wedding over...... yeah!!

Finally... it's over... no more stress (for the time being).. :P really happy... enjoyed the night, enjoyed my honeymoon... heheeee... :P

went jap for my honeymoon... really nice... beautiful scenery n nice pple there... very courteous... although they dun understand wat i toking n i dun understand wat they toking, still managed to enjoy my shopping trip... they really provide gd service... very dedicated to their job... :) singaporeans shd really learn from them.. it's my best shopping experience... :)

we were very lucky.. although it's not the season for sakura, it's the season for mt fuji viewing.. our tour guide told us tt this is the best period for ascending mt fuji.. other times, it's either too cloudy or raining... :P

visited a few temples... nice architecture... resembles chinese temple alot.. except tt we have dragon on the roof while they hav deer horns... n my sis actually thot tt they hav banana on the roof when she saw the photos... haha... :P

juz removed my wisdom teeth yesterday morning.. it's really terrifying this time.. i think it's bcoz i already noe wat's going to happen... was really nervous... (partly bcoz dentist told me juz b4 start of operation tt i may permanently experience numbness in my lower jaws area) :P can feel tt this time it's a slightly more difficult extraction than last time... the dentist was struggling... :P now still feeling pain... nvm, luckily got games to keep me occupied.. haha.... off to playing games now.. :P

depression???

lately very emotional.. i'm like a walking landmine.. ready to explode any moment... hai~~ saw advertisement on tv regarding depression.. i think i fit all the description... loss weight? yup.. quite a few kilo.. maybe it's bcoz i'm trying to slim down? :P cry easily? yup... almost hav the urge to cry everyday.. any little thing can trigger my tears... shd i call 1800-223-1313?? hmmm... i'm so easily agitated lately.. keep having panick attack... so scary.. now juz hope everything come n go quickly..

really appreciate my mama n deliang for being so tolerating.. both of them saw most of the panick attacks tt i'm having.. both of them were shouted at every little things i can't tahan.. but both of them still stood by me and help me alot..

wat can i do to avoid having panick attacks again? any suggestion?

i think i shd relax now n go sleep liao... gd nite........................

still stress..... :P

i never noe wedding prep can be so stress... in the past ask my frens to relax while preparing for wedding.. told them tt nothing is perfect.. but here i am now.. stressing over things which i noe can't be perfect however well prepared i am... :P

it's really funny to recall how i feel when my frens stressed over their wedding.. i was there thinking to myself tt i won't be as stressed as them.. :P haha... feels like a big joke.. now i feeling the stress.. :P the confidence of me able to handle the stress better than them is gone... now, i'm oso a stressful bride to be, hoping nothing goes wrong on my wedding day.. heee~

now hope tt i won't grow fat bcoz of my stress relieving method--- eat

wish me luck... :)

another stressful day

it's another stressful day... dunnoe where my stress come from... i juz feel stressed.. it's really not easy being a bride.. if onli i dun need to work.. maybe stress will lessen alot... if onli i hav a wedding planner... stress will lessen alot more...

anyone able to help me destress? really can't take it liao.... sob...

long time no blog...

finally.. i rem my blog again.. so long din write.. nothing much to update anyway... so juz leave a line here to tell everyone who read my blog.. i'm still alive n kicking!!

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I'm a Protector!!

You are a protector.
Yes, you don't like to kill people. That goes
against everything you belive in. It's not that
you are a coward, but your ideals and morals
wouldn't allow it. You are the typical hero, do
the righteous things, get the bad guys and do
it all legally. But just because you don't kill
doesn't mean you can't kick ass. And that is
what you do. You use your brain and your
strenght to do honourable deeds and protect
people you know and love. If an evil guy is
going to take over the world soon, it's you who
will get involved. You hate watching innocents
suffer, and love seeing bad people getting what
they deserve. You are probably also happy and
optimistic and work pretty good in groups. And
the friends you usually make are true ones.

Main weapon: Anything at all
Quote: "You only live once, but if
you do it right, once is enough" -Joe
Lewis
Facial expression: Smile


What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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wat happened?? *scratch head*

dunnoe wat happened to the previous post... onli got the title... watever i wrote in there went missing... anyway, not going to re write.. simply bcoz... i dun think i rem wat i wrote... hahaha... :P but fr the title.. ya.. i used to look like a lion... now color fade abit liao... dun really look like lion as much as b4... :P

went for photoshoot for my wedding album liao.. it's really fun... feel so much like a star.. hahah.. :P keep changing hairstyle, makeup and clothes... heee~ fun fun fun... :) not tired at all leh... the best is going for buffet at Pariss aft PS... yummy.... esp the super big fresh oysters.. *slurp*

oso selected the photos i hav taken.. they r really nice... i think i look pretty.. haha.. :P top up alot... but haven't regret yet... the photos are so pretty... like wat deliang said.. they could be the nicest photos we hav ever take b4... :P waiting anxiously for the album liao... got to wait until 20th Oct... nvm.. next week can get back the sample photos which we din select liao... yeah!! :)

I look like a lion.........

unhappy me..

today is juz on complaints... dun read if u can't tahan the grumpy shihui.. :P

something happened last night.. my game character.. (The Sims 2 University) was deleted.. argh!! i hav spent quite some time on the character.. moulding her into the person i wanted.. moulding her into someone perfect.. someone who's not as lousy as me.. but after all these effort.. wat happened? she's being deleted!! sob sob sob.....

worst of worst, the person who deleted her is not remorseful at all.. okie, i may be being petty here.. it's onli a game.. like wat she said.. but hey, game requires effort too.. how can she juz say tt ?!??!!! i may be over reacting over my "loss".. but i definitely think she's under reacting over her "mistake".. i can't help but shout loudly.. ya.. over reacting again.. but i really sad mah.. my perfect gal gone liao.. all bcoz of a stupid mistake.. dun even hav the mood to rebuild her all over again... hai~~~~

i was so angry tt i uninstall everything... ya... going to be my fault again.. i'm projecting myself as being super petty... but hello.. pple do hav their weak points okie.. n here's mine.. being super serious in games, but not as much in other stuffs.. okie.. i got my priority wrong... but it's the way i am..

i felt so unappreciated.. ya, i'm not perfect.. but i tried my best already.. i bought the sims.. i install it.. but i'm not the first who played.. okie okie.. ya.. i went shopping aft installing.. but tt's not the point.. the point is.. i waited until 2am before someone realised i wish to play.. yup.. it's unusual i din demand to play first.. they were having so much fun.. i juz watch lor.. nvm.. i juz need to wake up slightly earlier the next day to play for a while.. last night, i waited patiently for my turn to play again.. finally, at 10pm, i got my chance.. imagine my horror, shock, watever words my limited vocabulary can describe when i realised she's gone..

ahhh... negative images starting to form liao.. u r meeting the evil twin of shihui.. the one who is petty, serious in the wrong way..

anyway, for those who are shocked, dun worry.. my angel me will be taking over in a short while.. btw, not many are capable are activating my evil twin.. if you prefer meeting the evil twin over the angel me, try deleting my sims character again... (onli if you dare)

knock knock....

i'm going to start with "it has been such a long time since i'm here... " again... :P did i tell u my bed is already here? yeah!! it's so comfy.. i can roll fr one side of the bed to the other side.. i wanted so much to jump on it... but better not lah... (yes.. i jump on hotel bed as well) hahaa.. :P

one sad news to share.. i'm going to hav my wisdom tooth removed.. so suay.. all my four wisdom teeth are impacted.. meaning i will need to hav them surgically removed.. dentist wanted me to settle it once and for all.. ie, removed all four in a day.. but i dare not.. dunnoe if i will faint bcoz of hunger or pain.. most likely hunger.. :P will be removing one side first.. depending on how first i recover, will arrange the second session asap.. dun want my wedding affected bcoz of two silly teeth.. :p

now headache sourcing for wedding photoshoot outdoor location... wanted something i like but not too common... fullerton is nice... sentosa is nice... my top two choices.. but they are so popular... anywhere else which hav similar feeling? hai~~

finally....

yes.. after some desperate attempts, few laps in the pool, some lunch time aerobics, and jazzercise, i'm showing some slight improvement... i have lost (fanfare pls.. :P) 1KG!!!! YEAH!! :p

ya... not very impressive... but hey, i did my best liao... went shopping for dress for fren's wedding... and i realised my tummy indeed slightly smaller.. hahahaa..... so happy.. opps... i'm getting complacent... 1 kg coming back.. :P

hmmm.. maybe i shd take a before and after photo... maybe this can further motivate me?? :P got to start taking note of how the models pose for their before and after shoots... hahah.. :P

juz started jazzercise last wk... it's a 4 wk beginner's course... really fun... we got to 扭来扭去 our hip... 扭 so much until i feel like it's not part of my body... well the instructor motivate us alot... he said:" muz make sure u twist in the right way, dun be lazy.. or else, instead of having hourglass figure, u can end up looking like 水桶"... hmmm... tt's really motivating... not onli the hip... we got to 扎马步 for 3/4 of the lesson... my leg still aching.. :P

lost weight, lost weight, lost weight, LOST WEIGHT!!! :(

trying hard to lose weight now... anyone got any suggestion? :P i too lazy liao... i need motivation... motivation aft gown fitting fading slowly.. :P slowly forgetting how tight the gowns were... forgetting tt some of the gowns' zip can't even zip fully... forgetting the fats tt manage to bulge out... forgetting how ugly i look with the fats.. :P

every kind pple out here... pls remind me tt i'm fat... make me face reality... :P

long time no see....

wow... it's almost 2 weeks since i last wrote here... bz lately mah.... :P for those who constantly pop in to see if there's any update.. paiseh.. :P

anyway, not much to write oso lah... the most recent n interesting happening is gown fitting... ya.. i finally went for gown fitting.. i actually settled everything ( 2 wedding gowns and 2 evening gowns) within 2 hours.. not bad leh... other bride-to-be took dunnoe how many tries before they found one they like... maybe i too sui2 bian4 liao.. :P how's the gown like? dun tell u leh... anyway, it's going to be a surprise.. hahahhaaa.. :P

went bed shopping as well.. finally found a bed we both like.. problem is... the bed frame is 6 feet 3 inches while our wall allowance is 6 feet 2 inches!!!! all thanks to the silly aircon piping which is 2 inches longer than needed... well, we actually ask the aircon pple to come n adjust it for us... now, we hav 6 feet 4 inches allowance... yeah!! can put in the bed liao.. hahaha.. :P

now looking forward to the arrival of my bed... hav the urge to jump on it... but given my weight... i better dun try... :P

something to think abt....

juz went to fren's bro's wake last night.. died bcoz of acute leukemia.. seems like complication arises during 2nd chemo.. hai~ human life is just so fragile... used to feel tt doctor shd be able to cure us of most of the diseases.. always believe in early detection save lifes.. but there are always diseases tt caught pple by surprise..

sometimes really wonder.. wat shd i do if one day, i'm diagnosed with terminal illness... shd i go for treatment and suffer.. for which i dunnoe the outcome... i may die or survive... or shd i juz go and hav fun.. spend all my savings, do all the things which i will never hav a chance to try anymore... and die....

hai~~ am i thinking too much.....

i'm finally back.....

finally got the time to sit down and write again... was so bz for the past few days tt i had no time to recap wat actually happened... :P

went KL the week before last... it was quite fun... went for the half day tour.. pewter factory tour is nice... even got complimentary lemon soda to drink fr pewter cup... of coz.. i need to return the pewter cup.. :( rubber tapping was "eye opening"... they brought us to a rubber tree and the road side... not plantation... it's juz a single tree by the road side.... and the driver aka tour guide demo to us the proper rubber tapping technique... :P next stop, batik factory... worst than rubber tapping... the person there 意思 意思 demo without the actual wax... we had to imagine how it's like.. :P

the final stop was Batu Cave.. Deliang told me tt i will be very motivated to climb to two hundred almost 3 hundred steps as there's nothing else to see if i dun climb... it's true.. my mom told me tt i will be more motivated to climb down the stairs... more true.. bcoz there's nothing much to see... except for the weird toilet like smell mixed with incense and few monkeys and some hindu gods..... i was really more keen to go down the stairs.. going down the stairs is quite challenging... i can easily roll down the stairs.. :P there's so many steps until my eyes can't differentiate between even ground and steps.. :P but heng the gods there 保佑我安安全全，平平安安。。。

the most exciting part will be going home alone.. ya.. deliang not taking plane with me.. got to go airport myself.. try to hide my sotong pattern.. muz follow the crowd.. :P i'm surprised tt i actually din lost my way... :P well.. ermm... at one point i did... everyone was walking left while i turn right... den i realised,... i walked into a dead end... :P the flight itself was okie.. except for some sweaty palms and feet during the whole journey... ya... i'm afraid of taking plane.. watch too much discovery channel... keep thinkg of plane crash at the slightest tubulence.. :P

wow... it's the longest i ever write.. dunnoe when i will hav time to crap again.. :P

am i the onli one reading this blog?

well.. i guess so... unless someone realise tt i actually advertise my blog in friendster... :P but i think it will take quite some time b4 anyone bothers to look at my friendster profile... hahahaa.. :P someone told me blogging is addictive... i dun think so... i dun really like talking to myself most of the time... guess i super bored again today... :P

i'm so disappointed today.. the photographer n videographer i wanted are all taken up on my wedding day... y so suay... hai~ now i got to start looking ard again... so sian..... hopefully the next one is available.... sob sob... :P

so sleepy...

today is really bz... went for interaction with Nanjing University Chinese Orchestra this morning.. followed by a long n sian meeting with boss.. followed by a longer n sianer NUSCO AGM... followed by a not too long and not too sian post concert meeting with concert com... :P the highlight of the day will be lunch and dinner.. coz they are free.. hahahahhahaa... :P

saw Shiangyang's baby today.. he's so cute... looks really diff fr the first time i saw him... he used to look like his mom more... now it seems tt he's going to look more like his dad... :p it was so funny when deliang tried to carry him... he juz sulk n turn back to his father... hugging him like a koala to a tree... :P Deliang finally got his chance to carry the baby... can see his happy face... :P

so sleepy now.. going sleep... gdnite....

another boring day....

hi... here i am talking to myself.. yes... i'm a very shy person.. created this blog to pen down my thots onli.. not to advertise myself.. hhahaa... :P

it's another day in my lab.. an experiment went terribly wrong.. our precious sample is already down the drain flowing towards new water plant.. :P dun worry.. it's juz colorectal cancer protein extracts.. hee~ :P my sup is now trying desperately to see wat he can do abt it... while i'm typing here.. :P

tt's all... going back to take a look b4 anymore found me blogging... :P

oh... my first post....

hmmm.. i do seem abit late in joining the crowd.. but, i'm normally a crowd avoider.. quite a miracle to see me writing my thots here... hahaha... :P

finally, NUSCO concert over.. i hav told many openly tt this will be my last concert with them.. old already... too tired to join two orchestra whole heartedly... anyway, i can still go back if i'm needed.. :P juz tt no more gd attendance...(well, my attendance is really jialet aft i step down) a bad example for the newbies.. :P

suddenly hav the urge to pick up erhu.. suddenly rem the "high" feeling when i'm playing solo.. the feeling of playing with the orchestra is really nice.. shd i try again? wat if i fall.... hai~~ think too much liao... i shd juz dump this thot....hhahaha... :P