All I Want For Christmas Is You!

Please let them come!!

Awesome Week

I finally received that letter I've been waiting for last Friday.
It felt surreal and I was pretty numb for a day or two.

It finally hit me that this has become another permanent in my life on Sunday morning. It was somewhat overwhelming. I wonder what would the next step be for me and where do I go from here.

All in all, it had been an awesome week. =D

From rushing to print clear my products, to working late nights. I think the last time I actually slept two hours a day was back in Uni. Perhaps that explains why I was uber hyper in the day eventhough I didn't get much rest. Hee!

Finally cleared the product this morning. Heaved a huge sigh of relief!! My first product ever as a confirmed staff  was ANC Update 314. The SE was Abel, Indexer was Maran, and the Editor was Michelle Yeap. I'm writing this down so I will not forget! LOL.

And thanks so much to my team's Super SE who has been kind enough to provide free rides to and fro for the past two weeks. Thank you for staying back, and thank you for going in earlier too! Haha...

You're more than just a Super SE! You're a Super Friend....

And you're SUPER CUTE too!! =P

Sitting Down Here

I'm sitting down here...
Trying to get a clearer picture.

But nothing seems to make sense at this moment...

As I sit here...
All I can hear are droplets of water, some passing by cars and maybe an aeroplane or two flying over.

Then there is some pain
Swiftly followed by a sense of satisfaction...
It feels exactly like when I trim my brows.

Just that this time,




I am purging.

LOL.

How Deep Is Your Love?

I miss Daddy.

Everytime I miss home and miss my parents, How Deep Is Your Love by BeeGees will keep replaying on my mind. Then I'll slowly find myself singing... Just like today. I didn't even notice I was singing until someone looked at me, puzzled as to why I was smiling and singing softly to myself. Kept repeating the two verses below:

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love
Then you softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?

How deep is your love
How deep is your love
I really need to learn 
'Cause we're living in a world of fools 
Breakin’ us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

Ahhh... I miss home...

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Went for the long-awaited mani-pedi session with Emily. The place was super cosy I almost fell asleep a few times. They played Letters to Juliet while we're there, and it seemed quite interesting. I couldn't really hear what the characters were saying, partly because I was dozing off half of the time. LOL. Think I'll watch it on PPStream sometime next week. :D

Did French for my fingernails and had OPI Shatter for my mother toe, while the rest of the toenails are coated with shiny sequinned nail polish. First try and it doesn't seem bad. :) Maybe I'll opt for the same kind for my Gelish nails next weekend! But my toenails look a bit weird overall. Haha!

Look what I found!

One of my favourite songs, Collide, fan-made with clips from the movie Pride and Prejudice, one of my favourite books. =D

Howie Day - Collide



Can't believe that after 6 years, I still feel the same way whenever I hear this song.

Some good things just lives on forever in you. You just need to be reminded of them.
Just one simple song can make my day. Am I easily pleased or what?

You tell me.

Arrival

For the past two years, I have been hoping, wishing and praying every single day for this.

And now, it seems like it's finally coming. Will I be ready for it? Or will I chicken out like the first two times?
I have never been sure of what I am made for. I have been wandering aimlessly, not knowing which direction to go, and which will lead me to the final destination.

Life is not a bed of roses, nor is it a colourful rainbow. If you ask me, I'd tell you that life is like a stack of hay. It's dull. It's boring. It's the same everyday. Unless you find something different in that stack of hay, say, a bobby pin. Those days are the days where you will feel happier, and maybe laugh a little more than usual. But it doesn't happen often... It's literally looking for a needle in a haystack. These days don't come often, unless you work hard to look for it and to make it happen.

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I haven't been home in almost two months. The older I grow, the more guilty I feel.

Have I been wasting time? Precious time where I can be close to my parents and spend quality time with them? Each time I go home, I find them more fragile than the last time I met them.

Two nights ago, I lay in bed thinking... What will happen when my parents are no longer here? Will I be able to cope with the loss? Will I regret not going home often enough? Will I regret my decision to work here in KL rather than somewhere nearer to home? Will I blame myself for not being obedient enough? Will I be there when they pass on? Will I be able to survive without my mom's nagging?

I teared.

I am terrified at the idea of losing my dad and mom. How will I even go on without them around?

Ahhh....... I miss home!!!!!!! :(
Why am I not born in KL?

Back... for good

I am finally....

BACK.

for good!

There's No Such Need

Yesterday, I encountered something really funny. It made me realized that I made a correct decision. At the very least, I know for real and I know the truth that what I had in mind and felt was somewhat 90% accurate.

I blamed it on my own weakness to have had trusted this person and wasted a substantial amount of time and effort. But then again, it is a lesson well-learnt. I can say for real that at the very least, I know I played my part wholeheartedly and sincerely. That's the most important for me. At least, I know I had not sinned eventhough the months-long ordeal was crazily tough.

Someone once told another friend:

"You do not need to explain to your friends, because they know you well enough to trust you. You do not have to explain to your enemies, because no matter what you tell them, even if it's the truth, they will still not believe you."

I find this phrase very true. So there is no need for me to explain myself because whatever I say, will only sound like an excuse or a lie.

I just am happy that I found out some truths. I lost a friend, but I gained a better one.

Just when I thought....

I met Ethan!!!

He is soooooooooooooo drop dead gorgeous and I swear I found it EXTREMELY hard to take my eyes off him. Boy, he's one hell of a breath taking view. *I know the way I describe him sounds weird, but I don't freaking care.. I am insanely smitten by Mr. Ruan!*

The moment he stepped down his car, I heard Jaime said "OMG HE'S SO HANDSOME!!!"
I wish I saw what Jaime saw. I was in the 4th or 5th line from the barricade, and yet, I could not see him. I am short and there was this giant guy (at least 1.88m tall!! I swear!) standing right in front of us. He looked a bit like Kin Yin actually. Lol. Anyway, we were surrounded by really a lof of girls (obviously there for Ethan) and also quite an amount of boys (40% were there to accompany their gfs) and the remaining are there for Cheryl Yang.

I felt like I was in purgatory. It was torturing because we had to stand from 7pm till 930pm. It was hot because there were so many people. It was smelly because everyone was sweating. It was scary because you cannot imagine what the other girls did the moment they saw Ethan. It was noisy because the girls just could not stop screaming. It was really hell-like.

But the moment Ethan spoke to me, I felt it was all worth it. Although it was just a very short question, followed by a really sweet smile, I was poisoned by him. All I did was to just nod my head and smile like a retard. And then I happily shook his hand and he said "Bye!" and smiled again. OMG. I actually shrieked after receiving his autograph!! I had never been so high in my entire life...

And just when I thought I am in love with Ethan, I realized....

I MISS MIKE!!!!!!!! Shit. I am still very in love with him...
And I think if it was Mike on stage, I would have gone crazy on the spot. I probably would even faint...

I am still in love with Mike. huhu...

外面……

外面的世界很精彩

我出去会不会失败？

外面的世界特别慷慨

闯出去我就可以活过来

留在这里我看不到现在

我要出去寻找我的未来

下定了决心改变日子真难捱

吹熄了蜡烛愿望就是离开

我出去会变得可爱

外面的机会来的很快

我一定找到自己的存在

一离开头也不转不回来

我离开永远都不再回来

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很有意思的一首歌， 但听了还是会有怪怪的伤心。今天不是好的一天。但我知道每一天都是新的一天！今天不好，不代表明天不妙！！ 我要为自己的未来加油！！！