. HAHA. sorry joyce.

after training, they just got worse, i'm walking like a robot now -.-

Oh yea and we caught snippets of the AC VS SA match ! ac won :D!
oh and elton came down to train his juniors so we finally caught up in what seems a million years ! chatted with vt for a while too before i joined the rest for hockey at the D, A WRONG CHOICE MADE, cos my legs were just about to give way. siaaann.

Ferlica, Emms and i headed to Subway for dinner and a good laugh. i miss the sexyloves. it has been ages since we had a proper after-hockey dinner and dessert together!

Rach and Gina seemed really stressed today. YOU BOTH, dont worry we'll all in this together, just know that sexyloves are always here!

I am going to tell Eugene Chua i can't do pe tmr, SERIOUSLY.
tonight is chiong gp night. the package test is really a complete waste of time i tell you. i can't move on to start studying for Geog Terms!

JILL & JOYCE, <3 !

with xin. haha.


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Footprints in the Sand

And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you
When you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
Oh, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

Leona Lewis is good.



Okay yes. probably my first monday without having to carry my shoebag, shinguards, and neon orange hockey stick. it felt really horrible.

SO. today was a struggle, really. i couldn't keep awake during chapel already. my head was so heavy i just had to doze off. and 1hour40mins of GP is a huge challenge. wah, okay this is bad. No, DT wasn't boring, but i was just too tired to give him my full attention. lol. and he was talking about his KI stuff which was a bit too.. densed for me especially when i'm 3/4 asleep. i feel so bad ):

math lect was even worse. our class was seated quite near the front and i unwillingly gave my 100% to stay awake. HAHA. and i thought i was gna collapse during geog but it turned out alright :D amazing. Geog's exciting yo. haha.

went with Jill, Joyce, & Kenneth to Holland V to eat Subway again :D yummy yummy. i laughed till i ached. Joyce tried to climb the slope at the carpark and she got stuck so Jill tried to help her and Jill almost rolled down. HAHA. it was seriously a comedy!




Headed back to school after that to play hockey with Ferlica, Rach, Vanessa, Shushu & Jen. i had fun! but the balls kept rolling into the drain, as usual -.-
they cabbed down to ccab cos 74 took ages to come. i bused home, took a nap, and went for my run which was a failure. i had a damn bad stomach ache when i was near MG. so i thought i should run to MG to take a dump but i felt better after i crossed the bridge -.- my calves were aching too, and i've no idea why. so i abolished my plan of sprinting up my hill.

OH OH OH and i haven't uploaded my sat night photos. sat night was spent with my nanyang friends and we had real fun at the rooftop and overlooking all the shelford road houses. we could even see nanyangprimary! well, yin has gone back to perth, too fast ):

Last night was, hmm, FUNNY.
Maybe BatMan was trying so hard to avoid certain things that he gave up.
yes i watched BatMan Returns, with basketball flings.
OKAY i should go bathe now before i start laughing my ass off again and the bats would fly into room to kill me. LOL.

i haven't done my gp essay ! =/

love you emms <3 !

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Just stop, and stare.

i was damn sleepy in church today, my eyelids were closing on me. SIGH.
met ferlica and shushu at serene in the afternoon to mug. but it was total failure. i couldn't concentrate and i've yet to finish my GP essay. i kept thinking about hockey and how i'm gna adapt to zero pitch trngs from now on. this is torturous.

we left around 7. i was bored of staring into space and trying to think of what to write for my essay -.- there's a frikkin gp package test this thurs, wth i haven't started reading sci & tech ! GDNESS ME.

tuition ystd with emms. her poor ankle is really swollen ): gut after that with the WHOS. and my brother and sisinlaw came in he afternoon.
didn't get much work done either. changed from gp to math to geog and back to gp again. sian.

i wanted to leave at 630. but ANYWAY. emms and i saw this crazy cyclist cycling round and round the guthrie road. it was almost dark and he had shades, and a diseased finger that couldn't bend. okay so i walked home and i saw the same cyclist trying to cycle up my hill as well. i said,"HAVE FUN." but when i turned around to look at the crazy cyclist, he was WALKING, and he was carrying his bike on his shoulder. OKAY i think i should stop, i'm laughing to myself now and it's sooner or later people will classify me as insane.

i could BLOG about the BLOCK that the cyclist had in his mind.
LOL!

i'm playing hockey with ferlica tmr at the D. i have to.

BACK TO HORRIBLE GP.

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and i ran with faith

Yes this is the 2nd post of the day -.-
i feel slightly better after my run with ferlicaaaaa.
we ran towards each other and met at tan chong motors, crossed the bridge and ran to kap again. we had a mini htht again while we slurped our ice lemon tea (: thanks for being there for me ferlica.

and then my classmates came with bags of the youtiao thingy we were selling in school -.- winnie made fel and i eat two each. lol, it tastes... weird.
ANYWAYS, yea so fel and i went our own ways at 8. she ran home, i ran home. Wah i almost died on my hill. running on that hill is suicide i tell you.

at least i'm not so frustrated now.

BYE!

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And deep Inside.

hello all. Yesterday was like the worst valentine's day ever in my entire life.
no okay wait, the atmosphere in school was great, receiving and giving gifts, dedicating songs, playing with the balloons, etc.

but training just shattered my heart into a million pieces ): i'm not ashamed to say this but i didnt make team. i froze at the ccab pitch ystd when Dawn announced our names. i couldn't believe it and seriously, i thought i was in a nightmare.
After all these while, after my schoolmates, classmates, fellow hockers, friends and all were confident and certain that i'd be in, it turned out otherwise.

i'm not trying to be a sore loser and claim that i'm good or whatsoever but i mean, just tell me who isn't shocked. omg i'm really, out of words to describe how i felt yesterday. it was the shittiest and most horrible night ever. oh wells.

it's the first time i've been so disappointed with myself. and even today at school, i didn't want to go for any classes at all cos i felt so sucky and moody. but i want to thank Joyce, Jill and Kenneth for keeping my company throughout and trying to cheer me up.
i walked past the track before i bus-ed home today and my eyes just laid on the D for a good whole minute. images of our trainings on that small little D flashed by and i felt sick again. it really sucks.

but anyways, this has to be said. emmsy, ferlica, rach, shushu, donica, baey, amanda, huihui, liying, barney, thanks for all the hugs and words of comfort yesterday. i'd have felt worse without your presence! really. and of course, for the cheer up msges from floats, joyce, jill, locust, vt, quackers, huihui, don, and all who have tried to help in one way or another.

i had a short chat with floats today, and even though i'm not really close to this classmate of mine, his words do mean a lot. thanks yo.

RIGHT. MOVING ON, dinner was at Al Ameen with Ferlica, Rach & Shushu last night. Rach & Ferlica, i'm really proud of you both okay, plesae remember that (: i know you both feel as horrible cos trngs and hockey dinners will never ever be the same again. but please remember that i want you both to be in the team just as much as i wanted to be!

there wasn't track trng on weds cos of Cross at West Coast. i had fun but i felt bad after that cos well okay nvm i should just stop feeling bad about every bloody single thing in life.
sambaey was my motivation towards the end of the race! (Haha!) Well cos i felt like i was gna die already but she just kept going faster and faster so yea and TADA, the race ended in no time, which is good. It was a great start with Ferlica & Rach, and a fabulous finish with sam.
sam 33rd, jessica 34th and me 35th.
i expected better though. the beginning was full of trying to avoid people and cutting people and squeezing onto the small lane -.-
You don't need to guess the guys and girls champs. lol. Allan and Weilin.

AC HOCKERS after cross!

Dinner was at Botak Jones with Ferlica & shushu.

My foot is still hurting from hockey. SIANNNNN.

i miss hockey already. i'm gna feel so emtpy and shit again next week what the hell.
i'm gna plonk myself at the track with the team on weds i hope they don't kill me LOL!

i slept at like 3am on tuesday/wednesday busy baking cookies and wrapping them in the nice paper. well my effort paid off cos my schoolmates loved them! :D
with my maid's fingers -.-

okay i'm gna take a nap ! gonna go for a run with ferlica and rach later to get rid of all the ARGHHHHH inside me. haha that sentence sounds funny. we'll probably go for dinner too (:
EMMSY I HOPE YOUR ANKLE IS FINE ! TAKE CARE AND SEE YA AT TUITION TMR, LOVE YOU EMMS.

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when you say nothing at all

damn good song, by ronan keating.
went to yin's house on friday night for some yummy CNY food ! love her mum's cooking. lol. and she got a new guitar AGAIN. haha so we were like playing with her 3 guitars in her room, and i think her electric is damn cool. so yea she taught me some new songs too! THANKS YIN, LOVE YOU LOTS, AND SEE YA THIS SAT WITH THE REST ! :D

had math test today. it's so depressing. AND, THE FRIKKIN LT4 WAS SO DARN COLD I ALMOST FROZE ON THE SPOT! my palms were all white and i couldn't write properly ! sucks man.
lunched with shushu & ferlica at the cafe, cos the canteen had no food left, wth. shushu did her hmwrk after that, so ferlica and i played some hockey at the D and the track.

THIS FELICIA CHAN AH. the ball rolled into the drainpipe ! so i tried digging it out with my stick, and now my knees are sore from kneeling on the stupid ground ):
the ball just kept rolling deeper and deeper so ferlica & emms decided to enter the dark smelly drain to retrieve the ball. the funny thing is, SHUSHU got the ball out when both of them were halfway through their journey! and they were shouting from inside the drain but shushu and i couldn't hear them. it was quite hilarious ! (but damn tiring omg)

we cabbed to ccab for training after that. we kept doing sprints(as usual), and i think my fitness is just ROLLING DOWN the hill -.-
and we all thought that team selection was today so everyone was mentally prepared for Dawn's announcement, but it turned out it's on Thursday !

it's really emotionally draining, cos at the end of it, some have to leave. okay let's just not talk about this.

these few days have been filled with surprises. and i've been thinking about a lot of things throughout this whole CNY season, and now, i really don't know what to do. i've absolutely no idea why things nowadays can affect me so badly. Shit. well this is life, and everyone has to move on but i feel so stuck and left in the dark at times. Wth.

and it really sucks to see my friends having problems just as disturbing as well.
the least i can do is be there for them when i'm can.

Emms typed an email for me on Saturday and i just read it. emmsy i've got to let you know you did add some strength to my very very fatique self and i really appreciate all the things you and everyone esle have been doing to push me on. i hope you are feeling better yourself (:

had dinner at prata cafe with the hockers. the butter chicken can't beat the one at al a meen. lol.

mugged math with emms at guthrie on sat after tuition. i was so tired i hardly got anything done =/ but sunday was better, felt more awake. haha. math-ed with ferlica & shushu at Serene's macs. we stayed till like night time! and it's quite conducive. the mocha frappa at their cafe is good but the sugar level is DAMN HIGH i could feel my heart beating damn fast after i finished it :S

i'm tired. so bloody tired of everything.
to the shower and bed. Mmm hmm.
NIGHTS.

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CNY!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL!
CNY eve at school was rather fun. We louhei-ed with our junior class! chenxi brought the yummy Yusheng ! and the concert was alright too. the malay cultural society did some rap that was damn funny cos they changed Rihanna's umbrella song to a cny song and the umbrella part became "BAH KUA, KUA, KUA." okay omg i couldnt stop laughing.

went out with FERLICAAAA after that to town. we wanted to look for nice shoes to buy but there weren't any ): ANYWAYS, we ate at the RAMEN shop in fareast again ! SUPER YUMMY! so we walked around town, and by the time we reached cine, we were walking zombies ! oh wait we bought nice bangles, hair ties, and i bought shades again :D Ferlica kept saying they were nice and i liked it too, so yea, lol. i was deprived of bubble tea! the one at taka closed down and the one at heeren was closed for cny -.-

we decided to make a move cos we could practically sleep walk. both took 174 home and we fell asleep in the bus like within 2 mins of boarding. HAHA. and ferlica knocked her head on the glasspanel. LOL!

walked home from my bustop as usual and this time, when i was halfway on my hill, i saw an Ambulance parked outside my house !! then i saw the paramedics wheel the bed out of my house ! omg i almost fainted, i was so scared !!! i was hoping it wasn't from my house. so i ran up the stupid hill and i saw my driver and some police men talking. OMGGGGG can die. then my dad and some people were talking too. there were like three police cars ! it turns out that my mum's friend came to deliver new year goodies and when she got off the car, HER CAR ROLLED DOWN THE HILL AND OVERTURNED!!!! thank goodness she wasn't in the car and only had a cut on her head ! but it was SO DAMN SCARY cos there was a lot of blood :S oh mans, and she's 72 years old ! i hope she's okay now.

CNY ystd was the usual visiting routine. in law's place, aunt's place, grandaunt's place. all had yummy food :D





VINNIE VEE.

VINNIE & CRYSTAL.

en yuan and the other juniors.

1aa2 & 2aa2 ! we how united yo. HAHA.



DT looks rather huge here.
haha.

Tim Han & Kenneth Koh.

yo.

jasmine beat kennethkoh hands down yo!

Xin, Chenxi and Winnie!

:D

Ceph!

VALLY being a nerd!

Val, Laur, Elys, Rach!

and we saw Jaishree too!

Jaish & Ferlica!

TF FERLICAAA.

at the Ramen shop in fareast again! ms felicia chan :D

reunion dinner at home!

and the car accident.
=/

oh dearr me.

i slept really really late last night like at 4am =X calls after calls. Anyway it makes me feel good that i can lend a ear to a friend who needs to talk about life and stuff that bothers. And sometimes, it just sucks how you can be misunderstood so easily, and that the mood of the situation can just change 180 degress in a few seconds. Yea and i feel like a bitch sometimes cos i take things so seriously and it only ends up me upsetting myself.

maybe i'm just trying too hard. oh wells. i miss my friends, i.e. the whos, vally, and many more. emms and i have tuition tmr at 9am. WHAT THE FREAK right. so damn early, but its good in a way i can have the afternoon to mug math. Siannn.

so this is to LOCUST! i hope youre feeling better, and remember to just take things one step at a time! sorry i was really tired alr so i could have been quite incoherent in my conversation with you. lol. it was in the wee hours of the morning!

my relatives just left, but i can hear my other uncles and aunties downstairs again. time for food and more talk.

more photos from yesteday.
lion dance at my sisterinlaw's place.



aunt's place.




grandaunt's place.

happy kids after watching harrypotter and american idol !

BYE!

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Teardrops on my guitar.

How bout i'm addicted to that song. HAHA.
Things went quite alright today.
The powerpoint ad during assembly was damn funny! cos the Library club were showcasing what vcds we can rent. They had I Not Stupid 2 and they played the clip, the whole school started laughing and staring at ShawnLee's class. lol.

Math & GP took ages to pass :S and we had a timed-piece during Geog tutorial where i was struggling to stay awake. Went to Holland V Subway for lunch with the usual- Joyce, Jill, Kenneth & Nicholas. I can vouch for you that Joyce is a loud hailer, especially when she laughs.

Kennethkoh decided to take a cab so he dropped me & joyce off at school, jill at the mrt. Nick bus-ed home.

i spent about 2hrs or so with Ferlica before trng. We had a mini htht talk. haha. Ferlica, sometimes people are just insensitive towards your feelings, but just stay strong cos i know, we all know, that you haven't done anything wrong. Just remember that we're always here for you, like how you've been there for me all these while too (:

Cabbed down with the WHOS to CCAB cos we were late as usual -.- we had a match among ourselves and omg its the most tiring match ever. i never felt so breathless before and my head was damn pain from all the running drng the match. After we ended match, we were supposed to continue playing but Ms Azlina told us that our booking hasn't been processed so we actually kinda played "illegally" on the pitch =/
but in the end we had PHYSICAL TRAINING on the pitch still -.-
up and down the 75 yard line, jogs, runs, sprints, with the giant water sprinklers turned on. i felt like i was running through a STORM, gdness me. and my contacts rolled somewhere so i couldn't exactly see where i was running. Haha.

but we all felt great after that!
Emms, Ferlica and Shushu rushed home to mug for chem and econs.
Rachlok and i went to Prata Cafe to eat! Yongxin and her parents were there too.
Dad came to buy rojok and pick me up.

i just did the research that DT asked us to do. WHALING.
haven't touched math homework.
SIANNNN. (i'm starting to talk like kennethkoh. eeeeww. OKAY KIDDING!)

i'm meeting some of the ac/mg girls tmr morning at 640am AT MGS CANTEEN TO EAT REDBOWL!!! I CAN'T WAIT !!!!!!

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circle in the sand.

Hello. The week has been busy. it started off with waking up late for school on monday, so my dad and i decided to have breakfast at ghim moh before i went for contact time. Tuesday was "end school early" day, so Joyce, Kenneth, Nicholas and i went to thai express for lunch ! yummy soft shell crab. then i met Emms at guthrie to mug econs till night.

Weds was pitch training, Thurs i didnt go to school, studied econs AGAIN with emms at gut and we bumped into Sam Choo and Sherrrrr. Friday was econs test day and i think it was sucha horror, i'll be very glad to pass it on the dot. Gosh.

Went out with the WHOS for CNY shopping ! :D and we watched 27 Dresses too. It's really nice ! Oh and i bumped into JOYCETAYQIUHUI, Sabby, & Wengfai who were all in the same cinema as us. lol. we walked around to shop for clothes and accessories and we got so tired and hungry. Dinner was at the Ramen shop at Fareast! I had the Hot & Spicy beef Ramen DAMN GOOD. We chatted for really long before heading home. The bustop was PACKED so we took 124 to newton, hoping to get more buses there. It turned out that Val & Briya were on 124 too ! all the buses that went to Newton were filled too, then came 67 which took like half an hour to arrive -.-

Hockey friendly today against EastView, they're really nice people.
played left forward and emms played right forward with me.
if you were to ask me to judge myself, i think i played really badly. My fitness was low, and apparently i didnt run enough and i didn't pull out enough to make space. SIGHHH. my chances of making in to team is just getting lower and lower each day. I'll be really disappointed with myself if i don't, okay everyone will feel the same way with themselves but okay NEVERMIND -.-

After the match, Emms, Ferlicaaaa and i went to serene centre to meet Gina and Shushu who wanted to come down to watch the match but they didnt know it ended so early. Ate at Macs, and we all went home after that. i was so tired to study or do homework, i fell asleep ! haha.

whooohoo chinese new year is coming ! i can hardly wait anymore ! except that there's a frikkin math test on the monday right after cny -.-

ANYWAYS, i totally forgot to blog about the recent O Level results, okay not that recent but yea. MG CLINCHED TOP PLACES AGAINNNN!!! together with SC. oh mans i'm really really proud of the juniors ! (JUU YOURE INCLUDED) many of them did better than expected, it's really amazing. Ms Kon must be really glad.

and yes to joyin leong, 9pts is really good, fret not ! i'm sure you'll make it to ac, pray hard !

OKAY BYEBYE!

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