♥You keep me going

hello blog .
am merging yesterday's post with today's cos its alr 2am .

kayszx yesterday ..
Minny didnt sms me at all the whole day :(
i got v upset & worried ==
so i had to spend er , $20 on pool ;o
ergh anyway i cabbed home after that .
ultra moody + headache & IM STILL SICK .

came hom after that & RPGed all the way till now .
Minny came online , telling me her phone was dead :/
like , what else can i say la , sigh .
kayszx anyway she's asleep .
i miss her .
<3

WILL ADD ON LATER !

hi blog .
am sick alr .
just before the chalet ==
ergh hate it .

i miss her .
<3

i try to forget you .
my heart is searching for you .
you left me with only sadness and pain .
i cant seem to forget you , no matter how i try .

you knew its me , why did you pretend not to know ?
when you are by someone else side .
have you missed me before ?

since you left me , im still here .

i try to forget everything .
closed my eyes .
but i still can see your smile .
i want to hate you , but its not possible .
im used to calling your name.
i know i cannot lose you .
im truly sorry .

i miss you , & im still waiting for your return .
<3

i'll let go of you .
i couldnt touch your heart .
i just hold it tightly .
i'll never whine .

im cruel am i .
im hurting all alone
i'll only suffer if i continue living .
i know that i'll never be healed .
im stuck with this memory .
im thankful that you can understand a useless person like me .
if i can i would let go of you .

I MISS YOU .

am emotionless .
turning gay .
bye .

IM TURNING GAY .
BYE .

KAYSZX will be short today !

Krys & her sister came over @ 1am this morning .
ergh she drove here with my dream car ==
WOMANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN .
& PILLOW FIGHTS LA .
& YELLING .
ergh .

dota'd like 6 rounds today with WF & William .
barely touched CS today cos server had a problem ==

didnt talk to Minny much today , i miss her .
hope she takes care of herself .
& get well soon <3

yep thats it .
IMISSYOU <3

ERGH ITS SO BORING AT HOME .
HATE HOLIDAYS ! ==

CS'd with Marijuana again , from 9am-11:30am .
ERGH V BORING NOW . because im not doing anything ;x

dota'd with WF & William .
pros already leys they .
:D

PS : I MISS HER .
because it hurts me to see us like this .
<3

HELLO BLOG ! :D
KAYSZX V HAPPY WITH MINNY :D

ergh today is finally over !
FINAL EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRR :D
DAMN DAMN HAPPY . V HAPPY ! :D

kayszx anyway played CS with Marijuana & PEOPLE :D
ergh so pro alr leys they ! ==

& THIS IS A QUIZ MINNY ASKED ME TO DO ;o

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
HAHA , IDK ==

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
NERVOUS , cos i had final exams today ERGH .

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
whoa v nice , idk alr ;x SO LONG NEVER TAKE PHOTOS !

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
idk , i think so :/

5: Would you ever donate blood?
i anything one ^^

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
erm no ? ==

7: Do you want someone dead?
nope .

8:What does your last text message say?
" LOOL ! you're crazy o: go eat go eat :D " - Minny

9:What are you thinking of right now?
ERGH 2 things :D holiday activities & HERHERHER :D

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
YEPYEP :D

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
2:30am . HAD TO MUGMUGMUGMUG AYE .

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
TOPMAN :D

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
OBVIOUSLY !

14: Who was the last person to text you?
LITTLE MINNY :D

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :
1. Gloria
2. LITTLE MINNY :D
3. Binny
4. ZX
5. Jasmine
6. Eileen
7. Ivy
8. Radhiah
9. Darryl
10. Weifeng

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
HAHA idk :/

16: Is 3 a male or a female?
Female .

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
TOTALLY NO ==

18: What is Number 1 studying about?
aye , i think everything ? loool ;x

20: Is Number 4 single?
gawd , idk ==

21: Say something about Number 2.
ITS MINNY ! wait , ANOTHER GENIE , BUT BUYING LAMPS ! :D

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
ergh no thanks :D

23: Describe Number 9.
MY BEST MALE FRIEND EVER :D

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
hehe it wont ever happen :D

25: Do you like Number 8?
LIKE ? ;o HAHA as a friend YEPPY :D

Minny was unhappy today & i cheered her up :D

BYE !

we're almost strangers .
because i didnt want to report the incident .
because i didnt want to lose friendship with Lionel .

YOU DONT TALK TO ME ANYMORE .
but i seem to have lost the friendship with you ==

hello blog :]

idk what im going to do today .
waiting for KM & WF to sms me .

kayszx so they arent coming over already ! ;o
nevermind got skype , anything dunno can ask LOL .

just dota'd with Gab ==
whoa v kp . keep complaining lag or what .
no idea how his comp can lag == kaos .
ANYWAY IM GOING TO STUDY NOW :D

AM BACK FROM AH-MA HOUSE ! :]
MINNY IS EMO :(
CHEERUP AYE :D
& Minny is ranting at me ;o
V GOOD rant till she's happy :]
I LOVE TO CARE FOR PEOPLE RIGHT MINNY ! :D
HAHA .

HAHA MINNY IS GREAT :D

hello blog :]

am feeling better today .
idk why , just feeling better .

studied the entire morning .
not really entire , 3 hours ok !
from like 9:15 till 12+ . hehe .

am going to dota now ==
v tired alr .

happy studying , to the entire of PMV :D

LQ gave me a link to some test ;o

readers who are interested to take the test too , take it here :]
http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_is_your_true_fear

KAYSZX KM , WF & XL coming over to my house now ;o
to study ! hehe .

kayszx they just left ;D
did SOME studying today , LOL ==
went to RK House to eat ;o
v full , HAHA .

add-on later !

hi blog .
am slightly happier today .
though its still v fktub .

went to school today for final revision .
& the day past quickly .
nothing much today .

was on my way back when it was stupid .
a man had queued @ dock 72 and wasnt moving .
stand nevermind , in the middle of the pathing .
im like , excuse me could you move .
then he bo hiew .
a girl came , & he noticed her .
" er you want you can go first . " he said .
i was about to walk past him & he blocked again .
i jitao point at him ==
idc who saw or who was behind or whatever .
pretty pissed .

& kids these days are getting cocky & braggish .
was in the bus with KM & William .
heard this bunch of Tampines Primary school kids talking .
" my toilet is as big as the olympic stadium "
we're like , wtf ? total rubbish ! ==
k whatever aye , doesnt affect me ;x
so their toilets are that big aye .

was at Hougang Ave 10 today , early this evening . block 456 .
wanted to sms Crystal to meet her but lz .
because she's always busy when i aint .
& vice versa . so i doubt we'll ever meet . bye .

ANYWAY AM AT HOME NOW , GOING TO STUDY LATER !

kayszx i studied for like 30mins ==
dota'd with Gab , & HE DC LIKE IDK HOW MANY TIMES !

chatted for quite long with Angeline x2 .
both Angeline's . HAHA .

& TQ FOR BEING HERE :D

AM V HAPPY NOW :]

hi blog .
everything's just getting worse .
the way im living my life is equal to that of an old man @ parks .

went to school today for NAM briefing .
class test 2 results were released & i didnt do that well .

went to bedok to eat after school was over .
i didnt cos i was penniless ==

just got home , ate 7 sliced of bread & a bowl of noodles .
talked to Wendy , asking her if she's angry or not .
her response doesnt seem good .
looks like i'll REALLY get nowhere near her .
can forget about wooing her already .

bye .

i'd get struck by lightning .
i'd get ploughed by a car .
i'd be dead in bed .

been EXTREMELY EMO , & therefore .
dont fk around with me .

hi blog .
went out with KM & group today .
latecomers as usual :/
am v sorry for today's fking attitude .
was already v moody & still got latecomers .
then WF said his fault & all .
idk what to say also .

went to Marina with them , ate @ yuki yaki .
was alright i guess .
but XL had to spill a cup of ice cream on me .
& it was v sticky , fkn uncomfortable can .

after eating went to play pool & bowling .
was v emo after that .

went to starbucks after the activities .
was even more emo .
KM & all talking about what , dragonball or idk what .
i dont even watch/read anime/manga so idk whatever .
& i couldnt help but think of her.
idk anything anymore .

sms Minny/Crystal .
sms abit then never reply already .
then sms for what ! ==

am at home already .
talking to Wendy & im acting calm ==
WHEN IM ACTUALLY V EMO . WTF LA .

playing dota > gab tell me dont emo .
go outing > km & william tell me dont emo .
sms ppl > Binny tell me dont emo .

HAIS if i can dont emo i then not so free to emo .
i've waited idk how long already .
maybe 2957346 centuries .

went to school today for phase test .
& gawd its easy , except for one question ==

went home with BT & KM . cabbed though ;o
& darryl came over today .
PS you had to leave .
im sure you understand .
because Wendy > ALL ELSE :]

went to pizza hut with Woman .
ate some idk what couple meal pizza .
HAH I WISH WE WERE THOUGH ==
watched Wendy finish up her work .
though idk , kept staring @ her the whole time - like pervert :]
v cute :/
& KM sms me say pangseh never dota with them .

KAYSZX stopping here , might add-on later !

was talking to Radio & William about her :/
& in the end , i still cried over her .
kay am here to just say one thing .
i'll never give Wendy up .

good morning blog .
sian , morning already so fktub .
can forget about doing anything for the rest of the day .

& Crystal was telling to give it up .

you've no idea how she stood by me these few years .
you've no idea how much she means to me .
just like your boyf means to you .

i havent woo'd a girl in ages .
i dont know what to do .
i dont know how .

you've TOTALLY no idea how im feeling now .
you've no idea at all how much it hurts .
a chance ? maybe yes to you it seems like a chance .
to me , its nothing more than just a routine .
because I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN .

just played three rounds of dota with KM & his friends .
played three , won three . but im still v moody .
was telling him about everything .
SIAN but i still dont know what to do .
TQ Kexin for caring but it wont be anytime soon .

am dota-ing with Wendy now & i feel slightly more at ease .
but am still feeling v weird . idk what im talking about ! ==

k nights all .
got phase test tomorrow .
all the best , to all PMV classmates !
:D