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<$BlogDateHeaderDate $> @ 12:24 AM

Rlly short one hi there!!!!!!!

Ahhh maybe not I miss writing stuff down but no time needa sleep and brace myself for tmr yar ><

Hahaha that ^ was how long ago.. anw hi again I need to quickly jot down all my feels because they're slipping away by the minute D:

It's been an extremely draining 2 months and 1 week, that I can say for sure. Especially the last few days of working 12 hours non-stop, with no time to rest much less eat. The crowd just keeps coming, the queue never stops. You're important no matter which shit job you're doing heh. I think I was living under a rock last year cny I didn't know there'd really be so many people waiting for bakkwa!! But at the end of the day, I can only tell you that the people make the place, always. This job has been a blessing, no more, no less.

Let me rewind a bit uh. Firstly what made me get a job or want to get a job was that the kids were working at cp too (they won't read this so that's fine). If not the same job, at least the same place right? And I was getting pretty bored with nuaing at home everyday... so I went to ask for job vacancies everywhere from cold storage to eu yan sang ahahaha luckily I wasn't suitable for their criteria or where would I be now man?? When I first went to the shop, only ray and nat were there (I think ah quan was bbqing) and they seemed pretty excited when I asked to apply. Tbh, that was the main reason why I was set on working there... like at least I'll have nice warm colleagues~ so yeap in my desperation and eagerness I signed up. Honestly the prospects are not very good if you want to put it on a resume or something and the rate is a joke if you're looking for money... maybe I won't tell you how much but I can tell you that other places easily offer 1/2 dollars more and double on weekends and public holidays. But I was looking for neither so I guess it suited pretty well. So I went down to hq within the next few days and signed the contract and blah (sad to say I read the clauses and what not but barely understood so...yup) and then tada~ got a job. (Toes should rmb me being lost trying to find the place)

First day was with both aunties~ probably was a bit disappointed cos I expected ray and nat but yea what to do? Learnt everything from scratch (duh) including arranging bakkwa and mopping the floor cleaning the display (ugh) and then 4 hours were over somehow. The next few days went on like this cos all 4 hours 4 hours just go pack some mini ez packs then go home... the kids warned me about it, like 上贼船 (board thief boat literally hahaha) and that I should quit early before I regret it. Cos if I quit later all my pay will be halved and by then it'll be too late to regret anyway. Don't know what I was trying to prove but I didn't quit la so there :p

Come january things began to get more serious~ we were supposed to be quite busy such that we can't take off on weekends... but the problem is there's bball chalet and that is one thing I wouldn't miss for the world man so I repeatedly tried to beg auntie to let me take off on 10th and 11th to no avail. By then she was beginning to hate on me a little I could tell cos she thought I just wanted to play and shouldn't be working if so. Plus she kept bringing up the fact that she gave us the day off on christmas as if we'd wanted it so badly. Anw that's beside the point again oopsie heh. Oh right that week was really stressful cos I was so worried about not being able to go (plus there were plans for jar's bday too...) but somehow by some miracle she let me take those 2 days off cos we weren't that busy just yet. So yay got to enjoy everything the juniors planned for us ♡♡♡

After the chalet I don't remember having much break anymore as the hours rapidly increased from 4 to 6 to 8 to 10 (I'm not kidding, or at least that's what it felt like to me). Everyday was pretty torturous having to reach home at 11 aching and tired beyond measure. But that's just physical torment; nothing much. What bothered me more was the fact that auntie was coming on to me more strongly than ever and for no apparent reason each time. She would find fault in everything i did, comparing me with juliana and threatening to fire me etc. Maybe I was being too sensitive but it really hurt and frustrated me to no end. Tbh, I've never had anyone 针对 me in my whole life (sorry not trying to imply anything) so I never knew how it felt so when it happened I just couldn't swallow it. I needed some outlet to vent so I ranted to my colleagues abit and well I'm thankful I did cos it did make me feel better. They said auntie is always like that and I shouldn't take it to heart blah blah sounds lame but as I began to believe it I learnt to 看的开 more and it rlly made me much happier.

Around the 24th we all began to work full time. Let me tell you about a twelve hour job. You get up, you go to work, you come home, you bathe and sleep, you get up, you go to work.... it's not for the faint hearted :/ ohoh and somewhere in the middle of that I had my own little excursion buying food for everyone! That's not easy either, especially with all the different cards and orders but I'm glad I tried. I'm glad I tried everything ^-^ to me, being useful is being able to do everything and do everything well. Ok maybe I'll save that for later. But anyway things got hectic but the people made it all better c: some stupid things include "paying by citibank?", "when's your pay?", "tok tok tok one" and "I'm going to tickle you" not to mention constantly betting to see who more zhun hehe I'm not bad okay ^-^ won like 4 bets with wilson hurhur. 20 years down the road I won't remember the joke but at least, it's made me laugh before. Also, andrea and jolene came back to help (they're twins) and I was pretty apprehensive at first becos what if they have lots of inside jokes and stuff and don't include us (jul and I). I guess that's inevitable but they also welcomed us to the family so yay :)

The last 3 days were the true test of strength. Because juliana was so sick she had to be sent home, nat and I were the only part timers who could work full the next day (wilson and brandon had school). So nat cheng-ed auntie ebi bao-ed and I stacked the bakkwa. Somehow we managed to hold out until the boys came at 2+.. auntie ebi will suddenly disappear and go eat or go toilet one then I have to takeover then ray will have to go toilet and I have to cashier it was rlly hectic but fun to some extent. Lunch was a rush but we were lucky to even have time to eat. The following day nat had an interview so lucky the boys could work full (or I'd definotely die alone?!) But it was rlly no better cos auntie ebi was not feeling well and had to go home and ray was in quite bad shape too (puked out his coffee) but still had to cashier the whole time. Stupid wilson kept saying he could do everything by himself tsktsk no need us >:( well he can but... anw that day we didn't have time to eat at all so nat wilson and I went for supper at 11+ heh it was coolio! Then last day well... reached at 720 cos auntie say must reach at 730 but we couldn't go in anw cos must wait for a fulltimer D: sobs so early man. It was busy busy and towards the end andrea and jolene and juliana and fuming came back to help + wait for their pay~ I'm just upset we couldn't take photos cos I had to rush off for reunion dinner and it had to end on a bad note... but otherwise, it was a rlly great day. Along the way, auntie warmed up to me or perhaps me to her so it felt more comfortable and like genuine care for each other existed (she totally lost her voice on the last day it was rlly funny hearing her speak).

I don't know how I can conclude this but I just want to say that despite this making me more exhausted than I'd bargained for, it does feel like a holiday to me somehow. Being plunged headfirst into a new environment faced with new challenges and forced to overcome, adapt and thrive is no mean feat. (Sounds like I just described jc life lol) but I'm sure glad I did cos it was excuse enough to extract myself from the life I had for a little bit. No complications because I'm not part of them. No time to overthink either because exhaustion reigned supreme all day, everyday. Strangely enough the best holiday I've had in a while. My greatest takeaways from this experience has to be that everyone has good and bad sides, you just have to know which one to look at. (Also, you can definitely love anyone if you find their cute side). And that you should always 看开 when possible and not take things so seriously~ for now these things resonate with me but I still don't know if I can carry them out if I'm faced with a new difficulty. We'll see.

Special thanks to the kids, juniors, steph, fran, jo, joules, cherry, mingyi, mabel, mum, sis, dad and eliana (omg I hope I didn't forget anyone) and everyone who remembered me even when I'm out of sight, out of mind... especially auntie eliana for homemade lunches to warm the heart almost everyday ^-^ she always makes my colleagues jealous as what wilson would say "buay paiseh ah cannot see got 10 people here" though in her favour she did bake for everyboday once!!! Ohoh and a duckie shirt the kids bought heh. So thankful for friends like these :>

Anw did I mention my new year's resolution is "whatever you are, be a good one"? Ok I just did. I don't know where the road will take me but I know I will work hard for whatever lies ahead. I have other resolutions but I'll save them to tell you for when I fufill them yup!! Adios, until then~~~

Sorry if it's been boring cos it's more like a personal recount kinda thing just in case I forget...

Please let me 尽情做自己.

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<$BlogDateHeaderDate $> @ 2:04 PM

I thought of a pretty good analogy... or at least an analogy la heh.

I want to ride a roller coaster and I would enjoy it a lot. However I would enjoy it even more if the people I loved were on it with me. But even if they weren't, I'd still ride it, and enjoy it.

Ok that was stupid HAHAHA

Everybady has a set of insults and catchphrases they use to approach people. Try being close to some of them and you will see how they gradually bleed into each other, a common word bank.

Anw this pic is damn cool!!!! Disgust resonates with me. Anw the rest and q true too~