i wish..

everyone around me will be safe, healthy and happy :D

love.

hey. cross country today :D

i woke up at 630 8) jar was lost in the morning heheheh :P laughlaugh. heh then i didn't pack the day before so whoopsie.met butta at 650 i was late whoops xD hahah then super poor estimation of ime, thought can reach by 710 cos 20 minute walk but reached at like 725 become like 30 minute walk can xD but lucky not as bad as shian and ue tsz hehehe :P mehh then warm up and attendance and the tags stuff quite messy as usual. hmm then race started at 8! ran with the team :D hehe sorry boob never see you yknow people nervous one xD jar pei-ed azrin cos her knee painn. and celine slowed down cos she sprained her ankle again D:

gah there's another half of the post gone idk where but i'm lazy to type it again anw xD so i shall just post this. this was ytd heh. love.

sorry.

sorry if i don't try hard enough. sorry if it's really fake. sorry i feel like such a hypocrite. sorry i don't treasure you enough. sorry i can't tell if it's real. sorry.

but the feeling is not there. i know nothing exceptional will happen even if i try harder. hence i don't feel the compelling need to get to know you more. i know you've been dropping hints (accidentally or purposely?) for me to probe and ask more. but i just brush them away and ignore. i know even if i try harder, our relationship will be one of hardwork and nuture and not out of just being.

should i try harder? i think i should.

ytd campfireeeeee whole day gone sigh.

eh i don't feel like posting eh whoops. boob say i post too little. but must got mood one ma :> can you believe that stupid girl go look through our chat log for 3 hours to find my tumblr link i gave her.. and then another few hours to read all my posts.. she damn siao can. but i like :P hehehe. okay really not much mood to post + idk what to post about cos i don't really like to waste time typing insignificant stuff.

oh but ytd was fun tho, after soaking firewood for like 3 hours and doing some other stuff and eating dinner, can finally go play :D hmm the game isssssss like spin the bottle then spin until 2 people have to share one stick of pocky :P hahahaa this is by far the most daring game i've ever played. and it was kinda fun and thrilling at first but it got kinda boring cos people don't dare oneee :P reached home at like 11 plus~

• yayayay mummy is coming home tmr :)


• made macaroni and cheese today. i think it tasted acceptable cos like he homeecons one. but just as dry tho.


• sometimes i suspect i'm les ._.


• i'm really grateful for my life and everyone in it. thank you for just being here. thank you for just being.


• i really believe if you want something enough, believe in it and try your best to make it happen, it will be.

love you.