And so it ended as fast as it started. 

I have been through worst. 

Note to self: this is nothing

It can't be that hard to let go when there is nothing involved. Right? 

This will pass too..

Resolutions

I have never believed in setting resolutions but I was asked this question today. 

So here goes!

Before I turn 28,

- Settle all loans and stabilize my finances 

- New challenges in my career

- Of course to be fit and healthy

Before I turn 30,

- 2 long holidays to Japan and Europe at least

And finally, my own mode of transportation after that. 😬

*keeping my fingers crossed

What are feelings?

I think I screwed my emotional mechanism when it hit my limit years ago. 

How on earth did I got through the emotional stress I cant remember. 

When was the last time I really feel anything in me. Now even when I felt being letdown, I cant even drop a single tear. 

Eventually it gets too much for me and I had to force the tears outta me just to feel better.

Is that me being tougher now? Or just numb and unfeeling.

Anyways, it doesnt feel great at all. Although being devoid of emotions has its advantages. 🙄

Sun-date

Thanks for bringing me joy every week you naughty girl. 

I guess it is probably because I was never that close to any child before and you are the 1st one. 

Or rather no child has ever enjoyed time with me that much before. 😂😂

<3

BKK

OMy 1st trip of the year with my colleagues/friends. Nothing short of fun and laughter and I am glad I got to know a new friend better as well. 

Let's sum up the trip!

1st wefie cause the crappy hotel didnt have a room for us.

Thanks for the cockroaches and poor services too. Too bad the room wasnt too bad.

Nautical and fruits day in JJ market. Too hot

Max capacity is definitely 4pax

Thai massage. Happy back breaking time

Thanks for the companionship, fun and laughter friends.

Till the next trip! <3 

Starting Afresh

I had a sudden revelation and a whirlwind of emotions this whole week. Nothing feel more surreal than all these feelings. I am now 25 and when I managed to login to my blogger account and saw all the old posts, it hit me even harder. 

For the first time, I start feeling regrets in my life. Never did I felt this way, not even when it came to giving up my studies when I was 19. So in simpler terms, I guess shit just got real for me. 

I made the decision 2 years ago and now, I am living the consequences. Some of them can be resolved with money (heavy price to pay), however, the rest, sad to say, cannot be. 

Material things are dumped and cleared. Virtual memories deleted and trashed. Now all that is left to do is to get rid of that puzzle in my heart. 

Nonetheless, I am thankful for my family and friends for being here with me all the way despite my rash decisions and stubbornness.

I am also thankful that my career has kicked off and I am finally working my way up. 

Now all that's left to do is to simply live my life they way I want to and stay as true to myself as possible.