WOW. it's been ages since i've used blogger! HAHA.

oh wells, tumblr's a lil bit too emo for me. should start blogging again and posting up nice photos here! (:

hooray!

time to rush this assignment and head for formal halllll.

miss my boyfriend at golf!

wooohooo. why haven't I been updating this. haha well ok switching over t tumblr soon yo! yin says so.

Of highroads and lowroads

Shunnie just sent me this super damn old song by Travis!
Love Will Come Through.
Well that's cause i was browsing through his song-loaded iPod yesterday night and found some really nice songs (:
AND, he has the original Mad World by Gary Jules and HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW!!
what a smurf.

Today was dental at 230pm, sian.com when will i EVER take off my braces i dont know?! Pepper lunch with shunnie, Night at the Museum 2 at Shaw. the mini Einsteins so damn cute, and the humongous Abraham Lincoln also, HAHAHA. laughed till i almost cried, LOL.

Dropped by BakerzIn at Wisma to visit CHABA HAN ! (pictures another day) she was the only waitress there haha and i love her uniform, it was bright pink!
to home at about 9 plus.
we're gna get our new phones soon yay. I can't believe my stupid phone. It actually hangs EVERY SINGLE DAY NOW. #@$(*?!^*

Kris Allen THE american idol. huh. oh wells i guess people go for the quieter/solemn one. but okay la, not that i'm a fan of lambert but i thought adam deserved it more, i mean, look at the showmanship on stage, the composure and stuff.

MASTER WUGUI ARTONS PANG QI LIANG celebrated his 19th on Saturday at Mykii, the new restaurant at Holland V! And then we headed to Wala Wala where Mark, Zhili, Kelly, Shawn & Shunnie made him drink like crazy! HE HAD...
Waterfall, Graveyard, Butterscotch, Chocolate Martini, Strawberry Margarita, Jager bomb and more at Attica. HAHAHAH and he was still sober !! Applause.
Anyhows, HAPPY BELATED 19TH, WU GUI!

Shunnie kinda ends school tmr, so freedom for 5 weeks! Badminton at warren yay. Damn driving at 1030am, i wonder why i even agreed when mr chua said 1030:S arghhhh. Sian i hate manual i hate manual i hate the S course in the stupid circuit.

I dont feel like studying overseas anymore ): i really hate this!
i'm so damn angry at myself. tell me it's not true.

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow

So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
it's just waiting for you

ITS AN AWESOME SONG!

wake up one morning, and tell me it's all a lie please.
Sorry i'm always running.
Why does this have to happen!
Night.

``jamiepok at 3.20am

You Get Your Fifteen

HI HI HI! omg so sorry no updates but oh wells, yesterday's my last day at IRAS, cos we're like highly overstaffed -.- For the past two weeks i've been complaining that i should quit and tada they decided the date before i could tell them, sian. LOL. but no matter how much i hate waking up early, i'll still miss my colleagues! Work is SOOOOO much better with them around, it feels like going back to school (especially when i see jill every morning:D ) hahaha. and my lunch meals with AHMARI (and shenyean)! and how would iras be without the scary supervisors, awwww.

April- Well the highlight would be the birthday party i had at my place on the day itself, it was really great seeing all my close friends coming to spend that special day with me, just that i didnt have much time for everyone who came ):
my greatest thanks to Melsteph my QAD for helping out with the food. Mel & Sheril and i started panicking in the afternoon cos my brother called and said we wouldn't have enough food for 40+ people so we rushed with whatever we could. Mel's Shepherd's Pie was gone within 20mins i didn't even take some for myself! thank goodness she kept a slice for me (: THANKS CHEF WONG! :D

SHABANANANANAN, GINATHEGIAN, SHAWNQUEKMYQUACKERS, AND MY BESTESTSISTER, thanks for helping out with the decors and balloons and cupcake icing! :D
AHMARI, FATTYFEL & SHUNNIE, for coming over the day before and baking the 70 over cupcakes with me, we sure did have A LOT of fun! Hahaha.

And of course, to everyone esle for coming, and for the presents (:
Xin, thanks for coming all the way to deliver my present yesterday, i hope the hill gave you a good workout, HAHA.

Partying was at the good ole' Rebel. Thanks girls and boys, i know ya'll had late nights with my video and were ultra tired already, but still headed out with me! Much love to all of you-Emmsy, Ferlica, Shuubs, Cheryl, Shirlene, Shunnie, Mattmatt, Shawn, Art & Zhili !!

MEL, SHERIL & SHAB, thanks again for staying over with me where we had our girlie talk till 3am, it was awesome, i miss B3 ):
and to Shunnie, Art, Yujia & Mark for appearing at 12am at the gate HAHAHAHA.

Maybe i'll just upload photos cos i can't remember the details of all that has happened in the past 6 weeks or so, lol.

XIN'S BIRTHDAY AT HANABI! :D

the machos with XIN!

Bakers in the making ! :D

before icing!

My sister baked her authentic tiramisu cake for me (:

AA2, oh yea ac !

IRAS!

CHERYLZ my fav chaba (:

Chaba's 19th at Timbre Old School !

and we went to butterfact which totally traumatized me the queue so frikkin long and shunnie disappeared i seriously wanted to burn the building.

Ahmari, Fatty & Chaba!

Oh yeah we party looking, SHUUBS! hahaha.

Chaba making her wish ! (: Clara baked her yummy cake!

UTB at lilin's church! and brother db, lols.

Spas, Shuubs, Lilin and Jilltan!

JILL TAN, thanks for making work feel like i'm going to school again, haha. I'll miss seeing you and joyce everyday! <3!

HOCKERS! 3rd-4th placing today, i wonder how it went!

WHOS ! (: we went to emmsy's house for Tennis & Swimming, then lunch at Brekos! what an exhausting day, but healthy, hee.

FATTY FEL! HAHAHA :D

Smurf with a smurf tee! :D

the clarke quay sky!

nice nice.

quackers and the la senza pajamas treat!

Alright, a lot more of feelings and thoughts to be updated but it's getting late now so i'll do that in the next entry. hee.
had driving today, but was super sian cos my toes always cramp up at the circuit! ARGH I HATE YOU, CLUTCH!!! hahaha. and a taxi driver drove into mr chua's car last week!! :S

tennis this sat with WHOS again, can't wait ! (:
and maybe attica tmr with my fav chaba & shirl!
Fattyfel is obsessed with ZacEffron, while I LOVE THURE LINDHARDT! he's damn cool, go find out who he is, hee!



weishun says hi.

okay bye.
NIGHTS!

``jamiepok chased till the end at 1.55am

way back home

WASSUP! okay i miss blogging like everyday. hahaha.
BUT, this entry will have no pictures because..

I LOST MY CAMERAAA!!!!!
#*$?!*%&#@(%&SODIJASOIDJG.

SIAN.

i left it in the cab on the way back home from Rebel on friday night ): I called the cab company to make a report already but i've yet to hear good news from them. Please please let the next passenger/cab driver be a good samaritan i beg you please omg.
Canon Baby please come back to me i love you very very much i bring you everywhere i go, you can't leave me! my chaba photos with cheryl,emmsy and ws's homies are not uploaded yet! and of course, our friday night party. www.sian.com. Sentimental values... And i lost my purple nike bottle too OMG whats this man! if i lose my ipod next i'm gna scream at everyone.

Work at Iras is super tiring, i start yawning at computer screen at 2pm everyday. Hahaha. And it's super boring if jill tan takes leave -.- i miss my classmates!

Here's ONE picture ):


i'm damn bored. i want to go on a holiday. OMG I MISS TAIWAN.

``jamiepok chased till the end at 4.08pm

till you're next to me

OKAY omg i think i've abandoned my poor blog. Hahahaha.
Highlights of the month of March : -

1) Work at IRAS can be qutie stressful, esp if tax payers asked super hard questions.
2) I lost my staff pass on the 2nd week of work. Actually the Cleaner took it from my table and gave it to the security -.-
3) I'm getting better at driving manual cars.
4) I got BBD for A levels. I can't ask for more cos i know i didn't study hard enough, God is merciful for granting me two Bs already. I'm just very upset i got D for H1 Physics too.
5) I'm still awaiting an offer from UWA. I hope i get in cos Shabana has received her offer already. Meanwhile i'm awaiting for Boston's reply too.
6) My parents are pro-SMU people. Why? Why not NUS?
7) I want to go to new york, hence i'm applying for GYLC. Tannting can you go with me? Please?
8) I am regretting i didnt apply for any UK unis. But with BBD, i doubt i'll get accepted anyway.

Happy Birthday Kenneth!

At Alley Bar.

At tea party with Val, Bing & Emmsy (:

Rebel with Cheryl, Shirlene, Weishun, Artons, Kelly, Zhili.

Results day. Joyce Jill & Kenneth. I miss AC x1000000.

Cherylz (:

the figure guessing game that cheryl lost terribly. tee hee.

We posed for the camera with a Red Tomato and Zhili.

Shirlene Ang (:

Resting our legs. Zouk on results day with Cheryl Shirlene Charisse Weishun Artons Zhili Kelly Siva TimSiew.

Screme with Shirlene Cheryl Weishun (:

and with emmsy <3.

Essential Brews a long long time ago. Weishun Cheryl Clara Shirlene :D

Artons the Batman&Superman.

Weishun the Pink Nail super hero.

Matt AhPie Sixuan Cheryl!

Attica on thursday night with Cheryl Shirlene Sixuan and 1thousand other people. and its

weishun did you take this? the effects are quite nice haha.

Mattheus King of Trance.

WTH SIXUAN!

CQH (LOL!) love much.

till then.
love jamiepoks.

write me a song

i'm really sorry. i really am.
sigh.
i'm so filled with guilt i can just bury myself now.
i hate this. results results results results !!!!!

A LEVEL RESULTS IN THREE DAYS OMG WHAT THE HELL. it's coming. our future is coming, good or bad, we'll know at 230pm on friday at ac.

i thought i've grown up, i dont think i have, not anymore.
I'm still very sorry. How sorry can one be? The word sounds too casual to be true. But i really am. It's not that i can't be bothered, or that i'm not serious. Please trust me just once will you. i know i always brush the whole issue away and i can be happy the next moment but it doesn't mean that i'm just putting on an act okay.

Oh just screw this, seriously.
i'm starting work tmr at iras! -applause-

i feel, like a piece of crushed paper, thrown into the incinerator.
and so i dont feel anything anymore. i'm too evil, i think so.

at this unearthly hour, i tore a soul, i burned the emotions, i made the sky darker than it already is. i did that again, i'm sorry you met the evil me. it wasn't on purpose i promise.

``jamiepok chased till the end at 2.33am

light it for me

[EDIT!] 26th Feb.
Yea i'm just lazy to start another entry, hahaa.
Fatty fel accompanied me to ac today, to pay my overdued school fees. Nice joke! How about the whole school was frikkin deserted !? the VoidDeck was soul-less! the carpark had less than 5 cars! Yes, so Fel concluded that today was Cross Country day and that everyone had left, lol.

Crystal Jade for La Mians after that! Gosh the meal had us both bloated like crazy. I felt like i swallowed a balloon. Headed to my house after realizing there isn't anything to do in HollandV. So... we Guitar-Heroed for about 2 hours! TEEHEE. thanks for the day, fattyfeliciousfel (:

I checked my email just now. i was hoping she'd tell me something good. What is it like to be rejected by a school of your choice? I've never had that feeling, i should count myself lucky. I wanted MGS, i got it. I wanted AC, i got it. i couldn't help but cry infront of the computer like a silly girl. Apparently my Critical Reading in SAT sucked too badly. I asked L what he got back in 2006 and it was close to full marks. did i not pay attention to the details? I spent frikkin sleepless nights on my essays and completing the damn applications?! WTH? IS THIS FAIR? Yes i guess it is, cos God is always fair. But why on this? It was supposed to be my back up for A levels. Looks like it's the other way round now. I'm really so scared now. What if my grades don't get me anywhere, not even to Melb U? Will you let my cry now.

I hate feeling this way. A levels, your life. I've got nothing to count on anymore. Give me a chance to repeat 2008 and i wouldn't let hockey and academics down. I'm staring at the GYLC letter i received two days ago, i really don't deserve it. I'm not being humble, but it's a fact. Seriously, i dont know why things are turning out this way. I'm just about to make a sad day happen, i could have prevented it. I'm really tired of facing every day's worries and troubles.
I'm very grateful to Emmsmery for calling just now. Emmsy when i saw your number on my mobile phone i picked it up immediately, i miss our everyday talks. Thanks for always looking out for me babe (:

KennethKohMingSheng, what do you want for your birthday? It's so hard to shop for you. Can i get you StingRay and Samosa from the malay stall at school? it's your fav breaktime meal. Haha.

[EDIT IS DONE at 2.49AM, GOODNIGHT.]

I'm considering skipping uploading the Zirca and Rebel photos cos we were all in uniform with the vodkas i think if someone sends the photos to ac, i'm gna be shot in my head and i can forget about collecting results next week.

But without the photos, i've got nothing much to update other than... i got blasted on Saturday for coming home past 4am. Sian, but Rebel's music was like da bomb and the club didn't close!!! grrr. So our groupie for the night was FattyFel, Emmsy, Bing, Cheryl, Clara, Shirlene, Emily, Weishun, Artons, Engwei, Tsang & Johnny. So, it was uniform party for the few of us :D:D Cheryl brought her vodka bottle and we grabbed 5 big gulps from 7-11 to finish it. Super good. but Zirca had like trance again, i wanted to scream omg. We ended up in Rebel, HAHAHA! nice no one around us were in uniform, damn embarrassing. Lol.

Fel and i cooked Taiwan maggie noodles when we got home. Good to kill the alcohol. Haha. I miss taiwan! Anw, so we only slept at 630am -.- woke up at 12 and rushed for dental at town. I was super scared in the afternoon cos my mum didn't call at all, i thought she was still pissed at me, sigh. but i worried for nothing cos when i got home, she was alright. But it made me feel even more guilty.

Well i still feel very very guilty cos i think i've lost control over what i'm doing and i'm in no position to advice anyone on anything. I'm quite unscrupulous don't you think so? I thought i'm quite sensible but it seems otherwise.

My dad bought Char Siew noodles. haha okay random but the box is infront of me right now. I had LongJohnSilver's fish wrap for dinner, with Weishun and Artons. Bumped into Xin, Yanxun and gang. Checked the movie timings and headed to Tea Party to find Bing. Val Emmsy Briya Tsang Shawn Weiarng Mandeep all came.
I like it with crowd, but sometimes....

I miss Ac- hockey, whos, aa2, Dt (omg), Yong Tau Fu, Teh Bing, the track, oldham wing toilets (haha), the hub, studying, 2.10, bleachers....

So hear this now, Come home, Come home.

``jamiepok chased till the end at 1.42am

Every time we say goodbye

the 2nd half of last week was spent with Fel & Val on thurs, we had meepok at Goodgood, before they both came over for GH :D i left for UTB with Shuubs, Jill, Spas, Baey, Lilin at Chinatown point. Supper with Shuubs at Newton (: we had Satay and Kenneth's fav duck rice! ha.

Friday was early rise and shine for the first time in 2 months -.- Breakfast at kap, and then BBDC with ws. there was this lady at bbdc who was super kan chiong about her btt and she kept asking for help, haha. My place for Step Up 2, i fell asleep, and was ultra late in meeting Grass, Cake & Oli at Holland v! i had one long of XLB to myself, shared Guo Ties with Cake. Super full man ! Grass has yet to tell me about Cake's life! :D:D love you girls.

off to town to meet the taiwan gang and justin, hahahaha. Okay yea so it's Emms Fel Sarah Kenneth Kao & Justin. Kao looks REALLY different with no hair, seriously! Spagaddies for dinner and Gloria Jeans for coffee, yum yum.

i think i woke up damn late on Sat. that was an effing jam from my house to town. i think i spent 1hr on the bus-.- lunch and Valkyrie with Ws. i like that movie actually, just a lil' confusing at the beginning. we took forever to get home also, sigh. Fatty Fel came at 10pm to drop off her stuff, and we bused with ws and artons to zouk only to find out that phuture's queue was closed alr WTF ! Cheryl Shirlene Fattyfel WS Matt Shawn Yuhao Artons and i had to resort to horrible trance music at zouk. We died, really.

OH, we met the Butter Fact bartenders! HAHAH they got a huge shock when Cheryl suddenly screamed at them LOL they're damn funny okay. They seriously wanted to hide.
FINALLY, at a pathetic time of 340am, Phuture's doors opened, omg like savior of the night. It was all going good until some misunderstanding took place, we lost our mood. Grr sorry everyone! Hung out at the playground till 5am, cabbed home feeling super drained and sleepy. This Fattyfel and Ws still had energy to play guitarhero after that -.- Applaud them please.

FattyFel and i headed out for lunch at Alameen the next day (: MeeGoreng & Murtabak! Haha. She left for her granny's whilst i went to church! Dinner with brother and sisinlaw at Sun & Moon omg please try the foie gras there it's like so heavenly until can faint. Monday driving at 12pm, lunch with fattyfel at kap, came home for tv all die to slack. Tuesday was wasted cos i thought my mum needed me to accompany her so i skipped lunch with Fel&Shuubs!!! arghh. but i met them for icecream, haha. Fel came for GH again ! :D

Driving just now! Bt Batok was jammed like crazy cos of the forest fires that the scdf was desperately trying to prevent :S so i drove to cck this time! haha the roads there are so much better!

at UTB!

Spas Jill and Shuubs!

Shuubs!

Fattyfel's very aunty unfit that made Val & I burst out into laughter, HAHA.

FattyFel & Emmsy!

Char & Sherz!

all of us!

Cheryl Shirlene Fattyfel!

FATTYFEL!

Cheryl & Shirlene!

Shirlene & Fel!

we found fun ourselves(:

and we still had fun after that, haha.

love love.

Okay my entry hasn't been posted since weds cos the photos took forever to load.
Went for UTB again just now! :D
Dinner with Cheryl Clara Shirlene Weishun at Essential Brews yesterday, i had the dory crisp pasta, yummy(:
Today was the ultimate slack day, teehee.

Alright. Nowadays, i seriously dont know what's gotten into me. i can't do this on my own and everytime i think about it (which is like at every minute), i feel like i'm the most evil person on Earth. Sigh. it's going to hurt someone, somehow. And i think it already is. Rahhhh. Found guilty.
Okay goodnight.

``jamiepok chased till the end at 3.30am