Flying Without Wingzzz....

it's back to reality today. back to work.

shucks!

i've been away from office since 7th June to celebrate nks 1st birthday. making preparation for her birthday bash cum bbq with close family members. aside from that i had a good break and spending quality time with the apple of my eye.

it was even heavier for me to step out of the house today after nks made this statement "ma...don werk"

gawd! did she really say that?!?!

i insisted she repeat it again but fat hope. all i get was a cheeky smile followed by her giggles.

now....tell me who wouldnt wanna be a stay-at-home-mum (SAHM)!!

the sight of piling workload. hundreds of emails. numerous sticky notes on the desk make me miss home very much.

i need more break!!

it's mak's 54th birthday today!

4 days after Nurkhairina Sophia's 1st birthday.
this date used to be NKS edd (reads: estimated delivery date) otheriwse, both nenek and cucu would be celebrating their birthday together. how sweet!

to mak,
thank you for everything.
it's hard for me to say it out as the well will be gushing its water out before i complete the first sentence.
easier to pen it down and whatever happens after that is history.....

thank you for caring for lil nks while i was away at work and for loving her the way you love your own child. nothing beats your love for the lil one. the attantion and care.

we love you loads.
may Allah grant you with good health, wealth and happiness throughout your life.

you are the bestest mom and grandmother in our eyes.

NURKHAIRINA SOPHIA is ONE.

time flies....
my lil baby is now a toddler
her arrival has since brought loads of love and life to the people around her
her smile laughter and cries break the emptiness that used to fill our life

on this day, i couldnt help reminiscing the past. the day i gave birth to her. the day i was announced as the mother to an adorable bundle of joy. no tears were shed. only GOD knows how much i could cry if i could. just lotsa joy and happiness on my face.

it was fun watching her grow and meeting her milestones. it seems as if i just gave birth to her.

of course, there were hiccups as she meet her milestones like being sick and having falls. when that happened, i couldnt help putting the blame on myself and feeling inferior and helpless for causing her the pain.

she's the love of my life.

i prayed constantly for her well being, for her to be smart, grow up well, respecting elderly and doing good deeds and be a good muslimah.....amin!

my dream to quit my job and nurture her myself was all but a dream. as it is, life in singapore wasnt easy with having just one breadwinner to raise a family.

sigh.

whatever it takes, may ALLAH grant me the will, strength, patience, good health to ise her up well.

to the apple of my eye,

i love you and may you always be a happy baby as you are.

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY darling!

it must have been a case of lack of sleep and under stress. i couldnt think right nor speak what i have in mind. and these are the unfortunate events that took place during the day....

scenario 1 - at a kiddy clothes shop

....was looking around for a suitable welcome gift for 2 colleagues' newborns. couldnt find a matching socks and thus, i seek the sales assistant's help who was then manning the cashier counter.

me: excuse me. do you have sacks (sounded like sex to her)?
her: huh? SEX?! *eyebrows raised*
me: oops! no i meant socks *blushing*
her: oh! we dont have much....right over there in the basket.
me: thanks! (without any apology cos i was too stunned!!!)

......looked over the basket and found the socks undesirable but no choice, embarrased by the slip of the tongue, i just grab two pairs which were selling 2 for $5 and quickly pay for my purchases. couldnt bear to raise my head and have an eye contact and i was like running to the exit.

DAMN!

scenario 2: at home.

i couldnt help but share the afternoon's incident with hubby while we were watching tv. lil nks was cruising around the living room then.

me: D, do you wanna hear an embarassing incident that happened this afternoon?
dh: what?
me: you see....i was shopping at ********* shop, looking for baby gift.
dh: then?
me: so i was looking for socks to pair up with the clothes i bought.
dh: then?
me: couldnt find and ask the sales assistant for help. u know what?
dh: what?
me: instead of asking for socks i mispronounced the word and it sounded like sex to the lady. socks = sacks.
dh: *burst into a loud laughter*
me: yeah i know you gonna laugh but it's not funny hokay. the lady must have thought im a sex maniac!
dh: what were you thinking?
me: many things but definitely not sex. *sulked*

....right after that, i caught sight of lil nks whom was about to lost her balance and i shouted over to her

me: bah-bee!! (i was thinking of baby..REALLY!!)
dh: WHAT?!?!
me: DAMN! there it goes again....i mean BABY!! BABY!! BABY!!
dh: *laughs*
me: you see what i mean?

this not only the only time i had a slipped of the tongue or whateveryoucalledit. the point is.....it's quite bad that i actually spoofed those negative words to a stranger and to my own baby! luckily my baby didnt quite hear the word or else she'd parrot me (which sheis already doing now). so temporarily, i'm avoiding the shop till the lady has forgotten my face. but then whenever i pass by her shop, i'd see new arrivals, i was tempted to step in and everytime i had to remind me the "sex" incident.....hmpph!

sungguhmemalukan.com!!

as i type away....im smelling like a yong tau foo soup. sticky and itchy on the skin. a careless and prolly a starving diner walked right through me while i was queueing for my food.

i was very shocked albeit too late to react when i felt a hot splash on my left arm, wetting my sleeve and part of my scarf. wadda ******!! my colleague commented that the woman was walking very fast when she saw her from afar and did not watch where she was really going, thus the collision.

damn! for that i lost my appetite and walked away from the q.

the woman just let out a "Ouhhhh!!!" yeah right woman! that's all you can do instead of pushing away the tray from me. dammit!

she didnt even say sorry and hurriedly walk to her table....the nerve!

sigh....sigh....sigh

there's a red patch on my arm from the hot soup. had it washed with water and still smelling a little like yong tau foo.

i was already sulking at work and that woman ruined it further......thank you!

FEDUP ahhhh!!!

feeling under the weather....

cant wait to recover from the irritable sore throat and runny nose. its difficult to focus on my daily work.

go away, bug-ger! :-s

i'm ecstatic!!
couldnt believe that i finally got my hands on this digital camera
- Nikon Coolpix S7c!!


Ooohhhhh!! I'm loving it....




to Konica Minolta Dimage G400,



thank you for being with me for the past 4yrs. it's time for me to move on to keep up with the changing technology.

donch worry, the husband will still need your services. you're certainly not forgotten.



......more snapping of lil nks!!

im soo pissed off at work, dreaded going to work and having to see that face.

i love my job. i love working and earning my own money. but i hate working with a particular someone who keep hating and blaming me for causing her never-ending workload. i mean every single soul in the office has their own workload. im not the only one who'll keep chasing her for some accounting stuffs. but she chose to hate me instaed.

she ever commented to me " ....wahh! i didnt know the commercial team is so busy right now...." and i rebutted "...well....of course. it's the 1st month of the 2nd quarter. finance dept is not the only busiest dept in the office" of which she gave me a look of displeasure as if i could care less.

she, who keeps complaining and whining about not being able to meet deadlines because there's too much work to clear. and she , who keeps telling every single person that she comes across that she has been working late till 2am in the office and even work through the weekends and public holidays. and she, who skips lunch to try finish up some work. and she, whose heart aches to see us leaving on the dot at 6pm or a lil later at 7pm. and she, who purposely come rushing to you with papers in hand to ask this and that when you're all packed and ready to leave. and she, who keeps complaining to the boss that so and so has given her some work very late in the day and within short notice. and she, who always complain behind her boss back and then backstab her own team mates by telling her boss what they've said behind her back despite them helping her out by taking over part of her work pack.

and she, the inconsiderate and backstabber is someone whom used to be close to me and 3 others, once a upon a time.

we felt that she has brought her emotion into work and cause the relationship to sour not only within her team mates but towards others. she worked like a slow coach. and her boss even hire a part time to help her out for a week. and still she couldnt complete and meet her deadlines. she double check every single work that's done by the part timer instead of trying to clear her backlogs.

damn!

i hate her working attitude. though im indirectly affected by her working attitude, i so cant stand the bitchy side of her.

she's changed overnight. she even backstabbed her own close buddy and we no longer trust her. and because of her, i was thisclose to tender my 24hr resignation letter and let her have a taste of her own medicine. luckily, i was still in the right and sound mind. i really dunno know why i've to work with her.

sigh!

i cant wait to get home now.... :(