hatred is evil but i still hate.

my fone's confiscated. i'm grounded. i wanna cry again. i'm frustrated. i don't like to go to tuitions tht has weird teachers. my study schedule is so packed. i've no time to chase anyone in june. i hate maths. my mum hates julian. i still love julian. i don't hate joanne peh but i STILL don't like her. i wanna CRYYYYY. all i have is memories of them.
i love my fellow csfies+beans.


i can't wait for guides drill again this sat.


i want my freedom and my phone back. i'm always grounded before a SEEJULIANTIME.
wth.


elevendays;

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disjointed.

firstly,HAPPY B'DAY YING!! x)


haha no i'm not disjointed.
i feel weird :S tears are still welling up. my mum not being in singapore's probably the most vital point in saving my life at this moment. but i didn't even dare look at my dad pls. i've never felt worse than this before, but i know, the horrifying numerals on the report book did disappoint him in a BIG way. and i definitely wasn't taking the advantage tht my dad's more lenient than my mum.


he did say one thing. "there is alot of distraction. 5566?" oh i got bloody hell pissed at tht split second. it was a normal reaction, because for three years, my mum has never excused them off for being one of the main reasons to the unsatisfying results. and then i would argue with her about how she should stop pointing her fingers at them. but i stress again, i was only pissed at that split second. then i pictured xiezhi's face. and i surprisingly thought, u're quite a bloody waste of time.


oh i don't believe how i got tempted into this. but i think, i rather my a1s than seeing them one more time. and i mean it.


and my dad ended off with a,"oh liverpool won the championship. they were losing 0-3. not anymore." uh huh i got the point :) and anw, tmr's an exception, as promised, with juu, cheers to toro :)


It's better to look ahead and prepare ;
than to look back, and regret.

let's get our a1s for finals, 3b3`05 x) <333 you all.

and i won't stop loving csfies+beans.

i thank God. i praise God. Amen.


sixteendays :)

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):

two days before report books come out. wish me luck everybody. i just hope csf would have a chance to see toro (: and energy. stewpigg grass is gg away ON HER BURSDAY which is the day tht energy's arriving. POKGALAOSAI you GRASSYPOOT. ahdi's here to see you and u're running away. WALAU.


ahh well. my dad was like I'M SURE SHE'LL DO WELL. and my mum was like I HOPE SO. there they are wondering. and pinning absolutely high hopes. this is real terrible. i'm LOST FOR WORDS pls. there's nothing to express this freaking feeling, i hate it :(( i just hope pan and i can see toro (: at least once before my entire life gets confiscated to the screams, shoutings, and books.


cross country at macritchie tmr.

is he really in singapore? i've got a feeling so. whats up the ceiling, MR WANGGLENPOOOT! x)


eighteendays. much <33.

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whats the matter.

TORO'S COMINGGGGGGGGGGG! x))))))
but i can't chase. SO GHEY. i've got guides drill :S and pancake has to study for chinese o's which is on 31st may. GHEY TORO. OMG I CANT STAND THIS *&^%$#@! WHO MADE A MOUNTAIN OUT OF A MOLEHILL. OVER 8BUCKS?! GET A LIFE PLS. and i'm still S I C K. yucks. my nose is running away from me ! because i have a RUNNING NOSE! ok tht's damn ghey.


am drinking NICE HOAT COFFEE NOW x) didn't go to church. WHOOPS. spread the RUNNING NOSE :S haha. had guides drill yesterday. but it was raining the whole day so we only marched for like 45 mins. and omg it SUPER FUNNY!!!


oh and i'm standing AT THE CORNER AGAIN. WALAU. what if i wheel wrongly :S then everybody's gna wheel wrongly too. HAHA. ok anw, when the parade was on, all of us were at attention except for the g.o.h. and the colours contingent and stuff. so yea, we stood there for so long, so sergent jimmychia decided to entertain me and grace. he was so GHEY pls. OMTA ! look at this.

sergent: mumbles. who was the first president of s'pore?

grace: i don't know, sir.

sergent: flyover bridge.

grace: HAR?!

me: benjamin sheares?

sergent: ok who's the next president of singapore?

grace+me: i don't know.

sergent: ME LAHH ! THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT ! i'm THE NEXT!


OMTA. i nearly died laughing at his GHEY-ness pls. and hello the parade was on leh ! we're supposed to shut up and look straight. ok ANW, ran into formation. grace's and my row is next to SCDF. :S they're like SO BIG+TALL+MUSCULAR+HUMONGOUS. and their guns or whatever ain't very small either. and the tip of their guns point at us, guides' heads. eh we're NOT short ok but omta the guns are so scary :S


everyone was provided kfc for dinner x) grace and i had to go for guides fotoshoot :S so ghey. u're not supposed to look at the cam. wapiang. rained rained rained. and we made lovely friends with the guides from greenridge sec. haha they're so cheerful!


ok anw,i shall stop here. waiting for LEEMEIGIN to come back from m'sia. TING! thanks for getting me the adidas thing x) GRACECHANBEAN, you left me online ! you then pangsai lar. heh x)
i miss csf x).


twentydays:)

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no way back.

yes is there really no way back. i don't like the results. i don't see how some smart asses can get 9 a1s. ok so it's not impossible.


i don't wanna go through the same ordeal again. thankfully, mum's in shanghai now. last year was a bad year. this year, i escaped the 1st term. through certain ways :S but this time. it's really really horrifying. look i failed emaths. hello EMATHS. are you joking? BY ONE FREAKING MARK. oh wow. tht's bad enough. not too long ago, i was utterly satisfied tht i had passed physics. it doesn't make any difference now does it?


i wouldn't mind not chasing anymore. julian's an exception. he's a localie. and i'm seriously regretting chasing 56 on the day before geog test. okayyye. maybe gg to the airporrkk's fine. but i need to do well for endofyears. I HAVE TO, and i WANT TO. finals are 5mths from now. pretty far, but if there are girls who can score 9 a1s, why can't i score 8 a1s? ok i'm expecting too much. but pls, break the impossible, because it's CERTAINLY POSSIBLE. c'mon b3, pls, we can do this x), it's not the end and don't let those pple look down on us x)


much <333.


hope i'm fit enough to march for tmr's drill.


not forgetting CSFIES. we will still remain as one, GALAOSAI x) it's pancake+limin+grass'clone's turn to beat nanasqrs this year. <3 loads.


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sickkk

alright, havent been feeling well since guides drill yestrday :S sorethroat fever and all. yucks.


FIRSTLY, grassypoooott ! x) pls cheer up or later IS AHDI KILL YOU. and he's coming on your BURSDAY ! omltya ghey G.L.S ! SECONDLY, pancakkkeee ! i've exceeded msgs so i didn't reply ur ghey one. HAHAHA.


NDP drill

grace and i left school at 11.15am to guides hq at bishan. with sandra and janice. omltya ! thought we were gna be late pls. in the end, i even managed to sleep for 1/2hr in the HQ ! ghey.


got to nee soon camp ard 1.30pm. omg trng was so *&^!%$# pls. there were the st johns, redcross, scouts, gb, bb, us the guides, army, airforce, navy. yea. and the bloody sun was so SCORCHING + BLAZING. and my sorethroat made it even worse. few of us guides were gna faint :S while i was controlling so hard pls. AHYAH, and the commander had to shout until so loud. as if we're deaf.


so we marched and marched and marched under the stewpig sun. oh but we had a break in the hall.look at this.

one of us guides: sir do you have a plaster?

commander: oh the biscuits are on your left and right.


HAHAHAHAHA omg grace and i went mad laughing. HAHA ! got back to HQ at ard 6.30pm. i was SO tired. reached home at SEHBOON plus. and then i fell totally sick.


school on 180505

got back physics + amaths. oh look, I PASSED PHYSICS ! x) so did grace+faith. ok i've HATED physics since jan-may. and WOW, i shall take the positive side of it now x) amaths, ah shit i dnt like it. chinese + history were give out when grace and i were away. I FAILED YINGYONGWEN. HA. very FUNNEH. now i can't get my a1 for chinese. DAMN GHEY.


didn't go to school tdy. still have dgt sorethoat :S watched wqyl just now x) and went to doctor's. oh wow, mum's in shanghai, dad's in KL, bro's in hongkong, eileen's in taiwan. my sis and i are in spore. my fam's all over the place. shld i go hongkong on sat. then i can pon tuition. but i don't wanna miss drill :(


GIN! haha yea PB is so FAKE pls ! cya tmr. and msn is abit HARVA today so i may nt be online. rmbr to watch ZZEN later ! :))red, thanks, i'll collect them from your desk x) AHHH BYE I'M FREEZING COLDDDDD ! >:(


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pancake and i :)

last night, from 1.45am-6.30am, i watched the last 5 discs of zijingzhidian. HA i love shaowei pls. he's damn fit to be with aki x) i larve.


oh today was a FUNG chopping hair day with MRSSHARLEENFRYINGPANCAKE.

met at 1.30pm and went hunting for juz4hair. it was close pls ! >:( so we went to cross. NO way would i enter klearcutsalon pls. so when we stepped into cross, i went,"SHIT SAM'S NOT HERE." okayy it was damn loud and rude i know :(( so pancake went,"YAH SHAOWEI'S NOT HERE."

RIGHT. hahaha. grass, do you get it. heh.


BEFORE we went to cuttt.







after we cut. taken outside some KOREAN shop :S







in the lift x)






i don't like my hair. tmr, i DONT want to hear the word joannepeh ring in my ear pls. i'll slap the source. HAHAHAHA.

ok then we went WINDOW SHOPPING. and we stood outside popular and listened to k one's SEASONINTHESUN from pan's MPSAN. omg we laughed like shit. evrytime gino goes "BLACK SHEEP OF THE FAMILY..." it nvr failed to sound like BRACK SHEEEP OF THE FAIRMERLEE. oh man yes we were retards. but i don't care. WE HAD FUNG. x)


oh i shit miss jingzhongren. they should have the veeceedee on it. then i can drool over my dear thomas agn. HAHAHA x) bye balleywalleysighey.

a new week in 5hrs. enjoy.


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WHOT.

THIS IS DAMN GHEY GA LAO SAI

gin is NOT my soulmate PLS.

ok grass did this quiz, so mrssharleenPANcake and i decided to do it too.

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Meigin is your soulmate.

You truly love Julian.

You consider PANCAKE your true friend.

You know that Vanessa TANYINING is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Grass for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Lydia is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Thomas Ong is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Mich is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Mich changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Xiezhi is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Xiezhi has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

HAHAHAHAHA ! omltya. yes i LOVE julian x) but xiezhi is SHY meh. piang. my dear si gheys GRASS+PANCAKE have gone offline. to sleep :( you pigs. pan and i are gg to CHOP hair tmr, i mean TODAY. and the rest of csfies are damn act cool.


oh you know k one sang seasons in the sun in their new album and i was laughing like shit just now. nine = NAI, flowers = FROWERS, wine = WHY, song = SALT, black = BRACK, a = EHHHH. stewpig pancake sent the song to grass and i. thanks pan x) but it's so *&@%$&!# pls. HAHAHAHAHA. laugh ga lao sai.


this is sucha GRASS AND PANCAKE entry. ok bye. gin, thanks for helping !:)


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chuanshuozhong.

ok i had no title. and my itunes was playing chuanshuo. and i'm talking shit.


ANW, yesterday's tuition was damn funneh pls ! i kept on laughing until i had a headache :S ok, cos we watched gladiators drng tuition, and this was how it went.

mrs liu: ok basically, the only thing you say in a war is "AHHHHH!"

us: RIGHT.

mrs liu: then what? HEE HEE HEE arh?!


omg can you imagine screaming HEEHEEHEE drng a war :S haha. i bet your enemy would think u're from the asylum. RIGHT.


not too long ago, i was thinking about, who we hate and dislike in school. i won't say i particularly hate this person. but you know, when someone you don't really like, COPIES your actions and stuff, you get more agitated than ever. but when it comes to your OWN friends coapying you, you find it ok and normal. and ok i'm not making any sense so i should SHATTTUPPE x).


OMLTYA ! jingzhongren's ending tonight ! :( no more thomas ong. grrr. and no more morning circle talks in school abt jingzhongren :( and like omg i seriously like thomas ong lar ! HAHAHA. he's so old pls. 36 yrs! tht's so AH PEK lar can. nevertheless, i still love x).
oh and gin's helping me find a new layout. <3 gin ! x)

CSFies ! x) my love. alright we've decided arh, when energy comes, AIRPORK to jie ji pls. and grass can go see AHHHHDDDDIII and drool over him. lalala ball. OH, and at the same time, DETERGENTS for nanasqrs pls. HEH.


i'm afraid of exam results :(


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wo hui wei ni jia you ! (:

c'est si bon!


ALRIGHT ! MIDS ARE OVER! lalala. i suddenly have nothing to study :S so odd. haha. chinese paper today was quite okay (: i crammed everything up last night. from 10.30pm-4.45am. power lar pls. i only slept for like ONE hour :S


man i'll miss sitting outside the hall, then we'd gather in one circle and talk bout jingzhongren and how *&^%$@!# fannwong is, in the show. haha. and i have to admit this, i love thomas ong ! omltya ! he's damn poor thing lar ! tht STEWPIG fannwong HAS to bully him. urghhh.


oh and i think heartlanders will come out in july, not may :S but kuijien's starring in it too ! x) i larve.


time today was mostly spent on walking ard orchard. eeeeyer. i tell you, everybody in taka was so *&^@%#!$ okay ! so stuck up pls. everyone there had an attitude problem. and so we got so pissed with taka, so we left. AH HAHAHA. and chessa lost her fone :( at paragon. ahyah orchard's jinxed today lar pls. stewpig.


and i need to cut my hair before school on monday. no sch tmr and fri. YEA BAYBEH. and dad's gna test drive a new car this sat ! YEA BAYBEH. ok shuttttuppe.

CSFies! miss ya loads ga lao sai ! PANCAKE, then when ! sat? i need to cut BY THIS WEEK PLS ! :S. my dear grass, whats up the ceiling pls x) REEEEmeeen, pls tell redbean she hasn't showed me coffee's pics and zzen's too ! heh.


alright, i'm dead beat. and so is my internet connection. julian's acting as a boy with a 14 yr old mind in X dang an :S EH NOT HIS FAULT pls ! stewpig scriptwriter. ciao !


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OH MY BEAN.

OH MY LAO TIAN YE AH !


HEARTLANDERS FOUR IS COMING OUT THIS MONTH !

omg i can't wait pls ! JULIANNNNNNN ! x)

thank you redbean, for the info x) heh. and now we can confirmed he wasn't lying about the "HEN JIU YI QIAN DE SHI LE." :)


physics paper today. was relatively okay.

i still can't wait for heartlanders !
AND, JINGZHONGREN TONIGHT !


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boreddd of studying.

You Will Die at Age 82

82 Congratulations! You take good care of yourself. You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

What Age Will You Die?

no i don't have alot of time to waste. but i got so bored of physics, so i went tagging. and went to grass's blog. got this up. i'll DIE AT 82. CHOY GA LAO SAI ! but actually, it's a pretty decent age. heh x)

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a few more days.

aloha ! alright baybeh ! just next monday tuesday wednesday and TADA! no more midyrs ! x) all seem to pass in a blink of an eye :) heh. i'm quite scared for physics on monday though. i truly DO suck at it lar pls.


mids:

-english 1

-english 2

-full geog

-chem 1

-chem 2

-emaths 1

-emaths 2

-amaths

-ss

-chinese 1

-chinese 2

-physics 1 / 2

-elect hist


wow. left 3 more papers ! oh but i'm quite sure i screwed up maths :S sigh. and i'm SO GLAD tht the wkend has arrived. needa catch up with sleeeeep ! x) and oh gosh i'm addicted to the new hongkong drama serial my mum has rented ONCE AGAIN. die.


anyhows, JING ZHONG REN in 6 mins ! i love ga lao sai !


PANCAKE ! a few more days to 7260 ! yea baybeh ! i can't wait ga lao sai ! i love mine ok ! and pls get blackkkooo. HEI SHE HUI :S heh.


oh dear i've overshot msging limit >:( ciao !

JINGZHONGREN HERE I COMEEE !


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lost entry.

ah ha my entry disappeared. stewpig internet connection ! anw, geog's really killing me but i get really happy everytime i progress one page cos one page means ALOT ! x) and i'm not gonna study natural vegetation if there's no time. cos i wanna move on to ss. heh.


meeting vanessa at btp soon. study time ! ahyah everytime is a study time lar pls. and i'm definitely gna rush home b4 9pm to watch JING ZHONG REN ! heh. i <3 !


gingin has bathed THRICE today. tht reminds me, i'm gna bathe now. tc !


GOOD LUCK FOR MIDYEARS, SEC THREES !


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