Are you holding the key... To the giant icy gates... Into my World??
If not, please knock first oh..:p
The Snow World
I am Snow Empress...
In the deepest part of everyone, there's a place called the Snow World, a place built with ice and snow, where people cannot find them or break in…
In the deepest part of me, there lives a Snow World too, a place where only I, the Empress of my own World, has the key to the World's giant doors...
I am warm outside, yet cold inside… I am cold outside, yet warm inside...
I used to think that so long as I wear a mask, I can fool the world, but eventually realized that I can never fool myself... behind the gates of my Snow World, everything seemed sealed inside, but whenever I unlocked the gates, it hurts even more than before...It hurts to open up and reminisce...
SnowFlakes
I own many snowflakes...
The snowflakes are the troubles and problems and memories of my life which pile into many snowballs, and smtimes grow so big that it will fall on me..
Everyone too own many snowflakes even snowballs…hoping that they will melt away when the warmest sun comes in, yeah, they will melt, but when the temperatures went down again, snowflakes will pile up again...
Winter Time
I love winter, I love the snow, I love the coolness and disliked warmness of the country I live in...
Perhaps, that's why I built a Snow World in me...
I'm considered a warmth person to many of my friends, and many will ask why I like calling myself the Snow Empress, and I will tell them, I'm in actual fact, not as warmth as they think I am...
I'm a Typical A+ person, whom show others that I am someone who cannot hide feelings, but will eventually hide more than what others may think of...
Icy Gates to my heart
To live in a place full of snow, and become a really warmth person in the coldness of the surroundings, instead of being cold inside now...
Maybe, just maybe, I may realise that I am not really as cold as I think I am...
It's been like almost 5 years since I have last posted any blog posts...time really do fly by at a super speed.
Well, this is like my first blog after so long...just wanted to write down some of my feelings.
Been resting for quite some time already, feeling more tired than ever and definitely dun feel rested. Been feeling stressed from alot of things, and the feelings are so real and sometimes they do hurt.
Oh ya, something happy coming up as I will be travelling w my bbfs whom I have known for a period of 13~15years. It will be the first trip for 4 of us to be travelling together. We've been to trips but never once when 4 of us are able to travel together. So looking forward to it! ^_^
We'll be gng to taipei for 4days 3nights and I hope we will enjoy it to the max! Taipei has always been one of my favorite places to travel to. Being able to communicate with the people there with totally no language barriers, how great, right?
Let's look forward to the trip and have fun!
Hugs, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
11:51 AM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Dear all,
Sorry I took so long to write apost here. Been through alot of nonsense carppy stuff recently and really can't say much over here. It's a brand new year and I hope everything will be great for all my friends and family and of course, to everyone else in the universe.
Bless all!
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
7:12 AM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Dear all,
Sorry for the late late postings. Paiseh, very busy and had no time to keep on updating my blog.
Just returned from my central Japan trip and it was rather fun and enjoyable. Went back to work, but still partially in "holiday-moods"....hehehe. Fell sick after I came back to Singapore, diarrheo,cough,dry flu,backache, shoulder ache, you name it all...haiz...terrible.
Also, I kept having having to face lots of people around me who kept wanting to commit suicide, or refuse to rest, or refuse to eat just because they do not get what they wanted. Some even banged their heads on the wall just because of the same stupid reasons. Some of them were residents of my nursing Home, hence I don't really blame them for having such thougts, coz they are not exactly "normal". For the rest, I'm rather pissed when they had such tots. It's as if, they don't have a care in the world.
Hey folks, pls get a life! Other people around are struggling to stay alive, and here you are trying to die, kept saying you wanna die? You are well and still somehoww healthy and young...why do you want think this way? Do you know alot of sick people on the verge of dying are struggling just to stay alive, and live one more moment with their love ones?
Just get alive, you are not that young anymore, at least be mature about all these. There are so many people at stake just because of your silly diagnosis, of coz we need to go by the books. We do sympathize with your situation, but rules are just rules, it's not as if we are going to isolate you forever. sO JUST STAY COOL, and wait for the worst to be over lor. Everyone will try their best to help you, so stop trying to do silly things just to get what you want.
So friends, pls pls, don't ever try to do silly things, you have your friends, family, and even maybe your colleagues right behind you when you need them! Stay cool, yah?
btw, give me some time to post my Japan trip photos here, going thru selection process now, hehee...be patient, yah?
Love all of you!!
Cheerios, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
8:37 AM
Friday, November 28, 2008
Super nice song....I love it....
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
1:58 AM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Feeling imbalanced..
Missed my Korean classes for so many times...total lessons are 10...but I can only attend 5...what the heck man.....Just because I have to work....if it wasn't shitty work, I wouldn't have minded...Now, I'm really getting frustrated, everytime I have to work during weekends...what the h**l....I'm almost scheduled to work on every sat...So far two OFFs for sat...and 1 in the nite shift...and 1 in the afternoon shift...I wouldn't mind to do nite duty on sat...why can't I be arranged to work nite on sat? At least I can go attend my Korean classes lor...now I can't attend my Korean classes properly and I am lagging behind...and I have to shitty work...#@$@##@!!!!!!! Feel like slapping those visitors of the residents lor..what makes u all think that u all have the right to talk to us like tat? You all abandoned your family members here in our Home, and didn't even pay for them...How dare you talk to us as if we owe u big time? Full of crap! To he*l with u all....Go and eat shit lar...
These few days, I've been feeling cranky...probably due to lack of sleep...Have been rushing these individualised care plan for our residents (my fellow PCP colleagues stayed back too..though not as late as me lar)...and I stayed in the Home to do OT (from 9pm-2pm (1 day) 1:30pm to 4am (1 day)) on my own expense to finish my part of it...but I felt really imbalanced becoz not only I have to do my own parts, I have to fill in the staff nurses part, just becoz they claimed to be busy...as for the OT and PT aides...I dun blame them for not being able to finish all coz they only have one computer and all of them i think got 4 or 5 or 6 or less than 10 of them bah...We're PCPs....not a staff nurse...what makes u all think that we can fill in the staff nurses part? Ask them give us part of their pay lor...then i wouldn't mind...
Shitty lar...so imbalanced now...feeling damn upset that I can't attend my Korean classes....juz becoz of this shitty job of mine...
I still love this job...I love the residents...but I hate the working people there...except for my fellow PCP colleagues...the rest I really dislike....
Oh God, please help me...help me make my life easier there in the Home...Help the poor residents, help them control their illness and control their temper...Help them get well soon!
Thank you God...I love you!
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
8:53 AM
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Snow Flower - Tiny Snow Petal
konayuki mau machi ni yagate kirei na hana saku kisetsu ni anata o omou
tsuki no negai mizu ni tokete shiroi namikimichi mitsuketa hoshikuzu no uta
nanairo no hashi o wataru kaze shitte ita yo ne kimochi tsunagu ureshisa Sugar Snow
komarasetari waraiattari ano yuki no shirosa wasurenai otona ni natte
kikoeru kana yuki no aizu kujikesou na toki wa mado ake mimi o sumashite
kumo no kishibe asai nemuri tooku de shizuka ni anata o mimamottetai
nakusanaide sunao na hitomi ni utsusu akogare kanau asu wa kuru kara Sugar Love
konayuki mau machi ni yagate kirei na hana saku kisetsu ni anata o omou kokoro o tokasu AI wa YUME wa sono mune ni aru no
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
8:00 PM
Monday, September 1, 2008
虫儿飞/郑伊健
Super nice song...finally found it...enjoy....
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
12:25 AM
Sunday, August 31, 2008
End of the month and the beginning of the month...Time to blog...time to reflect..
Wow, unknowingly, I have been working for 1 month and 3 or 4 days already, not saying that it has been fruitful, but it didn't ended so bad after all....
Seriously, sometimes, I wonder, why did I went to chose this job? Was it really my passion? Was it really my dream job? Seriously I still do not have an answer to it...but when I look at the residents in the Home I'm working at, and seeing how pitiful some of them are, I juz can't help but feel that, if I can make their lives better there, then why not? Over compassionate? Too much of a golden-heart? Some of the people said that to me...NAH,I told them...it's not compassion or golden heart that brought me into this line...it's just a job...it's just that I wanted to make my own life worthwhile...it's my own selfishness...that I joined this line...coz I wanna fulfil my own passion and my own dream.
Life is always about ourselves...even when some of us may say, Nope, no lar, it's about my family and friends not of myself...but look at the sentence again, it's about "my" family, and "my" friends...isn't it still about ourselves? Everyone is selfish in some ways...we do not really live for others,coz it is our own lives after all... so friends, be happy and start living...stop being upset of anything...try and stay positive and look on the bright side of life! Coz like I said, it's all about you and you yourself...! Love u all...
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
7:19 PM
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
My Kuromi Collections
This is my collection, oh some cannot tk pictures, coz got cup ah, candy box ah, all in kitchen eh, put on bed tk pic scared wait, cup will break, scared candy box will attract ants..Still gt many more to come oh, so long as Singapore got sell, I will go buy....coz I really love Kuromi! Just like I like Doraemon! Hehe...oh my gosh....pocket kana burnt big hole liao..hahaa...If I got chance go Japan again, will go buy Kuromi's products...muz bring big big luggage go there carry back home those products...!
Thuja Home 的所有residents, 你们要早日康复，希望你们有自立根生的一天，我也会努力让你们在Home的每一天都能快乐和感受到温暖，我是真心的， 希望你们能够感受到！
加油！加油哟！一起加油吧！
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
8:11 AM
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
My 11th day of my job!
Oh my God,can't believe it's my 11th day of my job already..okok, not very long, but it seemed very long...and I guess the colleagues of mine also apparently thought that I have been working very long with them already, coz they seemed to have forgotten it was only my 11th day today..and my 10th yesterday...and if I were to calculate exactly, minusing the off days and sleeping day, I only worked like exactly 8 days, which is just like one week?
Didn't know if it was on purpose or not, but I hope it was not, but I was sort of left alone to do on the stuff which I have just learnt, and still not sure of, still lost. Was on the PM shift yesterday, supposedly there was another colleague who was supposed to be there with me on the PM shift, but she went on urgent leave.
As for my mentor, she went out for meeting, and only came back at around 8pm,and another colleague, our social worker, she brought two residents out for home visits, hey why yesterday when there isn't even enuff ppl working already? Ya, she did write in the logbook, ya my fault, I didn't read it, but u think i have time to go read the logbook? She didn't tell me she's bringing them out, she told another colleague, but that colleague did not tell me who she brought out, in the end, one of the nurse aide ask me to go find this resident, which i did not knw went out with this social worker. And I ended up searching for that resident whilst dng my rounds.
What the heck? And my shift was from 1.30pm-9.30pm lor, imagine the hours I was left alone? Well of coz there are still a colleague of my same post with me until 5.30pm, but I have to do lotsa stuff lor, whilst feeling lost.
Got sort of reprimanded by this staff nurse, her name was Penny, she sort of raised her voice on me, saying that I did not tell her that, one of our resident was discharged and sent back to the Home, but in the first place I didn't even know she was discharged (k, I know she was discharged,and by the way, another staff nurse also knw she was discharged, but she didn't inform that stupid Staff nurse Penny, so is it my fault then? And I did not knw resident is back from the Hospital in the first place!!!!!) Nobody told me she was back from the hospital as well, I wasn't even the one who opens the door for her. Apparently, whoever who knew that (don't wanna push blame), did not record into the logbook, and did not inform me.Hey, HELLooooo, I'm NEW, and I'm still lost, and I'm left alone to do all these, of coz I'll get mixed up lor, everything was so confusing, there isn't exactly like steps to do, there were too many miscellaneous stuff to do.
Not trying to complain, but it's juz a small grumble...I tot this job was supposed to come with "on-job" training, but in the end, my mentor was only with me like once or twice? HeLLLoooo....U CALL THIS ON-JOB TRAINING? K, I admit, I'm stupid, I'm dumb, I'm nervous about everything, but please lor, if u wanna train, then train properly please, the rest of the exec PCPs who are the same post taught me how to do stuff, but it wasn't detailed at all.
But overall, yesterday went pretty ok, except for those blunders, and except that I was late for the dinner meal time to stand there and supervise, as I didn't hv time to do rounds earlier...had to do during mealtimes, everything went wrong yesterday...it was all irritating.
K, I've learnt my lesson, will plan my timings properly the next time. Well, but if u ask me, how to plan when all these have to be fallen on u? Everyone comes to bother you, the residents, the staff(s) the workers...? And A POINT TO NOTE, usually AM and PM shifts have MORE THAN ONE exec PCPs working, NOT JUST ONE! And I'm left alone,and new, and lost, as ONE SINGLE PCP working the PM shift!
The job is cool, I like it, I still love it, but pPPPLLLleasSSSeE, before u ppl leave me alone, can you all make sure all these information is being passed to me? Not like, some dunno know the info, then others knw, but never inform, helloooooooo, like tat how to ensure efficiency? No wonder the turn-over rate so high...!!! Now I knw....
Hope everything goes well! I still love the job! I do! I do!....But if all these carries on like that, then off I'll go....of coz, will work at least 3 mths...dun wanna pay the agency lor...
Oh God, buddhas, Jesus, Pek gong, Goddess of mercy, all the other deities in heaven, and all the gods around the world and of all religions! Please help me get pass all these! Please give me the courage and patience and ability to do and handle all these!
Love all...cheerios, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
7:31 PM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Inspiring
"A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?' The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'. They went on to complete the marathon together. Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying 'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together. One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Ironman together.' To which, his father said 'Yes' . For those who didn't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride, and ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island (Hawaii). Father and son went on to complete the race together."
"Incredible video about the relationship between a father and son.... and God's relationship with us."
Hopefully this will inspire whoever who saw this and be a better person, and learn that,u can overcome the most difficult obstacles in life, with love and determination!
Thanks sand2rock95 for uploading on Godtube's and thnks yus for sending me the email with this link.....
This exercise book is completely drawn and crafted by me...though the exercise books wrapped up is bought from Popular Bookstore lar..and the Kuromi and Mymelo characters cut out from cardboard of the Laptop cover packaging...hehe...YEah, after thinking and trying to self-learn my korean for quite some time, finally realised only going classes are better for me...hehe...so finally, went to register for my Korean elementary course at Toa Payoh CC with my dear friend, Ming....We'll gng to study the course together...hopefully I wun do that badly as compared to my Jap lessons...haha....If after taking the Korean course, and if I think I can cope with it, will go tk up Jap course again, muz MUZ thoroughly, die, die, go understand the language!! (paiseh abt the singlish...singaporean style mah..hehee :P)
Jia you jia you, Jac! Aza, Aza,Fightin'! Ganbatte ne!
And to ming: Ishouni ganbatte ne! (Korean I haven learn so dunno hw say jia you together! hehee...) kk...cheerios....
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
9:08 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
I'll Believe - Yuko Yamguchi (Overtime OST.)
Uploaded by Kelly Keroppi on imeem.com Lyrics uploaded by Ryan (permalink)Dec 13th, 3:23am
寂しくて、言葉も出ないこんな夜は君の笑顔たきしめねむる、 二人なら、どしゃぶりの雨こごえる朝、手をつないできっと歩けるそばで I believe 消えかけたあの日の夢 いつでも手をかざしままる忘れない When I'm feeling small When it's cold outside I don't know who I should believe And when I needed someone special just by my side Who was there? I believe Someday I will love, Someone who's by my side Oh Someday My special one will come alone I'll pray everyday I believe 消えかけたあの日の夢、いつでもてをかざしまもる So I believe, もしも風に震えているときは ふたりでさがそう、日のさす場所、 Someday I will love, Someone who's by my side Oh Someday Oh Someday I keep on praying everyday
========================================================================================================================================================================== Nice song....as requested by my friend, Qian...hehee....enjoy...cheerios...
========================================================================================================================================================================== Very very nice song...been searching for this song after watching the (太王四神记), then finally found the title and the singers who sang this....credit to the one who uploaded this, thanks a great deal!
Cheerios and Enjoy.
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
6:19 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Fragile - Every Little Thing
Itsumo sou tanjun de Kudaranai koto ga kikkake de Kitzutsukete shimau yo ne Tokireteku kaiwa munashii yo
Kotoba ga bukimyou sugite Jyama bakari suru Suki na no ni tsutawaranai Konna omoi setsunakute
"Itoshii" danante ii narete nai kedo Ima nara ieru yo kimi no tame ni Tonari de waratte itekureru no naraba Kore ijyou hoka ni nani mo iranai yo Deaeta koto kara subete wa hajimatta Kitzustukeau hi mo aru keredomo "Issho ni itai" to sou omoeru koto ga Mada shiranai asu e to tsunagatte yuku yo
Seiippai senobishite Heizen wo yosotte ita kedo Yoyuu nado nai kuse ni Mata egao tsukutte shimatta
Aenai yoru wa kimatte Samishisa osou Suki dakara fuan ni naru Konna omoi kanashikute
"Mamotte ageru" to ano toki itta koto Tamerau kimochi mo uso jyanai yo Sore demo shinjite yukou to suru omoi Kowarete shimawanu you ni dakishimeteitai
Konna ni konna ni kimi wo suki ni natte Hontou ni hontou ni ureshii kara Tatoeba kono saki kujikete shimatte mo Nigiri shimeta sono te wo mou hanasanai Deaeta koto kara subete wa hajimatta Kitzutsukeau hi mo aru keredomo "Issho ni itai" to sou omoeru koto ga Mada shiranai asu e to tsunagatte yuku yo
========================================================================================================================================================================== My all time favourite song since secondary school, i think...Love this song so much...thanks to whoever who uploaded it...
Enjoy...
Cheerios, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
9:51 AM
What if - Kate Winslet
Here I stand alone With this weight upon my heart And it will not go away In my head I keep on looking back Right back to the start Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried But I had to draw the line And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go Would you be the man I used to know If I'd stayed If you'd tried If we could only turn back time But I guess we'll never know
Many roads to take Some to joy Some to heart-ache Anyone can lose their way And if I said that we could turn it back Right back to the start Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes Do you pray that I'd never left your side
What if I had never let you go Would you be the man I used to know If I'd stayed If you'd tried If we could only turn back time But I guess we'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time If I could take you back would you still be mine
'Cos I tried But I had to draw the line And still this question keep on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go Would you be the man I used to know What if I had never walked away 'Cos I still love you more than I can say If I'd stayed If you'd tried If we could only turn back time But I guess we'll never know We'll never know
========================================================================================================================================================================== If I never let you go...will you be mine now? Ya..we'll never know...
Nice song...enjoy..
Cheerios, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
9:32 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Oh my God, Bad Cough..
Been having bad cough for the past few weeks...thought it was getting better, but in the end, it got worse last night...drank Wood's cough mixture for 1 week liao, doesn't seemed to work...dun really wanna go see doc, coz as mentioned earlier, I hate going to doctors...oh my God, if carry on like this, have to go see doc liao...else wait I really die from coughing too much eh? (Choi, choi, choi, touch wood!)
Been drinking a lot of water, barley, chrysanthemum, all sorts of stuff, still not helping with my cough...so jia lat this time...How can cough so long de? Could it be the legendary 100 days cough (百日咳)？Started coughing since 4th Jul, now 16th Jul liao...hmm..oni 12 days...why seemed so long...? Haiz...hope to get well soon! Haiz..humans..so fragile...get sick so easily...so easy to break...
Hope I get well soon!
Haha...Sorry for the grumblings...
Cheerios, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
6:20 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
Save the Earth, or is it already too late?
Recently, many things or should I say, many incidents happened around the World, & around me (today, I shall just write about the world) ; there's this Myanmar Cyclone, which caused many deaths and injuries, and there's this China, Sichuan's earthquake which caused many deaths and tragedies. Alot of the citizens and people in these countries suffered greatly from these disastrous incidents. Some suffered even more when their governments failed to provide aid to them, and some of the governments even rejected help and aids offered by other countries.
All these were really terrible, it just made me feel that, earthly beings are just so fragile yet so strong. These people struggled to keep themselves alive in the terrible situations,some even ate cigarette butts and drank own urine to stay alive, their doggies and household pets too, struggled to stay alive and stayed by their owners' sides regardless of day or night, stormy or sunny days...
I say that human beings are fragile because when something like such disasters happened without signs or warnings, nothing can be done...(even when there's signs, nothing much can also be done...except dispersing the crowd, etc?) people get injured or died just like that, houses and buildings collapsed just like that. It's so easy to be destroyed just like that.
But then, on the other hand, come to think of it, why did all these happened? We, human beings have been destroying and harming our Motherly Earth all these years, slowly, and as technologies advances, the Earth deteriorates from the wounds and holes which we inflicted on Her. And I guess, the Earth is just paying us back in it's own way now. Me, myself, as a human being cannot deny that I too, played a part in hurting the Earth in some way or another, switching on the aircon and lights as I'm writing this chapter, haiz (Bad, Bad Jaclyn! x-P)
Perhaps, it's true, it's really time for us to save the Earth and the World, but, the question is, are we too late to repent now?
Alright, let's all play a part in saving the Earth now! (kk, I'll switch off the aircon now!)
Love all.
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
11:48 PM
Beautiful Sceneries
Very soon, these beautiful sceneries will be gone! And so will we....The Earth is dying and so will we...so why bother with trivial matters now?
Recently, fell in love in drawing on black sketchbook...another piece of my drawings...enjoy...
Cheerios, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
7:17 PM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Snow Empress's Castle
My castle surrounded by ice and snow....Do you have the key to my castle?
Ilustrated by: Jaclyn
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
11:44 AM
My drawing - nite snow trees
Here's another of my drawing, done today...08/July/08....it's night scenery of trees with snow...enjoy..!
Cheers, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
8:05 AM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
My drawing - Night Snow Scenery
Suddenly thought of drawing some stuff, so decided to draw night snowy mountain scenery, hope I didn't do too badly... post for fun...enjoy.!
Cheers, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
5:57 AM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Meaningful Phrases 有意义的词/话
---> You can't run away from your troubles. Your troubles follow you everywhere no matter where you hide. ---> Problems not solved will become like rolling snowballs, they'll just grow bigger and bigger, no matter how you try to shove them away under your house or shack or your heart, they'll just continue to grow, as if they have a life of their own. ---> Be sure to stop and smell the flowers. ---> Be sure to enjoy the nature as you walk along the road in the open, see how beautiful the World really is.... ---> What lies behind us and what lifes before us are tiny matters compare to what lies within us. - Quoted by Oliver Wendell Holmes ---> Live each day as if it's your last... ---> Be happy always, whether you are happy or miserable, the day will still pass by as it is, SO Be HappY! ---> Love everyone from the bottom of your heart, not superfically. ---> There are two sides to everything, even a coin has two sides, so pls look on the bright side everytime..at least try to look on the bright side... :P ---> After crossing the darkest forest on the Earth, you'll see sunlight, even if you lost your way, or went around the long way, so long as you get to your destination, all's well. ---> It takes years to build trust, and a few seconds to destroy it! ---> 我让悲伤装上翅膀，让它们飞上天去，偶尔飞回来，看看也无妨。。。 ---> 一个人的快乐，不是因为他拥有的多，而是他计较得少。。。 ---> 我是用我的天真，来保存我的单纯。。。 ---> 有时遇到一些事情，我自问该用力的地方我用力了，也努力做了，我会觉得没问题，一切都会很好的，但是不一定哦，只要老天爷一个弹指，就不一样了。。。 ---> 你年纪越大，你就眼看着命运，一样一样地选择你，一样一样地侵蚀你，你还能有什么选择，人生就是这样，过了某一个点就再也回不了头了。。。所以请珍惜现在，把握未来。。。
Dear friends,
Maybe it is really tough to survive in this World now, but think about it, if you are always unhappy, then all you life you'll be unhappy and sad, but if you keep a positive mind all the time, then your life will be as positive as can be. Life is hard, coz we are only humans, no matter how hard we try, we can never have supernatural powers or even the Power of God, no way, right?
So stop making yourselves feel miserable, and be happy!
Above mentioned are just some of the meaningful phrases I collected over the years from various books and webs or magazines (there's more, really..hee), (and sorry, I really don't remember who wrote them already, credits to all, and some are derived from my own understandings of some philosophies..)so enjoy, and hope it helps you in your thinking in your everyday lives! Love you all...
It must have been cold there in my shadow, to never have sunlight on your face. You were content to let me shine, that's your way. You always walked a step behind.
So I was the one with all the glory, while you were the one with all the strength. A beautiful face without a name for so long. A beautiful smile to hide the pain.
Did you ever know that you're my hero, and everything I would like to be? I can fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings.
It might have appeared to go unnoticed, but I've got it all here in my heart. I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it. I would be nothing without you.
Did you ever know that you're my hero? You're everything I wish I could be. I could fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings.
Did I ever tell you you're my hero? You're everything, everything I wish I could be. Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings, 'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, the wind beneath my wings. You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings. Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high. Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings. Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly high against the sky, so high I almost touch the sky. Thank you, thank you, thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.
(My favourite song for many years...dedicated to all mothers and fathers..especially to my mummy who's in Heaven, and my daddy for always being there when I needed you most, thank you and Love you forever, and also to my doggie who's always there too, love you, my shin-chan...) Enjoy...! :)
Rgds, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
9:54 PM
『素敵だね』suteki da ne --- Rikki
Final Fantasy X Suteki Da Ne Lyrics
Kaze ga yoseta kotoba ni Oyoida kokoro Kumo ga hakobu ashita ni Hazunda koe
Tsuki ga yureru kagami ni Furueta kokoro Hoshi ga nagare, koboreta Yawarakai namida
Suteki da ne Futari te o tori aruketa nara Ikitai yo Kimi no machi, ie, ude no naka
Sono mune Karada azuke Yoi ni magire Yume miru
Kaze wa tomari; kotoba wa Yasashii maboroshi Kumo wa yabure; ashita wa Tooku no koe
Tsuki ga nijimu kagami o Nagareta kokoro Hoshi ga yurete, koboreta Kakusenai namida
Suteki da ne Futari te o tori aruketa nara Ikitai yo Kimi no machi, ie, ude no naka
Sono kao Sotto furete Asa ni tokeru Yume miru
English Translation
My heart was swimming in words gathered by the wind. My voice bounded into a cloud-carried tomorrow.
My heart trembled in the moon-swayed mirror. Soft tears, spilled with a stream of stars.
Isn't it wonderful? If we could walk, hand in hand, I'd want to go to your town, your home, in your arms.
I dream of being against your chest, my body in your keeping disappearing into the evening.
Words halted by wind are a gentle illusion. A tomorrow torn by clouds is the voice of a distant place.
My heart that had been in a moon-blurred mirror that flowed, Those stars that trembled and spilled cannot hide my tears.
Isn't it wonderful? If we could walk, hand in hand, I'd want to go to your town, your home, in your arms.
My dream of your face, that I softly touch, melts in the morning.
Final Fantasy super nice song and video frm Youtube ....enjoy! :) (p.s. lyrics in bold is the ones played in the video) (uploaded by bangdoll2989)---->thanks alot for uploading (lyrics and translation - by cArLeAh cArBoNeL (permalink)Apr 3rd, 8:50am)--->Thnks for translating
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
9:28 AM
Snow Tears-中川翔子
anata ga kureta yume no tsuzuki iro zuiteku sekai kotoba naku temo tada tonari de kanji rareta kiseki
itsumademo sono saki no mirai wo wakeaeru toomotta
furishikiru yuki no naka ni sayonara ga tsumotte yuku nani mokamo wakara nakute nakitaku nakute demo doko kadeinotteru kono koe ga todoku youni
sure chigau himo aenai himo tsuyoku irareru youni chiisa kutsuita donna uso mo kizui tekureta yo ne
itsumademo sono saki no mirai wo futari demite takatta
furishikiru yuki no naka ni sayonara ga tsumotte yuku nani mokamo todoka nakute nigedase nakute tada tachitsuku shitenaita koe ga kareru hodonaita
kono sekai ha mawari tsuzukeru noni anata ga inaike shiki ha utsuroide yuku iroasete yuku
furishikiru yuki no naka ni kiete yuku ushiro sugata noko sareta watashi dake ga ugoke zuniita mada doko kade inotteru kono koe ga todoku youni
(translated in romanji by = m!sz yuna = (permalink)Mar 24th, 2:23pm ) ---> Thnks for translating
I always like any nice nice stuff with wings on them, be it angel wings, or feathery wings, I like them all, (p.s. but I don't really like insects with wings eh...hehe :P). I think wings are beautiful, especially the feathery ones,(and ya, I love feathers too...) how I wish we are all born with wings attached to us, how nice will it be? Hmm, but of coz it may become much of a hassle for us huh? Mayb, let me rephrase, how I wish that we are all born with wings which can be kept, and spread out only when needed....hehe...
I always believed that every human beings have two sides of them, the angelic side, (with pure, white or blue wings),as well as the devilish side, (with the red or black wings), everytime a being tries to hide their true self, the black wings will appear, they start to hide themselves behind the shadow of dark with the black wings...and when a being tries to be nice to everyone from the bottom of the heart, the angelic side appears...juz that all these are hidden from the earthly eyes of humans...
It is the same as playing guessing games everyday of our lives, most of the earthly beings, in fact all of us, played guessing games everyday, we do not know what others are thinking and we tried and tried to guess what the others are really thinking, "Are they being true with us?", Are they trying to fool us?","Are you sure what you are saying is true?","Should I tell the truth? Or should I lie to get through?", etc, etc.
See what I mean, if we are have wings that we can see, then we'll be able to know what the others are thinking, but then, in this case, it will be no fun at all, haaha...Humans are mystical after all...Full of mysteries...k lar, my friends, don't care what I say lar, juz tk it as reading bedtime stories, ok? hehe, juz being imaginative...so dun think too much about it...just enjoy the pictures I've uploaded, ok? Credits to whoever who uploaded them to the webs...paiseh, I really don;t know who uploaded them coz these pictures in my folders for a long time already...hehee :P
Nagareru kisetsu no mannaka de Futo hi no nagasa wo kanjimasu Sewashiku sugiru hibi no naka ni Watashi to anata de yume wo egaku
((in the middle of the flowing seasons, I suddenly feel the length of the days. during the days when it is too busy, you and I sketch out our future.))
Sangatsu no kaze ni omoi wo nosete Sakura no tsubomi wa haru he to tsudzukimasu
((Placing their love on March's wind, the sakura buds continue on through spring.))
Afuredasu hikari no tsubu ga Sukoshizutsu asa wo atatamemasu Ookina akubi wo shita ato ni Sukoshi tereteru anata no yoko de
((rays of an overflowing light, little by little, warm up the morning. After giving a large yawn, I'm a little shy being by your side.))
Arata na sekai no iriguchi ni tachi Kidzuita koto wa hitori ja nai tte koto
((Standing at a new world's entrance, I now notice that I'm not alone.))
Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai
((If I close my eyes, you are there. under my eyelids you live. How strong it could become As for you and me, I want to be together))
Sunabokori hakobu tsumuji kaze Sentaku mono ni karamarimasu ga Hirumae no sora no shiroi tsuki wa Nan daka kirei de mitoremashita
((The dust carried by a whirlwind, entwines with the laundry to be done, Just before noon the white moon in the sky I was somehow fascinated by how pretty it was.))
Umaku wa ikanu koto mo aru keredo Ten wo aogeba sore sae chiisakute
((Although there are times when I can't do it right, if I look up at the sky, even being that small))
Aoi sora wa rinto sunde Hitsuji kumo wa shizuka ni yureru Hanasaku wo matsu yorokobi wo Wakachiaeru no de areba sore wa shiawase
((The blue sky is sharply clear the sheeplike clouds quietly sway. the joy of waiting for flowers to bloom if it's sharing that with you, that is happiness.))
Kono saki mo tonari de sotto hohoende
((In the future as well gently smile next to me.))
Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai
((If I close my eyes, you are there. under my eyelids you live. How strong it could become As for you and me, I want to be together))
From the drama "One Litre of Tears" , Lyrics by: Fujimaki Ryouta Translated by: Skeez (thanks alot for the translation and romanji)
It is a really, really nice song, and the drama is very nice too, be sure to catch it oh...but prepare more tissue papers, coz very sad...but very encouraging...
Enjoy.
Cheerios, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
10:24 AM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Prayers?
I started wondering recently, why did people always go to the temples and churches to pray to the Gods, or Deities? Many prayed for good health, which I think is reasonable, some prayed for good careers, good life, peacefulness, and some even prayed for riches...But come to think of it, the Gods and Deities, can they really help you that much? There are so many people around the World, how to help all the people?
I ever come across this story titled: The Father and his Daughters, and it talks about a man who had two daughters, one of whom had married a poor farmer, the other a potter. The father went to visit each of them and asked: 'How is business going?'
'Very well,' replied the first daughter, 'but we could use more water to irrigate the land. We pray every night that God will send us rain!'
When the father asked his second daughter, she replied: 'Business is going well, but we pray to God for dry weather to harden the pots!'
The father, in despair, exclaimed, 'And what shall I pray for? When one daughter wants one thing, and the other the opposite?'
You see, the many people who went to temples or churches to pray to the Gods, everyone asked for different things, then what shall the Gods pray for then? So people, stop asking God to give you riches etc, God can only listen and bless you, but the rest is really up to you! Whether its being healthy, or being rich, it all depends on how much you take care of your body, and how hard you work for, or how much you are meant to have.
Whatever you have and own are already fated, no point begging for more or less...Next time you go to the temples or churches, just pray for Health and peace bah...don't ask too much oh! Or just ask God to listen to your happiness or unhappiness will do...the Gods will be glad to give real listening ears...
Blessings to all, Jac
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
8:47 AM
张惠妹 如果你也听说
Really nice song.....for the broken hearted(s)...enjoy, peeps...
rainy000py wrote this: Amei feels that no one understands. Those wearing business suits represent the insensitive that judge and criticize her from outside. Many Amei on the mv show us how confuse she is. When she feels weak, she thinks of the man she love and hope he would understand and be there for her. She went to him for answer, but the answer was a no. She walks back to herself mean that she is the only one who believes in her and she moved on. (For people who dun understand the song, hehe....)
Happened to read this novel, and saw that the drawing is very nice, so tried to draw it, not as good as the drawing, but at least it's done by me, haha...guess I'm not as good in drawing as I think I am, eh...haha...juz sharing...cheerios...
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
1:08 AM
Friday, June 20, 2008
To the left? Or to the Right?
Often, many of us have to face many "crossroads" in our lives, and we'll usually get caught in the crossroad with two or three or even more pathways to choose from, and we couldn't decide where to go. Whether is it to go to the 1st pathway, or the second pathway, or the third?
Sadly, it is really hard to decide, because we do not know what is going to happen if we choose this, or that, or that over there. We'll feel that, walking to the left maybe of a bad outcome, and it applies to all the pathways which we are facing, but, will it really be a bad thing to choose that pathway?
If we do not choose at all, we'll be standing on the same spot for a long time, without moving on. If we choose, what will happen? Me, too, for now, belong to this sad group of people standing at the crossroad, and is still deciding which pathway to step out to.
Perhaps, there comes a day, pretty soon, that I'll be able to step-out and go on with my lives. Hope you too, will step-out to your journey! (i.e. if you are facing the same problem as me now!)
Good luck, my friends! Good luck to me too! :P
Cheerios,
Jaclyn@Maiyuki
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
11:04 PM
The more difficult the question is, the simpler the answer will be
I read this book in chinese <<不要管猪跟你说什么 2-Just Trust yourself 2>> by a chinese writer,王国华， and in one of the chapters of the book, he wrote,“越困难的问题，答案越简单”, which is, "The difficult the question is, the simpler the answer will be", indeed, usually many people including myself, will keep asking thyself complicated questions which even thyself can't even answer. Why did we do that? Maybe reason being that, if we do not make the questions more complicated, even if we can answer them, it will be no big deal? Maybe not...but why do we have to keep asking ourselves complicated questions? Why do we have to make our lives so complicated?
Life is in actual fact very simple, just eat, work, eat, play, eat, sleep, it's really that simple. The answers to life's questions are also that simple. Usually, it is thyself who makes the questions more complicated but thyself can never realise that it is thyself who is making the question complicated, if not, thyself will never ask that question, isn't it?
In fact, almost everyone in their lives including myself, would have asked millions of questions that they can't answer themselves, but in actual fact, knew the answers deep in their hearts, perhaps, these people asked the questions to just confirm the answers in their hearts are correct or not, making everything become more complicated than ever.
So dear friends, next time you decide to ask a question which you yourself can't even answer, think carefully, is it really that complicated? Or have you already have an answer inside your heart?
Love all,
Jaclyn@Maiyuki
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
4:55 AM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
My Bestest Best Friends-My Sunshines who melted my heart
We've known each other for more than 8 years, and some even longer, where in the world can we find such a wonderful fate? Perhaps, we are all really fated and hopefully this fate will last til the end of this world. :P Many years passed by, and we are still very very good friends, we stick with each other no matter what happened and we encouraged each other to do their best in whatever we do...
Thank you, my dearest friends, and may we behold this friendship to infinity and beyond....
Lot's of Loves and Hugs and smooches,
Jaclyn@Maiyuki@xiaoye :P
Dearest Xiaomei, we've known each other for around two years, and I'm sure we'll be very very good friends for the rest of our lives! I still remember we known each other thru viewing the cute video taken in korea, and has been friends since then, thank you for being a great friend!
Lot's of hugs,
Jac
Dawn dear, we've known each other for 2 years plus liao, still one of my dearest friends...let's be friends till the end of this world, ya? Love u my friend.
Lot's of hugs,
JacJac
Hui is the cutest among my friends, known each other since polytechnic school times, and have been friends since then, we even went to Uni together, let's treasure this friendship till the end of the world , ya?
Lots of Hugs,
Jaclyn
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
8:15 AM
My Family, My Love
My beloved Mummy in Heaven's Snow World, My Beloved Daddy and my Sweetie Shin-chan@buibui, I love all of you forever to the end of this world! Thanks for being there for me no matter what happened! Thanks for zillion! I love you all...the only regret is not being able to take a full family photoshoot together coz mummy is no longer there, but this special family photo is done up by me to remember that we are still family no matter what...Love ya all! ^*HUggies*^
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
3:36 AM
Endless Love-The Myth OST
Credits to : Vamatt99218 (Youtube) thnks for uploading, so nice the graphics....
What is true happiness? Many may ask this question over and over again... True happiness in fact,lies within you. Being happy depends how your point of views on the stuff that you encounter. You can be very optimistic about what happen, you can be very pessimistic, by being optimistic, you'll be happy about any outcome, and on the other hand, if you're pessimistic, then you'll be unhappy all your life.
Perhaps, many people faces alot of problems and troubles in their lives, some chose the pessimistic way to handle, by either try to end it with suicides, violence, or face it with depression, and the others chose to be happy about what happen.
Indeed, everyone will be sad when something really sad happen, but the after-action of what you do is very important. If you chose to be depress all the way, you'll start thinking real unhappy thoughts, but if you chose to just remember once in a while and be sad once in a while, and be happy the rest of the time, then you'll find the sad memory can actually be a happy one, something that you'll always keep in your heart. You can look back on the happy times before the incident happen, you can see the incident carefully and try not to let it happpen again etc etc...
Please waste no time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside, also happiness lies within . Dear friends, please all be happy.
Love ya all,
Jaclyn@Maiyuki
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
9:28 PM
Life Is Precious
We are all dying...from the moment we were born. On a starry night, I'd like to ask my lover someday, who is waiting for me in the other world, "Are you happy now?", "If you have a choice, do you want to live or die?" The abyss between life and death is more narrow than the 50cm width of a fence. The instant you jumped across it, it's like a shooting star falling through a crack of a building. I am neither happy nor unhappy. I am only going through the motions of life. Those who do not appreciate life will someday suffer dearly for it. Until then, I am just an idle spectator of my own life. That may be why I was chosen by fate. God, please give me a little more time.....--Quoted by Ishikawa Keigo
Indeed, living and dying is just a moment of thought away, whether you chose to live or to die really depends on you. If you decide that, ya, there's no meaning to my life, I will chose to end it, then that's it,, THE END, but, if you think about it, is there really no meaning to your life? What about your family, your friends, your darlings, your pets? Aren't they your meanings of life? Aren't they always there for you ?
Everyday, there are millions of people who died,just look at the disasters of the Mynmar and Sichuan, how sad and pitiful the people are, but on the other hand, there are millions of babies who are born into this world on the same day, it's a cycle of life, and these are gifts from GOD. True, we may blame God or fate for our miserable lives, but grumbles are after all just grumbles, after grumbling, you CAN still carry on with your life. BUT, if you chose to end your life, then that's really THE END. If there's another world other than ours, then good, you proceed on, but what if, "the other world" is just a hoax? Maybe "the other world" never does exist, just that everyone deceit themselves that, "Yes, there's heaven and hell, there's a "another world", so it's ok to end here and proceed on". So what if there really is another world, will you be equally unhappy? Then how many times you want to end your "lives"?
Maybe, perhaps, before anyone thinks of ending their lives, they should go ask the people who had passed on suddenly, due to sickness or accidents etc, "Do they really want to leave this World?"
So friends and folks out there, promise me that you will think twice, thrice, or more times, before doing "silly things", okie? There's NO ANOTHER WORLD, stop deceiting yourselves. Live this present life of yours fruitfully.
Love all of you!
Best regards,
Jaclyn@Maiyuki
^♥^Who can melt my heart Missing u ^♥^.
10:11 AM
觅 • 恋
날 잡아줘요 나쁜 내 마음을, 내 심장에 살면서 나를 잡아줘요 nal jab-a-jweo-yo na-ppeun nae ma-eum-eul nae sim-jang-e sal-myeon-seo na-reul jab-a-jweo-yo
달콤한 말들 못된 나는 잘 할수 없지만, 어린 내 마음은 온통 그대뿐이죠 dal-kom-han mal-deul mot-dwin na-neun jal-hal-su eobs-ji-man eo-rin nae ma-eum-eun on-tong geu-dae-ppun i-jyo
그대로 가득해요, 백만번 geu-dae-ro ga-deuk-hae-yo
천만번 마음은 외쳐요, 내 차가운 영혼을 안아줄 사람 baek-man-beon cheon-man-beon ma-eum-eun wi-chyeo-yo nae cha-ga-un yeong-hon-eul an-a-jul sa-ram
막힐 만큼 내 안에 가득한, 그대여 사랑해... mak-hil man-keum nae an-e ja-deuk-han geu-dae-yeo sa-rang-hae...
달콤한 말들 못된 나는 잘 할수 없지만, 어린 내 마음은 온통 그대뿐이죠 dal-kom-han mal-deul mot-dwin na-neun jal-hal-su eobs-ji-man eo-rin nae ma-eum-eun on-tong geu-dae-ppun i-jyo
그대로 가득해요, geu-dae-ro ga-deuk-hae-yo
그대뿐이에요 날 지켜줄 사람, 내 차가운 영혼을 안아줄 사람 geu-dae-ppun i-e-yo nal ji-kyeo-jul sa-ram nae cha-ga-un yeong-han-eul an-a-jul sa-rang
이 막힐 만큼 내겐 커다란, 그대만을 사랑해.. i mak-hin man-keum nae-gen keo-da-ran geu-dae-man-eul sa-rang-hae...
