chatted with a guy who i knew a few years back in sec...3 yeah..his name's ivan and i kinda lost contact with him ever since i stopped playing at ytcc..i mean i never really kept in contact with him..juz a hi-bye friend..i kinda forgot how a looks like..such a very faint inkling.. but i have an impression he looks so much like him..very much..i dont know..the feeling they each give me is so much alike that the nostalgia is coming back..coming back so strongly i feel like puking..
i cant breathe easy..is it possible to get drunk on vitasoy.. i dreamt of jay chou last nite..hehehe.. in my dream i was like an officer from the anti-narcotics assoc. and then we weer gonna raid this warehouse in clementi (dun ask me why but i juz knew it was clementi ya know the place where they have Yamaha school of music and The Big Bkshop) yeah..and i was like in charge of leading the team and then Jay chou was the gang leader !!! wahahahaa..and we juz barged in and everywhere was chaotic and he was like really calm..he was juz looking around not even trying to excape.. and we immediately closed in on him..and i had to full body search!! on him !!! hahaa..ok this dream was kinda perverse wahhaaa..and i was like ' huh i dunno how to do it' so i juz anyhow touch here touch there for hidden stuff..and he was smirking at me !! obviously he knew i didnt know how to do it and i was damn embarrassed..but in the end i didnt find anything and we had to let him go..and he juz walked off .. and i was damn happy in my dream although the raid was a failure..ahhh i was still smiling to myself when i woke up, i swear !! oh man this dream..itz *wiCkeD*caught Harry Potter SneakZ last nite..man i was a little disappointed..cuz they cut out quite a few scenes from the book and changed quite a lot of it..but yeah..i reckon those who haven read the book might enjoy it much more than those who did..i dont like this director.. Snape wasnt supposed to be funny..Dumbledore wasnt supposed to be so fierce and rash..and aiya..man..i hope the nxt one will be better la..they cut out so many parts and its still 157 mins..i wouldnt mind paying more to watch a 5 hr show thats more complete..*sigh* i'll see you again someday i have a morning paper tmr and i know i shld be sleeping but i juz had this sudden urge to blog..
not that i have anything special to..yunz was at my house studying today..and we had great fun!! haha yes studyin could be fun too..we were going bonkers studyin jap cuz it was quite tedious..but its crazy when u make stupid mistakes..and laughing them off instead of harping on them is a great way of relieving stress.
signs that u're going bonkers over Jap:
- u spell chikin instd of chicken
- restoran instd of restaurant
- raja yusofu nanshi aoki poru tan are ur best friends
there could be more..haha but i'm juz too tired to think of em..i wish i could study like this for every exam. too bad we're not in the same faculty.. sigh. cuz i dun like my class. i barely know them except for a few..but i'm not that close to them anyway..and i think they're selfish. so there.
all of a sudden i'm thinkin of him and i do miss him. kinda. roku gatsu juni nichi n counting.
what if i held his hand tightly then and never let go. would everything still turn out this way..
yeah course it will..
ima nemasu.
God teaches us to be forgiving. to be giving. i find it hard to give without expecting sthing in return. i know its human nature. but i must try to do what God tells me to. whenever i give my all. whenever i go all out to make someone happy. whenever i give my heart to someone. whenever i care for someone. i shldnt expect sthing in return. i will have greater returns in heaven. but is it very demanding to be hopeful for a little sthing that i think maybe i " deserve" ? after spending so much time reading and understanding so many thousands things, my conclusion's back to square one: Accounting aint easy.
please let me get a B at least!! ^&#^#$%!!
eye bags..dark rings..acne..what better than these when u study late into night..
i think i'm making good progress though i'm kinda behind schedule always..but i'm not worrying cuz i've kinda covered most of my stuff for accounting..juz a few more nightmarish chapters..i've got to keep my pace..sometimes i sink into mild depression..when i get scared abt not doing well..mostly abt dying..ok dun laugh! but yea so many things i haven done so many places i haven been to...unspoken words to specific ppl..i'm gonna leave with so much regrets..i guess i juz have to make the best out of everyday..treat ppl the best i can..thats what christians shld do..to let ppl know, thru actions not words, that we're christians.. ' and they'll know we are christians by our love..dah dah dah..' hahaa..
i tried searching his address on the web..of course i couldnt find anything much..juz hotels, famous buildings landmarks etc. but its enriching juz looking at those pictures.. getting a little idea how it is over there. but of course if there's a chance for me to go there i'll grab it!! hahaa..
with exams come stress. unless u're effing exam smart like my darling bilu is..she is one daredevil i tell u..haha..its like she's totally fearless when it comes to exams..thats quite awesome..but sometimes fear aint a bad thing..it makes u do sthing abt it..haha.thats why i'm freakin mugging like crap..one way to relieve stress is to binge. and another is to think of ppl u love..like Jacky and his wife ;D thinking of them makes me very very very happy..and i'll juz smile to myself while staring at my text. and my mum's probably thinkin i love studyin..ha! thinking of them makes me wanna get married like now! pronto!! Ima!! i hope i'll be as blessed as they are when i get married..;)
i seriously cant wait to see her! i dont know how she's like and how to address her and everything its kinda nervewrecking.. i mean i love jack and thats probably the main reason why i wanna see her so much..i mean i know i'll love her ..yea even before seeing her..but i guess this is juz how love works..it juz grows on you..and i totally love him wholeheartedly i mean as a friend its juz a very different kind of friendship..and i can imagine how happy he is when his wife's here that why i feel so happy thinkin of them together cuz i know he's happy..and i certainly want the best for him and have him to be happy all the time..i'm rambling but ya i'm juz very happy..and it makes me feel so helpless when he's feeling unhappy cuz i cant do anything to make him happy.. cuz he doesnt talk abt his problems and even if he does i doubt there's anything i can do to solve his problem..and its juz really frustrating..but all's well now..and i hope everything stays as it is..i've told him before , all i want for him is to be happy..and thats what i really wish for..;)
