I feel extremely guilty today, because I skipped cp training. It's the first time this semester that i've missed training. Isit worth the tears to cry over missing training? At least i feel better now, though i broke down in a public place.
My groupmates only sent me the compiled research paper this morning and we're meeting up tmr, so I had to finish up with looking through and editing it tonight. I just emailed them after spending approximately 4h looking at the paper. My research paper takes up 30% of the grade, so it's paramount that we do it well. I end lessons at 8pm today and in between I only had 4h break. I spent my break mugging for my friday's test and on the paper, continuing with the paper after 8pm.
Is there any way where I could have spent my time in a better way?? I'm upset with myself because I never believed in skipping trainings for academic work yet i'm doing it now. Should i have stayed up late to look at the paper? If so, i'd be sleeping at 2am..weds are 8am days meaning i need to wake up at 5.30am. I wld definitely have a lack of sleep..can i still focus then? Yeah i know i can, but at what expense? Damaging my body, dozing off when i shld be reading the bible? Time has passed by, so it's no use harping on it.
Thankyou God, for kat's and eunice's consolation. My riches are in heaven. I dont have to let myself condemned by people who know nothing about my life. At the end of day, it's only your approval i seek, Lord. Thank you, God for allowing me to finish some of my academic work. Thankyou for providing me with a laptop when the school's library had closed.
Joycelyn.
Past. Present. Future 11/09/2010 10:51:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Ahh. I keep having to go to see the doctor this sem. ): Super broke now! Went to see the doctor yesterday and UHC doesnt carry my medication so I had to go to NUH's pharmacy to get the medicine. $23.55 for 3days worth of medicine! Boos. Went to teach 1star on saturday and apparently, some parasitic worm eggs penetrated inside my body. It's so itchy! And i'm freaked out. Gross to the max!! Hurryy die all the worm larveeeee! YUCKY.
Past. Present. Future 10/26/2010 04:13:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, October 22, 2010
I feel depressed.
Been burning the midnight oil the past few days. Dozed off on the sofa on wednesday night while trying to finish up an essay which I got only a B grade. URGH. Why am I always getting Bs. Where's my A grade. Maritime presentation later. I dont feel prepared at all. Havent had much opportunity to rehearse.
Past. Present. Future 10/22/2010 10:28:00 AM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, October 20, 2010
): ): ): Just received a rejection email from credit suisse. I wanna do a 6month internship...checked out the internship opportunities available on the nus career centre websites just now but they are hardly any available for fass students. Alot of opportunities for engin students though.
Had a very weird dream last night. I dreamt that I was watching this surf event (the waves were really big!!) somewhere then suddenly a leopard appeared, scaring people (including me). The leopard pounced at some people and injured them. Then it got hungry. I had food with me then so the leopard was lured by the smell of my food and jumped at it. Luckily, I got away in time. Then I cant remember what happened. And before I went for the event, I bumped into sab, who told me she was going to gym. Texted her just now about it and she said she really went to the gym yesterday! -.- My dreams always dont make sense.
I need sleep.
Past. Present. Future 10/20/2010 12:05:00 PM <3
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Ahh. The haze is back again. This is bad. Couldnt really run properly last saturday because of the haze and only clocked 3.2km |:
I need to be more careful when playing sports. I've been having alot of injuries, small ones thankfully, but they're enough to affect the way I play and perform and train. Strained my left shoulder and my back is aching from bow over/stern dip drill. I wanna master my bow dip. My speed has dropped and my long range shooting has dropped too. ): Need to buck up and break through the stubborn wall in front of me.
Went for the second and final round of interview on Monday. It's my first ever personal interview. 2people from p&l side and asset valuation side interviewed me. And they asked me about financial economics and how what I've written in my CV would allow me to contribute to the company. A nerve-wreaking experience! Okay maybe not so bad but not simple either. I hope I'll receive a positive reply soon!
Lagging behind my readings again. Especially so for malay! Alamak. Proper time management please.
Past. Present. Future 10/20/2010 09:53:00 AM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, October 18, 2010
Phew. Just finished my malay blog assignment! The video editing part is the major time consuming part. My maiden attempt somemore! I wanted to do it in malay but that would have been even more time consuming! No time already, considering the assignment is due tomorrow. =x It's not fantastic, but I hope the video introduced the sport of canoepolo! I think I spent approximately 8h in total to do this short simple video. And it's not perfect yet. I hope it scores well!
The video:
Past. Present. Future 10/18/2010 11:56:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Saturday, October 16, 2010
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY wynee! (: Wheee. Went for wynee's party at NSRCC. The chalet is big! So much bigger than those costa sands type. And it's prettypretty. Liked it there! And the birthday girl yesterday was dressed in a pretty dress her mother made for her! So sweet. Ooh. I think her entire family is super talented. Hahah. Her uncle bbq-ed nice chickenwings + sotong + 3layer-meat + otah for us! Yummyyummmy. Awesome food, great chalet, nice company. (: Jonny went too! I havent seen him for a long time he's still the same old jonny I know!
And yays. My stressed-filled week is over. One of my presentation and essay was postponed to next week though. Thank God for that, because I havent finish preparing for them yet. The other presentation on friday didnt go as well though. My other groupmates went overtime so I had to cut short my script and even then we exceed the time by abit. ): I hope we didnt do very badly though! Mmm. Randomness, but I thought my voice sounded nice over the mic! Hehehe.
Despite my stressed-filled week, it has been full of blessings. God has shown me so much blessings in this short week, from postponing one of my presentation to the next week, to me being shortlisted for the second round of interview to finishing other assignments before the deadlines. And kat was so sweet she got me milo when she knew I was very stressed out! Very touched by that small action of hers. Thankyou God.
Went for a quick shopping trip with yt just now in town! She had to buy a new pair of heels. I got myself another new pair of slippers! Wheeee. Super broke now though! ZOMG. I've been spending so much money but not earning them. Oops. I saw phoebe and qinwei at ion's starbucks. Then yt thought qw was yunqian. Haa. They really look alike eh!
Ooo. Shi En is cooking! That's so rare! I wonder if Zichao will be running to the toilet after dinner though. Wahahaha.
Past. Present. Future 10/16/2010 11:03:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Tuesday, October 12, 2010
I suck. Where's my sense of time management? Am supposed to be finishing up on my maritime presentation but I ended up watching tv just because my dad was watching it. GREAT. Now my work in undone, I flare up at my dad, when everything is my own fault. I wont be able to sleep early tonight and I'm frustrated with my own lack of discipline. Skipped handball recrea to finish up my presentation but I hardly got anything done the past 2 hours but 5 pathetic slides. Like being upset with myself and crying will help me finish my work. I'm just dumb. Sorry God, that I didn't manage my time well.
