Divorce is NOT an Option

When my husband asked me to marry him 21 years ago he said, "I want to marry you but only say yes if you believe divorce is NOT an option...." Well, I said yes to the big diamond ring and I said yes to the wedding but I wasn't thinking about marriage. I had no concept of marriage. I had no idea what real love was.
I can't say we have had a happy marriage, to be honest it pretty much sucked. I felt unloved and my husband felt disrespected. We fought about everything. So, I filed for divorce and paid an attorney a gross amount of money to make this marriage disappear. Then God stepped in...
First it was the Sunday sermons about marriage, commitment, and the affects divorce has on children. I had to start bringing tissue to church because I could not stop the tears. Next thing I know, friends who had no idea what was going on in my life started to call me just because I was on their minds and hearts. My husband was also getting his own calling cards from God.
Today, we are together and divorce is off the table. One truth I have learned thru all of this is that I could not love my husband because I could not give him what I didn't have. I had to surrender to God and learn to receive His love and only then did I learn to really love. Today, I want to love my husband. I want to serve him and be a part of his world.
1 Corinthians 13:13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three: but the greatest of these is love.

"Lockdown" - The New Elementary School Drill

I remember as a kid having earthquake and fire drills. The bell would ring and we would either drop under our desks and cover our heads or line up and walk quickly and orderly to the playground. We would look at our friends and giggle or roll our eyes.... We were wide eyed and innocent in those days. School shootings and terrorists were never heard about. We were safe.
We live in a different world today where "Lockdown" drills are part of the normal elementary school drills. When I asked my eleven year old daughter what she thought the reason for a lockdown drill was she casually said it's in case a bad man comes with a gun to our school. The way she said it really disturbed me. She was very casual about it. So I asked her what happens in a Lockdown drill. She said that the teacher locks the door, table three closes the blinds, the boys hide behind table five, and the girls hide under and behind Mrs. Smith's desk and they have to be very quiet.
You would think that because my daughters go to a private Christian school in a prestigious area in Orange County California, drills like this would not be practiced. You would think that to be true. You would hope that to be true. But the fact is our schools are not the safe Haven they once were. Whether you're in South Central Los Angeles or close to Disneyland....
It's sad to me that my daughters don't have the freedom to be wide eyed and innocent like I was at their ages. Now they have to worry about a dangerous intruders shooting guns in their school while they hide under Mrs. Smith's desk...