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The ceiling of

This weekend has been such a tiring one. 

On Saturday I woke up at around 445 to get ready and pick my gramps from their place. We went fishing! 

We arranged for this day to happen around a month before, and my grandpa has been preparing for this day since. He is an over thinker and gets really excited weeks and days before any ‘event’. It’s also because of his such tendencies that many family gatherings have been made known to him as a surprise. Hahah 

It was nice spending time with them. I feel young now and like the world has so many more years ahead for me. I can’t imagine being at the stage where my friends start to pass away and I get struck with illnesses. When the ceiling of death is you. 

But you know, not everyone gets to live till an old ripe age and die due to old age. In fact, I could very well just die tomorrow! 

We always wait for the moment our friends or relatives are about to go before telling them how much they mean to you, thank them for the memories get mentally prepared. But it’s possible my grandparents could outlive me if I died today! 

This is why you should always let known your love and concern to the ones who matter. 

There’s no ‘time’ to do it, just.. do! 

If you died today, have you done what you wanted to do all along? The rat race isn’t going to show up on your tomb stone. 

Hello for the first time in 2019. I bring big updates!

I'm still here! I've been wanting to be here but my blog app wasn't working well and I ran out of space on my google drive. 

The second problem has been fixed because I decided to subscribe to a larger storage capacity. 

Can you believe that it's September already? Time is passing so fast this year, and Christmas is indeed already coming. I realise I say that a lot. 

Now where do I start? This all feels foreign to me and my fingers are getting clumpy from not being able to type as fast as I think! 

In august, T and I celebrated our 10th year anniversary. It fell on a Wednesday, so we went prawning after work. Hehe 

I've recently taken a huge liking for prawning. I never really enjoyed it because the times I went at Haibin, we had little to no luck catching any. But since I tried it at ORTO again with great success, I really like it and wish I could go everyday!!!!! 

If only it was a little cheaper. 

Actually looking back at my August, it was a really busy month. We had family chalets, family gatherings, friend gatherings, T's birthday (I did not do better at gifts this year too) friendly tip for myself next year is to start.sourcing.early. Oh we also had our anniversary and then a belated anniversary picnic! 

As i'm typing this I'm already getting excited because I have some news to share. 

It's been two weeks and three days since we have been engaged!!!!! 

WHAT ON EARTH? 

Now, I'm trying to keep this blog post one that is easy to write, but my thoughts are all over the place. Where should I start? 

Alright. So remember that belated anniversary picnic I mentioned above? Apparently T had planned for the proposal to take place then.

To start off, I had been really busy throughout the week with meetings and I was exhausted. But I was very very excited to go for the picnic because it was going to be the first picnic of the year for us! I really love picnics, I love just being in nature with T and sitting on the mat and eating food and listening to music and chit chatting. On top of that, during one of our random (now that I think about it was probably planned) trips to ArtFriend, T mentioned that we can go to botanics for a picnic and paint. WAIT A SECOND.. PAINT? Yet another normal occurrence for me and one I certainly wouldn't mind because doing stuff like that is right up my alley.

I was rather worried though, because if you're following, all those things are things that I like to do. Going for a picnic was as much as I was willing to torture T. But mister T who has always given in to my picnic requests was doing his thing and making me excited to paint. Soon, we were looking at canvases, and we even bought acrylic paint and brushes. 

Anyway, I think it's a good time to insert some images of our prawns during our sessions. IT IS SO FUN

Okay back to the story. 

I'm finally done with my longgggg week and Saturday comes. I woke up later than expected and rushed to boil my potatoes. My dish to prepare (because I was preparing everything and I felt so bad) was mashed potatoes. T prepared the rest! 

I packed a really nice bag full of things which turned out to be so heavy and big and poor T had to carry it for quite a distance to our picnic spot. I got the bag from IKEA and I love it!!!

You can really see what design it is, but you'll get to see it more in the photos later. It's a rainbow bag made for Pride month. I just like the rainbow. Oh there's my mashed potato! 

So we reach botanic gardens and passed by things that T could name, like 'oh here's the toilet' and 'oh it's this way to the place'. Which he quickly dismissed as something he knows because he google map walked the area. (Now that I think of it was kinda suspicious because I didn't even ask him how he knew). Haha

OK SORRY LET ME CONTINUE

We lay our mat at a shady spot and took out our painting gear and food! 

T who is probably thinking about other things like why am I eating so slowly.

We finished eating and started painting. He bought some small square canvas for us to practice on and we decide we would paint something that reminds us of the other party. Initially I wanted to paint an asshole of a pug because I always found that funny. But then I settled on something special to us. The very first thing T and I exchanged - a pea keychain.

Well, 10 years ago, the pea keychain was his and I had a pink ribbon as a keychain. We changed the two because the peas were so cute and funny. Funny because they would pop out when you pulled a string.

You see those big square canvases? We indented to finish those by the end of the day! I already knew what I wanted to paint! After some planning I begin on my artwork. 

Here's what I had to follow:

I know, very ambitious.

Well, before I started T had to go somewhere to pass something to his sister's bf. So i was alone for about 1 and a half hours painting my thing. I have a video of that taken on my gopro. But it's way too large to upload. When T came back, he begin to start on his painting too!! Way behind time because I was already almost done by then!!!!! 

Not long later we met one of his friends from SPU, I knew who he was ish because he takes nice photos. haha Turns out he was there as a vollunteer for Nparks to see what people are doing at botanic gardens! So I offered him a cider and helped him with his survey. It was a few questions, and it was quite awkward. I never liked talking to people. He took some photos for the project and left! 

We were told no to pose for this and I was glad because I told him "Oh that's good, because we don't know how to pose one"

The photos came out nice though!! I like my bucket hat.

It was starting to get really sunny (my back was already burnt even though I put sunblock) so we shifted to somewhere cooler! Fun fact, it was the exact spot that we were sitting at like 2 valentine's ago when the tree fell and killed a lady. 

Wow this story is getting long. Let's see how I can cut to the chase. 

Somehow we saw this friend again but this time with his girlfriend too! T mentioned that Sam said he was going to have a picnic with this girlfriend after his work. I happened to turn around and spotted them. And I accidentally met eyes with Sam. The gey siao part of me reacted with a 'eh it's him again!!!!!' to which T followed up with a 'oh, you guys want to sit here?' signalling an empty spot beside us. 

IMMEDIATELY I WAS LIKE "Terence"

hahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahah

In my 'What are you doing? Don't you know I don't like strangers? You know what. Never mind, this is your friend so you entertain lor' look and voice. 

I hardly spoke to them because I felt so weird. I continued with my painting!! 

Wow actually, now that I think about it, the whole time no matter where we sat, I was always sitting in front. 

He must have planned it that way!!!!!! So I couldn't see what he was doing (like texting and everything). 

My painting taking shape-ish

Poor guy wore shoes, and shoes that would always bite him to our picnic and sent me on many errands that he would usually volunteer to do - throwing trash (twice within the minute), refilling our water bottles (at a far away toilet which I passed and walked quite a bit before calling him). Oh I saw a monitor lizard half way. 

When I finally came back from peeing and refilling our water, it was already getting lateeeee and I was like 'Are you done? Did you draw the buildings?' and he said 'ya you... want to see?'

Of course I want to see la hahahah cause the last I saw it was in quite a bad condition. The whole canvas was pink and there were like grey streaks on the bottom that supposed to be train tracks. 

And then it happened. 

He spent 8 hours working on this with the help of a teacher. It's beautiful!!!

Turns out, Sam and gf were planted to help take photos when the moment came! 

He was not a volunteer????? There was no survey?????

The survey had clues that T was up to something but I didn't even read the survey??????

Turns out T switched the painting when I went to the toilet and throw rubbish??????

I had no clue at all????? My hair was like shit??????

My small little canvas and his canvas was going to be the... ring box???????

So many questions and a clueless person.

There was a clause at the back that included my parent's names and numbers. Yup, I missed it because I don't read things.

Thank you, Sam and Hazel for capturing the moment! Even going the extra mile to make a fake tag.

The colours are not consistent cause these are all i have in my phone for now - a mixture of Sam's edited photos, the original photos and T's edited photos. 

Oh boy. What an eventful day indeed. Of course I said yes, in fact my actual response was, "Of course la, you know I won't say no!"

We took some photos which made my perspire like crazy because I was so awkward. We packed up, thanked the two sneaky people and headed to chinatown for mala.

OR SO I THOUGHT?!?!?!?!

We ended up at some hotel at Ann Siang something. T had booked a staycation!! WHAT

 We were beat. He was beat. We had an early night and ate Macs for dinner. I had trouble sleeping because I was still in shock. 

The ring was slightly large, so we sent it for resizing the next day. 

Have I covered everything? 

My thoughts now, 2 weeks from the event:

I am still in ______.

I haven't found the right word for how i'm feeling and how I felt. It's a mixture of happiness, shock, gratitude, shyness, disbelief, funny feelings. I never suspected a thing because I didn't think that it was necessary. We have known each other and been with each other for over a decade. We've grown so much together, learned so much from each other and can practically already see our future together.  

Because I felt it was not necessary, I feel even more thankful and amazed that T still proposed. 

Who knew that I would still feel different layers of feelings though literally nothing has changed except for the addition of a ring and a new status. When I asked him if he had always known that he'd propose.. he said yes. And that made me smile from ear to ear. 

There were quite a few people there that day, though he expected lesser because there were not performances scheduled there.

That made me feel even more shy and awkward. Haha

I think i'm incredibly lucky. I've met such a gentleman who teaches me new things, loves me for who I am, is patient to listen to me, and always looks out for me. Since the beginning of time T has always shouldered my problems and let me know that we are in this together. Since the beginning he has given me confidence and assurance in this relationship. He has been thoughtful with his actions and open to my feelings. He has always gone out of his way for me, and knows all of my preferences and quirks. Most importantly, he loves my family like his own. 

I'm about to finish repaying my student loan, and I can't wait to start the unfortunately fresh journey of saving for our future together. 

Thank you for loving me and wanting to spend the rest of your life with me! Thank you for feeling nervous when you took out the ring box and popped the question. I wouldn't have wanted any of what you did any other way. ❤️

#TEAM

We are almost at Christmas?!?

Wow, logged in and saw that my last post was about this year being a year of bravery. Just this week I needed to be brave, I wanted to be brave. 

Here’s a reminder to myself that you can be brave if you want to! 

Go forth and do your best! 

The weather is becoming so hot these days!

Can’t help but feel nervous when meeting new people. 

But this year is a year of bravery. 

I hope HAHAAH

Beep

Exhausted. From badminton!!!!!!! Time for bed!!! 

This wasn't on my list?

In the beginning of this year, I wrote down a short list of things I hope to achieve in the new year.
I am almost 3 weeks into the new year and I have decided to add another item to my list - Be a healthier me.
I have never really taken care of my body because its always a mixture of laziness & ignorance.
When I think about being healthier, I really just think of eating cucumbers. I don't know why I always associate cucumbers with a fresh body and face.

But anyway, I hope to be able to do more research, so that I can start taking care of my skin, and my organs and to be the best me I have been for the past years. Of course this comes with exercise, which I have not found a way to incorporate into my schedule yet.

And of course, you can place a lot of products on your skin, and eat the healthiest, but you might still not be the BEST you can be. A healthy body and a healthy mind will keep you healthy as a whole.

I don't know what i'll learn this year, or what I can enrol in, but I am excited! My youth is NOW!
Next time I won't even have the energy anymore. If I want to look my best, it is now.

Stay healthy everyone!

Ciao!

2018 BAYBEH!

Around 7 posts ago, we were counting down to 2017. 

Today I am in 2018. Haha 

I have really been neglecting this blog! 

In a good way I would suppose. I usually come to blog if I have some kind of insight to share. And insights usually come from bad experience. 

BUT this time I’m just here because... I thought I should give an update. It is going to be the first blog post of the year anyway. :) 

What’s been up? 

Well this year I’m no longer employed under any big company. T and I have decided to try our photobooth and events business once again. Some things happened and we decided not to stay where we were. We’ll probably give it a couple of months before deciding if we should just head out to look for work. 

I have been doing well, emotionally. I think I’ve learned to care about other people’s problems lesser. Unless they’re really important to me. 

2018 is going to be a braver year for me. 

And I hope this shall be a reminder! 

And most importantly, I’ll have to work very hard to ensure that I have funds to pay back my student loan. 

It will also be a year where I am not only working for myself, but for our future as well! 

Side track I always thought I’d blog more if I had a Mac. I have a Mac now (curtesy of T) but I still don’t blog. Maybe it’s because the Mac reminds me of work (or I just get distracted hehe). 

Oh and, I celebrated the last moments of 2017 and the first moments of 2018 with T. We didn’t go to any friend’s house this year. We had a simple last dinner and supper and played some games, got a bit queasy and puked into a huge single layer bag (a little on his bed as well). BUT IT WAS SO FUN! No need to entertain anyone.. we wrote a short letter to us in the future and..... crap I don’t remember where I put it now. I need to look for it later. Haha 

Taken on the 1/1/18

I hope this year will be a breakthrough year for the both of us. :) 

Alright I gotta go! 

I’ll see you all back some other time. I have a post about ‘the feeling of love’ prepared in my mind but I’ll leave that for another day. Preferably one of those cold days with warm music and hot cocoa on my desk. Those spark really creative writing. 

Be safe y’all! 

Thank God for you

And all your quirkiness. All your love and all your advice you’ve given me even when I didn’t need them. All your patience that I didn’t deserve, and all your faithfulness. 

Thank you for remembering me even when we’ve been together for more than half a decade. Haha 

Being in love feels so amazing. Being comfortable and safe is so amazing. :) 

It is not just the gesture of receiving things, but the knowing that I’ve been in your thoughts. They lift me up even on a sad day. 

YAY NEE BLOGGER APP WITH AN UPDATE!

A new blogger app

Aww man, how do I upload photos with this new app? My old app doesn’t work with iOS 11 anymore. 

It's been a LONG WHILE hasn't it?

Hello everyone!
It's been a really really long time since i've been here.
Well, not a matter of years or anything, but I did come here almost everyday
once before. Even just typing the sentence above, I had to delete and retype so many
times. My mind is getting lazy. I've been wanting to blog recently, but I just couldn't
find the drive to sit and type. Has blogger not come up with a simpler (lazier) way of
blogging yet?!

Okay

7th May