tired from trg...

been trg under wang jiao lian these few evenings... wld say tt it's a rather good workout compared to normal swimming which is wat they players are doing... esp so when i hate free so much... sometimes i reali wonder y louis made the keepers swim as well...

went for sports massage with lynnette su-lynn and dyan today... i guess it was supposed to turn out fine... but den... i feel just the opposite... neck got worse compared to this morning... mi arms dun seem to get any better... shoulder aching still... and worse... new injury came when ooi leng's shot hit mi fingers this evening... right middle finger is swollen AGAIN... sigh... hate fat fingers... so ugly lo... kns...

nv liked it whenever mi fingers get injured... cos it brings inconvenience... almost cried juz now... so freaking pain lo... but well... i am sure in upcoming matches... there's bound to be more of these situations... gotta get use to it... sigh... btw... wang jiao lian said mi right side is weaker than mi left... made mi sound so retarded... haf to admit tt tt's the fact... and ooi leng's shot made this even more obvious as i was afraid another hard shot wld injure mi fingers further... sianz... this morning's massage is reali not of much help to me... sigh... i think slping is still the best la...

ivp coming up le... wondering wat events i sld take... most prob 50 100 200 breast... 200im and MAYBE 50 fly... tt's if i still haf the strength to 'fly' given mi aching shoulders now... tt sld be all... shan take 800 free afterall... *ponders* shall slp now... tmr still got morning trg... gotta wake up at 6am... yawnz...

TRAINING... SIANZ...

sigh... every morn wake up at 545 to go trg... so tiring... but reali muz say ah... the swim is alright leh... the irritating dips or pumping or watever u call it sux!!! do already totally cannot move lo... sigh... aching arms now... they are getting bigger and bigger each day... dead... think i need to cut down on food despite the intesive trg... den can lose weight... haha... morning breakfast shall take half the bee hoon only... :)

hmm... tv man just came... got new tv... YEAH!!! haha... but i dun watch tv... so wat's the pt man... joseph spoilt it b4 he went ns... damnit... so smart... den i gotta pay for him... sigh... he booking out on 22nd... sob... he called me juz to tell mi tt i gotta pick him up on tt day... SIGH... waste petrol again... yawnz... heck le la... i shall go meet yiting now at nyp... haha...

Holidays!!!

it's hols now... shiok... haha... but got trg everyday???!!! twice a day soon... sigh... back to the old swimming days... gg to get even more huge arms and thighs soon... hope i do get selected for commonwealth though... it may be a fact tt we are gg there to get thrashed... but getting selected is still an honour... *think everyone can get selected to go one meh* haha... :p

sigh... i'm jobless now... so sad... gg to work at singapore pools soon though... i will choose the morning shift... 8-3pm... go straight after morning trg... haha... shall ask them if they wan me to work for long... will continue working even when sch start... joseph gg ns on fri... sobsob... alone again... sigh...

reminds me of those tj times... where there's no tv... no one... nothing at home... only me and dear com... back to those lonely days... where i go home and face the 4 walls... it gets worse when it rains at night... gotta brave the thunder and lightning miself... and even worse if i were to catch a horror movie... will get super paranoid... sometimes to the extent of crying by myself... wondering y i am alone at such times when i so needed someone...

haha... tt explains my late nights with ming... clubbing... staying over at her house etc... it was reali a way to bring miself away from such loneliness... sigh... shi4 guo4 jing4 qian1... shan mention anymore... shall look forward to being alone again... hope things will be better... SIGH... pray hard tt i will get a job soon... keep miself occupied... dun like to rot at home also... :)

btw... i perm mi hair recently... haha... *though some piggish frens of mine say i look like auntie!!! bish* it's for a change la actually... had tt previous hairstyle since like dunno when??? forever tied up... haha... yawnz... now so late le bro still not back yet... sigh... heck him la... shall go slp soon... yawnz...

HOME SWEET HOME!!!

haha... so happy... back in hk now... df sent me to the airport at 12am... took train to save money... haha... flight was at 6.50am though... so we were like wandering aimlessly in the airport... yawnz... slept like mad on the plane... was totally dead... den just had afternoon tea with uncle and aunt... tonitez we are having steamboat... haha... mom's so sweet... gave me money to spend... hehe... tmr shall go do smt to mi hair... hmm... so i perm it again or sld i cut the domino-hairstyle???

so slpy now... but cant slp cos aunt and uncle at home... den if i slp like not too appropriate... haha... it's rather cooling here... hope it doesn't become too cold for me to take... sigh... yawnz... eyes closing soon... nvm... shall go eat sweet corn now... haha... uncle just made one for me... *yummy* hope it helps to keep me awake...

EXAMS!!!

sigh... i cant seem to concentrate lo... damnit... keep wanting to slp while studying... haven even started on fna can???!!! did 5 chapters of legal... 2 chapters of marketing and tt's all!!! die... i picked chapters for mkt... confirm cant finish all one lo... sigh... to think i wanna major in mkt somemore... dead...

mon-wed evenings are tied down by matches... morning send bro to sch so freaking early and when i reach home... i go slp again till like 12??? den eat lunch and stuff drag drag drag start studying at only 130... study until 530 den gotta leave hse... and somemore it's not effective studying kind... i will go toilet kitchen walk walk... stop awhile lie on the table... munch some snacks... go out buy stuff... sigh... and now... i'm online... wth... stupid libraries got no free parking... cant possibly ask me pay 4hrs of parking fee everyday rite???!!! sigh...

so stressed... i wanna watch harry potter and chicken little!!! but everyone's so busy... cant go with me... by the time exam's all over and i'm bk from mi hk trip... the shows' already not showing in cinemas le... sob... sigh... nvm... shall go cook spaggetti now... haha... see!!! get wat i mean now??? ineffective studying.... SIGH...

double sadness...

it was first guys... now's polo... wth... touched the ball and it still flies into the goal mouth??!! den wat's the pt of me even attempting to jump for the ball??? someone said smt tt rather pissed me off just now... damn... players can miss as many shots as they can... make as many bad passes they like... stone there and not fall back to defend etc... ppl dun reali care... but when the keeper lets in some freaking goals (like wat i did today)... well... not exactly been told off... but there's just a higher standard of expectation compared to a player missing a shot... and i dun like this feeling... oh well... though i sldnt be concerned abt such terrible remarks... i almost wanted to ............ tt person... nvm...

sigh... y must i just screw up in games... same for swimming... i always cant do mi best in competitions... it's obviously a medal swim... yet i can lose it... wth... not say i keep damn well during trg... but at least it's better this shit game i had today... andre told me we had a big gap between the 2 teams... but mi arguement was tt... he wasn't at the goal line to gif tt judgement!!! it may be just a goal to the team... another goal for the referees... but to a keeper... i am so sure it means much more... it shows ur competence... match is a time to prove urself... i got told off b4 also for not proving miself at changi naval base... sigh... ppl wun care though... jiu3 feng2 zhi1 ji3 qian1 bei1 shao3, hua4 bu4 tou2 ji1 ban4 ju4 duo1... it's hard to find someone who cares... haha... so stupid... mocking at miself...

reali sad...

sigh... i'm sad... reali sad... guys are reali create more trouble than gals... the sterotype tt gals are trouble-makers ought to be changed... wat sld i do... singlehood may be the best option still... sigh... i'm afraid i'm the kind who cant commit... i most probably will cohabitate in future... i dunno which route i am gg to choose... sigh... how long can a relationship last? *ponders*

sometimes i dun even noe y ppl get into relationship when they are not even sure of the outcome of it... just a rash decision??? or those shan1 meng2 hai3 shi4 kind??? the latter is for sure fake one... it's always painful to break others' heart... so sld we den avoid it and stay single??? or sld we try to take a step forward and break this mental barrier... wat if all fails??? wat if u end up getting hurt???

ideal relationships nv exist... just like wat we learn in chem... ideal gases nv exist... there'll always be +ve and -ve deviations... can i hope for a more to +ve relationship? but who issit out there who wish to cohabitate??? so many guys frens i haf are all so keen on marriage... (of cos here we exclude those ons kind)

sigh... I GIVE UP NOW... sobsob...

zheng jing xian

jx is realli an ass i muz say... wahaha... today went to watch domino... it's quite a bo liao show actually... though the gal is damn chio... and the guy is like some ugly shit... so abit the not compatible at all... but well... haha... ate mos burger and popcorn for lunch... hmm... to be frank... i dun remember when was the last time i ate popcorn while watching movie already... haha... so was quite surprised when jx got me a whole tub for miself... lol...

toking abt this idiot... he's realli quite smt huh... gg sea games lo... wah lao... somemore gg everywhere around the world... having trg trips... taking part in competition where there's prize money with his team... damn... good life sia...

was juz telling him today tt he is not e bf material for any gal... firstly... we both agreed tt he's an ugly F... WAHAHA... next... he's a spendthrift... also... he's a big fat pig... and lastly... he's not a gentleman... haha... had a great time disturbing him man... hiak hiak...

sigh... now back home... gotta do project... sigh... project project project... y issit some idiots just cant do their own part properly??? i hate it when i haf to clear others' dirty lenient job lo... damn them all... speaking of the devil... he just came online... wth... argh... back to work now...

projects + polo = sianz

sigh... at first when i completed mi mkt proj with mi team mates... i was like so happy... cos one proj down... den came stats... where it was like a 2-man show... and now FNA... sigh... i realli dun like accounting man... totally know nuts abt it... diaoz...

now i am like so dead... from all the meetings and all... and of cos... there are few whom i dun like to work with... but i know it's reali common... sigh...

U-14 is coming up... oh well... it's always yi1 chang3 huan1 xi3 yi1 chang3 kong1... though i know i dun realli care as much abt e sport itself compared to swimming... but still... now tt i chose to be in it... i guess i better put in some effort... i dun like to waste time on anything... if i dun haf the chong1 jing4 in the first place... i wld haf left with beloved yifern...

sigh... currently mich injured her elbow... so MORE probably i will be keeping... but i haf this sixth sense telling me tt she will still come and keep despite her injury...

to dear mich... pls let me know if u are gg down for the matches... so at least i am mentally prepared to play as player... den warm up can do some player stuff... wahaha... and pls come early... dun be late (sometimes reali late!! haha) like u always are k??? den i got time to do more player warm up... haha... good gal...

anyway... although others dun say it... i feel tt sometimes ppl dun feel safe with me keeping cos i am new... and one of them is louis... i think he realli hates me and is realli bias... oh well... it's ok now though... i am glad i joined polo after i became more mild temper... or else i wld haf gotten into big quarrels with them already(slap them maybe) and disappear fr the sport like wat many had done...

polo is indeed one sport tt made me learn new things... things tt i nv encounter in swimming... i learn them all here... all i haf to say to all those reading mi blog is... gals especially... dun join waterpolo unless u are ready to take up the challenge of facing the worst nightmare u can ever think of... cos tt's wat u get when the coach hates u...

dark eye rings...

sob... getting uglier each day... not saying i was chio originally... but i am just getting worse each day... lack of slp... not drinking sufficient water... eating lotsa snacks... i haf already exceeded my daily budget of $8 from snacks!!! damn... trying to plan my own financial accounts... my cash flow statement is a flop... excluding so much accrued and deferred expenses... wahaha...

ytd was FNA mid-term... damn... parked my car at HSS memorial lib when i realised i din bring wallet to sch??!! damn... wth... in the end... had to immediately call ck to come lib asap to save me... cos my cashcard got no money to print notes... in such a pathetic state lo... sigh... heng FNA wasn't such a killer... think i can pass la... though wun pass well... but all i ask for is a pass... hehe...

talking abt parking... i am so sick of wasting money on parking coupons... sigh... and cashcard... ytd already spent like $6 on parking??!! wth... singapore govt is rich enuff le lo... like $3.5billion of reserves(if i'm not wrong)??!! spare kids like me who are poor man... sobsob... will be gg for my car servicing on wed... :> but still... talking abt nissan... it's after sales service is realli bad... i haf written a feedback to their HQ already... wahaha... but still better than toyota... cos when i stepped in just to enquire... it already turned me off... worse was that the salesman was totally not interested in the deal??!! giving tt wanna-buy-buy-dun-buy-sua kinda attitude... F*** him lo... pissed my mom off somemore... shit lousy service... and t-jian was saying tt my car is some milk-can car or smt... idiot... ppl not as rich to get a good car la... say my car lousy... hmph... buy me a new one then... wahaha...

sigh... it's 2.30 now... gg trg later at 6... shall slp more now... try to salvage my already rotting complexion... yawnz... nitez...

OOPS...

haha... juz realised actually i haven been blogging for damn a long time... hehe... ok... thanks for the reminder jx!!! turn out u are not tt idiotic afterall... wahaha... hmm... i got back the $300 already... i complained to the managing director of Car Times Automobile n he returned it back to me... den i spent it on fixing mi dad's toilet's water heater... it's $380 lo... but mi mom din return me the $80 extra i paid... haha... oh well... nvm...

mom just went back hk on wed morning... sob... so sad... nobody to cook for me again... yawnz... i am actually in sch now... supposed to do mi work... but i am too lazy... so decided to just check out mi blog and found jx's tag... haha... tmr got financial accounting test... sigh... mi FNA is bad lo... totally dun understand... and this afternoon during real estate lec... i will be getting back mi mid term test... when prof alice went through the ans... i dun think i failed... but den... i think i din get a reali good grade... sob... quite sad... it's like 25% of final yr lo... though i am not thinking of getting on dean's list or smt... i dun hope to do too badly like i did in jc... it's realli luck that i managed to come nus man... and if u fail 3 times... u are expelled!!! wth... sounds like i am the first one to be kicked out if i continue to haf that bo chap attitude in jc... haha...

hmm... 2 ppl actually asked me to partner them for some rubbish biathlon thing... though i am not realli keen... i am rather interested to see if my stamina is still there... haha... but i dun wanna get sunburnt!!! and the sea makes my skin worse... already bad enuff lo... kns... but nvm... i shall not join till i am very sure i wun die after swimming... haha... zheng jing xian... u better coach me!!! haha... idiot... :> or better still... u can partner me in the open cat!!! hehe...

shall go biz ad lib now... central lib is like 5cents per copy while biz ad lib is 4cents... hehe... shall be jipoh and go there now... dun care... must save money... wahaha... yawnz...

SO MUCH THINGS TO DO!!!

sigh... so busy lately... so much hw not done... haven read any of my textbooks yet... dad's toilet ceiling's leaking and i gotta get it fixed (mi bro is not of help at all la... kns)... gotta collect back my $300 from the car dealer... (stupid yifern... thanks for NOT coming with me... argh)... and i am still gg msia for polo trip... wonder wat's my brains thinking abt... so much things undone still go msia... kenna scolded by mom ytd for leaving my brother alone at home for 3 pathetic days cos there will be no one to supervise him on his studies... later leaving at 1215... hopefully that plumber hurry up come so tt i can settle that faster... sigh... wonder how much i gotta pay again... and mi bloody freaking car... dunno take how freaking long to come... tt bang sai car dealer can forget to bid my COE the previous round??!! kns... slap his face... ARGH... getting so irritated... PMS-ing man...

QET!!!

yeah!!! so happy... i passed mi QET!!! got band 5... wahaha... barely scrape thru... cos band 4 u need to take eng lessons already!!! hee... hope life will continue to be smooth sailing for me... :>

sch's started!!!

not bad... quite enjoying business in nus... haha... the things are rather interesting... and mi car's coming soon in sep!!! wahaha... so happy... but b4 tt... i still haf to travel 1.5 hrs to sch... sigh... sianz... and later mi lesson is from 3-5??!! yawnz... but it's real estate and inventment law... hehe... maybe next time i can be property agent!!! wahaha... after sch i shall most prob go ming's condo to distribute mi tuition agency flyers... shun bian meet up with her... it's been such a long time since i caught up wif her... all our bitching sessions etc... wahaha...

ponders...

i realli wonder how come certain ppl can just be so thick skin... it's like... regardless whether in the competitive swimming side where u boast like nobody's business or in other ways where u dunno ur limits and just irritate ur frens... or issit just me pms-ing... for myself... i wld rather ppl not even notice me than to go forth and try to catch other's attention... ending up... pissing off others... and of cos... cos no one's worth me doing tt for as of now...

sigh... anyway... there are times i realli wonder wat am i doing in polo... yifern ming (both mi good frens) haf already quit... and am i realli liking wat i do currently??!! gg for polo trg every session as though it's swim trg in the past... but sadly... jiao lian is not the coach... and i always get told off??!! even mi parents dun dare to tell me off and i haf to take shit from others (this includes the players too)... it's so political and there has to be cliques and times where ppl just ostracise others... WHY?!?! WAT'S TT FOR??!! in swimming... we dun face this kinda stuff cos if u are gd means u are gd... u fight for ur own gold and glory... no need to kan4 lian3 se4 from anyone... i am just suddenly thinking of chiong-ing swimming again... i haf been dormant for like a yr... and i am starting to miss those quiet peaceful times with jiao lian and frens as tt's where i belong in the first place... i am not good with team games cos i haf been an individualist for the past 8yrs... it's hard to change for mi...

thankfully mom's getting mi a car... i will definitely just leave the polo pool after trg immediately and rush home... avoid seeing ppl i dun like... ppl who tell me off... ppl who think they are so great to tell me off... I HATE TO BE TOLD OFF in case mi frens out there who dunno... i bear grudges... and i hate u means i hate u... i am filled with hatred... and i am just beginning to hate polo... they say the coach is leaving next yr... oh well... tt doesnt realli matter... cos i hope to leave b4 tt... but how am i gg to put it??!! 'i cant stand scoldings from anyone... so i feel polo is not the sport for me... i am quitting...' is tt how i can do it??!! sigh... why am i stuck in this abyss... i am just a substitute... wat the hell am i trg so hard for den??!! when others can dun train and yet still be in the MAIN team... watever... polo just sux for me...

NISSAN SUNNY!!!

ok... mom said nissan sunny despite the fact tt i told her most of mi frens (yifern t-jian t-chien dior etc) haf been recommending mi toyota vios... haha... well... it's mom's car... so gotta listen to her... heehee... anyway... i was just being too petty in mi previous entry... so mi beloved frens out there... just ignore me... wahaha...

so happy... mom's coming bk on 10th to sign the documents etc and the car will be ready for collection in september... and i realli pray hard tt i will haf a safe journey all the time... not getting into any trouble so as not to disappoint mi mom and lose her trust... hehe... tmr's the first day of sch... and i am having bad bad cramps now... just now dinner at crystal jade with tilly kah leong stitch daryl and bj was soooooo full lo... think i am really growing fat soon... die... and now i am eating yougurt... damn... fat fat fat...

VIOS OR SUNNY???!!!

sigh... which sld i get??? toyota vios 1.5M tt's made in thailand or nissan sunny 1.6M tt's made in japan???!!! both abt the same price... both also good... though ppl normally say that toyota is a better brand... but it's now made in thailand!!! the quality control... workmanship etc will be of different comparison already... sigh... which sld i choose??!!

today checked out nissan sunny with desmond... he's realli too kind man... sending mi here and there... feel so bad... haha... but after i get mi car... i will haf to reach home by 10 every night... maybe drag a little 1030(but i shan push mi luck)??? but definitely not later than tt... or else mi and mom's deal will be voided... sigh... but good also la... cos mom doesn't wan mi to abuse the usage of the car... and i gotta send joseph to and fro sch also... so i better familiar miself with the places now man...

haha... excited man... it's finally realli getting settled... after those tedious few mths tt i haf been checking out cars... andy was telling me 'U THINK BUY CAR LIKE BUY CLOTHES AH??? ONLI FEW MONTHS U WANNA BUY CAR ALREADY... U BETTER CHECK OUT MORE FIRST AH...' cos i was planning to get a 2nd hand car at first... so test drove every single car i cld... haha... now getting new car... not bad not bad... save all that hassle... :> but still gotta check out tt vios tmr... hopefully yifern and ena go with me to alexandra rd...

hmm... will especially reward yifern for always helping me... but for all those other bang sai frens out there who nv help one... kns... YES... TT'S U... BANG SAI... TT FELLOW READING MI BLOG NOW... NV EVEN HELP ME AT ALL... DUN EXPECT ME TO DRIVE U ARD MAN!!! HMPH... can just go and die... bang sai fren... bbbllleeaahhhhh...

CARS!!!

HELP... ANYONE OUT THERE PLS HELP ME... SIGH... I NEED SOMEONE WHO'S DAMN AGGRESSIVE AND CAN BARGAIN WITH CAR DEALERS TO COME WITH ME TO SEE THIS CAR AT UBI... sigh... these car dealers ah... see mi small girl den purposely quote those high prices... kns... i need an adult who knows quite abit abt cars man... smoke them to death... see wat else they gotta say... hiak hiak... but where's this angel to come to mi aid??!! sigh sigh sigh sigh...

MOM'S BACK!!!

mom just came back this morning at 6.25... supposed to go to the airport to pick her up... but i ended up sleeping till 1045am... wahaha... shiatz... oh well... she told mi her budget for mi car is $500 per mth for instalment... she will be paying for me till i graduate and get a job... shiok!!! after tt i will pay by miself... tt's the supposedly agreement... so she told me to realli look carefully b4 getting a car cos it's not as easy as i think... wahaha... so everyone out there... pls help mi keep a lookout for good and cheap cars!!! hehe...

currently working for this tuition agency - Oxford Certified Tutors... quite not bad... all i haf to do is just to get tutors for ppl who need tuition... of cos better tutors are reserved for mi frens... lao pok ppl for outsiders... hehe... will be getting leaflets to distribute ard man... wahaha... hope business gets well... juz quit mi sensualite job... it's too tough le... though the pay not bad... but den... always drag pay... den df nags at me for taking this kinda job... sianz... :)

and i am seriously getting damn fat... need to lose weight... feel like taking the product that louis is taking... herbal life... but mom says it's better to let the doctors check the contents of this kinda supplement first... and it's quite a heavy investment too... mom says if i can afford it BY MYSELF den by all means... go ahead... diam it... means i cant haf it lo... sianz... but it's ok... mom said 'YES' for mi car already!!! hehe... $500 per mth... this realli needs abit of accounting man... stupid TAN YI FERN better help me... or else i dun c wat's her accounting degree there for... HIAK HIAK... shall go check out more cars now while mom's signing all the documents for my admissionn into nus!!! :)

ULTIMATE F***ING BITCH CUM SLUT...

i always wanted to get some lousy bang sai COE car like nissan presea... nissan march... honda civic LSI etc... but now i decided to get a 2nd hand hyundai accent le!!! wahaha... mom's coming back on 22nd aug... and she promised to go check out with me... if the price is reasonable... den she will get it for me!!! wahaha... so nice man...

oh well... i was just telling shuhui abt mi hoping to get a car ytd when she told mi some ultimate freaking biatch in tj swim team thinks she's so freaking great and show ap to ppl... disregarding the captains etc... kns... 37s for 50m back??!! HAHA... tt's how freaking slow lo... jump in anyhow whack also can do ard tt timing... and given the fact tt she's a backstroker can??!! LOUSY SHIT ASS... and she FORCED kit lu not to compete backstroke with her in sch nats??!! wah darn eh... kit lu is definitely much faster than her lo... kns... she better be thankful i'm not ard in tj anymore... cos if i am... she will die for sure... she will just end up like tt shum wei ling bitch(think onli mi batch ppl know wat happened)... WAHAHA... i am so evil... but oh well... boobs better support me man... hiak hiak... i hate bitches who think they are so freaking great but in fact they are juz pieces of shit... if u say u are gg SEA games... ASEAN... asia pac den ok lah... nth to say... but if u are juz doing 37s for 50m back and considering urself a backstroker... den u jolly can just F*** off... ULTIMATE F***ING BITCH CUM SLUT!!! see ur face i feel like slapping the hell out of u already... kaoz... hmm... think i am back 2 the bitchy-est side of myself again... oh well... who cares??!! HIAK HIAK...

to all those who wanna noe who's this bitch... u can check out sch nats results... some1 in tj swimming a lousy 37s for 50m back... wahaha...

back soon!!!

haha... to all mi dear frens!!! i will be back soon!!! sat morning 1am!!! hehe... cya guys soon!!!

test driving!!!

hehe... today went to test drive this nissan presea... quite cool... just tt when i was on this slope ah... mi clutch control like shit... so the car rolled back a few metres... heng the taxi behind mi nv horn... or else i will panic one man... wahaha... den got another offer from ian's fren... selling his nissan march 1.0 at $16k... sounds damn ex but cos the parf is $13k... so depreciation is abt $3k per yr... quite alright lah... hope i get 2 c it soon!!! & hopefully ian can help mi bargain with his fren man... wahaha... btw... i love yifern to bits man... cos she drove me to commonwealth... den sent mi to bukit timah... haha... though it was unintentional... but wai1 da3 zheng4 zhuang4... hehe...

today's trg was fun!!! i am finally doing smt tt i feel can aid mi in becoming a better goalkeeper... wahaha... hope i can improve faster man... RANDALL TAN!!! COME AND TRAIN ME HOR!!! haha... but one bad thing is tt... i am too tired from the trg... till i realli got no strength to keep when the rest were taking shots... same as monday sia... totally cant jump... legs were rather sore... gotta work on them man... sigh... so kns... even louis also thinks i haf got short arms... can i put extension or smt??!! does it help??!! hmm... sld get taller ppl like lynnette t-chien ade to train as keeper ma... sigh...

oh well... i will b flying 2 hong kong on fri morning!!! 725am flight... so gotta reach airport at 530am??? kns... so early... but no choice... cos i bought some jipoh valuair tix ma... wahaha... hmm... they got no food on board lo... think i shall go buy subway and da bao... hiak hiak... yawnz... check out the time now man... tmr gotta wake up at 8 cos i gotta go office... after tt gg dim sum buffet at harbour front... den meeting df after tt... yawnz... nitez ppl!!!

UGLY!!!

argh!!!! y am i sooooooooo ugly!!! cant i just haf a prettier face... cant stand mi own face sia... kns... ARGH!!!

CRAMPS! TRG! CARS!

dammit... having such bad cramps now... can just go and die man... and stupid jingxian is now at the 4th largest tobacco manufacturing centre in the world... mi goodness... can u imagine the amt of tobacco over there??!! freak... he always gets 2 fly here and there... so shiok...

ytd's trg was quite fun... finally i feel miself actually getting tired... normally we swim den we do ball handling... if keeper's trg den we do walking tt's all... ytd's was a more modified kind of walking... & made mi super tired... had totally no strength to keep when the rest were shooting... reminded me of swimming trg... where jiao lian made us swim till we lay flat there dying... wahaha...

been looking out for lousy cars lately... haha... mom said it's advisable 2 get some bang sai car since i am a new driver... so even if i bang the car... it's no big deal... she dun mind getting mi 1 to try out!!! hehe... hmm... den maybe i check out COE cars too since it's much cheaper... wahaha... got lotsa places to check out... ubi... katong roxy square... commonwealth... kaki bukit etc... haha... will b gg out with bro soon!!! *poof*

wat's wrong with u??!!

i'm giving up hope soon... i'm sick of all these... sigh... I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U!!!

YEAH!!!!

things been gg on realli great 4 me lately... haha... 1st is getting mi license... next is getting in2 nus biz ad!!! den sales been good 4 me recently at far east plaza!!! haha... and now... guess wat??!! desmond agreed to help mi get a van under tech athlete's name!!! wahaha... realli happy man... though i've been realli tired cos of mi job... but i'm glad tt i am earning mi own money and getting mi very own car!!! haha... shall show mi parents tt i can survive on mi own!!! hehe... first step to adulthood... get mi own car without dad and mom paying a single cent for me (they dun wanna pay for mi also lah)... wahaha... yawnz... realli damn slpy... think i better go slp soon... dying le...

off to australia! :)

flying off 2 darwin (aus) tonitez at 1050! gotta reach airport at 815pm terminal 1. so excited. 1st time gg aus. hmm. btw. haven told all u guys tt. i passed my driving practical test (tp) on 11th may le!!! hehe. passed 1st time with 14 demerit pts. abit e lousy. but nvm la. pass means pass! hehe. and i am accepted into nus business admin! so most prob gg nus :) will b in aus from tonitez till next friday nitez. so all u guys out there cant contact me these few days!!! dun miss me. wahaha.

NOT AGAIN??!!

sigh... guess wat... i missed my driving lesson AGAIN!!! $58.80 gone just like tt!!! WHY AM I SOOO FORGETFUL??!! i realli feel the pinch... feel that God is playing ard with me... mi test is next wed and yet i can still miss mi lessons here and there??!! wth!!! i am sad... realli sad... not the first time le... wasted so much money already... sigh... of cos ppl can tell me tt money can be earned back... but the pt is tt... these money tt i haf wasted IS mi HARD-EARNED MONEY too!!! sobsob... i totally forgot abt mi driving lesson (supposed to be at 1015 this morning) until now??!! 5.05pm!?!? sigh... wat sld i do?!

tmr got polo match in the morning... den got nus biz interview till ard 1pm... after lunch go rio vista for coaching den go swim with mom... no time 2 drive at all!!! sunday morning coaching at sengkang... afternoon send mom to the airport... evening got polo trg??!! argh... i feel so screwed up... sobsob... left mon and tues 2 realli chiong 4 the test!!! some1 help!!! SOB...

DrIvInG dRiViNg DrIvInG!!!~~~

cleared lesson 32 & 33 today!!! so cool :) kenna 10pts for lesson 31... 12pts for lesson 32 and 8pts for lesson 33... actually mounted kerb while making left turn in circuit today... but instructor too kind... ask mi be more careful next time and passed mi with 8 demerit pts... hahaah.... i am soooo happy!!!!!! booked mi practical test on 11 may... hope can pass first time.... sigh... shall chiong revision lessons b4 i set off for mi aus trip.... cant wait... it's mi first time gg on overseas trip for waterpolo... always it's onli for swimming... a very individualistic sport... hahaaha....

tmr gotta start work at tiong bahru again... sianz... but nvm lah... since i am free i shall just work instead of just slacking at home... at least i got income... hahaah.. meeting kel and kok soon at 1015 at raffles place mrt... yawnz... normally i am still slping at tt time one lo... :( but nvm... they are 2 lao3 shi2 ren2... haha... nice working with these kinda ppl... cos they are not competitive unlike others.... instead of being very competitive... i became more cooperative instead... ahahah... jin4 zhu1 zhe3 chi4, jin4 mo4 zhe3 hei1.... ppl whom i mix with realli mould mi character man... hahahah.... sigh... shall get some zzz now.... den can piangz tmr... ahhaah... yawnz...

p/s : to ken.... when u flying back??!!

SIANZ!!!!!

soooo occupied lately!!! had 2 settle euro grp stuff ytd.... den went 4 interview @ ah wan's clinic @ paya lebar... ahhaa.. & had test 2day on bio related stuff.... most prob next mon start work... 730-12 noon... so mayb can get another job in e afternoon!!! but den.. better clear mi driving 1st... mi progress is too slow!!!!!! argh!!!!! spent so much money yet i still haven pass..... so mi plan is 2 train hard as 4 now since mi afternoons r free... den shall look out 4 available slots 4 driving (now onli @ lesson 28) & at e same time mug 4 final theory (test on 3rd may)... after tt focus on aus trip... & when i come back shall piangz 4 practical test.... ehhehe... perfect! :)

after clearing driving test... den concentrate on work.. @ e same time persuade mom 2 get a car... hehe... den discuss wif her abt moving hse!!! PERFECT! but always... ideals will not turn out ideal... sigh... prepared 4 the worst liao. but i still pray 4 miracles! :)

oh... & surprisingly hammy (biatch from euro grp in charge of new york skin solutions) called mi 2day & asked if i wanna work 4 her under new york skin.. hahaha.. i was sooo honoured... but of cos... i rejected her lah... i mean... polo 1st as of now.... clear the aus trip den c how... ahahahha...

hmm... & btw ah... i very long nv go clubbing le... suddenly thot of gg... any partners out there?! hehe..

BYE BYE EURO GROUP

juz quit mi promoter job at euro group... though it's saddening to say bye to the high pay... i guess it's worth it ba... i mean... i gotta face up humiliation fr customers and stress fr cynthia to push sales... realli damn sianz of this job... ytd mi, angela, shimin & henry dashed up to head office and just demanded to quit on the spot... and we created a big hoo-ha at the office... in fact.... we sensed animosity almost as soon as we stepped out of the lift... hahahahah... anw... this hammy (a freaking biatch from euro grp) is sooooo PLASTIC!!! she can just go and die lo... totally cant stand her.... ahhaahah... well... cynthia too... totally fan1 lian3 bu4 ren4 ren2.... biatches!!!! argh... hope they cant find promoters and clock 0 sales!!! ahahah... oops... so evil... heheeh..but too bad lah... who ask them soooo sales minded!!! wahahaahha...

feel so relaxed after i quit the job... goalkeeping was fine today... at least not like wed?!? i was like slacking lo... sigh... at least i realli put in effort to jump and block off the balls today!!! heehehe... & yifern's like sooo busy with her sch too... sianz.. haven met up with her for damn long le... basket...

to yifern : u jolly well finish ur exams soon lo.... stupid idiot! whahahahaha...

hmm... kenryu came back today... went airport to pick him up but was late!?!?? and in the end the whole gang of them just waited for me... ahahaha... sooo paiseh!!! :) den we went serangoon gardens (chomp chomp) there to eat and den shared cab with tilly and kah leong home... and df called mi twice while i was out and i just gave him slip short replies and hung up on him... feel quite bad for being so mean... :) oh well.... yawnz... slping time now... :)

australia...

df's now in perth - aus.. enjoying his 2-wk holiday... kinda miss him... :( well... kenryu's in aus (sydney) too... hhahaha... still rem in the past... i use to quote kenryu as 'HE' and i dis-allowed all mi frens from saying his name cos i was afraid it wld trigger bad memories... but i guess.... time is the best healing power.... & we are definitely fine now... no hard feelings at all... :) and stupid kenryu still owes mi an email -_-

had been realli busy with uni applications recently... fortunately i had help from dearest yifern... mr fun & ms norsheha tt i completed it b4 deadline... ahahah... and ms norsheha actually flashed the essays i wrote for the discretionary method to all the yr 2s (aka the 04 batch... i am the 03 batch) whahhaaha.... & this time... i realli gotta thank yifern man... she basically ran errands for me?!?!!? ahahaha... submitted mi doc to ntu and nus for me... haha... though i got a bad scolding from her... she still did it for me...

n i am such a spendthrift these few mths... ever since i started working... sianz... better save up abit more... next time shall bank in those fatter cheques into me and mom's acc man... so tt i cant withdraw money from it so easily... hahaahah... from 15-21st may we will be gg darwin for arafura games!! ahahahah... tt's like so exciting... & yes.... it's in aus too!!! ahhahaha.... everyone's like gg aus... yippee!!!!!!!!!

next monday i start work again... sianz... i think i lost all motivation and chiong-ing in this line.... realli very sick of working...and sometimes i realised tt i am quite sick of trg too!!!!! wat the.... despite the fact tt i am such a lousy keeper... i am actually sianz of trg?!?!?!?! guess cos it's water polo ba... been swimming for like 8 yrs?!?!!?!? wat to do.... sigh... :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIFERN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heeheh..today is yifern's birthday!! hope she like the present i am gg to give her.... hehe.... starting from today i gotta work from 10-10 at seiyu bugis!! so sianz... sigh... and den it's like... i gotta sneak off to trg at queenstown den i sneak back to work after tt (cos work ends at 10 and trg ends at 9??!!).... sigh... so troublesome.. but no choice... cos this irritating woman will spot check on mi and mi partner at ard 945... so we gotta report to her... sianz...

today suay suay met mr andy at queenstown b4 trg... den of cos he blabbered on abt mi yifern ena fiona joining his side at teck ghee... saying tt it's under matthew tan (tan eng bok's son) and tt all ssa swimmers sld come back as we sld yin2 shui3 si1 yuan2.... wth.... like as if i give a shit rite?!?!! anyway... dearest yifern ena and fiona... i am following wherever u guys are gg!! ahahaah... so tired... and stupid kenryu is like slping halfway while toking to mi online?!?!!?! wat an ass... pls go and die... argh...

a levels results..... :(

i did sooo badly for a's... sigh... got BCC and c6 for gp.... cant even go anywhere...but nonetheless... i will be applying for NTU NUS SMU & SIM.... i will be taking business ba... yup... hope i can try mi luck and at least get into one uni... sigh... -_-''' rather disappointed with mi results... but den again.. given the amt tt i studied for(er...onli rite after prelims den i started??)..... i shall just be contented.... -_- wat more can i ask for??

& y cant any1 be sympathetic with mi ?!?!! thanks to sandra for her encouraing words... it's the best results i've got in mi whole tj life ... but still... sigh... others gimme words of encouragement too... but i know they think mi grades are shit... i've heard one unintentional hurting comment from mi fren... but it's okie.... i mean... yes of cos... i derserve this kinda results for the amt of effort i put in.. and i sld thank God for letting mi scrape into uni... or else i can juz go & die....& when i went out with mi frens... all of them got great grades (at least better than mine?) yet they can still complain tt their grades are like shit & they cant go anywhere etc... no one even knew how i felt (except shu) cos i was putting on a strong front.... if not wat....expect mi to cry there ah?? and of cos i thot it silly to cry too... i mean...i haf wasted enuff tears on HIM already,...even thruout a's n it's onli when i started work tt i managed to be soooo busy tt i got over HIM.... so crying is a BAD move...

sigh... oh well... i've got trg later... shall collect even more hurting comments & blog it down for review...

WAT I WAN NOW IS...........

firstly... of cos it's a levels.... & it's out tmr lo!!!!! i just wanna get into uni!!!!!!!!! not hoping for some fantastic superb grades... cos in the end... when u go out to work... nobody gives a shit abt it!!!!!! they onli care abt ur degree!!! ahahhaha... so if i screw up (touchwood!!)... den i guess i will go SIM (singapore institute of management).... the cost for a 3yrs degree course in business is at most $23000..... same as NTU and NUS!!!! wahahaahaha.... planned for backup liao.... hehee... checked it out with yiting ytd.... hopefully her mom allows her to go SIM man... ehheehehe... & SIM is backed up by UNIVERSITY OF LONDON!! sounds prestigious huh??!! ehehehehe....

secondly... it's to get a smaller apartment so tt i dun haf to clean up soooo much!!!! mi mom totally dun understand tt i am the onli one cleaning up the 2 houses for her.... mi bro just slacks ard whole day... diam it!!!!!!!! cant mi mom just sell the 2 houses and get a smaller HDB apartment!!?!?!! or a condo might be good too... as long as it's small and cosy!!!!! this amk house is too big tt it seems empty with just mi and mi bro... been staying alone since i was 17??!! so when will this loneliness and emptiness end?!!??!!?!! -_-'''

thirdly... of cos tt will be mi driving license... ehehehee... & hopefully mi mom gets mi a car after she's sold the 2 houses... eheheheehe.... and den i wanna take mi life saving BM (bronze medallion) and SIC (swimming instructor course)!!!! not saying tt i m gg to be a swimming coach in future... but it can serve as a backup for mi future in case i ever get retrenched or sacked and i wld be jobless for like MONTHS!?!?!?!?! like tt i can constantly keep mi income coming!! wahahhahaa... planning quite far ahead huh??!! ehehee...

fourthly... is actually to hire a maid to clean up the house if mi mom refuses to buy a new apartment... i am realli sick and tired of doing all these household chores... i've been a maid for like 3yrs liao??!! even b4 i stayed alone at bedok i've been cleaning the house for mi parents already (cos they sacked away our maid).... so all u ppl out there... pls do not take the cleanliness of ur house for granted... cos it's definitely not there without some1 cleaning it up for u!!!!!! wake up to ur senses n do some household chores urself NOW!!!!

lastly... it's actually to settle off the i-also-dunno-wat-it's-called relationship i haf with DF... he seems like mi bf even though i already rejected him alot of times??!! shimin will know wat i did... practically telling him tt i wun accept such an ugly person like him 2 be mi bf etc..... hahaha... kinda mean huh??!! but well.. once bitten twice shy.... not planning to get bf till i go uni... heheehehe.... but he's realli nice... sends mi home even though it's like soooo late??!! & tolerating with mi FOREVER pms...... & he got mi a crumpler bag tt i soo wanted badly like since dunno when for V day.... SIGH...... if onli HE treated mi this way in the past.... hmm... but well..no time for all these now... shall go yiting's house play mahjong first... den come home & spot check on this part time maid tt i hired miself... ehehehehe... & during march hols pom pom is actually bringing mi go buy oascis shoes!! eheehe...shu and wan... u all wanna come also or not... :> got 40% off leh!!! hahhha....oops... too jipoh le... WAHAAHAHHAA....

A LEVELS ARE BACK TO HAUNT ME AGAIN!!

diam it... results r out on friday 2.30... sigh... hope i can make it to a uni man(may God bless me).....i am not hoping for some super fantastic grades... but i hope at least can make it to a uni lor.... stressed...........................................

went seoul garden at taka today with shimin and auntie pauline for our farewell parrrly(tt's our common slang for 'party'... whahhhha)... den after tt went new york skin at bishan for facial... damn shit.. the consultant tok a whole shit abt signing package and made mi make an appt on friday 11am instead... gotta waste time go down again... -_-''' fine...shall just be jipoh and pay $10 ONLY(no extra!!!) and i just realised tt... after mi facial... i will be collecting a levels results.... FREAK!!!!!

hmm... spent $88 on xando meal replacements... i dun trust pills lah.. so i shall just take those meal replacements and starve miself to death... hope i can c some results man... as a sensualite promoter... i am so bloody freaking fat... wat's this man?!?!?!!!?!? argh....

& days back i had this imposter on mi blog.... it realli made quite an impact on me... guess onli yifern knows ba.....thot HE was back into mi life... but den... it was just a deception... oh well... it's already long over and i know i m not supposed to be pinning any hopes.... i will try harder i guess... yawnz....

tmr morn got driving lessons.... den yiting coming to mi house to do her project while i clean mi house... wahahaahha... alright... at least i haf a great pal with mi... sigh...shall go rest awhile now..... YAWNZ.......

to the supposedly kenryu out there....

hmm... i hope u can fork out the time and ans all these qn... thanks..

1) wat's the name mi and ming gave u when we saw ur bus pass photo?
2) wat's the birthday present u got for me?
3) wat did i get for u for ur birthday?
4) how many times did i visited u at SAS before?
5) wat's the first movie we watched together alone?
6) whose party was it tt u went and got drunk after tt?
7) wat do u feel like doing to ray whenever u see him?
8) wat made u get mi msn add from ray?
9) when's mi birthday?
10) when did we get together?

so sorry... i find it dumb too.. but just tt i am still doubtful abt ur identity... so pls ans all these qn... it will be good if we can thrash it out on msn instead of having to do it here on mi blog which i find so slow and lag.... but it's alright to reply on the tag board also... and btw... U BLOCKED ME OFF UR BATTLE_ANGEL ACC RITE?!?!?!?!?!!? basket.....

tired........

feel so slpy... set mi alarm at 1145 but i woke up at 824 automatically this morning... sigh... later confirm slpy again.. now helping yifern checking some stuff... (so sorry gal....take so long to do this...) hahhaahha.... later i gotta go century square to work... sianz... gonna see all mi juniors man.... hahaha....

hmm..... DF sent mi home again last nitez... he told mi he already saw mi as his gf and told his family abt me??!! i was like soooo -_-'''.... i wun deny tt he's reali nice... but i guess i am unsure abt the feelings i haf for him... so i shall just wait and see... anyway.. i told him to wait till i graduate from uni... wahahaahh... so let tt be a test for him ba.....

i guess it's all the same.... when u treat someone too nicely.... they tend to take u for granted.... and now it seems like i am taking DF for granted sia... sigh.... ji3 suo3 bu4 yu4 wu4 shi1 yu2 ren2.... i dun wan ppl to do tt to me yet i am doing this to DF now... wat a sinner.... sianz...

and this is to 'ken' who's like tagging rubbish on mi tag board... i dunno who u are and y u are doing all these rubbish... but maybe u sld try some other things if u are bored.... so i hope u can stop pretending to be kenryu when u are not and leave mi blog alone for good... thanks.... ur cooperation is greatly appreciated....

work starts at 2...and now's already 1.07...

hahah... i am still eating at home now... cant be bothered to go work... so bored... but for the sake of vitamin M.... no choice... sigh... and i cant wait to start mi driving lessons again!! haahahahah... so fun!! i drove ard amk area all the way to bishan park there... den went all the way to lorong chuan there where i turned to amk ave 10... so shiok!! hahhha... drove at 70km/h and mi instructor almost died... hahaahahah.... i dashed across the hump at gear 4 at speed 60km/h??? ahhhahhaha...the car basically flew across the hump lor...ahahahahahh... but well..i love this instructor lah.. he is sooo kind and nice to bully... heheeheheee... :p sigh...so tired... shall hurry finish mi instant noodles and get mi ass off this chair! ahahaha... it's 1.11 now... dead... confirm late for work...ahhaahah...

YUN NAM HAIR CARE....ANYBODY????

okie...i am like now doing mobile sales for this YUN NAM HAIR CARE.....well done rite?? yes... sales job is just like cheating ur customers....cos u paint such a good picture b4 they get wat they purchased... but after tt.... hiak hiak.....no comments lah... wahaah.. .

but in any case.....anybody out there wants a free hair treatment???? or pay $1 extra to add a hair care kit??!! ahahaahaa.... tt's basically wat i am supposed to tell those chinatown aunties and uncles.... hahah.. yeah... dunno lah....it's just sooo wierd... cos nobody believes it's tt cheap... but den again.... ppl out there who has dandruff, oily scalp, itchy scalp, dry hair, great hair loss, split ends etc...pls go to YUN NAM...

yawnz... just woke up onli... getting changed soon to meet up with yiting... den after tt go work le.... from 2-7pm at chinatown... although we gotta stand under the hot sun... but 1hr $12 is damn freaking good pay sia.... which is y i took it up... hiak hiak... den after tt gg queenstown for trg?!?!?? sianz... goalkeeping..... everytime get whacked by the ball... if not u can just see the ball zoom past mi head and into the goal mouth... ahhahahaha... so super throw face lo... RANDALL TAN AH... U BETTER COME AND TEACH ME LOR!!!! I AM DYING HERE CAN??!!?! wahahahh.......

to ken....

hmm... i am glad tt u made ur visit here.... :> and i hope u wun misunderstand tt i am actually toking behind ur back.... cos... this blog is realli meant for u to read..... i told ray to tell u tt but he told mi u din wanna read it then....

towards ur comments... all i can say is tt.... i dun deny i am at fault... but guess it always takes 2 hands to clap?? but no pt toking abt tt now rite? i realli juz wish to maintain diplomatic ties with u... yup... well..thanks for visiting and ur comments too....

Y DO ALL GUYS HAF TO BE SOOOO FLIRT??!!

i haf been trying sooo hard to control using the F*** word.... but finally today... i cldnt control anymore... i said tt dunno how many thousand million times to yifern.... damn shit... so irritated.... DF was like telling mi abt this gal at work whom he has hao3 gan3 towards??!! WATEVER LAH!!! tell me for wat?!?!?!?!? bloody shit.... so flirt den dun come chasing me can?!?!!?!?!? dun let mi haf any hopes on guys ever again..... i dun wish to pin any hopes.... not at all.... sob.... now i know y till now i still cant forget HIM..... cos i knew HE was devoted.... and HE never tells mi about any other gal..... HE made mi feel as though i was the onli one.... HE never makes mi jealous or wat..... i realli miss HIM.... no one can gimme tt kinda feeling again... i dun wish to cry... but toking abt HIM just makes mi feel tt HE was mi world.... and now tt i haf lost HIM.... without HIM now i am just like an empty shell.... perhaps no guys are serious abt relationships at all ba.... sobsob....

mi parents are back in spore... so happy.... mi mom cooked dinner for us tonight... so yummy... haven eaten home-cooked food for such a long time.... i miss johnny... he's all alone in hong kong.. spending the new year without mi joseph mom and dad.... sob.....

den i got bullied by cynthia (mi boss) today... she keep telling mi off for this and tt.... den wat's the point of mi pianging so hard for her for mi sales?!?!?!?!?! everyone else slacked like shit.... leaving mi the onli one standing there... chionging for sales for her from 11-9 everyday!!! i dun reap wat i sow.... i get shit in return... how can anyone understand mi??!??!??!

GET LOST TO ALL THOSE WHO HURT ME....... freak them all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thinking about....................

hmm... quite happy lately.... tried out goalkeeping and it's realli cool man... hope can improve somemore... hahaahhaa.... ytd during sunday trg while i was goalkeeping... HE talked to mi!!! i was like sooo shocked?! thot i wld get another cold shoulder from HIM again... but well.... we din exactly striked a conversation... onli some ke4 tao4 hua4..... but yeah... i miss HIM... and HE'S leaving on the 27th jan... sobsob... yiting told mi this... 'stagnant water should not have ripples'..... but i cant help feeling that maybe HE realises tt HE is gg aus soon so HE just wanna be frens lor.... like a happy ending kinda perhaps... yeah... and ytd when DF sent walked mi home... i realised tt afterall... i might not haf any feelings for him in the first place.... i just cant bring miself to not think about HIM... esp after ytd's trg.... i realli realli miss HIM alot... and the fact tt HE'S gg aus in like 3 days time... i realli cant bear to think about tt...... and this explains alot why i cant accept DF.... sigh....

work's been bad... sales been bad.... nobody ever cares about slimming anymore... those fat asses (mostly aunties) out there... freak them lor!! so bloody freaking fat liao still dun wanna go slimming?!?!??! diam shit.... den somemore give tt nonchalent face to we promoters... argh... to think i haf to put up with tt... but well..the pay is good... wat can i say?! but i just realli cant stand all those stupid aunties showing tt bloody i-dun-need-any-slimming-sessions face can!?!??!?!? damn shit... know tt u are fat den jolly well get slimming package from me!!!!!! argh.... so ass lor..... sigh.... heck those shitty asses.... so fat still wanna cheat themselves.... argh....

well...but i gotta say tt...i am quite excited... ahahaha...partnering isaac for ntu surf and sweat!! YES!!!! ahahaha... last yr got 3rd together with kok vui... hope this year with isaac can get first!! ehehehe.... isaac runs like freaking fast lor.... 7 mins plus for 2.4km??!?!?!?!? freak.... he's like soooo freaking fit.... mi goodness..... well... hope i can sign up in time lah... shall go pester jingyi to help mi settle it quick... ahahahahhah.... :>

BGRs sux......

okie... went for theory trial test today and i passed it....46/50..hope i pass mi BTT man... freak... den after tt cleaned mi house.. den went trg after tt.... den went orchard mrt station to meet DF (this guy who asked for mi number at mi workplace at ps)... well... we knew each other like on friday only? den on sat he started sending mi home till like yesterday nitez..... he stays near ang mo kio mrt station there... so basically...he goes to yio chu kang mrt station with me... walks mi home den takes bus 76 or 268 home....one thing abt guys i must say is tt.... I HATE FLIRTS.....and i dunno if DF is just flirting or wat...but one thing for sure is tt... he goes for looks! argh... and i really reali cant stand it if ppl befriend mi cos of mi looks?! i always dress until super lok kok (casual) so tt if any guy falls for mi... he will like mi for who i am exactly.... now DF is definitely not the kind tt i will want to haf as someone whom i think can fa1 zhan3 with.... sigh... and i haven realli totally gotten over HIM yet..... sianz... ARGH..... I HATE BGRs.....

the feeling was soooo familiar...

it was realli nice when we walked home together (he sent mi to the bus stop)... though he seems rather flirt.... but well... nice person lah... ahahahah.... the feeling was soooo familiar.... but surprisingly... it did not happen b4.... cos HE has nv sent mi home b4 (it was always the other way round).... but the feeling i just had was exactly the same kind of feeling i used to haf when i was with HIM.... wat does it imply? tt he can substitute HIM? or am i using him as a substitute for HIM? was rather happy as we walked past the carpark and he pulled mi away from the car... nice memories... and he was qutie farnie too... though he is not exactly the beng kind.... but he definitely belongs to mi kinda pai kia(bad kid) pattern.... haaah....birds of the same kind flock together? i guess sooo...... it all started while we were working at plaza sing and den at the end of the day he just asked for mi number b4 he went home(he knocked off 2 hrs earlier than mi on fri).... den after tt we just chat online and all.... this 'chatting online' feeling is sooo familiar... cos tt was how mi and HIM got to know each other better as well... but den.... i knew HE was serious abt mi... cos i know HE is not the kind who flirts ard... but for him now... i dunno... maybe he's just the superficial kind??? or he's just having a fling tt's all..... oh well.... i just hope tt things go smoothly for mi... :)

soooooo busy!!!!

i am soooooooooooooooooo tired...dis morn i went for driving lesson... den went to see doc and realised tt i kenna herpes on mi back.... soooo freaking painful lor.... sigh... it's such an ugly patch of rash.... hmm...den after tt mi dearest yifern sent mi to ntu (tooooo kind already) and i went there to look for jingyi..... den yifern sent us to bishan (super kind already lor...) again and den we went to watch 'meet the fockers' (though i watched it b4 liao..ahhhhaa) in town.... we ate sooo much today lor....ate at xu3 liu2 shan1.... den walk walk ard.... den watched movie... den ate ramen...den subway... den now i just came back from town..... shared cab with her back home... haahhaha.... tmr morn gg for mi theory trial test....den gg ntu to help jingyi tend her booth... den after tt gg trg at queenstown.... such packed schedule man... den on thurs..... mi horrible tiring but good pay job starts..... back to tt black dress (it's mi uniform).... makeup and heels again... sianz....standing whole day for 10 hours and go home with aching feet.... sianz....but fortunately.... i bargained with mi boss and she agreed to let mi off early on mon wed fri and sun to go for mi polo trg!! heheeehehe...... shiok!

hmm.... i cant wait to get into ntu... realli hope i can get in lor... me and jingyi realli planned our stuff liao....go swim and polo trg together... mug together... like just practically planned our lifestyles liao...ahahaha...realli hope i can make it to uni man.... sigh.... sooo tired... and mi rash is realli super painful... sobsob... it's due to the lack of vitamins and vegetables.... sigh... all thanks to mi job tt i gotta eat all those stupid junk disgusting food everyday for the past whole week... sobsob.... argh!!!!! n thurs i am back to this shitty job?! diam it.... better buy apples and bring one for work everyday man... cant wait to get into ntu and start mi and jingyi's fabulous plans.... hahahahh........

soooooooooo tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm...been working at tiong bahru plaza from 11-9 since monday... so tired... standing on heels... wearing makeup... putting up with those disgusting irritating customers who walk past mi booth.... sigh... so eeks!!! and i am like sooo tired lor.... sigh sigh... luckily i always have mi frens who msg mi to see how i am doing and all (esp yifern of cos..hehee)... and soooo gao3 xiao4....saw mark and his gf (glenda) today.... mi goodness... as usual i was just promoting like normal to ppl ard mi... den when i walked closer towards the couple as i promote... i realised tt it was actually mark!!! and so i immediately 'FREAK' and siam away fr them... hahha... mark was laughing like mad lor... freak freak... so super throw face... hahahaa....but tt realli made mi day man... at least i saw someone familiar in an unfamiliar surrounding.... life was bad... mi feet so pain.... 10 hrs standing on heels?!?!?! who can tahan?!?!!?? sigh.... and i miss all mi trg cos of this job.... but one good thing is.... THE PAY IS GREAT!! hahahahaha....but after this week i not gg to work for this company liao... too tiring.... and haf to put up with ppl.... sigh... though i love doing sales.. but i guess... i need a good break man... gg to apply to teach at st nicks.... hope i get it though... if i get it... den i am not taking this job anymore!! heehehehee... think i better hurry up go bathe and den slp man.. tmr morning still gotta go work... sobsob.... weekends are gone just like tt... :<

2005 IS HERE!

hmm... time flies.. and though it's been like 1 month plus already.... i seem to just realise that i am out of that a levels shit and i cant help feeling soooo happy abt it... alright... everyone's feeling like this i bet... hahahaha....

this past week has been soooo exciting.....went out with wanhui shu and glenn on wed to sing k box.... hahahaha....den went clubbing at chinablack with shu after tt... ahhaaha...saw steven and nelson there.... hmm.... this i must definitely mention... though i know shu will kill mi after this... haahaha.... she's realli voluptuous lor.....as we were dancing.... her ***** kept bouncing up and down..high and low... attracting soooo much attention to ourselves... den all those guys were like sticking to her..... trying to jia her bah (eat her meat)... hahhaahaaa......she was damn hiong lah... hhahahahhaa.... too farnie... den after tt we shared a cab back home (actually we din share... she paid more than half lor.. hhaa..thanks biatch... :p)....

then thurs i went back to tj to collect mi cheque and testimonial.... den finally managed to get mark's shirt...hahahahaha.... bet he's gonna call it a nerd sch shirt... but well... after tt went shopping with yifern... it was soooooooooo NOT FUN lor.... yifern is definitely not someone to go shopping with... now i learn mi lesson liao... whahhaha... den after tt went to register for driving license at amk with yifern too.... had this beginner's briefing and yifern was like sooo sianz half the time(she already got her license wat... )... hahhahha.... yup...anyway... after tt we went to eat hokkien mee and den i went to meet mi class at CK Tangs....(hahahaa...i totally forgot tt we had class outing tt nitez...so i missed out on our haagen daz... sobsob...) but well...after tt eugene glenn weicheng marcus tan wanling ivan and ms wong came to mi house....hahahaha...played mahjong till 430... den played daidee till 630.... hahaha...ivan still owes mi and wanling our homemade tea man.... ahahahah.... soooo happy... won both the mahjong and daidee... eehhehehehehe.....

den on friday... i went to mi job's briefing at 10am... was almost dozing off lor..... but anyway..it's damn fun!! hahaaaha.....realli like mi this upcoming job alot... heehehe... think i gonna quit the linguistic council job... though i realised that the manager (his name is called EAST) is quite good looking... whahhaaahha..... yeah.... den after tt went shopping by miself and collected mi ipod mini and gave it to joseph... since i know he wanted it badly.... den after tt went back amk to clean the house cos mi mom is coming back today... vacuuming was alright... the mopping was dying.... the house was like soooo dirty lor.... freak..wonder wat was joseph doing all these while!?!!? freak..... anyway....after tt went to meet dyan and we went to mark's house for his party... hhahaa... it was quite fun...the food was good... and all cooked by matt's mom..... esp the choc log cake..... SUPERB!!!!! wahahhaha... mi and dyan were like eating like nobody's business... hahahhaha....oops...growing fat liao...but yeah... :p who cares?!?!?!?! ehehhe...after tt dyan's mom sent us to amk mrt station and we took to city hall cos dyan din know how to get to esplanade...haha...so i walked her all the way there and den went to clarke quay with kelvin to meet shu yiming serene dong jiawei jiajie alex-es (sim & ko) & mi most beloved pom pom hair (oops..so solleh..forgot u the first time round...hehehe) to countdown.... hahhah.. quite fun spraying all those foam and all.... though it made us all soooo dirty... and of cos must give pom pom special mention for helping mi carry mi bag cos it looked so out of place with mi dressing & this sweetie gal OFFERED to help...too kind already lah..... wahahhhaa...den after tt went to dong's house to play cards and glenn met us there..... it was soooooo fun... but i cld't take it and fell asleep halfway thru... hahhha....

den this morning.... A BRAND NEW YEAR..... hhahahha... i went to eat bah chor mee with glenn dong jiawei jiajie & alex sim at blk 85.... it wasnt the nice stall.... and the quality was realli like EEKS....... haah..den after tt alex's sis sent us to tanah merah mrt station and den we all went home to zzzzzzzzzz..........hahahha..... and i sorta onli just woke up... hahahaha... hmm... mi mom's coming back today and so i better get gg now..... still gotta bathe man... den go airport!! heheeheh... :>