♥You keep me going

K time to blog after idk how damn long :o

Three weeks more to NS.
how do i feel :/
haha shitty. everyday i look into my mailbox hoping to see the letter which reads: On Government Service.

anyway, just back from billiard @ plaza w/ nub gab.
went to Dee's place before that, took something from her.
met Crystal after that @ Kpool. & her friend is handsome k ^^

doing up the server now :o
am bored :(

3 weeks.

hello world.
CS-ed the whole of today -.-
was going through picture & found these :o
old cabal screenshots! LOL.

still CS-ing now :O
going to sleep soon ^^
prolly meeting Sister Jas tomorrow :]
goodnight world.

HELLO WORLD. three days posts combined to one :O
been kinda lazy after the entire day out ;x

Thursday
Met up w/ William, Koge, Karen, Jeff & his girlf, & nubby Gab to eat.
had a "farewell" dinner for William. he's off to Army the next day.
have a habit of avoiding eye contact with any girl :O
so i didnt look @ Karen when she talked to me.
kinda rude but, habits die hard :/

Friday
William's gone. everything seems so damn weird -.-
talked to Karen for awhile then she offline-d soon after.
nubby Gab came over today but went off @ 7:30.
Krys, Cheryl & her friend came back after nubby Gab left.
they were playing idk-what-the-fk thing & i got slapped for no reason.
didnt have appetite to eat dinner so i ate supper @ 11.
dota w/ Jeff, Koge & nubbest Gab.
everything ended @ 2:40am.
& im going in next :/

Saturday
was making fun of Germaine & her boyf from 12am-2am.
i didnt know they'd broken up -.-
helped Germaine upgrade her tagboard ^^
& she was like an insane kid who seemed alien to tagboard :O
in any case if that made her happy then its worth it :D
Germaine dont sad, you still have your XGBB Kary ;x
woke up @ 12pm today, was damn tired -.-
went to meet Wendy @ HLM w/ nubbest Gab.
left after i took something from Wendy's friend :o
had no idea that she was waiting for me to explain the misunderstanding.
i messaged her after i left, wanting to explain after the following message.
but she was headed for town w/ her friend. so im going to explain tonight.
was supposed to go to Koge's place but since lazy people exist, we didnt ^^

dota-ed w/ Koge, Jeff & nubbest-of-all Gab.
& going to sleep now. goodnight world :]

hi world :O
Krys Sister came over early this morning & woke me up.
spent the whole day watching dvds on her lappy.
& talking ^^

i just re-installed steam :O
going to play cs w/ her when she's free :D
didnt sms YK today cos she always never reply.
lazy to sms her alr, shall just msn her =="

just dota-ed w/ William & nubby Gab.
talked to Cheryl in the evening, till now :O
v short person ^^

am going to play again later! ^^
im done w/ blogging! goodnight world.

hi world.
woke up @ 9 this morning.
then went back to sleep cos it was early =="
woke up again @ 10:40 :O
& i was almost late. supposed to meet Sister Jas today!
bathed & cabbed to AMK hub.

wanted to watch a movie but the queue was totally retarded.
& in the end Sis didnt wanna watch alr, think she was kinda moody.
dined @ Ichiban w/ her :O
& i was having a sore throat, goddamn.
ordered salmon sashimi for myself & gave Sis one :O
& she said it sucks ):

walked around w/ her till her friend came.
or not. kinda stood around @ the cinema entrance till she came.
went to nebo & watch them study =="
& her boyf came after awhile :O
so i left soon after ^^

went to meet nubby Gab @ AMK train platform.
headed to Queensway to get a pair of sneakers :O
ate laksa w/ nub Gab & he didnt believe it was nice. faggot.
had braces replaced after i was done.
cabbed home ^^

goodnight world! :O
off to bed.

hello world.
went to bugis this morning to get presents for Koge's housewarming.
dined @ some hk cafe. & the food was so-so only =="
finally got to see KM's botak head ^^
bought a set of bathroom idk-what-you-call-them for Koge.
cabbed to punggol w/ KM, William & noob Gab.

kinda missed Koge's dog LOL.
played Koge's PS3 ( he's rich duh JK ) w/ KM.
watched Koge & William play idk-what gundam thingy =="
i dont get it LOL.
& for the first time me & Karen communicated :O
amazing LOL. cos normally i dont talk to her cos i dont know her well.
& even @ their wedding all i said was hi & congrats! =="

should be meeting Sister @ AMK hub this coming monday :O
i guess.

dota-ed with Koge, William, Jeff & noob Gab for a couple of rounds.
& im going to sleep now.
goodnight world :]

couldnt be bothered to blog the past few days.
had been busy.

hello world! :]
woke up @ 9am this morning.
went to Tampines gym w/ William & noob Gab.

met Feza after workout.
she went to rebond her hair.
& three of us went to eat @ foodcourt.
we were done after half an hour or so.
extremely tired. so we wanted to leave alr.
walked past the place, The Hair Secret or something idk la!
& she looked like a complete ass HAHA :x
i messaged Feza that we're going off cos we're tired looool.
then replied, "cibai, bye." like damn fierce right.
am home now, going to workout slightly later.

will re-edit blogskin soon, damn tired.
THANKS GERM & Kary FOR EDITS :D

been kinda down the past few days cos of lectures.
lectures from Sister & her sisters, Sister's boyf & his friend.
i kinda woke up after a few days of lessons wondering why im so noob.
" why stick with her just because you feel she's the one for you? "
" how will your wound ever heal when you cannot forget her? "
" why give everything up just because you cannot have her? "
" you'll never move on if you dont forget her. "
& so on. ah whateverrrrrrr.

she's moved on without me.
i would say im just her friend & she merely remembers my birthday.
kinda was there for me when im down, & thats about it.
thanks Wendy for being around for me.
if you see this then know im letting go.

talking trash with lame dumbie YK now =="
& finally completed Prototype! :O

still talking to dumbie YK now =="
am going off soon.
goodnight! :D

PS: i never wanted a clean cut. dont misunderstand whatever i said.

absolutely no mood to blog.
goodnight.

good afternoon world.
feeling extremely moody.
having mixed feelings now.

Sister's hearing is tomorrow =="
i dont want ):

hi world.
did nothing but prototype-d the whole day.

L4D-ed with Woman for like 5mins this morning.
initially i thought she was alone or had only like a friend :o
& i dont normally play VS in L4D =="
when i entered the game there was only like Woman & Leslie.
so i thought it was okay though i wasnt pleased with it alr, frankly.
then more people whom i suppose were her friends came pouring in.
& im like, you've so many friends so i dont see why i need to remain in the game.
& they seemed to know each other & all :o
i left rudely without saying bye even, couldnt tahan =="

just TD-ed with noob gab & resting now.

-edit

just L4D-ed with Woman.
& TD-ed with Gab & William.
am off to bed now, nights world!

hello world.
woke up extremely early today idk why.
Woman didnt online the entire day.
i kinda miss her & miss talking to her.
feel so weird today. ergh =="

-edit

okay just played a game called Prototype :o
okayokay graphics :]

here they are :]

okay im off to bed soon.
really didnt talk to Woman today! =="
goodnight world!

good morning blog.
woke up @ 8:40 this morning cos i was supposed to go gym.
but William had something on, so it was rescheduled.
i didnt want to go alone -.-

this was the email i got from Sister last night.
am extremely moody.

Sister, please please please nothing will happen okay.
& you'll be fine ):
i will take care of your two sisters, though your text there didnt say so.
i hope & pray & whatever that you'll be fine :]

-edit

just got back from dinner @ sushi tei :o
okay damn full.
nothing much to write about today, other than worrying for Sister.
didnt talk to Woman today, felt weird, felt upset.
thats about it. takecare world.
goodnight!

hi world & good morning :]
Krys alr made me happy with this :o
haha she siao one.

okay Sis just dont go to jail ):
& please take care of yourself okay.
going to L4D with gab later to unlock his nub achievements jk.

fkn nub gab sleeping so i L4D-ed with Woman first.
played with Leslie & a two different strangers who filled the last slot.
one was fucking noob & the other was okay.
was afk for awhile @ first when Woman went to eat.
then saw a couple of lines of chats before i left the comp.
k whatever.

Sister is here today idk why. she didn't tell me she's coming =="
when she came into the room & saw me playing L4D.
she's like HEY I WANNA PLAYYYYY with that draggy tone of hers.
& god she's so funny ==" & noob :]
L4D just ended @ 2:20 & im going to play dota now.
Woman has to study so all the best to her.
dota-ed with nub Darryl already & feeling bored again LOL =="

just L4D-ed with fkn slow Gab.
am going to sleep soon, tired.
going to gym tomorrow.
goodnight in advance to all :]

hello blog.
L4D-ed with Woman in the late morning.
then she went to study :o

& so i've only this picture for the day lmaos.
completed alot of L4D achievements :]
nothing much today except for chatting with Woman & CJ.

OKAY GOODNIGHT ALL :]

hi world.
L4D-ed with Woman in the late morning.
& there was this fucking noob telling us what to do =="
so i killed him anyway :]

Woman's studying now & all the best to her :o
chatted with Sisters since Woman's busy :]

dumbo Qi was cursing @ Krys the whole time =="
Sister please dont go to jail ):
now Qi is yelling @ me like a retard.

& Woman's back from her mugging, like finally.
& she has lots more to go :/
all the best to her.

just finished L4D with Woman again.
talked to lawson & WF online!
& omfg they finally booked out!
brothers please take care inside ):

talking trash with William & Gab =="
& gab everything also act blur JK.

nvm used to Gab being retarded JK.

just L4D-ed with Woman, Gab & William. okay it was retarded.
everyone's accuracy @ exactly 40% & mine is 39%.
the game was rigged JK.
chatting with Binny on MSN now :o
talking to her about Sister ):
idk what to do. ergh.

should be sleeping soon :]
goodnight to everyone in advance!

hi world.
was too tired to addon yesterday night =="
L4D-ed with Woman till late & then went straight to bed :o

went out today with CJ, gab & william.
okay it was fun & retarded.
but i wasnt happy, AT ALL =="
eating @ Carls JR & CJ keeps talking about Woman =="
GOD. at least gab & tessa's together.
but we're not even together so stop linking me & her.
whatever k idc if CJ sees this or not.
i know everyone cares for their friends.
its facts, CJ face it =="

thats about it.

-edit

Woman talked to me in the evening, quite alot.
idk what to reply her in most of the uh, chats :/
then suddenly she doesnt reply me ):
okay so i didnt disturb her.
went to L4D alone =="

whatever k. i doubt i'll signon Police anyway.
just WC3-ed with gab.
& am going to sleep now.

goodnight blog :]

hello blog!
Krys Sister came over to my place last night.
she knew i was upset etc.
talked to her about alot of recent going-ons in my life.
& idk why its so stupid either =="

during the chat with her yesterday night, i felt that Sis changed alot! :/
her mentality, her views and all =="
her probability of going to jail changed her.
she actually talked me into giving Woman up.
idk how the fuck i could give Woman up in any case =="
so in the end, i cried till i fell asleep on her.
she said i kept whining & was being a total asshole.
i mean, im sad i cant give her up, could you dont run me down?
ANYWAY i am prepared to give Woman up alr :]
i'd rather be her close friend, than to have her hating me right.

Woman, just remember that i will ALWAYS be here for you! :]

didnt really talk to Woman this morning & afternoon.
its 9:35pm now & Krys just went home.
dota-ed with darryl in the afternoon for like 3 rounds.
then watched a movie with Krys on her imba laptop :o
idk what this is, some movie called "Wild Child".
spending time with her while she's not gone.
went out with Sis to have dinner.
she drove there, and fetched me back, and went home.
idk when i can see her again :/
i hope she doesnt go to jail ):

addon later!

hi blog.
L4D-ed one round today with Woman & thats it.
she has to study & i wouldnt want her to flunk.
thats all for today.

spent the rest of my day unlocking achievements in L4D.

talked to CJ for the entire day telling myself that its over.
i am friends with Woman alr, for the rest of my life :]
& thats not going to change, i will stick to that.

should be going to the gym tomorrow so i've to rest early :/
we'll see how things go :o
goodnight all!

hi world/blog/people.
went out with gab & darryl today :o
extremely stupid/hilarious/retarded -.-
was supposed to meet crystal today.
but as always she either had things to do or idk what the fuck else.
so i couldnt care less & remind her etc. whatever.

Woman sms-ed me saying she went out with Mr Leslie :o
& so how am i supposed to react to that hur.
am i supposed to go: WHAT THE FUCK WHY MANSZX?!
so no i did not do that :]
i've learnt that she isnt mine & even if she was, she has freedom :]
so why the fuck would i have to react to that HAHA.
though i was infact a little OMFG kinda thinking, idk why :o
ANYWAY i miss her, like fucking alot cos i didnt get to talk to her today.
hope she did enjoy herself today :]

moving on ..
went to cousin's house today to take a look @ her comp.
& so it was power supply burnt :o
idk how also, moreover it was w/o a graphic card.
think the comp .. its just old & it should be changed! -.-
aunt & uncle just left my place cos they came over to overlook repairs.
or not. they came here to chat & eat omfg :x

-edit @ 12:23am

L4D-ed with myself like some idk what siaopeh from IMH -.-
idk what to do without Woman :o

haha i admit i wouldnt say im completely not affected by it :/
Woman's elated today, & therefore im happy too, i guess. or not.
good night world.
I REALLY, REALLY THOUGHT OF WOMAN THE ENTIRE DAY!
:]
i miss the 5 days we went out straight.
i miss her the songs she sang.
i miss her voice.

i miss her.

i just got rejected, bye.
you've no idea how heartbroken i am.
if i had a gun right now, i would shoot my head, i swear.