pain ~ my way out

There's nearness in my pain, purpose in my discomfort, longing in my clenched heart. I know You in this place, I've watched You mend me here many times before. There's silence in my voice and a stillness in my efforts to climb out of the fallen reality I've settled into. I don't want to waste this pain feeding my emptiness when I could use it as a ramp into Your heart.

Pain allows two choices: run to my many, numbing distractions or run to You and wait - wait while You work, exposing the causes, the roots of my continual heartache. I choose the latter, here and now. I don't want to wait anymore God, I don't want to run anymore laps in the circles of this wilderness. Come and deal with my brokeness. Come and remind me of Your love. Come and wash me like only You can do. I invite You in.

You PROVIDE me with pain, hurt, heartache to force me to choose. And it's once again time I make the right choice - YOU.