you know how they say couples break up because they forgot the reason they fell in love with each other. i always thought it was very true. so whenever i was angry with my bf, i'd think of this line and i would always think of the many reasons i fell in love with him.
somehow this doesnt work anymore. whenever i try to think of why i fell i love with him, my heart doesnt want me to and my brain blocks off all thoughts regarding to that and i think about something else.
i dont feel anger anymore. its just hurt and it brings tears to my eyes just like that. and i feel that the issues that used to make me angry dont bother me that much anymore.. one day my heart would be numb to all these. one day i'd care no more. and even if you left me, i might not even feel a thing.
i'll just have to bear with the pain for now..and i'll be okay.
sandra has decided that her social life will no longer revolve around just one person. She will devote more time and love to her friends because she knows she will have more utility and more returns from them. =)
the problem with all that unhappiness was because i thought you were my everything but i have come to realise it should not be because the reverse was never true.
vicki.. time for some red cliff 2..stop being a slow poke or i'll forget the first one again.. =.=
if i dont it doesnt mean that i dont love you. but if i do, it doesnt mean that i love you too.
最近好不开心。。。可是和朋友们在一起，会让我忘记不开心的一切。。
不知道以后没有他们在身边会多难受。。
sometimes words alone will not hurt. but its the actions of what people have done or did not do that kills you. i think men and women are programmed in a way to not understand each other. thats when we have homosexuals coming in to save the situation?
Janice is back ;) i love My Cookie Can.. Hacken Lee also has a new album coming up.. listening to their songs brings me back to life in HK... how i listened to their songs in my wonderful room.. :)
time for some public finance.
i'm sitting in the main library.. waiting for class to start. i'm still figuring my way through the new semester. It all seems too sudden. I barely just finished my exams? i dont know the way to class. i still have to use the map online. nobody would believe its my last semester here, the way i'm searching my way through..
a strong wave of nostalgia hits me as i'm doing all these. it brings me back to a year and a half ago when i had my first day in school at HKU. totally different surroundings..totally different feeling.. the need for independence and the fact that i could actually do things all by myself. it pleases me very much.
i remember walking from Starr Hall.. it was a hot day.. sophia, jills and i walked down to starr hall. i cant rmbr who brought us there, should be one of our exchange buddies.. i cant even remember their names.. one of them was hannah. the sweet looking one..;D well my exchange buddy didnt even show up.. but i guess it must have been a miscommunication.
Starr hall.. i miss starr so much i cant even explain it.. the long lonely corridors.. the pantry.. the sea view.. yummy kitchen.. Westwood and Welcome..
I miss having lessons at HKU too.. going for lessons alone.. it didnt seem like school then.. i dont think i learnt much ;p but it was all good experience..the buildings.. sitting in class and falling asleep.. cutting classes to go to mongkok..
i miss it all so badly.. even a year and half on.. people think i'm so attached to hk because of my bf.. but its not quite true.. i'd miss it so badly even if i hadnt met him there.. of course a large part of the reason for me always wanting to get back there would be because of him but even being there with him would not satisfy the longing of having a school semester there again..i think i almost died when i got back here.. if not for my friends..;)
what would i do to have more time there again.. with all my sg exchange friends.. sophia, jills, jia he, des, carol, cheryl, ivan kitty.. steven! who's gone missing since last semester..
just sent dear off at the airport this morning..we woke up late.. rushed to the airport, rushed through breakfast.. and he was gone before i even realised it.. another half a year before i can see him again.. =/ i wonder how long before i'll go crazy from this.
