first up, i do hope tmr's concert will work well x)
my christmas ain't very merry.
at least i had dinner with
pan, grass, limin.at least i could still laugh along with their ghey convs just now.
like when i went,
"OMG, KUNDA !", and all 3 of you girls immediately went,
"HAR WHERE WHY WHO WHAT !?" x) haha i love you girls x)
i just don't understand why you keep looking down on my friends and the company i mix with. i mean, WTF !? you won't let me have a MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE, alright, i'm fine with that. Who knows, you probably just want me to lead a miserable life.
This is not the first time u're doing this to my friends. Do you know that u're just scaring my friends away from me ? Since last year, u've been doing this do almost all my friends. so like now, if they wanna come over, they'll go,"IS YOUR MUM AT HOME?"
what shit is this ? WHAT ? you think i'm gna start smoking and start some gang fight issit ? FINE, WHATEVER YOU THINK. and just now you said,
"NOW YOUR FRIENDS WILL THINK YOU PURPOSELY PLAYED THEM OUT."hello, my friends are more trustworthy than yours. your friends will prob think that way thats why you think that my friends would do the same.
and you thought i was lying about this whole stayover.
i'm not jealous or anything but why can my friends' parents be so sui bian with them while mine gives a restriction to EVERY single thing i do. YEAH, scold me for comparing my parents and others. BUT LOOK, you compare me with so many other students out there and all those shit about me being a freaking lazy asshole. and you won't stop
cursing that i'll fail english and that i won't make it into ACJC.
SO WHAT IF I FAIL ENGLISH? I'LL JUMP DOWN FROM A 20 STOREY BUILDING IF I FAIL ENGLISH, AND I MEAN IT. NOT LIKE YOU CAN PASS CHINESE ANYWAY.
are you afraid that i won't be able to cope with the high standards in Singapore's society or are you afraid that you'll lose face to your friends ? like,"OH HER DAUGHTER IS SO STUPID, SHE'S A FAILURE, WHAT A HORRIBLE DAUGHTER."
you know what? i don't give a damn.
when will you stop restricting me. Why can't i talk to you and say how i feel, why do i always cry out to my friends instead of you ? Why issit that it's so easy for me to talk/hold a conversation with
grace's dad, or
shermy's dad but when it comes to my friends trying to greet you, they get so nervous and worried that you might scold them for some bloody reason. you're not trying to leave me friendless are you ?
and why the hell are you so against
julian ? you really think i'll marry him and be some tai tai and some bitch who knows nothing but julian issit ? why do you always think that all artistes are stupid and know nothing but trying to get more attention ?
i want school to start, i'm sick of staying at home and listening to you scream at me like i'm some dog. at least in school, there's so much freedom to talk about julian and all those other shit gossips. like, even to ms bong, she thinks it's just our way of relaxation. AND YOU !?
"YOU ARE POSSESSED with this idiot from mediacorp."and not too long ago, i had to lie tht the guy on tv isn't julian, just to save me from trouble.
THANKS so much for eventually getting me the germany jacket from adidas, but i didn't need tht jacket to chase my csfies away. i rather have them here right now, instead of your stupid money to buy tht jacket. your money doesn't really buy me everlasting happiness does it ?
FUCK IT.
I HATE TODAY. I HATE YOU.
i really am grateful that my darling
CSFies are not blaming me for this last minute shit. but hey girls, i really am sorry for what has just happened, hope you people are having fun at
grassypoot's house x)
and
JUU, thanks SOOO much for hearing me crying over the phone and talking so much shit just now.
i wanna go to church right now. midnight mass has just started, but you're like,
"OH I'M TIRED, we'll go tmr."you rather sleep than celebrate Christ's birthday.
WOW, what a catholic you are, and i'm not saying i'm a perfect catholic.
``jamiepok chased till the end at 12.01am