Be Still

Now I will wait on You.

You will come to me and speak

When the time is right

When I am ready to hear You

Help me to be still while I wait for You, Father.

Silence

Father, I can't hear you , where are you? 

Why do You hide Your face away from me?

Are You forsakening me?

I have been searching for the love of my heart, a peaceful heart.

Why am I not settled; no comforts to kiss my wounded heart.

My Father, how do I give what I am longing and yet I have so least to offer?

Father, You called me Your beloved one, but why do I not feel You?

Father, when are we going to speak?

Graceful with Salt

Let your speech be ever graceful, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to respond to each person.

Colossians 4:6

He watches over me

Psalm 121

I lift up my eyes to the hills.
    From where does my help come?
My help comes from the Lord,
    who made heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot be moved;
    he who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, he who keeps Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord is your keeper;
    the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
    nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all evil;
    he will keep your life.
The Lord will keep
    your going out and your coming in
    from this time forth and forevermore.

Ouch!

That hurt my heart. 

Sometimes, certain comments direct at you came out from the people you care, hurt so much.

Jaded

I don't quite understand why is this so...

I am feeling kind of, sort of low in spirit...

Surely I am absolute that I still hold on to my faith...

Believing that this phase shall pass and over...

Yet, my heart is longing for a heartfelt companionship...

I am feeling lonely and disengaged, my Lord...

So alone and empty, that it hurts.

I reminiscing the old days of people close and gone who I had spent great time with, I start missing them. 

I even thinking of the loved ones I have now, and I want to treasure every moments we are together.

Lord, is it good or bad? And why am I not be able to learn to be contented?

Lord, please reveal to me.

Mountains

Lord, change me and guide me

Restore my soul and strength

To move and surpass the mountain within me.

Lord, teach me

Holy Spirit, reveal it to me

Patience

Not yet; it's not done yet.

Give your heart some time to open up to embrace the joyous blessings.

Don't despair, and don't fear,

It's just a little more patience you need to show you have faith.

Wait for the Lord,

You know He loves you very much and know your plight,

And believe He will never, never let you walk alone.

Be joyful and calm at this point,

Walk on the garden slowly,

For flowers bloom for you,

Birds sing for you,

And look up and admire the white clouds in the vast of the clear blue sky,

Live your faith well with love, peace and joy,

Be a joy to everyone close and near,

For life is living and sharing every moments with people on your path.

Wait patiently

Content

Life is an ongoing journey with series of joys, disappointments, hurts, forgiveness, reconciliation and drama that very much summed up what life is about.

The purpose is to take each event with stride and live through each process, and most importantly take away valuable lessons and feelings we learnt from it.

After each interval, we very much enjoyed the ups and downs, and eventually we come to be at peace with contentment.

It is not what we get in the end, the result is fleeting and if it doesn't change, our standards might.

It is the process that make us better, wiser and joyful.

Not crushed

Beautiful

"We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair." (NLT) ( 2 Corinthians 4:8 ) 

We may feel the pressure, stress, and pain of troubles.  It's ever presence always beating on us and reminding us without peace.  However, this verse has hope.  It's the hope we receive that all is not lost.  It is hope that our loving God knows us by name, sees what we are going through and rescues us.  When finances are tight, arguments occur often, or there's a lack of peace, do not let yourself be driven to despair.  God is our hope!

Disappointment

Yes absolutely, I am disappointed by another knock down.

Perhaps not the time yet and it is not the sure thing to fall in place.

The only thing to look forward is to hope for the rightful one.

And this calls for a reality check and an inner most honestly.

Time will be right, and all things will fall right in place.

Like jig jaw puzzle pieces filling up in the right parts.

Take heart, hope is joyful, an inner peace and affirmation that hard works will be paid off.

Why

God, I don't understand...

lies

The most hurting thing to be lied to

is to know you are part of a lie.

We're not friends...

I miss you but I can't tell you.

And that's hurting me.

But I need to let this hurt goes away.

Because I can't have you.

Someone like you...

This song played in the background repeatedly wherever I go recently.

And I hate to remember the time you shared your feeling about this song to me.

I told you how can you fall in love with someone who hurt your heart so badly.

i told you life goes on and there's always room for a brand new someone.

Hey!  How sad! And this song now is haunting me.

In every bit of its melody I think of you, everything that's you.

How could you weaving this memory behind for me to hide?

Who knows? At the other side, you might be reminiscing our times together.

Truth hurts...but Truth heals

Like a thunder roars mercilessly on a dark night

The shattered of a hope begins to reveal its ugly truth

How could I not know the signs, repeatedly haunting my mind

Like a sharp blade pokes into my chest with a shrewd smile

No mercy, where do I find justice?

Truth hurts...

Like a tunnel reaching its end with a glimpse of light

Welcoming and inviting and I saw the truth

"Rest on me, you who are laden", tears and pains intertwined

Washes like a flowing river, healing my wound kissing it soft and tender

Love comforts me and shield me

Truth heals...