寻觅

如果你还在为爱犯错，请感谢你还没找到我。

sign to change

the recent confusions and tensions at the domestic front;

like a sign telling me to change my status quo

-- hopefully for the better

free will

True love cannot exist without a choice; otherwise love would be manipulative


Free will is the key ingredient to true love.

stillness

While in waiting

Stillness takes the centre stage of the heart...

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
- Jeremiah 29:11

And I believe when you find me, I'll be ready for you...

"A capable, intelligent, and virtuous woman -- who is he who can find her? She is far more precious than jewels and her value is far above rubies or pearls."
- Proverbs 31:10

Gratia

如果你被她傷得很痛
請感謝她好心折磨

如果你對她感到愧疚

請感謝她慷慨淚流

在我們相遇相愛之前

多虧有她讓你成熟

如果你現在孤獨寂寞

請感謝這美麗等候

如果你還在為愛犯錯

請感謝還沒找到我

要走完每個曲折路口

我們才懂愛是什麼

如果慶幸我值得擁有

請感謝我被放棄過

如果欣賞我堅強溫柔

請感謝那珍貴傷口

在我們相遇相愛之後
遺憾都會變成收穫
等我們終於緊緊相擁
所有苦難會甜美結果
我們就耐心漂流
愛會來的在對的時候

wait

I've learned that I shouldn't letting the illusion controls me for it caused me losing patient and letting anxiety eating me up like a demon.  And I definitely hate seeing myself being paranoid, despair and feeling the least attractive with a low self-esteem.


The past relationships happened for some reasons to mould me into a better spiritual and happy person.  They didn't meant to bring me down and made me a less lovable person.  It's foolish of me to let the past failures haunt my way of living.


I know now I have to face and combat the demons in me; and with God's loving grace I can reset my pessimistic views to my originally loving and happy self.  All I need at this stage is my journey with God to walk through the past pains, acknowledge them and banish all the fears estranging my loving nature.


I know at the beginning God made me a loving person with the capability to love and receive love, that's no denial.


And now, the walk with my God experiencing love, hope and forgiveness.  I will emerge into a lovable lady who endowed sure lovable values.


All that needs now is to wait, patiently.  爱要慢慢来， 不慌不忙。


" The Wait Poem" By Nancy Lee Demoss 

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried; 
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied. 
I plead and I wept for a clue to my fate... 
and the Master so gently said, " Wait." 

" Wait? You say wait", my indignant reply. 
" Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!" 
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? 
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word. 

My future and all to which I relate, 
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait? 
I'm needing a ' yes' a ' go-ahead' sign. 
Or even a ' no' to which I'll resign. 

You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe, 
we need to but ask, and we shall receive. 
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry: 
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply. 

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate, 
as my Master replied again, " Wait." 
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut, 
and grumbled to God, " So I'm waiting... for what?" 

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine... 
and He tenderly said " I could give you a sign." 
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. 
I could raise the dead and cause the mountains to run. 

I could give you all you seek and pleased you would be. 
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me. 
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint. 
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint. 

You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair; 
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there. 
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me, 
When darkness and silence are all you can see. 

You'd never experience the fullness of love, 
When the peace of my spirit descends like a dove. 
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start, 
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart. 

The glow of My comfort late into the night, 
The faith that I give when you walk without sight. 
The depth that's beyond just getting what you ask, 
From an infinite God who makes what you have last. 

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee, 
wait it means that My grace is sufficient for thee. 
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true, 
But oh, what a loss, if I lost what I'm doing in you. 

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see, 
that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me... 
and though often My answers seem terribly late, 
my most precious answer of all is still " WAIT." 

smile

I let out a smile on my face when I think of you :)

It was a pleasant meet up and a nice cosy meal

We seemed to connect instantly

The conversations were lengthy without being deliberately

Nice feeling...

Hope we'll meet again and do what we said what we want to do...together :)

shadows

Like the shadows following us - so near yet so far;

If I could touch and hold my shadow - do I get near you?

我们在一手臂的距离之间；

勇敢的垮过去；也许答案就在我们的眼前。

对么？

Two ways

The deadly waiting game;

remember the telephone works both ways!

Still, I'm waiting for you...