Friday, July 31, 2009

Dad + Me = Internet!

Finally, the internet problem is resolved!

5th uncle has just upgraded their plan to the Mio Tv/Home plan so they had a spare modem/router.
And suspecting it's a modem/router problem for us, Dad got their spare modem 2nights ago.

Being lazy and tired for the past 2 days, not wanting to attempt setting up the modem/router, I left it at that.

Just now, I attempted to set it up and was amazed it's done within 5mins and here I am, enjoying INTERNET!

yeay! Finally I can surf Facebook! =)

Too many things to do on hand.
Applications, Appointments and Arranging Photos.
Here I enjoy time with myself.
Sorting out all other miscellaneous stuff; i.e. this internet issue.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

chill out

Internet Modem/Router at home is still not working.

Timbre@OldSchool is a nice chilling out place.
And it's so near to the train station and Plaza Sing.

We went there straight after work and there's alot of youths there.
I didn't drink much cos the beer came 1st and I was quite bloated after drinking 3/4 of the 500ml.
I only took a sip of the red wine, my fav.

I had a great time there, blabbering truth in nonsensical manner.

We left shortly at ten.
Cabbed home together with sim, evelin and beng.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Modem woes.

The modem/router at home is giving hell loads of frustration.

Imagine, just as you are browsing through a certain page, halfway through replying to emails and the page pops up and tell you there's no connection.

WTH!

Despite exhausting all the possible ways, there's no way to get the connection back.
I even tried calling up Singnet technical helpdesk.

I reckon the modem is dying on us soon.
Anytime will up the lorry.

No more connection until they do a line check on Saturday.
Maybe I will, if the modem is in good mood to work.

---
After seeking much opinions, I'm decided.
To get kaixian's friend to help me get the bag from US' Coach boutiques cos it's still available online and it means the factory outlets won't have it anytime soon.
It's 1/3 cheaper than Sg boutiques retail price.
But still expensive for me.
So after much contemplation, I finally decided to buy it.

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Timbre@OldSchool tonight with colleagues. =)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Pissed.

As I'm writing this post, I'm fcuking pissed off.

The router has been acting strange-ly these days and the connection is fcuking unstable! I've restarted the router AND my computer for many many times.

Time to get the router changed. I can't help it but to swear.

And, I hate it when shit happens.

I'm not going to mention names here.
To you know who you are:
Sorry if I was harsh on you but given this situation, it shouldn't be you doing this to me.
You are some1 so close, I so trust.
I'm really disappointed you did that without thinking the impact on me.
Again, I'm sorry if I was harsh on words towards you.
You know I never mean it.
Sigh.
And, I hope you won't comment on this here cos I don't want people to know who you are.

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Was supposed to be blogging when the router played out on me.

Mood Ruined.

So, in summary, the Mahjong session was fun, more fun with Joy around.
And I emerged as the sole winner.

This morning, I went to Gym. Like finally.
I met dad, mom & brother for lunch and I lost 10bucks on 4D *cos I didn't win*

Decided to jio Peishan out to town.
Off we went, and I bought a pair of Pazzion heels. *yeay, I like*

Saturday, July 25, 2009

More Pain.

I didn't want to wake up this morning, so I slept through til afternoon.
I fear that my mom or sister would come in and bombard me with questions.
At the same time, I was waiting for a reply from him.

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I woke up and checked my emails. I saw an email from Rachel.
It was so hard, I couldn't stop crying.
Mom came in, talked to me.
I cried.
This is the 1st time, after so many donkey years, I cried in front of her.
We talked and briefly I assured her I would be fine.
Making her worry is the last thing I want to do.

Xiuhui jio-ed me for mahjong and I agreed.
She was surprised to hear my hoarse voice.
I lied. I told her I just woke up and we laughed it off.
She didn't know I was crying before the call.

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Rewind to yesterday.
It was a terrible day, to begin with, I left my phone at home.
Given my situation the night before, I was in no mood to joke, much less to take/endure/entertain the 'suan-ning' exchanges between my colleagues and I.

I rushed back to Sembawang, with mom at the train station, passing me my phone.
*I don't know why, I had a very strong premonition that he was going to contact me, that's why I wanted my phone with me so much. Indeed, he sms-ed.*

Kevin offered to drop me off Commonwealth upon knowing I was heading to Tiong Bahru.
It was really nice of him.
Not even half way into the journey, I told Kevin, I feel like going home.
But I knew I couldn't fly his aeroplane at the 11th hour.

I met up with Tianyao and we went to the old Bukit Timah Firestation.
It was a nice chilling out place.
On our way out, I slipped and nearly fell.
I broke one of my heels. So EMBARRASSED!
I have never ever in my life break the heels.
Upset at the same time cos it's one of my favourite pair.

I have to make things clear here.
I am clear with myself, I went out with Tianyao as a capacity of a close friend.
Nothing more than that.
I made a point to make known this to him that I wanted to keep him as a friend.
So, I really hope no more misunderstanding on this.
Please.

We drop-by his workplace which is nearby and took a look.
It's a cosy little nice place.

We then went Jurong Hill.
It's a nice place.
Windy and nice sceneries.

But all these while, I wasn't in the mood to enjoy all these.
Not that he's boring, neither were the places, just that I kept thinking of him.

I requested to go home.
I knew I have to talk to some1 I'm comfortable with, just nice, my BBF is at Sembawang.

I met up with BBF. We talked.
He told me we'll end up back together again.

---
While having dinner, he sms-ed me, saying he returned all my things at his place and is now at my place.
Reason being, it's heavy *and it's really heavy, owe-ing to the photo-albums* and he wants to see me.
Frankly, I told him I'm with TY and I won't be home so early.

I knew he was pissed off.
But it's really nothing.
BBF say he would be jealous if his girlfriend did this.

He requested to meet me after that but I was with BBF.
After BBF, I sms-ed him, to check if the meeting is still on.
He didn't reply, neither took my call.

I got home and showered.
I wanted to surf net but I heard some1 coming back.
I knew it's Vel and so I went to bed and pretended to be asleep.
I really slept.

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Leonard Drake just called and inform me their Light treatment machine's spoilt.
LD appointment cancelled.
Still, I hope to go gym.

I want to head to town tomorrow.
I hope Joy would be free to accompany me.
If not, I shall go alone.

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I'm really sorry for causing hurt to you and your family, esp your parents and ah-ma.
It was never my intention.

It is very painful too, not just for you, but for me as well.

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Lastly, thanks Rachel.
For the email.
I couldn't and hadn't read properly just now.
Will read again when I'm back later.

Time to fake be strong again.
I need time.

I feel sucha wimp here.

=)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Pain

It pains me to read the reply.

Very painful, indeed.

I cried so hard.

Today feels like Friday

It feels like Friday today.
We ordered MacDelivery for lunch.

Laughter again. I've gone crazy.

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LV or Coach?

I've been contemplating since last December.

What should I buy?
Should I buy it now?
Should I buy it in Singapore or ask friends to help me with the purchase?

too many Qs...

I wish I'm rich so I don't have to think so much...

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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

星座的性格

Was doing some housekeeping on my email-box and found this quite true.
Something about me to share.

魔羯座

  年轻的魔羯都是很单纯的,我想他们也不会知道自己将从天使变成恶魔,魔羯座的人天生善良,感情也都很脆弱,也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间,所以他们通常在表面表现的酷酷的与事隔离的样子,其实他们只是不希望让别人看到他脆弱的一面,坚强,理智,承受是魔羯的代名词,他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想,他们希望了解身边所有人的性格,并不是因为好奇,好象只是因为一种安全感,为了保护自己魔羯生出了一种特殊能力。


  魔羯相对任何星座来比能在最短时间看出一个人的性格无论他们在如何隐藏,这点很像天蝎但是他们却看不出对方的心,他们很容易就会了解到他们身边每一个人的优缺点,但是他们通常不会说出来,也不会太介意,所有的魔羯都很包容对方请记得,如果有一只魔羯指出你的缺点那一定是友善的,虽然他们会用一种讽刺的口气来指出.


朋友(最喜欢装傻的星座)

  魔羯的人都很没有安全感,他们喜欢在任何人面前装傻,这可不是一般的装傻能力,魔羯人聪明就在于这点,他们认为只有傻子在会不牵扯到任何伤害,与其做一个聪明的人不如当一个傻子平凡而又随意,如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永远不会让对方知道自己会有智慧,而无论安全与不安全魔羯对朋友都很真,他们很珍惜些朋友。

  他们最希望获得朋友的信任,如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任,他不会再与这个朋友交往下去.和魔羯接触过的人都会认为他们脾气很好,好的似乎发傻,其实他们并不是脾气好,只是他们很会装,因为他们了解身边的朋友的所有性格,所以他们在包容对方,就算你做了什么过分的事,他们也早就想考虑好如果对方为什么会这样做,最明显一点,你们可以去看看身边魔羯的朋友,无论你怎么做那些魔羯都不会很惊讶的,其实他们已经知道你为什么会这样了.魔羯的交友观也很随便,他们可能会和贵族很好,也可能会和乞丐聊天,一切的一切只是心灵的交往,很少有魔羯会有势力眼,除非你这个人品太差了。


感情(超级白痴)

  魔羯的人傻的可以,他们并不了解爱情,但是他们只知道爱的感觉,对于他们任何感情的表达都是一种感觉,他们很认真的感受每一个感觉,大部分感觉都可以一个人去感觉,最失败的爱却要两个人,傻傻的魔羯一开始会认为,爱你是我自己的事情和你没关系,可是到后来越来越感觉不是滋味,于是开始对对方表白,表白成功后却不知道如何走下一步,也许是太不浪漫在作祟,魔羯的人可能会拿任何事情开玩笑,但是在爱情方面只要他说出'我爱你'或者话题谈到将来结婚,那么他绝对不是在开玩笑,魔羯很物质,但是这点和金牛处女不一样,他们的物质表现在爱上,他们认为给所爱的人带来无限的物质的就是最大的幸福,因为他们很自卑,唯一能用自己努力获得来的就只有物质了。

  当自己努力的去让自己所爱的人幸福的时候,自己所爱的人却因为其他的其他离开了他,而到最后自己却不明白自己到底做错了什么,真是可怜的家伙们.

In my mind

As usual I opened up my e-mail box this morning and I was quite surprise to see his reply dated today 6am. I expect a reply but not this fast.

Anyway, the content was just unexpected and I decided to reply it when I get back home in the evening, *I've just replied before blogging on this entry.* So you can imagine for the whole day, I couldn't keep my mind off this matter.

Even now that I've replied, I feel sad and pain. I believe him reading my reply will feel the same too.

All I know now is, while I may seem to be happy, something is boggling me always.

On a lighter note, I realised I've a bunch of funny colleagues. We had loads of laughter just for 1 email, 2 songs, 3 words. They are 'sway' and 'close shop'. =B

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Nice people, Lousy me.

Within a span of 24hours, I've experienced the good and the bad. But I'm glad, that's not worst in life and I've come to know that there's actually alot of people who are concern about me and I should walk out of this as soon as possible.

To be frank, I was a little emotionally unstable and posted some of the lyrics over what I felt as my status on Facebook. Friends left comments to show that they genuinely care.
I'm touched.

Closer friends would sms/email me, brightening my gloomy day/night, like Hongtai, Ting and Tianyao did. *yes, Tianyao and I are back in contact, but purely platonic, nothing of other sorts*

In the morning, just as I was struggling to be at work on time, Chit Horng offered to pick me up to work, just becos he's late. woohoo~

But at work, I was on the verge of breaking down.
Sim, Weijie and Kevin came to rescue. I swear if they didn't bother, I'll just breakdown and cry.

I've been exceptionally crappy at work recently, since yong suen left.
Probably even more crappy if he's around.

Monday, July 20, 2009

What does it mean?

Everytime I see her picture/profile, I feel the pain.

I get reminded of how much you loved me and cared for me in the past.

I begin to doubt everytime I'm reminded of the incident.

It means alot to me.

To have faith and be faithful.

Ich liebe dich. *Remember this is what I taught you*

I want forever. But I don't know why things turn out this way eventually.

She's not to blame. Maybe it's me.

Or we are not fated to be.

Will Chance of Fate really happen?

Probably it won't cos you've already gave up on us the moment you replied that my principles are more important than you / how I felt for you.

I'll wait and see.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

Caught the 6th movie of the Harry Potter films series - Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, with Haojie and Sharon this afternoon.

And now, I'm in between the break of the TV premiere of the 4th movie - Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

This is the movie I've missed out watching with them as I was in Denmark then, doing my exchange.

We actually made it a point to watch every of Harry Potter's movie together ever since the 1st -- Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.

Just googled for Harry Potter film series and found out that the next, also the last film of Harry Potter -- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows will be split into 2 parts.

Looking forward to it.
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I'm fine, just that...
All day long, I'm missing him.
All day long.
I know I've got to learn to let go.

你的承诺

Chanced upon this song on one of the blogs that I frequent.
I quite like this song.

是我的固执让你难过

Here's the lyrics:


你的承诺

乌云遮蔽了天空
窗外又是阴雨时候
伞下的恋人中
不再有你我手牵手
一切过了太久
我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘却向着
相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活
oh baby~
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我 也别再哭了~

Saturday, July 18, 2009

get-together session

Have been missing out alot these days.

To make up for it, I'm going to do alot of catching up with friends that I've slowly drifted away from...

So today, I met up with Sally and Merina.

Supposed to ask some other along, but they couldn't make it.

Asking them out wasn't easy too.

But afterall, it's worth it!

Brought my camera along but I totally forgot to take pictures until the end of the day. And here's the pictures of the day!





We had no idea where to film the pictures so we decided the mall directory was the place!
haha, it was fun taking the pictures.

Unknowingly, they had the NDP show today at the Concourse. And I was awkwardly dressed in red, together with the spectators earlier. *so paiseh*

Sally's boyfriend, Calvin came to pick her up after our get-together session. I'm full of envy of her, in every aspects, relationships, work and her personality.

And of course, with today's gathering held at Marina Square and Calvin's appearance, I thought of him.

Movie tomorrow with Sharon and Haojie. Catching our all-time-favourite-get-together movie, Harry Potter.
And I still remember the November 24 promise we had.

It's been a long time since I hit the cinema.

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Mom asked me why I didn't need to meet him and at the same time, she's curious why I am meeting so many friends nowadays.

I smiled.

It seems that my world revolved around him all the time.

Yes, I miss him.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Cute!



Isn't this cute!
Guess what are they?

Chewing gum that comes in different flavours.
It's brought back by Rachel from Japan.

Guess I must be really bored to take pictures and blog about it.

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Another note, Shopping really make wonders!

It temporarily cured me.

Went to Northpoint for lunch today to find out that the shop I frequent has opened an outlet there and a few dresses caught my eye.

And so, I dragged Evelin, my colleague to the shop after work.

Poor girl had to endure with my indecisiveness for 1.5hours. *yea, we were in the shop for the whole of 1.5hours trying out the dresses and deciding if I should buy or not*

Finally, I walked away with 2 dresses and 1 belt and a membership of that shop, *woohoo~ like finally, I'm able to accumulate $200$170 to become a member* and Evelin didn't go off empty-handed, she bought a top too.

The salesgirl was nice to believe I'm a loyal shopper of the brand *I really am* and give me their membership after knowing I'm short of $40. And in return, I bought a belt to top up the amount so the shortfall wouldn't be that great. Evelin's purchase helped to chip in the amount too!

The best part is, I realised with the membership, I'm entitled to 15% discount with my future purchases. Initially I thought it's 10%.

I feel like hitting town. Anyone~?

What's wrong?

For some reasons, I couldn't sleep well these days.

I called up the clinic and explained to them the symptoms I'm having, a day after taking the medication but the doctor insisted this shouldn't be the side effect.

Oh well, perhaps it's myself.

But I do experience something similar the last time when I was prescribed this medicine.

My cough is almost gone but I'm feeling lethargic due to the lack of quality sleep.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Done!

I'm done with the labels.
Decided not to label all the posts; only those memorable ones.

Just published an article which I found in the Drafts.
This post was written eons ago.
Meaningful to me, so there it goes, under the "Special Memories" section.

I've also added the Nuffnang Ads *after much contemplation*.
Please click for me if you see any ads running.
It doesn't cost you anything. =D

And please visit Misse-Masche *though no updates of new items* and help me click on the Ads too.

Decided to link them under the same account.
Hoping that Misse-Masche will be revived in the future.

Let me know if you feel that the "Advertorials" section should be placed after the "Links" section or any where else.

Hoping this will generate a little income for the poor me. hehez. =)

Chance of Fate

Today marks the 30th months into this relationship with my Love.

Ironically, this day is an end to it.

This time, there's no wolf crying for we both are very sure once it's said, it cannot be undone.

We are both learning hard on coping with it.

Alot of things to settle but we are giving each other some time to get use to it.

It's better to part our ways now to re-learn what we've missed and try to correct our bad habits.
Perhaps one day, the chance of Fate will come.

Be a better man, my Love.

Remember the year 2011, our date with Master.
If chance of Fate happens, we'll meet Master then, otherwise, Master is true. He knew it, that's why he said 4 years.

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Now and Forever.
It's an old song but I've a feeling towards it lately.
Classic love song.

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage
in my head
You make sense of madness when my sanity
hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever
I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see

I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given
to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever
I will be you man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the
sand
Now and forever
I will be your man
Now and forever
I will be your man

Monday, July 13, 2009

Cooling off... for a better tml

Am blogging from Joy's place, using her lappie.

She's getting herself ready and we're paying Eden a visit! Yes, I mean NOW!
Poor girl is sick and we're going to visit her.

After a long talk with Eden (during our stay in Genting) and now, with Joy, my dearies have made me realised what I've to do.

My dear, I still love you and am still waiting for an happy ending~ *fingers crossed*

But, *yes, there's "Buts"*, if things doesn't turn out as we wish, we both will agree that it's time to move on, yea~

Having said these, I don't mean to give up easily on you but if need be, I have to...

While we're talking, an old friend, Kelvin from school called. We'll probably be meeting for dinner this friday.

That's all for now... got to go~ =)

New Layout [Updated]

After much contemplation and procrastination, I finally changed my blog layout to a simpler look.

Pros and cons for using the blogger template. Easier to manage yet it's rather rigid in editing some of the available gadgets.

Have port-ed over some of the stuff from the old layout for now.

Now I'm contemplating if I should add the Nuffnang ads. Should I or should I not?

Bit by bit, I'm going to add in the labels as well. I'm 65-75% done with the labelling.

Comments are welcome.

That's all for now. :)


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Updates:

As I was doing the post labels for the Japan trip last year, I recalled that Rachel told me the Himeji castle is going to close for renovations from October this year. If my memory didn't fail me, it's going to be close for 5years. It's a pity that we didn't get the chance to visit the other time I went. =(

According to the write-ups, it should be a nice place to visit.
If any of you is visiting Japan before October this year, remember to pay a visit. 'Cause it will never be the same after renovations...

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Updates~

I'm sorry for the lack of updates.

I've wanted to blog so much but kept on procastinating~ sigh~

But finally I'm done with the pics from Genting. As usual, it's a consolidation as uploading one by one is just too time-consuming!

The Genting trip with the gang is very very FUN! We had much more fun than I've expected.

Although we were all tired out by the long journey to Genting, we managed to hold out til 1plus am before going to bed. It's quite a feat for me and Ting, considering that we had to wake up early for work on Friday (before our departure) and we did not even nap throughout the whole of Saturday.

We spent our time there to the fullest.

We went to the Casino (my 1st time trying out the '3 picture' game) and then for tea in the morning, while waiting for the rooms to be ready.

I wanted to have their Hot Chocolate but they are not selling anymore (though it's still on their menu). Reason given to me was that cos it's not profitable as very few people order it. *_*

We then shopped and sang -- screaming our lungs out and even took neoprints, right there at Genting highlands!

Here's some of the merry-making moments!



As usual, we were fighting against time before the machine snaps a picture of us while thinking of poses to strike.

This time round we had the friendly sales lady to help us decorate so most of the pictures are nicely done. If it's just me and ting, I doubt we can even finish 2 pics in time.



Upon returning to Sg, I went through a tumultous phase of life, deciding to stay or quit the game. It's a real hard decision to make. I, still, am in this phase, maybe only a little better.

Days passed and I'm still not decided. I guess so is he. I guess we'll just play it by ear. One step at a time.

On another note, it's been 2 years since I joined the working society. I'm tired of it and I guess I'll need a change. Hopefully soon I'll be able to garner the courage to make the 1st step out.

Oh, and just a quick update, I've enquired about the German language. It's a tad expensive and I really regret not taking it seriously when I was in NUS. Well, I'm gonna wait a few months for my finances to be stable and then take up this course probably at the end of the year or early next year.

Not too sure if I want to take up the course in between the transition of job or not...*as if I've got a new job offer* but I'll definitely leave in no time, cos 2+years is really a long time for me.

So anyone that's reading this, any job offers for me?

That's all for the updates. g'nitez