i effing hate my mum stimes. actually itz
most of the time. she's not at home and she's said so herself..and then she can say we dont seem to study at all or to have an interest in studying cuz whenever she's at home she
always sees us watching tv. fuck la. listen to urself man.u already said u're not at home most of the time and u can assume we watch tv most of the time ?! its the most ridiculous statement i've ever heard of.
and whever she's at home i feel like leaving cuz she's fucking nagging 95% of the time. the world is so much more peaceful when she's not around. i mean my sis and i with my dad..we get along completely fine. we watch tv for an hour or at most 2 hrs..and my dad does his own stuff or watch his own bangumi and then we start to benkyoushimasu. EVERYTHING's fine. peaceful.
until she gets home.she complains about EVERYTHING. and suddenly NOTHING"S fine. she'll say why is this on the piano. why's the piano so dusty.why put ur bags here. and she'll keep saying my dad's got no brain. why put this like that.why wash the clothes like that.why hang the clothes like that.why put the things here? stupid stupid.
zhu nao.no brain one.
fuck it la.we're doing things the best we can.everyone does things differently why muz follow YOUR way. izzit ur way's internationally certified. got certificate izzit. why cannot put my books on the piano. piano will spoil izzit.spoil also nvm wad. nobody uses it anymore.its juz there for show wad..is there a world renown pianist in our family? why cant i put my bags there. got guests coming to our house meh! no what.
u're not even around half the time u juz shut up can. everytime get home make so much noise.everytime shout halfway then say wanna die. fuck la u make so much noise i also want to die la.make it seem like EVERYONE owes u. u earn money for the family so what. thats the only positive thing u're contributing to the family lo. effing hell. always say what earn money but we're not appreciative. watch tv means we're not filial means life has no meaning means we want u to die. WONDERFUL LOGIC. it TOTALLY makes sense. u shld get nobel peace prize for coming up with such a thing. like E=MC^2. nobody understands but that small group of brilliant brains. and ur logic; nobody understands but wow
urself. cool u're even better than them.
stop finding fault with everything la.all the problems that u think exist are created by ur own high standards and expectations ok. seriously the problem lies in u la.
thats the problem with ppl that're not so educated. they never think rationally they never see the big picture. LOOSEN UP for everyone's sake.
'look at auntie 1's daughter. never watch tv one. always studying so hardworking. i ddunno why i work so hard to raise u 2 useless daughters. ' ~ if u're so brilliant urself u wouldnt have given birth to two
useless daughters rite.
'look at ur cousin Jill. so independent. never go out with friends. she always says her studies come first. how come u all cant be like her.' ~ want me to be like that? juz kill me first.
rolls eyes.rolls eyes.rolls eyes.
i wonder how ppl can move on so quickly, so well..
i was kinda juz surfing around..yeah i know when i shld be studyin but hey a student is entitled to some time off during wkEnDs..
i logged in to Friendster..my account is lifeless i barely go there anymore unless i have a surprise testimonial or message, esp if they're from friends from the Philippines..but other than that its pretty dead. i have 187 friends to be exact..it says so there but i think only 20% are still in contact with me..sometimes i feel its good to have such sites..i used to think its solely for peepz to get to know more peepz..ya know the loser way..but its actually a way of juz popping by and seeing (yep without them knowing) how ppl u've once crossed paths with, are doiing.. some of these friends i have known for ages..and plenty of them have changed alot..some've changed bfs, some have had them comin and going a gazillion times before i realised ' hey u're not gay ?!' some've changed (looks-wise, if there's such a word) so drastically i'd momentarily forget i'm at Friendster instead of elitemodels.com..yeah..u'd think its amazing cuz u actually knew such a hot babe..and ya so many of them have grown and bloomed and yeah basically juz changed for the better..
clicking back to reality, i realise i haven really changed from maybe 5 years ago..ok maybe more mature thats for sure..but my lifestyle and everything..still SAME lo..how boring
leh.so
sianz leh.talking abt
lehs and
lahs, it reminds me of this hilarious blogger who called himself rockson..he pens down things he goes thru daily in a freakin hilarious
ah beng kind of way..its his language and sometimes his
ah beng cum hokkien language can be so
chim i can hardly understand him..but his opinions, albeit a little anti-govt (he says it as
gahmen), they totally make sense so much so i think he shld join our opposition party..
www.rockson.blogspot.comgreat webby for countering stress ;) trust me!
went swimming today and man there were crazy ppl there..
for one there was this middle-aged man who suddenly said to me ' ni yao xia hai le a ? ' meaning oh, you're going into the sea again? juz because i was in the tidal pool and there were waves..i was totally lamed out i didnt know whether to juz stare at him or laugh my ass off..
and there was this kid who constantly pretended to drown in the tidal pool infront of the lifeguard..i think if he was a friend of the lifeguard..and he kept spitting no i shld say spewing water juz to add effects to his drowning scene..and the lifeguard got so irritated he juz ignored him..but ya that wasnt the weird part. after a while he practically clung on to my float i was so shocked i nearly pee-ed in my pants. no i'm juz kiddin of course..but like wth ?! i was desperately trying to swim away from him of course..but how far can u get with someone clinging onto ur float. -_-''' huhz.. as if spewing water at me isnt bad enough..
oh what a night.
I drift, I burn, I fly When you sing lullabies I'm helpless, I'm yearning I'm like the putty in your hands I laugh, I dream, I cry When you take me on a roller coaster ride You see me through and through You see just who i am Just take my hand and Save me from this place Heaven knows I'm falling For you, my sweet embrace Heaven Knows Heaven knows I've been waiting for you I had a dream that i was falling from the sky At 90 miles an hour I was bound to crash and die But out of nowhere you came and rescued me There must be some grace in the touch of your face I'm so happy that I've found you I'm no longer afraid Oh ' cause you Save me from this place Heaven knows i'm falling For you my sweet embrace Heaven knows Heaven knows I've been waiting Before i met you Life was slow-mo So slow-mo I thought i had it figured out But you came and turned my whole world upside down Save me from this place Heaven knows I'm falling For you, my sweet embrace Heaven knows Heaven knows you've come to Save me from this place Heaven knows I'm falling For you, my sweet embrace Heaven Knows Heaven knows I've been waiting for you Waiting for you i juz explored this site called wholivesnearyou.com..i joined unknowingly a couple of months ago..and wth ?!! from the photos rite..it looked like there are a thousand and one hunks in bt batok..but how come i NEVER seem to see any around the area huh???!!
either adobe photoshop's really gd at doctoring photos..or they all juz hide at home.. or i'm juz blind whenever i go out..i dont understand ?!!! but oh man some of 'em are reeeally hot. ha!
oh ya there're lotsa babes too of course. but i've got enough of babes in my life..
went to National Lib to do my accounting project on saturday. an woah..it IS ginormous la..
but they do kinda cheat ur money..consider a $2/hr charge for using their computers there..(-?huh?-)
but it was a good experience..good ambience..it'd make a great study area..except for the fact that i have to travel all the way to town..and that makes it reeeally bad..unless i'm studyin at SMU.
i'm so tired..but i haven really started revision. manz. -sianz-
but Jacky's wife is comin tmr!!!!!! -celebrate!!- hahaa..i juz feel kinda excited whenver i think abt it..and when i think more..i get really nerved up..its like i wouldnt know what to say when i see her..but ah well i dun think i'd be meeting her for quite a while cuz we hafta make preparations for our exams..i so wanna see them and how they are tgt!! hahahaaa..i kinda have this idea that Jacky will be like bullying her 80% of the time..but at the same time he loves her like totally..gosh! i wan a hubby like that manz..-sobz-
Seriously cant wait for exams to be over..cuz firstly i can go to Thailand!! and secondly..no more sch! and then itz probable that we could go back to smc and work..and isnt that back to heaven..to life in paradise man!! haa ;D
kaoz why my grp members so buay zi dong one huh..
some ppl have 0830 class in the morning tmr lo..accomodate u all to meet at 11 still can be late wah piangz!! not as if the time set by me lo..set by u all lo..all say ok like so enthu in the end wah piangz!! Eff eff eff eff eff eff (try saying that really fast)
ooookay they're here..
i think it will be soon.
thinking of u used to be a joyful thing for me. happy memories. it filled me with complete joy and warmth. i thought i was loved.
thoughts of u now have turned into sthing that brings nostalgia. of sadness. a kind of betrayal. a kind of distaste. after i forget you i'd probably be laughing, no, Scorning at myself, thinking' how could u be so dumb. so naive. so stupid' but right now i'm juz in a state of being indifferent to anything..its a anaesthetic kind of feeling. everytime i start thinkin of u, my mind goes into auto-block mode. i think it keeps me from going crazy thank god.
i shouldnt hate u. i dont have any reasons to. all the hope i had in me was juz kinda created by myself in my own world.
one day i'll forget all these. no i wouldnt.i shld say one day i'll read this and not recall a single thing i'm feeling now. *smilez*
i believe in karma. but i dont believe i did anything like this to anyone. so why shld i get all these shit man. my recent posts are lacking in vulgarities. just not in the mood. just dont. want. to. bother. any.more.
