爱了！

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爱了，就放胆去爱吧！

不躲了！

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miss

怕，又在想起你。

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bugged!

Even after so many rounds of fight to curb the flu bugs; drank lotsa herbal tea, ate fruits, moderate exercises..I am still beaten by this irritable FLU..

And now I know talking too much can worsen a quite soared dry throat..

So, I can only blame myself for my very bad throat and the unmerciful continuous cough now (infinite).

I hate coughing.

想

i'm still very much affected by the lil incident. i'm still questioning why it happened... anticipating what unpleasant things will happen next...lotsa to ponder over... to list down options, to prepare myself for the better and for the worst..

i don't like surprises..


今天自己一个人坐在一间咖啡厅，静静地想，想了很多的可能，也想了很多的也许。

他走了以后，一切是否会变了样？

我一直在努力，建设的美丽理想，我这高尚的梦想，是否会被那些庸俗的人摧毁。

我钦幸能以我的热诚为我的职业，我热爱它。但，我开始担心了。。。

现在，这推人只想着贪小便宜，无功得益，满嘴的财富理论。。。

而我，将会不会成了他们的寻财工具？

好害怕。


will i lose my entity, the belief i had planted for myself?...and i found my answer from my past entries:

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我想，以我的性格，我会为我的热诚拼到底。

When one door closed, the other door opens..

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sobz..

And I got his affirmation:

Sent: Friday, August 14, 2009 12:34 PM
To: Wee, Angeline
Subject: RE: A Personal Thank-You Note


Angeline,

Thank you so much. It is this sort of thing that makes it all worthwhile.

I wish you all the very best in the future. You have great potential and expect you to go far.

Regards

Peter

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今天，我把这电邮读了好几遍。每读了一次，我就一阵鼻酸。

他的热诚，在我心里永远存在。

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Salute

My Tribute to a Well-Respected Boss

for his integrity and passion

Hi Peter

I just want to drop you a personal note to thank you for all the guidance and support that you gave me in this 10 months.

It is my honor to have you as a boss, you are a superior who treat subordinates (and all your colleagues) with respect. I benefit a lot through this working partnership with you which I’ve learned a great deal of marketing skill sets. Most importantly your professionalism and passion towards your work has always been a good example for me to follow.

I was so thankful when you selected me to work with you last November. I remember an incident when a vendor was pushing me to send an invite layout to him immediately, you worked on my behalf instead and rushed out the invite for me because you knew that I was new and felt it was not fair to push me that hard at that time. I can also recall that there were times when you had helped me to answer some urgent e-mails over the weekends when I didn’t access to my work e-mail on weekends. And many, many more supports that I could name a long, long list.

Your good sense of dealing with people with integrity and your humble disposition together with your good works have earned you an esteemed reputation which I have heard a lot of good comments about you from some of the staff in the Singapore office (Honest!). You are a honest worker, and is also a reliable colleague.

I’ve always been very proud of having had you being my reporting boss, and my respect for you will continue in the future.

I hope our path will cross again. I wish you and your family well, and many best wishes to you.

You have got my mobile, personal e-mal contact, please keep in touch.

Once again, my heartfelt thanks to you.

I salute to you.


Your Marketing Executive
Angeline Wee

good = bad?

this year has been eventful, almost all incidents that happened really caught me off guard.

but, unforeseen events and happenings keep me grounded. i've learned that i've to deal with temporal as long as we are living.

due to re-structuring in the organisation, my most respectable boss is leaving us this week. this piece of unpleasant news shocked me off my chair...i'm still recovering from this not-very-good decision.

i respect him for his integrity, his passion in the job he loves, his dignity of protecting his boundary, his well-deserved earned industry experience and knowledge. most importantly, i really learn and treasure the partnership we shared in our works..there was never a moment that he made me feel that he is the boss and i'm the subordinate.

as the saying goes "the good die young"...also means "the good goes first"...

hey, wake up guys, where's the clarity between good and bad?


he should stay..

brothers

i am the youngest in the family and i grew up with boys.

i have 2 elder brothers, which also mean I've been having 2 chaperons during my younger days until they are married (now they chaperon their wives and children).

but, being brothers and have been conventionally brought up in the family, they still hold brotherly characteristics and integrity.

being a brother, both of them believe they must always protect the little sister. whatever trials or ordeals they are facing, they have to put on a brave front before the little sister.

my elderest bro would always take care of chaffering me here and there whenever there are family events. his mentality of protection is to make sure i travel safely from one place to another.

my 2nd elder brother would be the same of offering to chauffeuring me around, but what that surprised me one night was he came home out of blue and gave me a designer watch , without any reason or occasion. that was really sweet (well, it's not the value that matters). now we are working adults and we are financially self-reliant, with him giving me the gift, it was like when we were little, my bro saving up and buy a sweet for his little sister.

i called my brother to chit-chat tonight. missing them.

and i know in my life, they are always there watching me.

:X

Lately I've been a bad communicator. :(

Often what I said or conveyed which I meant with good intention was being deciphered as bad. Misunderstandings have been piling up. But, what make it worst is that the more I want to explain, the more it will lead on to more confusions.

And so I am speechless as I thought I can make the situation better by making no comments, which is shut up.

I also think that my previous persona--being an unseen person and unheard voice-- play safe for me from all these unnecessary misunderstandings.

:X

i am

Recently I've been longing for some time for my own; to indulge in my own world. Events of impromptu activities caught me busy in July. I miss a little time to fall in love with myself, yeah, I miss loving myself (or rather to get to know myself a little more).

Introvert and reserved, yes I am actually not a very outgoing person. But my profession doesn't favour my passive personality. So at work, I'm a different persona--outgoing, vocals and totally Public Relations. And, out of work place, I stubbornly want to be myself--reserved and quiet. Know me now? So forget about telling me to mix around, open up. Bear in mind that you will only be with the truly me when I'm quiet and reserved--you are seeing the real me.

So glad that this Friday the office will be officially closed for operations for a day, which means I'll be having a day off. I'll be roaming the streets, do a decent and quiet breakfast on my own, do some shopping spree, surprise my friend with a visit at his/her work place and do lunch together, do tea in the afternoon, perhaps pop by a friend's cafe, read a book alone. Wow! So much to look forward to a date with myself.

love the plan.