Friday, May 09, 2008
- 8:05 PM
i've made you angry i know. but all i can say now is i'm sorry and that i dont think it's worth it to destroy our friendship. if you really meant that you dont care anymore, then there's nothing i can do. but i'm willing to try all over again, ps. i'm not lesbo please. TSK. wth.
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
- 9:17 PM
ehh. i'm scared to blog. i'm scared people will misinterpret then trouble will start. but i really miss the times we used to have man. and it saddens me to think that this was just last week! and it feels like it's all over. tsk. oh well. life goes on?
Sunday, May 04, 2008
- 10:15 PM
it just got me thinking and placed things in perspective. i mean, there are greater things for me to achieve in life. so much more. all throughout my insane bus rides up and down and everywhere earlier today, i was wondering.. why do i care so much? i've never actually understood. why i care so much about ppl around me and their opinions. i mean, everyone's entitled to their own opinion. so even when i know this, i still care so much about what they think of me. and i think .. that is quite super sad. how did i become like this and how do i go back to how i used to be? i think it's ed. it's all its fault.
-vidya please please please stop catastrophizing. again! baby steps. babysteps.
Saturday, May 03, 2008
- 4:08 PM
firstly i would like to say, THANK YOU to all of you out there who think i'm fcking irritating and loud. you've really made my day.
-im also very extremely stupid to have chosen the jc path. i'm obviously not cut out for it. i prove my choice wrong every single day. with each passing lecture and tutorial. I'M STUPID OKAY. stupid dumb and irritating. and short and small. happy now? that you all can just tell it to my stupid face. stop being cowards and do it behind my back. just tell it to me. GODDAMN IT WHY CANT YOU JUST TELL ME!
-i'm god's biggest first and only MISTAKE. i dont know why im here. i dont know whats the point and purpose of me being around. oh yeah, to make others feel worthy and good.
-i'm sick of always feeling like i'm not good enough for anyone. i'm sick of always feeling ALONE. i'm sick of feeling everyone hates me. i'm sick of feeling this way. I'M SICK OF LIFE.
-i hate the way i feel now. i'm emo-ing and wallowing in SELF-PITY. which is really sad because i USED to think that life was good. and life was worth living. friends were awesome. sajc was a rocking school (maybe it still is). i hate it when i find out things i never knew. bad things. i hate it when i find out you're a hypocrite. i hate it when i feel like i've nobody to turn to and i hate it when you think it's funny. i hate living in self denial and i hate it when i cant fit in and i pretend that i can. i hate feeling left out and i hate trying to be somebody I'M NOT. AND I ALSO HATE THIS POST. maybe i should just be a loner. and i really want to drop out of school. NOW. yes, cant you tell, i've GIVEN UP. like a loser.
Monday, April 14, 2008
- 12:34 AM
I'M GOING CRAZY I REALLY AM. its not a joke. i dont know what to do anymore and i'm losing perspective of life. yeah, deep i know, it's true. i give up already. sorry. i cant do it anymore. im done, its over. you WIN.
Monday, March 03, 2008
- 11:31 PM
today was the shortest day of the weeeeek! YAYE. i was off at 11.30. but it sucked cause they only let u leave the sch at 1. WTH. hahah. so slacked for like 1 1/2 hrs. ((: hahah its fun (: lol. and i also realize i didnt pay attention during math and chem today! GAHHHHH. ): same as ponning no? except ponning can be constructive. HAHAHAHAHAAH. right. anyways. i've decided i dont like him. i never really did. haha. (= and since he doesnt know, he never will. XD yaye. so everything's normal. well, it always was. heh heh. but what about that certain irritant pest? hmmm. is it actually true what they say, expect the unexpected? guess i'll found out soon enough.
- 7:59 PM
i'm really confused now. i think i like him but yet i dont feel like i do. you know? i dont have that fluttering feeling when i see him and i dont really go crazy whenever i dont see him. it makes no sense! anyways. i dont know. YET. the irony here is.. i constantly get suanned by this other guy.. and somehow, when we were in the same class, i used to feel happier when he didnt pon school. like whenever he was arnd to joke and all. please tell me im not crazy! AHHHHHHH. ): vidya doesnt know what to do! so.. she shall do nothing about it and enjoy herself XD
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
- 5:37 PM
HELLO EVERYONE! HAHAHAHAHA IM BACK! AND IM IN SAJC. lol. well i expected it anyways. nvm (: XD. anyways. I MISS MY CLASS 08S04!!!!!! FISH. i'm like separated from all of them! im the only one darnnnnnn. nvm. i can MAKE NEW FRIENDS AGAIN! YESSSSS! (= hahahhaha. anyways. im in 08S01. damn i really hope its not a scholar class cause everyone's saying that! and its FREAKING ME OUT. I AM SO NOT GOING TO BE IN A SCHOLAR CLASS OKAY. *the horror* shudder. oh well yeah. zomgggggg my CG's in my friend's class!!!! lucky her! hahahhaha. lol. nvm. i'm just crapping again. wah wah. i think im the only indian in my class? lol nvm im pretty used to it alr. hahahah. zomg im so freaked out now. and i really will miss everyone in 04. shit. no more oli! and feli! and audrey! and everyone. and no more suanning from ani. isnt that good? XD but i'll still miss it though. HAHAHA. the irony! lol! zomggggggggggggggggg im going insane. i dont know what to expect! hah! at least i got pcme. that's good. and im running out of things to crap about. OH. i talked to random pple today! yes AGAIN. XD. making new friends is honestly such a remedy. (: LALALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
