lala(:

Friday, January 1, 2010

new year's countdown with family (: drank abit too much i think. dunno what happened to my sparkling apple juice. suddenly disappeared. and forced to drink some rose brut thingy instead :X in the end keep on burping alcohol and cannot stand straight ._. i can't drink any alcohol :X

kept switching between tvbs and channel 5 and 8. HAHA rainie yang appeared on tvbs (: nice songs. some ppl on 8 danced sorry sorry. and taiwan also have. and this morning when i was watching korean song festival on KBS WORLD also have sj's sorry sorry. HAHA.

spent the early minutes of the new year texting (most) ppl on my contact's list. its feels good to renew friendships and to thank them for everything they've done for me. felt so happy aft that.

peeps saw a msg on channel 5 that said HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS -JQ. and thought i sent it. HAHA its not me ;P but then nvm luh don't need spend money also can wish peeps in front of the whole singapore (:

gng to milan soon! HAHA and now i'm feeling wierd. took panadol alrdy :C kk byee everyone. i will be back soon! yeah so excited abt europe (:

Monday, December 14, 2009

buffet breakfast at raffles hotel in the morn. had to wake up so early to go there :X grhhh. and shopped arnd at raffles city all the shops downstairs and m&s and robinsons -.- then still drove to orchard for 2nd round :X prada and armani and taka. spent alot. luckily i think the only thing i bought was kinder bueno (: hehe. dinner at grans + cousins.

i have no idea whats going on. i can roughly make out what the situation is from the extent of the post and i sorta expected this kind of thing would happen but i didn't think it would be so serious and people will cry. omgosh i can't do anth because i dunno what happened b4 that (s: you will get all serious :/ + not involved). ahh wells fine then. all i can say is all the best and have a fun trip.

i don't like to know things halfway. so i usually try to find out more. and ppl quote what i type for their fb proclamations. i feel abit made used of. which is worse than knowing things halfway. so i shall learn my lesson. what i don't know can't hurt me ): hmph.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

first post in months. was thinking of posting something but kept saving those in drafts. so many things happened but i don't feel too good. i think i keep going out because it takes me away from the things that bother me. momentarily.

I wish the holidays could be like last time when i watched kids central all day and played with cousins and strangers at the park. hide and seek and catching ): its really sad how these things go away when you don't preserve it. i guess they're all grown up now. the other day i saw my childhood playmates and the bus stop and we just walked past without saying hi.

i think i'm quite distant from some people in my class. and they're really nice and funny people. h3 does have class spirit okay. all the mass convos and jokes. and our class mascot. HAHA. and the chalet. i'm sorry i didn't get to know you better D: i hope i get the chance next year.

really sad. its a good thing i smile and nobody realises i feel the way i am. its okay i will be strong and go through everything. even if it hurts.

sometimes i just want a taiyaki and a hug.
if you knew you would talk to me. right?

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

okayy i shall stop posting until after eoys. OMG 14 days countdown. time to start luh D: anw how to revise for eoy huh? read notes, 10 yr series? sickening man. study like so easy to say but difficult to do. cannot do anth in the past year papers. gg T.T

i realised i am neither sciences or arts. crappp. okay lorh everybody decide alrdy. sigh all this things always very demoralising. oh yah just rmbed got another piano exam. HAHA erm tmr tmr. HAHA go for fun bah :D suju M sounds funnaye.

Monday, September 7, 2009

sigh smth bad just happened D: what am i supposed to do? i don't have the courage to face this anymore. i know its my fault but i can't seem to hate myself. and i can't find a way out even though i've been trying so hard. and i can't stop thinking abt it. can't sleep or eat properly. can't do anything. can't forget the memories. i was stupid to take it for granted. now everything has changed. this is the worst i've ever felt. so useless.

how to move on.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

3/5/09

drama perf not bad heh. first time watching anw.

4/5/09

dinner with sec 4s. murtabak-.- but its quite nice first time also. and first time watching the getai at my house there. HAHA. got the 17 year old malaysian singer that appeared in the newspaper okay. woah singing not bad. stood with all the uncles. and listened to sick jokes :p ptg :O

5/5/09

shopping at orchard. haagan daz. OHNO didn't do any work for the past few days. i'm looking forward to tmr. HAHA sigh cannot do work again.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

28/8
celebrated july august sept babies bday... ate doughnuts! and caught homer eating pink doughnut!
celebrated sherbit's 16th bday ♥ crystal jade leh. ice cream cake! and pool (: caught the last 77 from esplanade. OMG jaywalked across 6 lanes to run after the bus >.<
30/8
watched MJ's munich concert. king of pop ♥
he cried a few times on stage :X when he sang i'll be there and you're never alone. can tell that he was struggling emotionally and yet he cannot say it D:
poor thing luh. and then he wrote so many songs which benefited the world yet ppl treat him like that.
31/8
faked scales. sorta worked? haha anw all seperate bows ftw. aural was okay. totally ignore clef change in sightreading. pieces ah... accompanist heard my hand trembling D: induced vibrato? sigh watever luh. if can pass then pass lorh. but if fail i got no face to meet homer alrdy. he has been so tolerant and i keep giving him excuses and all the extra lessons (which i paid for) >.<
1/9
go orch or not? sigh i have no motivation to go back to that place. i don't even want to play for the hk concert. but what to do. can i just say no?
very selfish luh. but howhowhow? strings is no longer the same as it was back then.
and all the tensions are making everything worse.
i don't want to see or hear anth.
i am becoming more resolute not to join hc strings D:
just realised math test tmr.
i am dead. so many chances also. hello kitty is a really good teacher, too bad i don't know how to treasure D:
if i screw up tmr. i don't know what to say.
sorry? >.< !@%*&( dammit luh.
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