ive never liked to type out my innermost feelings on a blog, because i feel like the media is like a jar without a lid. Anyone can reach in and see what they want in the jar.

and i think im someone who values privacy a lot more than the norm.

but im really so fucking stressed right now i just feel like typing and typing and typing and typing non stop without any full stops in between because thats how my mind is working it just keeps running and running without any pauses without any breaks without any breathing space for me to stop and even think.

reallly. im hit full-force by the jc promos shit.

I really cannot drop my 4H2s if not im seriously dead. dead till i wont even know how to spell the word. So many things is going through my head right now : pw, econs, maths,chem,phy,tuition,sleep,rest..., that even by putting everything into one word it can be like a million words.

fine im exaggerating but hey, my point is there.

God.

doesnt help matters that my period is not coming yet. COME ON!!!! i hate it when things dont go according to schedule. i feel like i dont have my life in control and thats when i feel powerless and not empowered and feel like everything is slipping out of my hands- diminishing.