sigh

i wonder what have i got myself into. things that seem so miao3 mang2, yet i still wanna yi4 tou2 zai1 xia4 qu4. i give up man :(
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improved a little this sem. but just not good enough. getting a little moody recently. sigh. can someone cheer me up?

:) :) :) :) :)

:) working for yun nam this week... hee... i got 10 sales yesterday and pauline got 4... and today... i got only 8 and she got 1... though it's not too good... but i still feel quite happy... haha... cause he called me today from korea!!! at 3.39pm... haha... anyway... he start working already... internship... he's only there for like a week and he's already got a job... well well well... what to do... everyone wants a piece of him... WAHAHA :)
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tmr shall go swim with yifen... then go work from the pool... and apparently there's a steamboat at temasek hall tmr night for NUS swimmers... but since i am going to work till 9... then most prob i can't go... haha... EDISON AND MARCUS... U 2 BETTER UPDATE ME ABOUT ANY NEW GOSSIPS HOR :p
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shall go dry my hair and go slp now... gotta wake up early tmr man... NITEZ!!!

From Shu Hui's Blog

Found this on shuhui's blog and i decided to try it... haha... http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

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Get to know yourself better

Here's the analysis

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Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

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The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

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Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

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Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

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The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

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How do you view success:Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

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What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

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Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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The Real You
Here is the analysis:

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You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

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You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

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You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

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Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

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Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:

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You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

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There are many more tests than this... haha... enjoy!!!

Absence makes the heart fonder...

i always wondered how long-d relationships can be maintained without frequent meet ups and sms... is this just my immature thinking??? if it is... can someone please teach me how they do it???
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i feel that at the beginning stage... absence does make the heart fonder... however... as time goes... i don't know if the same theory still applies... there's this chinese saying 'shi2 jian1 ke2 yi3 dan4 hua4 yi1 qie4'... it literally means that time can lighten everything... and this includes wounds... hurt... and even love! so in a long-d relationship... what happens when the feeling gets lighter and lighter due to the amount of time both parties have been separated??? do they try to rekindle the love or do they break up??? how is it possible that one can survive in a relationship just thinking that 'i know he loves me and is thinking of me 24/7 as well... so just hang on!!!' i don't know if i have that kinda maturity man :(
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in fact i'm afraid that i DON'T HAVE that maturity level to think of a relationship that way... and i'm afraid that my long-d relationship will not last... sigh... can someone tell me what to do???!!! i need counselling... it's just freaking 2 days and i'm complaining so much... but i guess... as time passes... i'll complain less and less and eventually.........
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i also don't know what will happen :(

Exam's Finally Over

wow!!! finally... after a hard battle with those examination papers... it's finally over!!! :) quite happy man... haha... just sent joseph back camp... quite sleepy now... after my paper at 11... i went to eat kfc at marina square with ck... quite diao right??? cause kfc is everywhere but we went specially from school to marina square and in the end decided to eat kfc...
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haha... then after sending her to taka to meet da ge... i went home to sleep!!! haha... and i woke up at 4pm to go train under jiao lian... but swim halfway rained damn freaking heavily... shit... so in the end only swam a bit... -_- totally waste time... but nvm... after the rain... i went for polo trg... and it was quite fun... did lots of shooting and all... haha...
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actually... i realised... it's not really fun for my post exam period... you-know-who is gone... i wonder when he'll come back again... oh well... better not pin too much hopes... the higher my expectations... the greater my disappointment...
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shall go swim with jiao lian tmr morning and afternoon again... seriously... i don't freaking care about AUG... but i just wanna keep myself occupied and don't think about him too much... or else i'll be dwelling in sadness and misery half the time!!! sigh... ok... better get to bed now... gotta wake up at 730 tmr :(

Triple Sigh-ness

2 papers down... 2 more to go... sigh... MNO and MS quite ok la... but i damn scared of Econs (sat)... and i only studied 1 chapter of OM (4 chapters in total) (next tues)... sigh... i really hope the Lord will bless me for my MKT module... really really worried... SIGH!!!

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and 'he' (refers to you-know-who) is going back korea on 4th... 1 day before my final exams end :( but 'he' cannot stay any longer also... cause 'he' got to attend his sister's fashion show on the 4th itself... but 'he' said if 'he' can find a 1 month internship in some branded company here then 'he' will definitely come back... i super eager to find 1 for 'him' lo... sigh... anyone got lobang must intro hor!!! thanks thanks!!! :) cause if don't have... then 'he's' going to stay in korea for the whole dec holiday and go back US when 'his' school term starts... that means 'he' won't be back till next june... SIGH...

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sianz to the max... gotta study econs now... i totally don't understand anything lo!!! crap... SIGH!!!

I hate studying... :(

i am so sianz of studying :( i hope exams will be over soon... i'll be most happy when econs exam is over!!! may the Lord bless me... i definitely need a miracle to survive through this period man... awwwww...

In despair...

1 thing i must clarify... there's a difference between being disappointed and being angry... i don't always get angry with people... but when disapointment comes time and again... it becomes desperation...

that's exactly how i feel now... but it probably reads differently to different people... and disappointment comes with expectation... so in the first place... one should not give another expectation when he knows he will eventually disappoint her... it's like giving her hopes... and then dashing them in the end... one should always consider the feelings of another...

and this thing about apologising... when the word 'sorry' is used too often in any kind of relationship... one will get immune to it and eventually defeats its purpose... so it becomes meaningless to say sorry anymore...

i feel sad now... was talking to da sao about it... but she wasn't able to give me constructive answers... sigh... and df still hasn't give up yet... i'm sad for hurting him... causing him so much misery especcially when he's in NS now... but i guess you can't force someone's feelings as well... oh well... my econs sux and i gotta go study now... and we are playing against the indonesian girls again later at 7pm... i better go concentrate on my studies...

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oh... one last thing... high IQ is often associated with low EQ... i guess this is very true... because God is fair... and when u are dealing with people with low EQ... it's often necessary to be more patient and harden your heart to protect against constant hurt and disappointment... but what if you reach the saturation point and you cannot take it anymore??? for me... being low in determination... i'll choose to give up...

QUESTION!!!

should boyfriends send their girlfriends home even if their girlfriends have car and they don't???

PENANG MALAYSIAN OPEN

was in penang over the weekend for match... had super great fun except for the 10-hour ride to and fro... wanted to die lo!!! fortunately it wasn't tt bad afterall cause of the gossiping and charades!!! super funny especially with xiuxiu... wahaha!!!

me and xiuxiu!!! haha... rooming with her for the second time!!!

the matches were ok... we had 4 games in total... and the most memorable one was our last game!!! we played badly in the first 2 quarters... and xiuxiu kept screaming at us!!! freak... the score then was 2-3... and we were so panicky... with xiuxiu's demoralising screams... we felt even worse... so when there was an extra man situation in favour of us... and qian passed me the ball when i was at the wing... i was super hesistant to shoot!!! so i turned and looked at ade who was at the centre and our conversation went like this...

ade: JAC!!! SHOOT!!!
me: ARE U SURE??? CANNOT!!!
ade: YES!!! JUST SHOOT!!!
me (trembling): ARE U SURE ARE U SURE???
ade (exasperated): YES!!! CONFIRM CAN!!!

and throughout this period of time... i had the ball on my hand and i forgot to threaten!!! and the defender and goalkeeper in front of us were probably too engrossed in our 'freak show' (that's what xiuxiu calls it) that they forgot to come and foul us!!! and when ade gave me the 'CONFIRM CAN' signal... i took a shot and it went in top corner!!! haha... was so happy and thankful for ade for her encouragement!!! though it was quite funny that we had that kinda conversation IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GAME WITH MAN UP... it was really all cause of her that gave me confidence!!! haha... so from there... we caught up 3-3!!! and i also decided already... motivator of the year goes to ADELYN YEW!!! hee... in the end we won them 5-3 and it was really happiness when the game ended cause i got whacked so many times that i felt like dying...
oh... and this was taken at the place where i got the 'chiam see' for the previous post!!! haha...

really memorable :)

KAN4 XIANG4

i went penang over the weekend for the Malaysian Open and spent RM0.50 on this machine that 'tells your fate'... this is what i got!

He who gets this No. 12 is like a man dreaming when he sleeps. What you are going to do at present can hardly be successful for your luck does not permit at present. In future you will meet some people who will help and support you when you are in trouble. You are rather hopeless in love affairs, but in case of prosecution you are very lucky and may probably win the case. You will meet your friends and cousins who have left you a long time ago. Your luck for other kinds of business is not good.

what are your comments for this???

Flying to the sky!!! Happy to the MAX!!!

super happy today... after MS lecture... i went to eat pastamania with ck and sam... haha... so fun!!! was supposed to go to pizza hut... but stupid da sao got it wrong... telling us that there is pizza hut at harbour front center... in the end don't have lo!!! freak... so we went to vivo city to look for it... but don't have... -_-''' sianz diao immediately... so in the end decided to eat pastamania... and before we went back to harbour front center for our lunch... we went to m)phosis to get the pair of slippers that i always wanted!!! haha... it's the same pair as sam's... so cool rite???!!!

after that i went back home to do stuff and then went for the under-16 match against combined schools... was quite happy with the game cause ade praised me!!! hee... she said i made quite a few good passes to her at center forward... *beaming from ear to ear* haha... and cause right at the start before the match started... i promised net(our new goalkeeper!!!) i will help her defend properly... in the end... i got a total of 2 counter fouls(at the center back position) for her!!! and net also agreed that i did help her defend :) hehe... i really tried my best to fake and struggle and wayang and drown lo!!! and i was so happy to know that there was counter foul...

in the end the score was 3-8... though we lost... i think we played well overall... me and ade played full game... so happy... and we didn't feel tired at all... ade was centre forward (switching with val)... i think it was really enjoyable and i'm sooooo happy now... sulynn was damn good... scored 2 goals!!! and she was really tired... but she still piangz damn hard!!! zai to the max!!! haha... and i scored 1 too... it was a rebound from val's shot... but quite shitty cause i took another 2 shots that was beautifully saved by the keeper... shit... stupid small boy can jump so high... go and take part in high jump la... come and join polo don't know for what!!!

sigh... well... nvm... at home now... gotta start my MKT project stuff for tomorrow's meeting at 12!!! sianz... :( hope i get all my projects over and done with soon... and i got 3 learning journals to write too!!! shit... due next monday lo... kns...

Bitchy Edison

read the nus mail edison sent... haha... almost laughed to death lo!!! fainted... super bitchy... din know anyone cld match me!!! Shall share it with you guys...

Dear Captains,

I just learned from Marcus that my 100m backstroke race was not recorded and I would like to know why I have been excluded. He said that he requested that you guys record the race but was turned down.

What is the purpose of recording the swimmers' races? Isn't it to help with improving the swimmer's strokes? I didn't realise my strokes were that perfect that I do not need any help. Or am I so slow that you can't be bothered?

I thought all senior swimmers who come down for training will be recorded? Why the double standards? Have I not been making trainings? Besides, why is there a need to segregate between the team in such a way? Don't you think that it will alienate some members?
I would like to know whose decision it was to exclude me. And the reason for doing so. I was the only person swimming in that race and you had lots of film left, so why was it so necessary to leave me out?

This is not about wanting to see myself on film, but rather, a question of my presence in the team.

Edison

This is absolutely bitchy to the max... cannot stand... haha... anyway... it was really fun over the weekend... where our whole nus swim team came together and had fun... haha... me and ade agreed that it brought us(the polo gals) closer to the team and that we are not that hated afterall!!! haha... and we were even more happy when we know that both edison and marcus love us to the max (if not, adore us)!!! WAHAHA...

oh what a wonderful day today!!! singing my favourite song to myself... 'I'M BEAUTIFUL... I'M BEAUTIFUL...' haha... crap... damn bored at home man... and i just thot of the shots of me swimming breaststroke during my 50m race on sunday... shit man... super ugly to the max lo!!! freaked out when i saw them... totally refuse to acknowlege that it's me... damn!!! and today during OM meeting... my project mate Ming Hui put a super ugly picture of me as well for our slides... SHIT!!! DOUBLE SHITTINESS... always ugly... i need to go for plastic surgery... (actually i'm trying to fish for compliments instead!!!) wahaha... okok... gotta go bitch with ade now... bye!!!

BUSY BUSY BUSY

I'M SAD!!! and super a lot of things to do... shall make a whole list...

1. OM project - just the slides first (due next Mon)
2. Ginvera project (due 8th Nov)
3. MNO project - my part (due next Mon)
4. OM test (next Mon)
5. Econs slides (next Mon)
6. MS tutorial
7. OM tutorial (don't know if there is or not)
8. 3 MNO learning journals (due 6th Nov)
9. OM full report (due 24th Nov)
10. MKT quiz 2 (11th Nov)

sigh... and i must stress that for all the projects... A LOT OF RESEARCH HAS TO BE DONE... it's not easy at all... sigh... no time to study OM at all... i'm reali sad and stressed... is pulling up my CAP score that difficult???!!! i feel like giving up suddenly... cos whether i work hard or not... i end up with the same grades... sob...

TERRIBLY UPSET

was very upset today... i failed another mid term... management science... i remembered studying quite hard for that... and it seems like i've studied the wrong way again... a lot of times... when i know that i studied hard for the test but didn't do well... i always tell myself that i've studied the wrong way and there's a need to change the way i study... but then... can someone just tell me what's the correct way???!!! instead of trial and error by myself???!!!

i don't really care about my grades in the past... but now... i realised it is quite important to have better grades... and all i hope is just to get average CAP scores... but i feel i'm drifting further and further away from my dreams... i almost burst into tears just now during MS lec when i saw my score on the screen... i was reali hurt and sad... and wondered y am i so stupid... i could only control all the way till i finished econs meeting before i let my tears flow...

now i'm all alone at home with no one to comfort me... i am not dwelling in self-pity... but i do hope that someone could understand my feelings and pull me up from the bottom-pit... and df kept disturbing me... i reali cannot take it anymore... i screamed at him when he called my hse and reali warned him not to disturb me again... i'm facing so much shit and i reali hope to get away from them... sob... i'm reali sad now...

THE BREAK UP

hey peeps... me and df broke le... on 19th Oct... Thursday night... around 10pm... that marked the end of our 1 year 8 months 13 days relationship... i have thought over it carefully and i feel that religion should come first... pastor joseph said 'do not be yoked with unbelievers' is not exactly a commandment... but more of like a principle... as non-believers often do not think in the same line as believers... so i guess i sld be more careful in mi future selection...

also... studies sld come first... i seriouly need to pull up mi shitty CAP score... and thankfully... i've got reali good frens like ck and sam who are constantly reminding me about our studying plan etc... haha... will definitely try mi best and i hope u both will always be with me!!! :)

ytd was sam's birthday... haha... mi and ck gave her a manicure and pedicure voucher which she can redeem at shopping malls near her hse... hee... hope she dun get cheated anymore!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM!!! :) haha... samantha is a reali good fren of mine who has super freaking long and skinny legs like those of chopsticks... i often think that i can easily break her legs into 2... hee hee... (oops... hope xiao bai doesn't read this and come after me... haha...)

okok... back to studying!!! i was so bored just now and i decided to doll miself up with the new makeup set i bought at sasa for $10!!! JIP JIP!!! :) haha... so happy and proud of miself... i've now regained confidence and no longer dwell in sadness... okok... it's STUDYING TIME NOW!!!

CAUGHT BETWEEN 2...

sigh... this post is dedicated only to those who knows about what's happening currently to me... this will mean only ck samantha sandra shuhui and yiting i guess... i'm in such a dilemma!!! somebody save me!!! wahaha... :)

bad headache

having super bad headache now... failed mi macro econs midterm... sianz... sigh... was dying in class just now lo... shall slp soon man...

I HATE SCHOOL WORK!!!

I MISS MY GRANDFATHER...

i just realised mi grandfather passed away ytd slightly before 5pm... but johnny called mi onli at 520... sigh... mom was telling me that he passed away in his slp... his heart beat was slowing down and onli mom was there to see the machine tt shows the heart beat etc go down to zero... at least he went off reali peacefully... and dad missed by just tt little bit cos he arrived rite after the machine went zero...

i am reali sad... and i cant even haf a peace of mind now... AUG trials... mid terms... referee course... coaching... tutorials... proj meetings and research... and i wanna go back to see mi grandfather for the last time as well... but i've got no time!!! if i go... i will haf to sacrifice smt... but wat am i gg to sacrifice??? argh... i'm sad... i'm pissed... i'm irritable...

was quite ok during and after service... but when i was on mi way home and mom called me... streams of tears ticked down mi face... and df cld do nth to help but to pass mi tissue paper... she told mi abt the funeral and all and said she will confirm with mi when i can go back by monday...

i'm reali sad... i can imagine mi grandfather's body alone now in the hospital... probably at the mortuary or smt... much administrative stuff has to be cleared b4 his body can be brought to the casket side... i hope he can be buried right beside mi grandmother... he must haf missed her alot when she left 16 years ago... i reali pray for his well being in heaven... i miss you grandpa... i reali reali miss u alot... i hope u'll find grandma and be with her so that she can take good care of u... i miss u sooooo much... :(

I REALLY MISS MY GRANDFATHER...

sigh... mi grandfather just passed away... yesterday... 15 Sep 2006... around 5.20pm... i'm reali upset... kept crying while mi and net were on our way to pick mary to eat katong laksa... sigh... cry until i had headache... but i insisted on gg trg... cos i din wanna go home alone... i will be even more upset tt way...

after laksa we went trg... it was ok la... swam quite abit... and throughout the whole trg... images of mi grandfather kept flashing across mi mind... i reali miss him... and i reali wanna be with mi family now... bro got no more leave from camp... but i think he's given 3 day compassionate leave... so hope we can both go hk and see our grandfather for the last time...

i reali miss mi grandfather... i'm very upset... mom was the onli one with him till the last moment... dad din make it to the hospital in time... i guess dad must haf been very upset abt tt... but johnny was telling mi tt grandfather left peacefully... and tt he was happy just to haf mom acc him by his side when he left... i hope i cld be there with him too... and i wish i'm in hk now with mi family... we definitely need each other's moral support...

grandfather was the onli main reason y our Chow family is still hanging on... 3rd aunt was already a lost sheep... den great aunt has her husband to see to... actually both sld enjoy their retirement together... sigh... uncle is busy with 2 jobs... earning just sufficient to make ends meet... so he dun reali haf much time for family as well... grandfather was the onli person who holds us all together... and with him around... it was the onli time where we cld actually all come together for meals... now tt he's gone... i dunno wat's gg to become of mi family and relatives...

in fact... i dreamt abt mi grandfather's death abt 3 nights ago... n when dad called mi the next day to tell me tt grandfather was not doing so well in the hospital... i feel helpless... like... so what if i know smt's gg to happen???!!! i cant leave just like tt... i've got sch proj meetings etc... sigh...

i'm worried abt dad... grandfather doted on him most among his siblings... and he's also very filial... so i guess he will be the most upset now... and i reali wanna thank God for creating the 2 opportunities for me to go back to hk to celebrate my grandfather's last birthday and spend quality time with him... or i might not even be able to see him again b4 he left... those were reali very happy moments where our whole Chow family came together for his birthday... and mi and joseph wld bring him out for meals with great aunt and uncle when dad and mom were at work... i guess i wun be able to look forward to this anymore when i go back hk next time... :(

i'm reali upset... and having very bad headaches from all the crying... i dunno wat else i can do now... i feel very lost suddenly... and i am totally not in any mood to do mi hw and study for mid terms... i wanna ask if i can skip the whole mid terms so tt i can spend more time in hk... but i dunno how to go abt doing tt... i'm so upset... but i've got so much work to do as well!!! sigh...i look forward to cell and service later...i reali need some counseling and strength from the almighty One...

BLUE BLACK!!!

diam it... got punched by prem on tuesday... now mi eye's getting worse... at first onli 1 small little red spot... now become 1 big patch... and the doctor said cos it's near to the eye... so will take abit longer to heal... shiatz... tmr somemore working... how to jian4 ren2 lo... sigh...

issit that bad???

can cover with mi specs rite???

i think can cover la... tmr shall just go work like tt... haha...

anyway... mom's back for the week... i'm so happy... haha... she's here for some trg... den she gg back on sat afternoon... :) miss miss miss...

shall go slp soon... so tired... i dun wan black eye rings to add on to mi bruise... haha...

KL TRIP 2

haha... finally got time to upload the pics tt we took in KL... thanks mary (for helping us take and sending us the photos!!!) wahaha...

1st stop... kajang satay!!! :)
the yummy thick satay sauce with chilli...

me and mary!!!
what a feast!!!

2nd stop at Ipoh!!! yummy dim sum breakfast... haha...

val and me enjoying the yummy black sesame paste... haha...

ooo.... yummy!!!

yummy carrot cakes... they look reali good from mary's camera... haha...

ooo... this is the muah chee that val and net's crazy about... haha... it's 'QQ' according to val and net dreams about it even when she's having lessons...

our act cute poses... haha... oh ya... and we got a summon of RM20 for not paying for our parking... haha...

got much more good stuff... but i'm tired already... KO... haha... so not blogging le... shall go do abit of hw and den go bathe and get ready to pick mi mom up... miss miss miss... haha...

oh ya... before i forget... i'm signing up for the singnet promotion with the Apple MacBook... so cool... new notebook man... and i'm meeting shu after sch on wed to get her wallet... den gg to jing xian's hse with my 2 big fat CPUs so that he can fix them for me... haha... den go for eye checkup at bishan for mi contact lens... ooo... cant wait for wed... gg off now!!!

KL TRIP

went kl last thurs night with net val and mary... haha... den we came back early on sunday morning at ard 2am... :) quite fun and nice experience... we drove up to kl and ipoh and ate alot of yummy food!!! haha... but the hotel toilet abit piakz... got some dunno wat smell lo... haha... but overall the trip was fun la... spent S$170 on food... hotel... car rental... petrol and TOLL!!!

one thing i must say is that msia got super alot of tolls leh!!! diam it... and hor... we got a summon while we were in ipoh eating dim sum breakfast... haha... RM20... shiatz... cos we forgot to pay parking... and the parking was onli RM0.60 per hour can???!!! diam it totally... haha... den i went shopping at sungei wang and spent ard S$50 on shopping... bought 1 nice top for DF and bro... hee... jip jip jip!!!

anyway... i feel quite tired and lazy... so nv upload the pics... when i'm more free den i go upload k??? haha... nitez!!!

NEW TIMETABLE!!!

quite happy today... cos i finally got mi full timetable out...

Monday
10-12 OML
12-1 MET
2-3 MST
4-5 OMT

Tuesday
9-12 MKTS
3-6 MNOS

Wednesday
10-12 MSL

Friday
10-12 MEL

and since i dun plan to go sch on wed and fri... i basically haf a super long long weekend man... haha... so happy... hopefully can do better this sem though... but actually i also dun reali care leh... cos i cant do honours anyway... so will be trying out for double major... so dun haf to piangz... hee hee... i think da sao will knock mi head if she reads this... :p

okok... back to doing mkt hw... sigh... cos mi tutor will randomly pick ppl one lo... so dangerous... better yi4 si4 yi4 si4 do some work man... haha...

ABSOLUTELY ANNOYED

pissed pissed pissed... got elbowed... kicked at the thigh... kicked with that idiot's foot stuck in mi costume too... head butt & lastly... I GOT SACKED 5 TIMES!!! hands already up can???!!! wat else can i do??? SERIOUSLY... I ALMOST WANTED TO PUNCH SOMEONE JUST NOW... ARGH... i know it's part and parcel of the game... but it hurts leh!!! diam it!!!

maybe it's PMS... or issit i'm always hot tempered... sigh... sianz... wat a bad evening... maybe i sld haf just stayed till 9pm at taka with auntie pauline and the rest...

talking abt auntie pauline... i remembered wat happened at taka... haha... made net go there for nothing... haha... oops... somemore wait at the taxi stand for so long... WAHAHA... ok... quite mean laughing at her... :p hope sales will be good tmr...

hmm... made a prayer request to mi cell grp leader... hope things will get better man...

BORING DAY...

sigh... hse undergoing re-paint since ytd... i'm bored staying at home overseeing everything... bro is going out later at 1pm... i'm going to be all alone!!! sigh... somemore muz clean hse after tt... :(

re-painting the 3 bedrooms now... den continue with the living room etc... cant wait to go back to mi room!!! no computer (using bro's one now)... no bed... no table... WHAT CAN I DO SIA... heng the paint smell not that strong... or else i will reali die lo!!!

been stressed lately cos of this... parents trying to communicate their ideas through phone and sometimes... miscommunication occurs and arguements begin... sianz... is that y mi menses is coming late??? damn it... pimples coming out all over already lo... sigh... the onli thing that's keeping mi entertained now is mi new hairstyle!!! haha... been trying to find new ways to style mi hair properly these 2 days... wahaha... though it's quite a total mess... stealing gel from others and trying those out-of-bed styles... HAHA...

df not coming so soon to accompany me... sigh... alone with 4 men (the painters la...) at home!!! er3 xin1 de4 lo1... HELP!!! SOMEONE SAVE ME!!! :(

MY NEW LOOK!!!

went to cut hair with net and dawn (net's fren) ytd at far east... at haru scene... $30... quite ex... but i decided to change mi close to 8 yrs hairstyle... i.e... pony tail with clips... haha...

nice nice??? haha... it's a new look la... haha... hope mi parents are not too shock to see this... :)

SHITTY DAY...

so annoying!!! shitty day yesterday (10th aug thurs)...

1. trg was bad cos i kept getting told off!!! damn it... and mi finger's sore from getting away from this asshole... kaoz!!!

2. joseph lost 1 of the 4 Nissan car side plates... expensive one lo... ARGH!!! I REALI WAN TO SLAP HIS BLOODY FREAKING FACE CAN???

3. i just realised i got out-bidded again for this MNO module... shiatz lo... i only got 4 modules??? tmr is mi last chance left!!! freak freak freak freak freak freak freak freak freak freak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. IT'S PMS TIME!!!

shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit day!!!

MOM'S BIRTHDAY!!!

it was mom's bdae last sun (6th Aug)... haha... so fun cos dad's frens came to our hse too and we all celebrated her bdae together!!! :)


Happy Birthday Mom!!! :)

Happy Family!!! :) btw... i think there was static around mi head (mi hair's sticking out all over!!!)... wahaha!!!

after celebrating mi mom's bdae... it was time for mi mom to set off for the airport as she had work on monday... haha...

chio bus at the airport!!! (this photo is taken by a freak who sadly... has the same chinese name pronunciation as mi mom)...

HINT: all polo gals know this freak!!!

after mi mom went off... mi xiu net sulynn val and zhining went to eat swensens ice-cream!!! haha...

this is the yummy giant earthquake we ordered!!! haha... though it doesn't look that appetising here... val ordered coit tower and we all also shared an additional fries...

sulynn and net enjoying the delicious yummy earthquake!!! wahaha...

after tt we all went to val's hse for mahjong!!! haha... and xiu xiu gave me a ride on her new bike!!! so cool lo... haha... but she tried to scare me by ZOOMING her way to the carpark barrier... i gripped the side handles till mi arms ache lo... heng nv cramp there... or else xiu for sure laugh her head off... haha... den when we reached val's hse... we saw this 2 white dots on the back seat and xiu said that they came from me lo!!! wat an ass... haha...

den we played till 645 and left for norm sun trg... haha... wat a fun fun day!!! :)

FREE AS A BIRD!!!

i'm sooo happy!!! finally free from work... it was an enjoyable experience... but tiring and demanding too... cos this is my first office job... so it was indeed a great exposure afterall... haha... but i still think that mi previous promoter job suits me better... more outgoing... earn more also... and i like talking to people... selling to them mi products and eventually feel the great satisfaction when they buy mi products from me... haha... DECIDED ALREADY!!! i'm going to stick to the promoter job till i graduate... gotta earn enough money to pay mi mom back for mi car... haha...

today's trg was ok... only me ade sulynn and dior... sounds sianz rite??? ya... and we din play game also... all we did was swim 1k and do passing for like 30mins... den do shooting all the way till 9pm... haha... it was quite fruitful cos sai meng kept correcting me... and this time... he was not as harsh as before (used to get angry with him and myself when he corrected me)... guess he manage to get all the L.O.V.E from us and reciprocate now!!! wahaha...

yawnz... and i haven been online for sooo long!!! work... eat... trg... slp were all i did for the past 2 months... haha... just cleared mi hotmail mail box and nus mail box... and i also just finished planning mi sch timetable with the help of alvin (sam's fren)... ck & ade... haha... almost died-ed while planning... but all's done now... tmr shall wake up at 830 to bid... hee...

slpy now... yawnz... good nitez peeps!!! :)

Jakarta!!!

Hey peeps!!! I'm going Jakarta tmr nitez! Quite exciting. Going on a polo trip together with the youth boys... sianz... boys... haha... anyway... YITING!!! HOW ARE U??? HAHA... and serene ah... i quite busy tt's y nv update... ahah... i'm so tired... busy with work... totally no time for anything else... haha... but mi job's fun! i'm now working at NTUC Head Office at Upper Thomson Rd... feel free to come look for me! :)

I AM VERY SAD...

i feel sad... y cant a family be happy living together??? i used to cry alone in spore when i miss mi family... but now tt i am bk in hk... i reali regret... i think this is not the type of family i wld wish 2 haf... quarrels... unhappiness... tears... work vs. family... which sld one choose???

i dunno the ans too... i am juz hurt by mi family members... i wish 2 go bk to mi hostel... i dun wish to see these scenes again...

SUNDAY...

quite a wonderful sunday... morning was reading comic... haha... den went to meet yiting in town... we ate at pizza walker!!! haha... i ordered a curry chicken pizza that was 12 inches and yiting got a squid ink (pasta tt's black in colour)... haha... yup... den we went to sing k box... and after that... we went home to get the oreo cheesecake i made for her 20th bdae!!! :) this is it!!!
and we took pictures at mi hse too!!! :)

after that... i went trg at 8pm!!! den went to send bro home and back home now!!! :) HAPPY SUNDAY!!! hee... tmr flying to hong kong for 10days!!! even happier!!! haha...

BIRTHDAY PICS!!!

haha... forgot i took pictures on mi bdae nitez after church... though it was already quite late... but yifen still come and celebrate with me... hee... so kind... :) this is mi birthday cake!!! recommended by ena's mom... though it was a little too chocolate-ty... but not bad la... haha... and i saved one big big piece for beloved df!!! :)
YIFEN ME & BRO!!! hee... 3 of us went country manna... and yifen treated us to a great meal!!! :)
ME & BRO!!! haha... he looks abit toot here... :p

MY BIRTHDAY!!!

it was my bdae ytd!!! 29th apr... hee... quite well spent i guess... first was the afternoon fna paper... thot it was ok... reali happy... cos given the amt of effort i put in... i feel i wun do as badly as last sem (i am more slack this sem than last sem somemore)... reali happy... haha... den went to eat macs with ushan and ck... after tt went service... and den mi churchmates sang mi bdae song!!! haha... so farnie... almost laugh to death... den somemore they bought mi a belt and 2 cheesecakes!!! one oreo and the other blueberry... haha... stupid wenfu say i got 2 cakes cos i am greedy!!! box his face... PIG!!!

happy day la overall... after church i went to eat dinner with yifen and bro at country manna at sun plaza... den shopped like mad though it was already 9pm... haha... shops were closing... but there was this big big sale!!! haha... bought 4 tops for miself for $32 and 2 shirts for bro for $6... WAHAHA... JIPOH TO THE MAX!!! but bro's shirts reali nice... dri-fit material somemore... haha... den came home to eat cake den now online... haha...

oh... and when mi and yifen went to buy cake... we saw ena's mom at the cake shop!!! she was our salesgal lo!!! and we realised tt if we buy cake from her... got commission for her one... so we decided... everytime need to buy cake... just buy from EMICAKES!!! haha... and onli from the amk branch!!! :) happy day today... heehee... back to trg tmr... yawnz... haha... slpy now le...

EXAMS!!! DIE...

exams are coming le!!! die... sigh... dunno if can finish studying or not... and i can't revert mi S/U!!! sob... sad to the max... din go trg on fri... think i need to stop soon... aim to do better than last sem... even if it's just a 0.1 increase in cap score... i am happy enough... haha...

oh ya... i lost the e yore df gave me... cried like mad lo... it's all the while in the car and suddenly i can't find it???!!! shiatz... super sad... and i am having super bad flu now... blow until mi nose so pain now... sigh... stupid fan's fault... :(

just sent car for the 10k km servicing... not bad... haha... this time they cleaned it for me... compared to the previous 2 times where they CLAIMED they cleaned for me... haha... went with da sao... she went with me to leave the car there and den both of us walked out to tp stadium from lorong 8!!! hot to the max lo... 3pm!!! sweat non stop... was wearing covered heels somemore cos i had presentation earlier in the morning... damnit...

keep wanting to slp when i study... think i am reali quite dead... sigh... shall continue IT webcast now!!! SIANZ!!!

NEW CHEESECAKE!!!

hee... mi new cheesecake is ready!!! but it melts super fast lo... had to put in freezer... take out already must immediately cut out and eat... or else melt for sure... wonder how am i gg to bring it to the pool!!! crap... help!!! haha... :)

YIFEN CHEESECAKE & POLO!!!

hmm... been reali sad these few days cos yifen's injured due to polo... sigh... kept venting mi wu2 nai4 and frustration on df... poor thing... haha... anyway... i wish for her speedy recovery... sigh... GET WELL SOON GAL!!! MISS U LOTS... :( tt's the sianz me these few days... crap to the max...

well... so to keep miself entertained and bring mi mind away from sad stuff... i made oreo cheesecake!!! haha... it's super ugly... but ade and val were very kind!!! they told me it doesnt matter the looks... so long it's nice... haha... quite glad to hear tt... first time baking cheesecake... so dunno if i did a good job also... b4 trg i tried the smaller one (i made 1 big 1 small)... it din taste sweet... so when i cut the big one for the team... i was quite scared it might not be nice... haha... but thank goodness... now i know it's edible... shall keep two big big slices for beloved yifen and bro!!! haha... shall fake mi bro tt it's from some bakery shop... den see if he thinks it's nice... haha.... tmr shall bring more for the team!!! made such a big one... cant finish all by miself also... haha... but i think it's quite cheap for such a big cake... $22 for all the ingredients... i checked the price outside... it's abt $35-$60 for 1kg oreo cheesecake... while mine's like almost 2kg including the small one... haha... so i think it's very worth it... :)
this is the cheesecake tt i made... haha... quite heavy leh... cos i din cheat!!! i used all cheese and oreo... din add in any milk leh... haha... and this is wat's left after today... hee... doesn't look like cheesecake at all hor??? more like some choc cake... haha...

sigh... so now abt polo... din play well today... kept letting balls in... haha... quite sad... and i think i haf this super ultra ultimate maximum BLACK face when keeping... haha... shiatz... hmm... to all mi teammates out there... pls ignore mi black face hor... i think i onli haf it when goalkeeping... and even if i'm pissed... it's onli during tt short period of time... so no worries ok???!!! haha... i hope tt might scare our opponents away too... wahaha... and tc ah!!! dun scared k???!!! wun blog abt u!!! haha... okok... getting late... probably do some stuff den go slp le... :)

TESTING!!!

haha... i finally managed to upload pictures!!! not bad... anyway... this is mi and mi bf!!! :) he's called duofeng btw... df in short!!! heh...

YUAN1 WANG4 AH!!!

tc!!! i only accidentally stepped ABIT on her car!!! sob... not purposely one lo!!! chou ade... and who's the anonymous on ade's blog???!!! haha... i haf a feeling it's tc though... haha... oh... and i changed my blog for u already ade!!! haha...

I HATE ADE!!!

I HATE ADE I HATE ADE I HATE ADE!!!

AT VAL'S HOUSE...

hmm... at val's hse playing mahjong now after her bbq... haven won a single game... so val took over... wahaha... she was how shocked to see my close-to-empty money box... sigh... df's asking mi to go home now... but i dun wan!!! it's how fun lo... tc's winning one whole big box of chips now!!! box her face... haha...

was at val's hse on thurs evening too... played mahjong till almost 3... den went straight home... df was quite pissed... cos i forgot to sms him... haha... poor thing... he stayed up till quite late... anyway... i just realised that it's been quite a long time since i played mahjong!!! haha... so fun... and qian's recommending a few super FARNIE TO THE MAX hong kong shows... I WANNA WATCH!!!! been reali bored these few days... trg at acsi in the morning and afternoon with the acsi b & c div... quite fun la... but i think i still prefer to train with the sa team like ray and isaac... heh...

totally burnt now... crap... daxiang cldn't recongnise mi in biz lib lo!!! freak... da sao ee ling sam and others found mi extremely black!!! FREAK TO THE MAX... shiatz... not tt i wanted it... i already put one whole big fat tube of sunblock... but still turn out like this... but it's all over now la... ahah... back to moon tanning... train with MY TEAM... heh...

heard ade's sick... poor her... miss out all the fun and food!!! ADE!!! GET WELL SOON... haha... too bad her aderocks.blogspot.com is fake one... or else i will for sure tag her like nobody's business... WAHAHA... okok... shall get back and watch qian val charmaine & tc play mahjong!!! :)

OUTING WITH CHIN CHIN

just went out with chin chin today... haha... she's happier now... with her new bf from nus arts... :) wanted to eat banana split at delifrance... but THEY RAN OUT OF BANANAS!!! wat shiatz is this man... haha... anyway... it was reali fun to meet up with her... had so much to talk abt... relationships... sch work and many of our old frens... haha...

she was telling mi she's getting baptised with shu this coming easter... hmm... wondering when it will be mi turn... but actually... sometimes i feel mi faith is not tt strong yet... and i am not ready for such commitments... even sometimes i find it hard to commit in a relationship... wat's more if it's religion???!!! haha... but just reali happy for chin cos i still remembered how depressed she was 2 years back in tj... mi and san were how sad for her... but now she's different... haha... :)

hmm... looking forward to trg tmr... mich sms me if i am gg and asked to go together... hope trg will be still as fun... haha... okok... gotta bathe now... den watch the 10pm channel u show... haha... :p

today's meeting...

hmm... had polo meeting today... n cos mom came to pick mi up... joseph was late for booking in n so he tio confinement... poor thing... haha... anyway... today's meeting was abt plans for this upcoming 2 years... and there's like no trg till next week... sigh... sianz... putting on lotsa weight le... :<

nothing much though... just the annoucement regarding uncle louis' resignation... took quite some time to understand it cos he put it across as 'i just tendered'... and the first thing tt came to mi mind was tender loving tt tender!!! hehe... totally off man... so there goes mi little skit... :> oh... n we wun be gg spain afterall... change of plans... gg china most prob and uncle louis was suggesting we go there train 1 mth... haha... tt will be how fun lo!!! hehe...

oh... n i was just reading the part lynnette got so angry over... haha... ' wha after she scored that one goal, her head grew so big that she forgot that there's the rest of the game'... can die laughing lo!!! poor lynnette... hehe... *dun bash me hor* :p anyway... gtg do mi acc hw... tmr got stupid tut... yawnz... tired... :(

FUND RAISING ACTIVITY

Dear friends,

The Singapore women's waterpolo team is organizing a fundraising event for our upcoming overseas trip and would thus like to reach out for your support.

We are holding a private screening of the film MEMORIS OF A GEISHA on the 20th Jan 2006, Friday at Cathay Cineleisure at 830pm. Movie tickets are priced at $200 $150 and $50.

This fundraising activity is organized to help subsidize the team for our upcoming Commonwealth Games 2006 held in Perth, Australia from 22nd to 28th Jan.

I sincerely hope you can support us as the amount we are trying to raise is still far from reach. So please do try to help us with your greatest ability. Or if you are not interested in the movie but are willing to help, a pledge will be greatly appreciated.

Thank you for your time. Haha.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SUPPORT US!!! :)

ONE MORE WEEK TO COMMONWEALTH!!!

AH!!! 1 more week to commonwealth... stressed... though i am not some key player or wat... but i still feel scared man... shiatz... dun feel prepared actually... not as a keeper nor as a player... sigh... anyway... mi elbow's injured!!! sob... well... that's the result of trying to gei kiang (act smart)... go and save shots tt are not meant to be saved by me... kns... pain like shit... cant swim fly now... free i dunno... but breast is ok... though it hurts a little sometimes... :(

toking abt swimmng... ytd was 1st day of ivp... so happy man... did 1.23 for 100 breast... though it's not even anywhere near PB... but i am still happy with tt timing... cant wait to tell jiao lian... i think he'll be sooo proud of me!!! (even if he's not... i will nag at him till he is!!!) wahaha... haven timed myself for so long... did 42s for the 1st lap and 41 for the next... cant believe it when ms meow (serene... haha...) told me tt!!! haha... 2nd lap faster than 1st... well done... wat was i doing for the 1st lap man... anyway... 200 breast was ah piakz timing la... 3.05... but ok la... cant be bothered... was so stressed over 100 breast ytd... esp so when i realised tt the event was ytd onli on the day itself???!!! when louisa told me... i almost fainted lo... sianz...

hmm... oh... and ytd mich din swim 200 breast... she swam 100 breast though... and she got 3rd... not bad... anyway... she msg me tt she has flu and cant come for trg for the whole of this week... and she most prob will be back on fri where there's high chance of a polo meeting in the evening... sigh... loner week again... trg by miself... i realised it's reali quite boring to walk alone... jump alone etc... looking at the players swim... i reali wanna join them man... and i hope louis wun make me train under the nat team guys again??? cos i am reali scared... esp when their shots are so hard... and obviously mi standard is like SUPER FAR OFF from them???!!! so it's a little stressed when doing plucking with them... mi body positioning... arms etc are like ALL WRONG... diam (damn) it... den last fri... alvin poh got told off like dunno how many thousand and one times cos of me???!!! louis told him to gimme reali fast shots... and he did... and i cldnt even touch the ball... so sai meng saw and told him (quite fierce though) to gimme shots tt i can reach for instead... den louis saw those slower shots and shouted at alvin to gimme harder shots (there's ascending tone one hor... scary...) sigh... hai4 ren2 jing1 man...

ooo... i just received val's msg tt the meeting is 545 tonitez... exciting man... wonder who will be out... scary... sigh... nvm... heck... shall go watch movie now... haha... ADIOS!!! :)

Commonwealth trg...

i am so sick and tired of trg... esp due to the sickening weather lately... rain non stop... shiatz... i am now at nyp with dearest yiting after morning trg... swam 8 by 200m this morning... totally no strength... felt so guilty when louis kept asking wat happened to me... i reali did try to pull hard... but din seem to move... sigh... ytd got hit 3 times on the face... kns... can die lo... esp when i had quite a tiring warm up under wang jiao lian and the national team guys...

i reali cant take the cold man... dying from it... been feeding on panadol flu nowadays... reali feel sick... later somemore got lesson from 4-6... this kinda bang sai timing who wld wanna haf class??!! kaoz... so retarded... den will be gg straight to trg after tt... hopefully i feel better... oh... and today's thursday... mich cant go trg... so i think i better get mi ass there... :<

every morning 6.15-8.15... yawnz... the thot of it is already dreadful enuff... can u even imagine how it's like to actually turn up for it... i realised i haf so far onli skipped one trg since the intensive trg started... it was cos of the focus grp thing tt i had to miss it... well... trg vs $100 & free dinner... i choose the latter one of cos... haha... those who noe mi well enuff will noe mi choice too... :)

sigh... sometimes i wonder wat's the pt of being so hardworking man... i dun seem to reap wat i sow... li4 bu4 cong2 xin1... kns... sometimes feel like killing miself man... sigh... shall go home soon and slp man... haha... later meeing aiwei at 3pm for lunch in sch... slpy slpy...

hmm... think i shall go check sch website and see if there's anything tt's need to be done b4 mi lesson... (sidetrack abit... i juz saw the way yiting did her french homework... haha... damn farnie... well done man...) shall use this new word i learnt... ADIEU (adios???)...

things on mi mind...

keep getting bad headaches lately... wonder if it's cause of the lack of slp... sigh... today felt so dizzy after i got back to mi car from lunch with ade lynnette and su-lynn... i feel stressed over something tt's not up to me to decide.. i haf given mi best effort... but still not performing... sigh...

oh well... anyway... ytd dad's room's light bulb just exploded b4 me... the shattered glass pieces landed on mi face and hair... it was such a loud 'pop'... almost became deaf... haha... den i realised... the ciruit was 220-240V... but i bought a blub tt was only 12V... well done man...

sigh... been thinking bout lotsa stuff lately... dunno y... i hope to take a break from everything... polo... household chores etc... i need a break man... sigh...