work has not been going well.
i still cant get things gg without a glitch. i spent loads of time staring at the screen trying to figure out why the cant work. error messages dont work anymore cuz its not coding problems but still a matter of concept problems. cant come up with better ideas for assignments. used to be able to do well in school cuz everything can be found on the internet or in the textbooks and now i'm just left with my brain. which i would say is almost equivalent to nothing compared to other ppl there.
its funny how huimin was trying to comfort me yesterday. i was telling her i still cant get the hang of things. And she went " its like that one! just a matter of getting used to it. Give yourself one month!"
VERY coincidentally.. yesterday marked one month already!! i told her and i think she got stumped for a moment. haha and she "huh-ed" me..lol. hilarious.
I'm so glad i got off work early yesterday to meet my friends. they make me very happy. =))
My boyfriend has the habit of saying " i-dont-know-i-dont-know" repeatedly right in the midst of me talking when i'm either saying something he doesnt agree with or when i'm talking about sthing he doesnt know for more than 5 minutes. i find that HIGHLY annoying cuz its like he doesnt wanna hear me speak and therefore he cuts me off with a train of "idontknows" right until i stop speaking. **** if you dont know, LISTEN. or at least pretend to??
some of his friends are slowly taking my place of accompanying him to places.. i used to go church with him and when i wasnt there he'd used to say he didnt wanna go church alone without me. Now he's got friends to go with him. And even when i'm there, he doesnt need me anymore.
i rmbr there was a time he asked me to go to IKEA with him. That was during the winter of 2007. Now he's got friends to accompany him there. =/
Its a bad feeling not to be able to be there for my boyfriend. Listening about him talk about the places he's been without me.. I wonder if we'll both be able to take not having each other in our own lives.. how long before it gets too long..
and to think i chose for all of this to happen. if it gets too long, it'll be my fault. so who am i to complain.
