last day of the year!

well.. its the last day of the year.. hm, been to the church lim ai recommended this morning *of cos with her* pretty refreshing.. no big figurines of the Lord as i expect to see but that's fine. peace and relaxation is what i ultimately seek.
had lunch together and a pressie from her. *really unexpected* very sweet of her.
hm... our chat over lunch reveals a whole lot of similarities btn us... hm.. i really appreciate the time shared...

hm, went to G2000, got the blazer i was lOoking for... 1st saw it at wisma, with size 9, obviously toO big for me. then the other day at vivo i saw size 5, mum says its toO small.. finally size 7 at PS.

then hOme sWeEt hOmE. coincidentally, kevin was at PS as well, so after me and lim ai parted, i met him for a while.
bought a cross-stitch bib for laykim's newborn, bryan. its gOnna be a challenge but i gonna finish it before the 21st... in time for the fUll month celebration for lil' bryan.

then got the postcard from ty also. at 1st i thot he wld have left the country, forgottin abt my request...

hm.. recently kinda start humming this song <<老情歌>> by 吕方.. the lyrics goes...
我只想唱这一首老情歌
让回忆再涌满心头
当时光飞逝已不知秋冬
这是我唯一的线索

chorus:
人说情歌总是老的好
走遍天涯海角忘不了
我说情人却是老的好
曾经沧海桑田分不了

愿歌声飞到你左右
虽然你不能和我常相守
但求你永远在心中
让往事回荡在四周
啊事到如今已无所可求
这是我仅有的寄托

really like the chorus part..
hm, just feel that its always so sweet to have pple to care for urself... its like a drug, find it hard to say no to it... and u get addicted to it... when u get addicted, u find it hard to quit...the withdrawal symptoms are simply hard to get rid of... unless... u find a rehab centre to help u quit?.. or... haha.. weird theory but logical... haha
seeing my sisters all so happy.. im happy for them as well.. joy just called me saying her bf bought her a tiffany's pendant or sthg... *girL, happie liao?* and from ting's blog, she hinted abt her happiness as well.. heez...

today's new year eve... hm.. gg to lim ai's church in the morning... well, just wanna go her church and lOok c lOok C... yah, im not interested in bible study.. but just like to njoy the serenity in the church.. at peace with myself...

then.. mayb go out with ming ding or come home.. have yet to reply him.. hate to go out.. cos its sOOoo crowded... sianz.. will i spoil the festive mOod if tml i last min say i not gOing... hm... better reply 1st thing in the morning... =j

oh.. before i forget.. did i blog abt my pressies... i got 2 pressies le.. one from rachel and the other.. not tOo sure its a bdae one or a christmas one.. but yah.. i guess its meant for the latter but i take it both way...
anw, counting my pressies now... shld expect one more from joy,ting,june and benit *thats wat joy told me*... and 第一名。。。 and kevin... and more more more.. *im greedy i want more!!!*

haiz, time reali flies.. i still rem last year i was just saying that i want sthg for my 21st bdae... and sad to say, i din get wat i want... if i were to get it this year.. hmm, still be happie but the meaning is different from last year's... vast difference... hm.. hope in time to come, i wld recv that with an entire new meaning....

cOuntiNg dOwN...

well.. gosh, havent been able to log on to blOgger yesterday or the day before.. due to the earthquake in Taiwan... slowing down net cOnnection which leads to gateway timeout error!?!?!

anw, results are out and im kinda desensitised after so many semesters... the pressure is on me now, yest brother just came home to announce he secured at least a 3rd class.. depending on his IA next sem, if he does well, he probably can grad with 2nd lower... and wat m i...? haiz...
enuff abt results..

i found my official leech for next semester... im gonna leech on him.. haha.. for my EE modules.... yupz, decided to take EE4218 and EE4210 as well as the german module. hopefully i can get EE4218 and the german module cos both modules are very popular... the last stats i saw for the former was 81 pple bidding for a vacancy of 60.

not feeling tOo well since yest, had the bloated-ness feeling... was so uncomfortable that i decided to throw up my dinner. felt better but still didnt slp well... keep having dreams.. hm, went to the doc just now, got some pills for digestion and belching.. and pills for relaxation, so i can slp better at nite..

oh.. i wonder wat happened as well.. my phone line at home was spoilt or cut off or sthg.. no dial tone, the repairman gonna come tml and check it out.. =s

over the weekends...

let' review what i have done over the weekend...
hm... finally went to cwp to change my plan last sat.. and will take effect on tuesday..which effectively is today.
went to sakae sushi for dinner... i wonder if its cos of festive season, everyone's doing shOpping, met quite alot of pple at cwp. saw ashley and her bf, denise..and my uncle and his family.

on the eve, went out with mind ding, my coursemate... hm, was his bdae so went out to celebrate.. *didnt really celebrate though* just ate dinner and chilled out at holland V. there is this nice place, i think i wld recommend to pple.. but i scare next time alot of pple go how..? spoil the quietness liao.. haha... *dilemma, contradiction*
it was a nice nite out...

hm.. then yah lor, met up with peishan and sharon at northpt just now... pass umbrella to peishan and sharon's card and gift... then sharon gave me the turkey cum ham sandwich. was really nice... peishan had cOokies for me tOo.. yummie tOo.. but tOo small sized liao.. wld appreciate if its like famous amos sized cOokies.. cos for hers, by the time i taste it, i finish chewing on it... *bu shuang* humph~

and now, was deciding what modules i shld take.. didnt have much of a choice though..
ee4218, ee4603, ee4210 and adv OS... choose 2 out of 4..
part of me tells me that i shldnt do embedded stuff again, then adv OS is just not my type, but biomedical, im not so confident in doing it... haiz...
hm.. just found out adv OS exam clashes with ccn2 so yupz, its been striked off the list... *poor ty, lucky i checked, else he blur blur last min then will find out...*
hm.. more keen on doing 4603 cos i heard 4218 is time consuming...
haiz.. still not decided yet.. shall c how later goes... after getting the results...

today is crazy...

well.. its now 5.40am, and i just got home and showered. shld be in bed but i thot i shld blog abt this before i forget... *short-term memory*

anw, was still fretting over sthg this morning when i woke up, decided to go online. hm, talked to chio bu and lonewolf, though they didnt really know what happened, they both offered an advice which led me to an answer. oh, then ming ding was telling me there's a danish restuarant in taka and i might find my risalamande there...
after the chat, went to help mum to 挫汤圆, setup to 拜神.. then had my lunch before i 小睡一会儿..
was supposed to meet ying and sharon at bugis at 630pm, but both of them late! went walking ard then settled at fish&cO. for dinner.. ordered corriander catch. its dory fish with corriander sauce. well, it didnt occur to me the corriander is the 'smelly vege' *i called it smelly bcos it stinks to me*, i just thot its a fanciful name... in the end, i didnt really njoy my dinner *as in the fOod*, i definitely njoyed the company..
got a xmas gift from ying. *thanks girl, i like it very much!*

met joy and eden after reaching sembawang. joy kept wanting me to go her house to drink her martell... haha... and gosh, there, we did the most bo-liao thing, that is to blog on eden's blog in the middle of the night... at 3am plus..
after their dinner and a chat, we got down to blogging, and left after we were done and here im at home!

hm.. sometimes things are easier said than done, sometimes, things are easier done than said.
a day ago, i nv thot i wld make that call, not to mention, to take the initiative to do anything. but today, i decided to call cos i know if i dont, i will always be bothered by it and 我不甘心事情就这样不了了之。。。
so now, im happy, once again!
sorrie i always make u guys worried...

work is definitely off for me at least til 3Jan, so these days, if u see me unhappy, its definitely bcos of pple and not work, so dont really nidta worry for me... but i do appreciate your concern! =D

oh yah, toOk some pics with ying and sharon, and also some pics while at joy's hse, shall post on my photoblog sometime later.
g'nitez... blOgging off to slEepPp...

did i force myself to a deadend...

was it a communication breakdown or did i force myself to a deadend...
things turned out harsher than i expected to be... harsher on me though... i always thot im in control of everything, or at least for this once, it turned out to be wrong...
nthg can be done or undone now.. just let things be the way it is...

really upset with how it turned out... really feel like crying.. but mama says, no point crying over spilled milk...

selfish...

wat i can say is that human beings are selfish.. including me, myself..
haiz.. i shall strive to be a better person tml..

went to taka today before the council xmas gathering to lOok for organiser.. but its damn crowded lor + cldnt find one that is similar to my present organiser.. *sianz* went to all the bOokstores to lOok also nthg catches my eye.. went to kino.. design nice, but size and price not right.. sianz

had the council xmas gathering today.. tingyi, chiobu, zongneng, weiling, souyong, famin, apple, jiewei, kim hong and me were present, lilian cldnt come cos she's not feeling well.. *hope she's feeling better now*
went to Marina Sq's Cafe Cartel.. hm, yah, bought a pair of ultra high heels also... wat i like is the design.. wld have been nicer if its not so high-heeled...

after dinner, came back yishun, met ruyi and benit for a game of billiard, its really a game.. then went to eat the nasi lemak ruyi wants to eat.. saw jeremy there..
hm.. long time no see liao.. tink after peishan's matter.. we not as close as before.. haiz.. but i've come to accept that pple do change, we prob become less close even w/o that matter...

hm.. shall lOok for my birkies and move on with life... bdae coming sOon.. need to be a better person! i can do it and i must do it!

you are my SUPERSTAR!

现在外面下着雨但我的心情是愉快的。。。 hm.. though i still have fyp at the back of my mind.. but i want to blog abt today..
met wanting earlier and we went to sing k.. how to say ne.. 2 pple sing k is boring lor.. but sOon after ruyi came, wanting had to leave.. sad..
but we found our 主题歌了。。那就是 S.H.E's SUPERSTAR...
hm.. went to amk before singing k at civics centre.. at amk, found the egg toy! though i have found it earlier before but now its no longer selling at sun plaza.. so delighted.. finally can pair all of them up... need to go take back my pOoh from mummy.. or i will give her the other one.. to pair them up... and thanks to the 成事不足，败事有余的你 also *u know who u are*! =D
recall what ur OC said... i only have to tell him.. 我们的关系非比寻常。。 是一般人不会了解的。。i guess only a few of us i.e. me u wanting ruyi and meijun will... haha..

today i also confirmed one thing... but i nv got the courage to say what i wana say for im afraid to lose.. but i know in time to come, i wont have to say it but that person will realise it and thats a gOod thing... for when that person realises it, its the time i've gained sthg in return.. 所谓。。舍得舍得。。。有舍必有得。。。 =D

haha.. also got one thing to share.. dont know is my luck today or wat.. met 2 weird cabbies in a day... 1st when accompanying wanting to amk.. the taxi uncle.. wah lao eh.. make me want to laugh... *but must give him face, can only 偷笑* then at nite, gg home with ruyi, worst, i was so afraid after dropping ruyi off... the uncle is farnie farnie de.. heng, im home now blOgging.. *which means im safe* haiz..
though the 气氛 not tOo gOod today but overall was fun... like the rainy weather also.. or at least it only rained when im indOor and stOpped when i was on the streets.. not tOo bad.. =D

uncertainty...

this morning, the weather was gOod, at least a reason *or an excuse, whichever way u see it* to lie in bed.. the skies are grey and wind is blOwing.. gOnna rain sOon, i supposed.
hm.. well, despite the gOod weather for slEeping, still, i got outta bed.. without much struggle. decided to clear up the piles of notes and my hard disk space.. by removing the files saved on my lappie for this semester..
for this 2weeks, just hope to rest and relax, dont ask me abt my holies/xmas/bdae/future plans.. like i mentioned in my previous post, im lOst once again.. so i have no plans.. dont ask abt my academic as well.. if u hear my reply to u is "hm.. nvm.../okie lor, lidat.. " followed by sthg like "let's not talk abt it" means i have no wish to talk about those issues, at least for that moment so dont press on... and dont even try to continue by saying sthg lidat "talk abt it when u want../can come to me and talk abt it anytime u want".. obviously i dont want.. and i know all of you are concern abt me.. but like wat is mentioned on the running text at the left side of my blogpage.. dont attempt to think u know me very well... *esp if we just got acquainted* cos I may not act the same way under similar situations... similarly, i may have talked to u abt my problems before, doesnt mean i will go back to u again, or for sure and talk abt other problems im having.. to sum it all, there's no certainty in me. i do wat i like to do...
hm.. just like what gibson said... "the only thing that is certain in life is uncertainty".
not many pple really know me.. neither does myself...

i guess i hadnt mentioned abt the bad dreams i had few days back. not too sure y though, im having problem having quality sleep these nights...
anw, few nights back, dreamt of some1 close to have passed away... shallnt mentioned the name here.
then this morning, before seeing eden's msg, i had a dream also, that caused me to woke up tOo..
the dream goes.. wenxiu called me *actually i was surprised to hear from her*, and to my surprise *even more*, she told me yongjin *from class 2C* was married.. *im not sure y she called to tell me this though* then she went on to say his wife is xiuhui *not the one from i know, is the girl from normal tech/acad...* hmm.. yah, in my dreams, i was really surprised and also puzzled, y wenxiu called me to tell me this.. then she even mentioned another name... which i suddenly cant recalled his name, my sister's fren meiling's bro...

hm.. its sunday, later gg out with eden and before that, go upgrade my phone plan.. haiz, i tink im gg to b more brOke.. gg to start paying for my own handphone bills. haiz..

i need some redefinition!

haiz.. im lost again.. perhaps i shld have a new hairdo.. go rebond my hair.. or go curl.. haiz..
i dont like my hair now.. but tOo brOke to rebond my hair.. i need a new hair and new lifestyle.. feel life is so stagnant now... i want change.. i need change!
改变既是永恒！
好想。。。sighz...

hm.. just sent the parcel to denmark and was told it probably cannot reach before xmas.. i cross my fingers and pray hard!

end of CA2

finally, CA2's over... hm.. disappointed him *my supervisor* again. there's sthg wrong with my simulation so i need to 'debug' it. told him i needed a break, and i guess he cld sense that i need that break desperately so he said that i cld continue after new year but must finish debuggin my simulation setup before schOol starts.. well, i guess im just gg to try within these 2 weeks anw... hm.. sometimes i really wonder is he the gOod guy or bad guy...

hm.. feeling so sianz, desperately lOokin for pple to go out with.. finally gg to go out later.. sianz =s

btw, eriol, happy birthday once again! its a pity u still need to present for CA2 today.. anw, hope it went well for u! =D

shOpping spree...

thanks to hy, i had a happy shOpping experience today but with a little 小插曲。。。
ben cried in the public.. *shame shame*

oh, i just found out i had a pair of shOes i bought in denmark but i forgotten abt it.. yeay! extra pair of shOes...

rejected.. sad...

okie, my CA2 with the examiner.. hm, not what i expected.. i printed my report for him, bind it.. but he didnt even want to keep it, neither does he want a softcopy.. gOsh.. so sad... hm.. i printed the report, went to SDE but the binder person on leave, walked to forum cOop, binded it, went back to E2.. all these effort.. he just asked a few qns then said, okie. when i asked him any comments, he said no.. haiz..
i knew i was gg to get nervous, i cldnt find the rite words when answering to his qn... but anw, its over.

anw, in the end, we went for the gathering and it didnt turn out the way i expect it wld... abit disappted and affected.
was so tired.. ever tried walking from far east to mandarin and back to far east... my legs are aching..

deadly shOcked!

well, this is supposed to be a late entry. many of u may have wonder what happened if u saw my msn nick 2days before...
the story goes...
once upon a time... blah blah blah...
anw, cut the long story short, i went to CRP on sat, came home, saw an email from my external examiner. he said he will be on leave from next week and asks me to meet him on monday. gOsh, when the news sank into my head, my heart was like beating so fast, oh gOd, its all not within my plans! if u seen my plan earlier, i wanted to present to him on either on thurs or friday but haiz, now...
anw, im in schOol now, simulating some figures for him and hope i can bluff my way thru. met dongcheng and sally and saw his back... haha... its a pity i didnt see his face, but the duo so sweet... ;D

still not decided shld i go for the gathering later or not.. haiz...
anw, im sorrie if i made some of u worried.

msg of the day...

recvd a message this morning and it really made my day! it was from da lao shu..

today's quite slack but i shant blogged abt it... cos tOo slack liao..
haiz..


sianz

end of papers but not fyp.

well, today officially marks the end of my examinations but i still have fyp not done yet. 50pages of report im not sure how to do it but im sure i will have alot to do over the weekend and next week before thurs. here's my plan...

accompany vel to wdls lib to revise *comtemplating to bring my lappie but no power point* then tml will tidy up my workstation and the notes. on sat, i shall surprise peishan and come home wrap the pressies for jonna and family then send it off to the post office later in the week. then sunday start on my fyp, have a plan and email my sup. haha.. yah, have been saying i want to email him but i havent done so... anw, on mon, really have to force myself to sChoOl cos if i stay at home, i sure rot at home... then school got internet + powerpoint + i believe after the exams, the comp lab wont be that crowded... yupz, thats my plan for now.

went online msn just now... wOoow. finally after so long of MIA.
hm, talked to alot of pple.
yest i was still upset abt sthg, or rather, confused abt sthg. this morning i was still pondering over it. but rite now, im feeling better.

my msn nick "accept what u cannot change, change what u cannot accept"...
da lao shu saw it, he said, "your nick sounds postive with some negative, negative with some positive.." i laughed. he said that cos of my nick plus my msn pic.



further tat, gibson also made sure i wasnt depressed or sthg.
to tell the truth, sthg was bothering me but thanks to all the friends i have, they just made my day! i mean i felt better after the chats...
the gift and the ride from arpan, the clips from hanqiang. hmm.. to my experience, sometimes when im down, hanqiang wld just drop a simple msg to cheer me up without asking why. =D
then chatted with tianyao, surprising he reminded me abt the 3 deals we had. i can rem the 1st and 2nd, but vaguely the 3rd til i checked my msg history. but thats a dEaL, so no running away. its really fast, he's out there for almost a year, coming back sOon, with jeff.
hm, the robin and wf created the grp chat, discussing abt the crp lessons. no more japan trip so i can attend the rest of the crp sessions. oh, another decision made, im postponing my japan trip to may next year.
then i initiated a chat with yilin, gossip abt lin cheng being attached and the MRT incidents then somehow, i guess due to my busy-ness in the crp discussion, our conversation just died, but rest assured, i will ask her out after my fyp CA2.
what else, oh, kevin initiated a chat with me. surprised cos he was in busy mode. i mean yah, busy means busy to me... anw, he let out a secret to me. hahahaa. hmm... he gave me the impression that he's a 有想法的人 but today, he's totally like a kid. omg. i was like coaxing a kid, when i myself, need someone to coax me into feeling happy. anw, it helps to divert my attention plus the juicy secret. i didnt imagine he wld tell me that, at least not over msn. haha. actually, come to think of it, he told me quite alot of secrets..which i still cant stop smiling to myself when thinking of it. the 1st is sthg to do with me, the 2nd is abt the song i sang. then again, i actually have a doubt but i held back. i didnt want to further digress the topic by clearing my doubt but i hope tml i get the chance to ask what i want to ask and also, convey my thots across to kevin without digressing again. i cant afford to make any mistakes, not now.
oh, he and carol are organising a gathering on monday. peishan wants me to go... but... haiz, part of me wants to go but another of me insist i shld spend the time on my fyp. so who wins? wait til monday then we shall know.. hahaha.
now, listening to the new singer 蔡旻佑 《我可以》. a nice song, esp this part :: 我多么想每一次的美丽都因为你
现在的心情：今天早上的疑惑以解除。=D

好朋友...好消息...误会一场...坏消息

disclaimer... thot i shld have posted this entry sOoner but im lazy.. anw, here's it.
the 'thot provoking' entry on 24Nov is a general 感想吧。。hmm... inspired by 罗志祥{小猪} 的歌，歌曲名称《好朋友》... so dont be mistaken im referring to anyone...

anw, today had my EE4103 paper. the paper has 5qns and we are supposed to choose any 4. as i flipped thru the qns, i realise i shld attempt the questions im confident in 1st, so i did qn5. but who knows, i went blank for the 1st 15mins. knowing that i have worked thru a similar qn in the tutorial but now, lOoking at the questions i cant recall anything. 过了10mins, 我挣扎了一下...shld i continue with qn5 or try another qn... then again, i knew that was the only qn i have the most confidence in, so i presevered; calmed myself down. finally started on sthg... spent another 15~20mins calculating sthg worth only of 6marks... finally, spent 45mins completing part (a) and (b), leaving out the part(c) cos i dont know what it is asking abt...
then decided to do qn4. again, spent abt 45mins on that qn, didnt complete either.
as i was doing the 2nd qn, i thot, will i just do 2 qns in 2hrs? but luckily, i managed to touch on the 3rd qn. actually, when it comes to choosing the 3rd qn, i m really quite lost. cos the other 3qns, i totally have no idea.. so i thot, just do qn3. yupz, didnt know what to do.. spent 15mins trying to figure out what the qn is asking... then scribbled sthg...

had off my phone in the exams, then after the exams, i saw the msg from carol.
what me and peishan have been lOoking forward to... the boys contacting us!!! im lOoking forward for more... *call me greedy, but i really treat them as friends lor*
anw, i tink they very funny.. keep asking if me & peishan are attached cos they dont wanna cause inconvenience... he even asked carol.
well, carol came telling me but i laughed it off... as carol puts it..."the young boy"... call me old-fashion thinking or close-minded. while i can accept 姐弟恋 but i will not let it happen on me. obviously the boys (with 2 exceptions) are younger than me and my intention is pure making friends and touching lives. anw, i later found out he's attached and he knows joseph! its a small world isnt it? reminds me of eric (from 1C) wonder how he is doing~
again, talking abt joseph, thot of msging him but maybe after my ccn1 paper. thot of asking him how is he doing and hows things... he ran into some problems i guess, wondered he solved it liao mah..
also wondered... is he another he***a or...? i tink he's not.
another funny thing.. sia loy got my number from kevin then called me...to be frank. i was in a state of shock; + imagine, 3hrs slp from previous day, had a paper earlier, headaches, so i wasnt able to tink. somemore, to add to the confusion , sia loy told me his chinese name and i was thinking, who on earth is he, another eddie murphy? *i mentioned this cos he***a gave my number to his friends without my permission and eddie, eddie murphy is the name, to be exact, one of his friends used (much as i want to choose to believe its not him after the 1st time, now, time and time again, he proved me wrong)*
anw, after discussing with peishan, then we came to the conclusion that its sia loy. 误会解除了。 yeay!
hm... i guess i cant go japan liao... cos no airtixs so maybe hafta wait til neext year liao...
sad cos i think it wld be heartwarming to be spending xmas with rachel esp she alone out there.. =s

change of environment!

before i start anything, happy birthday to you! *to u know who u r, u may not be reading this rite now, but yah, its meant for you*

well, like i mentioned in my earlier blog entries, really no mood to study but at least got started today. after seeking advice from ty, saying i shld change the environment, maybe it helps, so when vel said she wanna go lib to study, i immediately volunteered to join her.
woke up at ard 1130am, wanted to wake earlier but only managed to sleep at 4plus in the morning today cos i wanted to complete the cross stitch present for jonna, so woke up late. still got 3 more pressies to seek, for susanne, her husband ronni and tina/annette. hopefully i can find them by end of this week, wrapped it up and send it to denmark!

anw, i thot i was dreaming but i knew i wasnt *what a weird sentence but yah, thats wat i mean... haha* dad came into my room to ask if i had to go school this morning *cos he knew now is my exam period* when my phone alarm rang. i set my alarm to 1030am, by right, he shldnt be at home. i was so tired but i recall vividly that i turned myself to face him and answered to him "no" and he was wearing the usual blue shirt for work, then turning back facing him and continue my sleep.
when vel came into my home at ard 11 to wake me up, i recall waking up, then slipping back to sleep again when she said: "我洗好脸了叫你". i started dreaming. i cant recall what i dreamt though.
she came in again when she was done, but i was dreaming, this time i dreamt that i woke up. mysterious isnt it, u actually are dreaming when u dreamt that u were up.
anw, cut the story short, after washing up, vel asked me if dad was home. then i confirmed i wasnt dreaming, i firmly replied, "yah, he came into my room just now."
went to lOok for mummy to inform her that dad's probably sick and is at home, then realised the Singtel 3G network is down. can u imagine, me and my mum's 3G phone cant call out or recv call... but vel's okie *cos hers still 2G*. luckily its broad daylight, i wonder if what happens if some1 encounters emergency but cant call out. at tat time, its really 叫天天不应，叫地地不灵了。

went cwp longjohn had lunch, hm.. the standard today not toO good.
then angelia and benjamin joined us since they were free. we had fun in the library.
oh, at the lib, i saw the lye seng loOk-a-Like. i wonder if he saw me. hm.. its really unexpected!
and yah, *benjamin, if u are reading this, muahhahahaha* i toOk a video of benjamin in the lib. he apparently mistoOk that i was taking pictures of him *as i was, earlier on* but i was actually taking video. by the time he realised it, it was tOo late. i actually wanted to put on youtube, but i found out that on youtube, u cant restrict the viewers and i didnt want any tom, dick, harry to watch. i just wana share with certain pple.. but tOo bad...

though not toO productive, at least i managed to sit down and read thru my notes, so tml im gg to attempt the tutorials. i havent been doing them since tut3. haiz, must print the tut solns. will be at the lib tml again with vel. but after tml, then no1 will go there liao.. i wonder what happens...

oh another thing, i have been lOoking for the "egg" toy since eden gave me that donald duck. i rem me 转到一只female pOoh but i dont like so eden gave me her donald duck and i gave the pOoh to mummy. then subsequently i went with vel to coffeeshop and saw it so i 转到一只 mickey mouse. the mickey was defective, with one of the hand put the wrong way. decided to get more after some time but soOn, the coffeeshops that i go to dont sell this anymore. miraculously today i found it! vel sponsored 2dollars for 2 tries. both are donald. i dont want!!!! so i tried again, its a minnie. i happily thot, yeah at least mickey and minnie. who knows, i came home to realised the minnie is defective toO. this time worst, she's crippled. one of the leg drOpped off.. i tried to fixed back but cannot... haiz.. lOoks like im going to turn sOme more. the 2 donalds will give to angelia and benjamin when/if i see them tml. =s
well, i shared with the 1st person that came to my mind with when i found the machine. i found it, haiz, just tOo bad, both with defects. why? the pOoh i dont want no defect, the mickey and minnie, one pair defect!! humph~

a day to slack.

finally, ended my real-time embedded module exams today. its gonna b another week before my next paper, but i hope this time round i wont slack *today's exception* cos for the next paper, i nidta prepare for the chit sheet *aka cheat sheet*.
well, didnt do well as expected... but what i didnt expect was, my contact lens dropped out while i was rubbing my eyes... cos didnt really slp for this paper, then my eyes abit swollen and dry. haha, immediately i raised my hand, cos i wanna ask where is the paper i need to sign out before leaving the rOom. *this is the first time, for my nus exams history, that i actually left the exam hall in the midst of an exam.* then the "kind" lecturer *which i was cursing and swearing at yest, for his paper gets more and more difficult every year* said i cld leave the room first since its urgent. i quickly ran to the washroOm, wore my contact lens again, then return. haha, forgot to add, my lecturer knew me! he said, "annie chua rite?"
upon my return, i saw him peeking at my answers, so paiseh cos i have been crapping.. haha. oPps, will he memorise my matric number? or my handwriting...? or even answers?... *thinking toO much, haha*

anw, for today, i shall rest and spend some time on the fyp, email my sup, latest by tml and also plan my trip to Japan. maybe angelia is joining me. maybe if i really were to go japan at the end of the year, i might not go europe for grad trip next year, either change to go taiwan or perhaps china or even tibet. =)

btw, thanks for all the well-wishes & encouragement! really appreciate from the bottom of my heart! =)

ponder... what is 好朋友？

here im.. wasting my time again. just got back home.
expected, slpt til 3plus in the noon today then went to angelia's house.
helped to give her some idea on the choice of her secondary schOol; well, i guess for her, or everyone that is at this stage of life, is experiencing a big change in life -- that is, pRimary schOol no mOre... its a transition to next stage of life.
then i told her i got a blOg, but told her not to liNk me cos i thot her frens/readers are still in primary sChoOl.. hmm.. its funny for them to read my blOg... *im sorrie, angelia, if u are reading this*
then met up with eden to get the boxes. wow! im impressed by the number of boxes she has! its a bagful of them. sometimes i just cant help but wonder, y did she keep those boxes. as she was working and in the midst of eating, so i didnt want to stay for tOo long.
after that, me, my aunt and angelia went to pizza hut. its a lOng lOnG time since i last ate there. had my fav soup of the day + hawaiian pizza.
we went shOPping for a while after dinner. i got a voodoo doll for the danish family that invited me to their house for xmas last year. thot i shld send some pressies for the family of 10; havent decide who i shld give this doll toO though.
we passed by the neoprint shop and i suggested taking a pic cos everytime we say we want to but in the end, we didnt.
well, its been donkey years since i last tOok neoprints.. at least for a few years liao bah. we had 2 cards and i decided to let angelia chOose the card. she tOok the nicer one but its okie, she can show off the nicer one to her fren. muahahaha. anw, im gg to keep mine inside my photo album as momento.
we parted ways after taking the neocard. they went home and i went to meet benit to get more boxes. *sounds like old cardboard collector huh* we sat down for a drink and guess wat, i spilled the drink. the kind macdonald's staff replaced my drink and helped to clean up. yupz, the service was great, thanks!

hm... as i listen to this song, the princess hours OST i just ponder...
到底， 好朋友的定义是什么？ 是谈得来的朋友，还是志趣相投的，或是可以说心事的？
异性的好朋友又equal to 喜欢的人吗？你觉得呢？你相信异性之间有普通朋友吗? 还是那是不喜欢对方时所找的借口？
hmm.. 你是否觉得你跟他（她）的友情非比寻常呢？怎么说呢？就好比：当一般common friends问起时，你总会说“我们是朋友罢了。”但你知道你跟他的关系比一般朋友还要好但又不是男女朋友。你是否曾不经意的恋上你口中所谓的‘好朋友’呢？
我想，如果以男生的立场来说，他们应该是以宁杀错，不可放过的心态来面对吧。但有时他们也会在意自己成功与否而observe the situation.
女生来说，往往都会迟疑，‘是否对方会不会对自己有好感’而不敢正视这个问题，一再拖延。
我想最烦恼的是你喜欢上你口中所谓的‘好朋友’吧。
situation很棘手哦,cos its a make or break.
如果两情相愿，那皆大欢喜。
on the other hand, it cld just break the whole friendship, if not 可能在面对彼此时，会有些尴尬吧。but 如果处理妥当，见面时还是可以自然面对。*or at least, thats what i feel...*
我觉得还有一点要烦的是，如果两个好朋友在一起后，it doesnt work out, then 分开，那会从情人在变成朋友吗？还是不曾相识的过路人呢？就这么失去了一个朋友？
此外，我觉得被口中所谓的‘好朋友’或普通朋友喜欢上也是件烦事。
同样的，如果你也对对方有好感，那皆大欢喜。
但如果你只想保持好朋友的关系。。。那头痛咯。
i also hate the situation where 对方对自己没有好感，但总对自己很好，惹来自己对对方的误会。
for me 呢，当这位很好的异性朋友和我都十分确定是完全不可能的，我会毫无保留的对他好，因为大家很清楚it is impossible.
一般来说，当我察觉我的举动可能会让一些异性朋友误会，我会pull myself back abit... so as to not cause any misunderstanding，因为我只想和他们做普通的好朋友。
所以while i believe that platonic friends exist, but is it just a 借口 for not liking that 好朋友 in return?
好了，读了那么多。。。 你呢？如果面对这样的情况，你会开口向对方表白还是保持现状？

tight schedule but not for studies.

its the time of the year again, i just cant get myself to study.
haiz, met up with joy just now, to get the empty cigarette boxes from her. then met her new bf. hm, to be frank, he's just the guy next door, nthg fansinating but i hope he will treat her well. that's enuff.
monday's the start of my exams and im still not done. i havent started revision for my coding theory and esp, realtime embedded systems, which is a tuesday paper. im gonna die a big time this round.
today, nthg constructive was done. felicia called, helped her with her project, followed by peishan's call abt the 'bubble envelope' *shh.. its our secret!* and we then talked abt CRP. CRP is holding a security preparation class or sthg lidat this sat. really dont feel like going but carol says its compulsory, so hm... decided to let it just burn my saturday away and attend the seminar. so saturday's gone.
tml's schedule: gg to cwp to collect more boxes from eden, then perhaps gg to meet angelia to 'counsel' her. she just got her PSLE results, passed it but didnt do well as what she expected. well, i have been thru the phase, yes, at this moment, the results may be everything to her, but years later, she is gg to realise that nobody will ever ask her again abt her PSLE results. i heard that she then lamented abt attending a school in the woodlands area. yupz, i do agree with her that the schools in woodlands are not as good as my time *so im fortunate, aint i* but schoOls are not everything, there are many examples around to quantify that.
anw, yupz, then sat need to go to the post office again to post the boxes, before gg for crp.
i tink there goes my honours class. =s

engine warming up...

its a wakeup call today; sally msged me re the proj stuff.. still got some loose ends to tie up but its only then, i realised its sunday and i have been lazing at home for 4days now. i mean from tues to fri i was so sick that i have been lying on bed almost 24hrs everyday and finally on saturday, i thot i shld give myself a well-deserved break.
thot of waking up ard 10am and start to do some revision but i didnt slp well the night before due to the heat + im still not fully recovered. headaches. so in the end, i slpt til i recvd the msg from sally.
thereafter settling the stuff with her, i had lunch then watched tv. haha, then i decided i shld sit down and do some reading but all i was doing is waiting for time to pass, so i can watch "net deception" at 7pm on channel8.
it was tv marathon all the way til 11plus then i slowly start my engine again at 12midnight. cldnt resist the temptation of online-ing and check if wee kiat has replied me or not, so here im again.
blogging, replying to patrick on friendster and checking for air tickets.. i wana fly... haha.
okie.. blogging off for now.. gtg sleEp and wake up early tml. =)

cLassEs misSed.

i missed the last classes for 4214 and 4103 today.
thot of gg to schOol one.. but im toO tired to go, thot it might worsen my condition even more.
came home yest and slpt thru til today, didnt do anything. my head was still feeling very heavy when i woke up just now...
but now, im feeling better, but not fully recuperated. i wondered what i have missed out in class. must go ask pple liao.. sianz.

later still gtg for tuition class. its the last lesson today. yupz, load off, i can concentrate on revision after today... but the thing is, i have no idea how to start... haiz~

misunderstoOd

its always not a good feeling to be misunderstood. today is the EE4214 Realtime Embedded System project presentation, and i happened to crack a joke but the lecturer mistook me. its really a terrible feeling to be mistaken. i wanted to clear up the misunderstanding with him but i didnt have the chance. at that moment, i just felt like walking off and not present to him later. but in the end, *quite expectedly* i didnt just walked off, neither did i clear the misunderstanding with him.
met my fyp sup after the ppt. is feeling more sick than in the morning. things went well, except for the disapptment i brought him.

feeling so sick... gg to slp.

falling apart..

woke up ard 5plus yest and starting on the report. most of the stuff came in ard evening thru midnight.. then i started compiling.. and just finished the compilation.. so tired..going to slp now, later still got tuition.
i got a feeling im gg to fall sick soOn...

im still in schOol~

tired.. cos im still in schoOl! never stayed in schoOl for so loNg period, 3days 2nights, like gg chalet like that..

anw, its was quite enjoyable throughout the past hours but now, cos of stayin for too long liao, pple gets tired and the smiles are all gone, no matter how i entertain them.
i understand that when pple get stress out, esp with time constraint, the best thing is to let them feel relaxed, which is why im always trying to make them laugh, so i can relieve their stress, as well as mine, cos not so tense mah, the environment.

zhiwei and weida wanted to go home cos its getting less productive but... then im caught in between. dont know how to react, i kept quiet.
went to visit hanqiang's grp at weida's lab, saw their game. quite nice.

oh yah, haojie came, he toOk me out for a 'spin'.. haha, apparently is to look for food, but we got lost.
at 6am, when buses are available, we packed and went. me n haojie went chongpang, had breakie before he sent me home.
later still gotta wake up and compile report..
tired...

thot camping a day will be enuff...

thot we can leave in the morning after breakie.. but apparently, there are still alot of stuff not worked out yet...
caught some nap in the morning ard 7plus.. so tired.
lets hope things will work out well before evening today..

shagged out...

camping in schoOl~

cos me and my 4214 group always rushing the last bus home so today, we decided, if cant make it in time to go home, then we will camp in schoOl. its 11.09pm now but we are not yet done with it... so yupz, its 99.99% that we are camping in schoOl.

this is my first time though. like most pple in my team wld have already experienced it due to 2001 which i never done it before.

yupz, the whole noOn i have been doing my fyp stuff while they run the testing but still, i didnt get the results i expected, so i decided to switch to writing the 4214 report while they run the tests.

think i wont sleep today bah... cos tml morning can go home.. but i tink im craving for biG breAkfaSt!

procrastinating...

its been some time since i last blogged. well, just to update, i have finally finished my coding theory project of implementing a Reed Solomon encoder and decoder over GF(16) with primitive polynomial X^4+X+1. *sounds chim huh*
Looking back, i think i spent quite some time figuring out the hash table this code requires. After figuring things out + follow the algo by the lecture notes + referencing to the sample src code, its much more easier. as for the lecture notes part and understanding the sample code, i think i really need to thank one person, she plays a very important role, if not for her, i dont think i can complete it by now. she is christina! yupz, without her encouragements, i dont think i can implement the encoder and decoder esp, the decoder, in two nights *not including one afternoon of debugging*. as for the debugging, really need to thanks the lecturer for that sample example and 'debugging' email, if not for that, i need to work all the way out to isolate the problem which may take ages since i need to convert between the integer and index representation of the polynomial, which can be quite confusing. i realised its just 4 identical mistakes in the code that makes my code unstable *meaning to say, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt*. luckily, now im done with it, so now is servicing my fyp deadlines + real-time embedded report.
i had time just now when my 4214 grp was doing the debugging/integration-load testing but since i just finished my coding project and handed in, i decided to take a rest. then upon reaching home, i kinda procrastinated til now, cos i have no idea how to start. really dont know how to face my sup now. is he a friend or examiner? he's blurring the line and im afraid i will go tOo far and cross the line which he deem forbidden. haiz... and the CA2 and the Lit review im supposed to do, its all stressing me out. =s
okie, enuff of procrastination, shld get down to produce sthg for him... somebody, hhhhelppp...?

progressing~

things are going slow but its definitely progressing *just that i probably wont have the luxury of time to go this slow.. haha*
anw, for 4214, actually yest wanted to test the integration but there wasnt much time left since we have to leave school before the last bus/train leaves...
sthg to cheer for, i managed to manipulate the codes, again with help and confirmation of wd, to connect to multiple clients, just that i may need to modify some parts again to fit nicely into everything, so now, i will just wait for sally to modify and clean up her part of the code before she passes it to me to refine and clean up my part. yeay! ~switching off from 4214

~turning on fyp literature survey... haha. i know what im supposed to write but i dont know how to link things up... haiz =x

~going to switch to 4103 after my lit review is done... and when will that be? i dont know... can i meet the deadline? i hope so...

burden lighten

at last, today's *or rather sunday's* 4214 mtg is fruitful for me. managed to do the recv for mfc and found a code for win32 socket programming. but thanks to wd, cos he wld be refining the codes from there for the win32 version to fit into his code and i dont need to do the editing myself; what i merely did was to find the codes for him. so now, my part is not quite but almost done. just have to make sure my mfc integration with sally's will go well and successfully connecting to different server/clients. and perhaps need to go find out how to use the thread thingy for it. sianz.
actually felt quite bad, cos my code all copy from the net, whilst the rest of my team is mostly need to be written by themselves and i toOk so long to produce a functioning copy after modification, and them, 三两下就搞定 for their code. but at least, sthg for my part was done and its definitely a lightened burden off the load now... can concentrate on my coding project and fyp.
for those who are also pia-ing ur projects.. hang in there!
jiayou jiayou jiayou.=)

小鸟冲，冲冲冲。
山猪冲，冲冲冲。

producing sthg at last..

met up with my grpmates today.. feeling happy, *though the code wasnt written by myself but* at least can work, so im done with one-third of the work..
for ee4214, i need to do winsock, mfc socket and linux socket. but qianyi and zhiwei is helping me with the linux one cos there is a sample code given by the lecturer on the course website, so they just build on the code from there. and that implies that im left with winsock and mfc, today, the mfc sending can work, so now its to tackle the recv protocol and finding how to set up the tcp/ip in win32. so one-third of work is done! yeay!

busy.... busy...

busy busy..
recvd a 问候 msg from thomas few days back.. at least im still being thought of by some1 else... *haha, jk* anw, there are alot of 'invisible' pple who are very concern with me...
today is a hectic day.
have been slping late these few days, and looking back, the tasks accomplished was almost zero. yest evening, met chris and sally for dinner before i went to sally's hse to do the 4214 integration with sally. the integration eventually failed. but its kinda expected. then got home n worked thru the night til 4plus. was too tired and not fruitful, decided to turn in 'early' *nowadays i slp at 6+~7am and wake at 12noon if my lesson is in the noon*.

anw, this morning hafta to wake at 730am to go tuition at 9am cos my tutee having her Olvls practical test tml. nearly overslpt *i knew i probably would, lucky i left a big note for mum to wake me up and consequently, everyone will see the note and whoever sees it and still see me slping by the time stated on the note, will wake me up...haha~ clever bah!* then vel woke me up. knowing my nature, mum called back to make sure i woke up. lucky me.
very tired. still have to endure the stupid drilling sound coming from the renovation from the unit above my tutee's. if i had known, i wld have asked her to come my hse, since its just right 2 blocks away.
forgot to off the sound then during the 4214 lecture, my phone rang.. wah, i was frantically looking for my phone and everyone's attention was on me. so paiseh~
yah the lecturer then emailed me.. guess wat?... nah, he isnt writing in to reprimand me and surprisingly, he thanked me for telling him abt the tutorial thingy. seriously, i thot its just 举手之劳 and there's no need for this thank you not. but there is one thing i wld like to highlight here, for this semester, it seems like most of my lecturers know their students by name, perhaps its a small class. and so, i replied and apologised for the phone ringing.

i hope i can come up with sthg to write for my fyp and do my 4214 and then my coding proj by this sat. weekend still need to go for tuition. sianz. i need time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

something interesting...

was checking mail when i come across this from weiling(yrp/crp):
my comments, if any, are in italics

> Tip of a life-time.....
>
> HOW TO MAKE A WOMAN HAPPY
>
> TO MAKE A WOMEN HAPPY....A MAN ONLY NEEDS TO BE :
>
> 1. a friend
> 2. a companion
> 3. a lover
> 4. a brother
> 5. a father
> 6. a master
> 7. a chef
> 8. an electrician
> 9. a carpenter
> 10. a plumber
> 11. a mechanic
> 12. a decorator
> 13. a stylist
> 14. a sexologist
> 15. a gynecologist
> 16. a psychologist
> 17. a pest exterminator
> 18. a psychiatrist
> 19. a healer
> 20. a good listener
> 21. an organizer
> 22. a good father
> 23. very clean
> 24. sympathetic
> 25. athletic
> 26. warm
> 27. attentive
> 28. gallant
> 29. intelligent
> 30. funny
> 31. creative
> 32. tender
> 33. strong
> 34. understanding
> 35. tolerant
> 36. prudent
> 37. ambitious
> 38. capable
> 39. courageous
> 40. determined
> 41. true
> 42. dependable
> 43. passionate
>
> WITHOUT FORGETTING TO :
>
> 44. give her compliments regularly
> 45. love shopping
> 46. be honest
> 47. be very rich
> 48. not stress her out
> 49. not look at other girls
>
>
> AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO :
>
> 50. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
> 51. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
> 52. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes
>
> IT IS VERY IMPORTANT :
>
> 53. Never to forget:
> * birthdays
> * anniversaries
> * arrangements she makes
>
>
> HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY :
>
> 1. Leave him alone

madrush....

well, i really have tonnes and tonnes of work to do. *who doesnt, im sure most final year students have...*
anw, due to the all the work, its been a long long time since i clean and tidy my roOm.. so i tOok out few hours to really vacuum, mop, clean and tidy my whole rOom...
then re-organise the layout of my table so now i have more space for writing when im using my lapPie at the same time... in the past, i put my laPpie then no place for me to do writing liao... thot of gg ikea to get the movable desk but no time..
really njoy the extra space.. hehez

today's schedule is really busy... thot of gg to shopping with peishan then to nick's mum wake then to tuition. but in the end, due to the delay, i cldnt make it to nick's mum wake and i thot its not tOo nice to go to tuition after the wake...
cos slept at this morning 7am so woke up an hour or so before i met peishan then nv eat lunch. meet her liao then shop shop shop, no time to eat also.. only drink on bubble tea. went to tuition empty stomach, by the time i reach home already coming ten.. then eat dinner.. stomach juices tOo overwhelmed liao... so abit cramp...

lil' things that touches me...

was in really foul mood yest, upon learning that i flunked my midterm for coding theory. didnt really have the mood to study for today's ccn1 test, so decided to nap for 2hrs til 1am in the morning then wake up and start revision, that way, i guess my mood will more or less settle down and be better able to revise.

but who knows, the moment i lie in bed, i began to get upset again. the failure has sort of triggered the fear in me, for the fear of not being able to clinch the honours classification i hope for. i know my biggest and worst enemy is not anyone but myself. its really stressing me out, though i know that i can just forget abt the classification and let it be since im still far from the boundary, i dont want to give up just like that, without fighting the battle. all i can say is the enemy in me has won, cos i feel like i can conceive of myself not being able to make it there, despite the effort i have put in. im really tired.

but i really wanna thank all the pple ard me, the lil' things they did, though small as they seemed, it warms my heart.
arpan, for offering to send me to clementi after learning that i was upset abt my test results; tonglee, for listening to my super bo-liao ranting while i met him on my way home yest and the words of encouragement from him this morning; the blog post abt me from joy; the comment benit made abt that post; the conversation i had with merina; short conversation with andrew, he nv fails to simplify things yet he's one who sometimes can think quite complicatedly; jonathan *my sec sch schmate* dropping by to say hi at E2 pcCluster today, i mean he cld have just walked away cos obviously i didnt see him, yet he came into the room and said hi; rongjie, met him outside LT2 today while revising for my test. i told him abt my coding test results and the ccn test im going to have and that i wana eat sthg yet lazy to walk to dily's, he offered to walk there and help me get a bite + one complimentary can of green tea and the words of encouragement as well... oh did i mentioned that bookmark from carol *from CRP, ISCOS YouthWing* yah, i did a presentation for the 3rd batch of boys at KBC and unexpectedly, she gave me a bOokmark that day to compliment my effort. though it was quite sometime ago *which i cant even rem did i mention this in my blog before*, im mentioning it now cos i found it in btn the ccn text mind ding lent me. yah, and mind ding, offering to lend me his ccn text.
i know most of them wldnt have the chance to read this, nonetheless, im blogging it down, making a mental note of those who has been nice to me. i will try to be nice back to u, though i can be quite self-oriented sometimes.. haha.

okie, shall pick myself up from where i left off and hopefully, i wont feel or have to feel so weak *like yest* again. realised i have to go thru this feeling of weakness every semester. its really draining me off mentally, if not, slowly bit by bit. for every semester, i thought i cld better fight it the next coming sem, and, by right, i shld cos i have been thru it for so many semesters, but i found myself to only feel weak less frequent and not being able to combat it completely.

ruin moOd.

got back my midterm test results for coding theory, failed the test. sad. mood ruined. angry. upset. why?

what happened...

was surfing the net in midst of doing my work, as a way of 'de-stressing' then realised that the old tag-board i was using, the site had changed and frens whom i know have been using that board, have changed theirs also. out of curiousity, i decided to try to login with my userid and pwd but i cldnt anymore. surprisingly there wasnt any announcements made to the users. i guess i was lucky to switch to another tagboard earlier *due to the spams on the old tagboard i was receiving*.

then saw the blog that joy wrote for me. quite surprised and touched! thanks girl *though she may not have my blog @ddy*. =)

gratitude.

i shall use the word 'gratitude' as the title for my post today.
today is a special day for me. alot of surprises, though small and simple, yet touches my heart. well, u can say im easily satisfied by all these simple thoughts *but sometimes i get abit more greedy and expect more*.

today is the last interaction session with the 3rd batch of boys @ kbc. though is the last, i dont feel sad cos im lOoking forward to meeting them outside, upon their release. i dont know how willing they are but if they are keen, im most willing to!
the session ended with me singing a song, 约定 by 周蕙, with kh. most of the time, he is doing the singing cos im too nervous liao, keep forgetting the lyrics.. haha.
according to another inmate, he announced that each volunteer will get a card from their own small groups, so i asked my grp where's ours? and they replied they didnt do it. i believed them cos nv see them bringing anything + i tink they also the bo-chap kind but in the end, after i return from the singing, they passed us the cards. though i kept saying im jealous over others; abt them getting special/colored/nicer cards, im actually not. just saying for the sake of saying. im really satisfied and more than happy with mine cos i think mine is the most special.. haha. there are not special ribbons or coloured drawings or cards made with thicker paper, but i got more drawings.. haha. that aside, i tink its their thought that counts!
and y my title is 'gratitude', that's bcos on the card, it has this word written in stencil wording.
the session ended, it wasnt like the 2nd batch where pple stayed ard to wish the other, this time, the boys just left the rOom...
had debrief, sad to know i prob wont be able to join the crp session cos its during the exams period, i dont wana miss it but no choice, i hafta prioritize and studies first.
met weien after the debrief, together with peishan and weiling, we tOok a cab to new merina pier. there is this nvac appreciation dinner for the volunteers on a boat, thought it wld be interesting + its not toO ex, so i got ps to go with me.
then there is this very big dOor gift. shall post the pics when i get them.
on the boat, there are cards to write appreciation notes toO, then yah, i got one from weien.
at the end of the dinner, we toOk a free ride to khatib from johan n shah.
but somehow, in the beginning of the ride, it wasnt so 'smooth', i cracked a joke but i tink i gOne tOo far and im not sure if weien's offended by it.
reached home and sent him a msg, but he didnt reply me, still wondering if he's angry but he's not online...
thats abt it for today, shall catch some slp and tml, i shall do my fyp coding then go tuition and then all the small small tasks.. and read on MFC and install the prgm and try to figure things out...

help, i need programming expert! =s

another test.. for girls only...

watch a tv show and there is this interesting test.
how eager are u to want to marry a rich guy?

imagine, u are taking ur lunch and inside this lunchbox there are 4 items.
which one wld u pick to eat 1st?

1.egg
2.fish
3.meat
4.vegetables






no cheating...





decide 1st before scrolling down for answers...









decided ur answers?





okie, here they are...

if u pick EGG, 你想嫁入豪门的心态是百分之百 100%.
if u pick FISH, 你想嫁入豪门的心态是百分之五十 50%.
if u pick MEAT, 你想嫁入豪门的心态是 0%.
if u pick VEG, 你想嫁入豪门的心态是百分之二十 20%.

okie, just in case u are curious, my answer is meat. =D

7th oct session..

had an wonderful day today, though the weather was bad. from what i know of, 15mins ago, the PSI was 140.
my usual saturday started with the kbc visit. today's session was gOod, i guess the best so far (other than the one i conducted, hehez), i guess it has gotta do with the activities we did today. there was more games and less writing/discussion which was gOod, i thot, at least its not so mind-challenging, no need to tink so much.. haha.
played jenga, though a simple, seemingly 'just another game' game, but i learnt a new meaning to it; how u behave affects the others. hm, that is to say, how u move the blocks around actually affects how u gonna move and place the other blocks u are subsequently going to move.
we came in first..was quite paiseh, cos very anxious, let out a few screams. the loudest came when raymond came to kajiao me. he went ard trying to kajiao others too, to try to add in the fun.
gotta talk to them more today. kinda touched toO, they last min wrote out the lyrics of 安静 just bcos i said i forgot and they wanted to get me to sing. i may sound exaggerating, but im gg put it into my photo album as a momento. really touched by the small gesture as theirs.
promised them a few things (need to check with the i/c if its okie though), but in return, i got them to promise to sing with me in the next session, which is the final session. 有点依依不舍，但又希望可以早点在外面和他们见面，继续做朋友。也希望他们可以从新开始。
then we played the crossing river game. though girls are not allowed to play cos they guys can hug and squeeze together, but by the side watching, i felt so anxious for them, as if i was playing. 真的是捏了一把冷汗。
thats the highlight for today's session and then went home straight after.
mum n dad wasnt ard then benit jio-ed me for dinner, 'reluctantly' i went. not unwillingly but was lazy lah, didnt know what to eat also. had mos burger and a lOng lOng chat. quite njoyed the talk though i feel that benit (not sure if u reading but), u shld lOok foward to falling in lOvE, its a wonderful thing! haha.. dont become monk okie.. must persuade junjie to look foward to it also, walk out of the shadow. if not, joy wld be a gOod choice. haha..

thanks for 'making' me an impossible. i guess i must have once impacted ur life badly (and earned many bad reputations/impressions from your friends, haha *just kidding*).

okie, made some changes to my blog..
1st, i enabled the comments to each post, though i doubt there wld be much comments anw.
2ndly, i changed my tagboard, and yes, finally! i had enuff of the spam posts, this new one can block out the spam msges though its abit troublesome to have to refresh each post. though just started using, i think the features are more complete for a free tagboard. i guess i just have to refine the settings as time goes by. didnt unsubcribe the older one cos thot just keep it and see how, if this new one is not effective then perhaps will consider change back to the old one.
3rd, moved ard some items in the right navigation bar. moved the linkies up above the tagboard and moved the archives til the end. i thot moving the linkies up cld be wise choice for my own convenience when i do blog-reading at others' blog, no need to scroll til the end, i reckon the scrolling will become longer as the archives increase also...and i think i will be the only one reading the archives to reminisce my past.. haha.
4thly, i moved the music player controls to below the tagboard so if u dont want to hear my music, u can stop it.
thats about it.
its a long post for today, so shall end here, go to slp.
tml's plan is to wake early, start figuring out how to do the fyp simulation then tuition then fyp, AGAIN!
i really dont wish to disappt my sup but i really think i cant do it.. i was told to do 3 things but til now, i haven even completed one...arhgs...

又是一年。。。

一年又过去了。。。好怀念去年的这个时候。。。勾起了好多好多的回忆
to the person who probably will nv get to read this blog:
i still have the book (you wrote) with me and i really appreciate what u have done! 不知道你过的好不好但祝福你。

today is midautumn festival, saw the mOon, big and round. but today is hazy also, due to the forest fire in the neighbouring countries... always lidat...tsk tsk tsk..
make my eyes so blur and dry and easily-irritated.. must stay indoor..
saw the news, today's PSI is the highest, 80.

went for tuition today.. realised i have shortchanged myself.. kinda regret taking up this assgt, hope she increases the freq (but my time is gone in exchange with that). either way, i die lah.. haiz...

yeah! feeling gOod...

went back to kimage to rectify my 'hair problem'. today, it wasnt as crowded as the last few times i have been there and xavier actually got the time to help me do the color-(down)toning and wash my hair! but the bad thing is that he didnt complete the washing procedure... leading stylist 就是 leading stylist, 洗头就跟一般的洗头妹、弟有不一样的感觉，手法温柔、舒服。
the very friendly girl whom i met helped me wash and blow before xavier did final touches to my hair. got to know her name, she's serene. learnt who was fanny tOo. then halfway the kelvin came to talk to me, i actually didnt want to talk to him that much.. so i purposely feigned cannot hear him.. haha. though he try to 'cheer' customers up/ get them to chat but just didnt like the way he presented himself so didnt want to talk to him much.

went to take some pics after doing my hair, cos its neat and straight and tidy!
i hope the pics turn out nice cos im not photogenic.

then went to orchard taka's talking hall to get rachel's pencil case. i got one, identical one for myself toO. thot of getting the 'pig' instead of the 'lamb' but the 'pig' is pink and i had tOo much pink.. so better get the white 'lamb', else pple might think im into pink.. but im not.

feeling unwell...

was at the Prison Link Centre (PLCC) yest morning. terence drove us there. on the way, his conversation with chiew ping and robin was so funny, me and ps just listened to them since we arent very close with them. terence treated us breakie but unfortunately, i vomited half the stuff when i got to PLCC. wanted to vomit out everything but i thot if i just let it out, things wld get worst, so i tried very hard to stop it. robin's a nice guy too, he waited for me and peishan outside the washroom cos the 3 of us went to change into the ISCOS t-shirt; that's also when i vomited...so we took quite a while to change.

thot i wld have the chance to visit the inside of clusterA but we missed the timings.. even missed the performances by the inmates themselves... its a pity, cp says we can only come back next year... =s
mr tharman was the GOH for this event and we shook hands...
lunch was provided but didnt eat it cos i was still feeling bad. after that, raymond drove us to kbc. it was still raining. cp went to the washroom and thats when we had a short talk and i learnt alil' more abt him.

at the activity session, he also shared abt himself, *i have doubts if all are true, though i believe in the true-ness in some of it*
was feeling tired and hungry and cold when interacting with them. tried very hard to be cheerful and alert but i still let out the triedness in me. not as fun as last session but i managed to make fun of some of them...

thot of gg parkway parade to see the handbag i wanted to buy, but i was feeling so tired and muscle aching all over i decided to head back home. got home, i changed and slept. had dreams and still feel the muscle aching all over. slept til this afternoon and headed back school to get sthg, then to tuition and home to slp again.
now then starting on my EE4103 test revision. for the one whole week of break, i felt i didnt do anything and now, its over.
lets hope i can make it thru tml's test, 25%.

upset, fedup!

just came back from kimage. extremely upset; almost broke down and cried on the spot.
they, as hairstylists, shld know how impt hair is, to any one person on earth! its one of the things that can make pple look and feel more confident.

decided to trim my hair and darken it to darker colour; closer to natural hair colour, the trim is, as usual, shorter than expected, worst, its still unbalanced! but its not as bad as the previous time.
you may wonder, since the stylist did such a bad cut the other time, why still patronise? i thot, just give him another chance but...
this time is not entirely his fault but he still has to be responsible. i must commend him as his skills, its gOod, just dont know why and what happened.
i decided to go back for rectification and i guess that shall be my last time to kimage.
my 1st impression was quite goOd. 2nd visit, alil' disappted and this time, the 3rd, ultimatum, no more of it! i dont mind paying abit more for the gOod cut and svc but apparently, the standards dropped time and time after each visit.

and i had enuff of the pple kept posting advertorial posts on the tagboard so i decided to change it! i had enuff!

im no saint afterall...

perhaps u will be reading this, perhaps not. nontheless im gg to penned down my feelings rite at this moment.
though i may seem reluctant to video conference u, i have no qualms in helping, cos u helped before and i know its not easy out there.
in fact, i most willing to help with nthg in return bcos of who u are.
call me inconsiderate, selfish, childish or immature, whatever.
you said i was always too tired or no time to talk to msn you. yes, i am trying to avoid u, reasons aside, this was y i asked for the email. like what i did previously, you must have been thru my position and i bet u know this time its tougher for me, given those tasks. though i did list down the stuff the other time u told me, but your ideas kept changing, who knows what.
you ought to know gimme instructions in the email or tell mum, at least she's able to remind me. next, im always at the dining table when the conversation was on, which was why i always ask her to ask u to say.. cos i am listening. alright, u didnt know but she cld always listen and fill me in. though sometimes she's alil forgetful, its really helpful for one more person to know. and now, thats the importance of a written note.
when i took time to listen, u didnt tell... okie my fault, i didnt ask.
y i didnt want to talk, cos i tink any written instruction is better than verbal ones. u write i see, i see le dont understand then ask.
there are times when u are overly concerned that u shouted at me. u realised it after that and apologise but when hurt its hurt, though the sincere apology cld lighten things.
for the insurance its really my fault, i ought to insure and i really thot of it. but then again, due to circumstances, i chose not to.

careless me...

have been rather careless today. went to ntuc to get sthg for rachel and just as i was choosing the sauces, the basket in my hand knockover the bottled oyster sauce and it broke on the floor. i waited for the staff to clean up and was ready to compensate for it, but the staff said no need to repay for the damaged. i guess i was lucky.

next week's the break and i suddenly felt that i had so much of revision i need to do but im still slacking away...

mind over body!

i decided.. i shld not snOoze my alarm anymore but for a start, i think i will cut down the number of snoOzing times from now on. at least for this morning, i managed to wake up and not be late! yeay!

went to meet my sup today after having lunch with tonglee at pgpr canteen and i was late.
this time, everything went quite smoothly and we only met for half an hour.
came home and tried out what he said, combine the graphs on the same plot but shucks, my graph is wrong... sianz. well, im gg to make the amendments before i forget and send him the plots and lets see what he will say... hehez

joy's bdae is not exactly joyful for her...

12sep is ruyi's bdae. counting back, we have known each other for more than 10yrs. ruyi, meijun and me were from the same primary school and we werent really on gOod terms then.
dont know why, thru vball and wanting, we got to know each other better, in between me and ruyi had some 'misunderstanding' happening, we werent talking that often anymore, i recall.
on my 17th birthday, she called and wished me happy birthday, that's when i was really touched and we started talking again. though in contact but she was busy with her bf then so there were still some distance. though we still contact once in a while now, but at least we felt closer, perhaps cos she is SAA now.

anw, met ruyi, wanting, benit and later junjie and eric. the four of us met first and initially was really boring, everyone kept sms-ing and me, no exceptions (cos everyone was doing that). later we decided benit got smses tOo. anw, in between, me wanting and benit were joking.

that night, ruyi's ex contacted her and yah, all the BGR stuff...

all the people ard me are kinda negative abt relationship, nonetheless, im still loOking forward to falling in lOve, for i believe! i hope they dont give up on love for i think its a wonderful thing to be in love! =D

just getting lazier...

i know i have tonnes of work to do but the goal seems so far.. or m i just getting tired.. getting sick of studying.. 15++yrs of studying.. with the recent 3++ varsity life the worst.. the most hated...
realised i learnt of a way to run away from reality.. run away from my responsiblity... that is, to sleep.. sometimes yes im truely tired.. but other times, i just dont feel like waking... perhaps it has become a habit.. =j

a day with the youths...

am i just old or do i see myself as the big sister with pple younger than me? or is it bcos all the friends around me are mature *at least to a certain level* in their thinking that i cld no longer find the michievious-ness in them when we were younger... it remind me of my secondary school days.. not that im the extremely bad girl but just the fun we had out of being mischievious... the days with june,eden,joy,benit and steph, zhiwen, yonghong and all the wei-ges...
now that we all have grown up.. still in contact but not as frequent anymore... the carefree days are gone.. most pple are working or still schooling.. worried abt money, future..blah blah blah..

anw, y m i ranting so much... *perhaps im really old* just went out with joseph and his friends today.. thot wld be awkward cos dont know them.. but i wanted to pass joseph his belated bdae pressie...anw, yah, things turned out to be gOod... though can mix and play ard with them but i got a feeling which is weird...i can sense the carefree-ness in them which i hardly find in me and my friends... but hey, they arent that young either just 1 or 2 years younger than me..
but coming back, im sure everyone has there own problems.. the trio sure has theirs.. perhaps just that i didnt see it..

overall rating of the day.. good to relive the carefree-ness feeling... but have been slacking too much..
another bad news... one of my best pals fell out of love le.. tOo many pple, in the mths have broke up with their other half...
sad for them... but still, i will loOk forward to falling in love! =)

yEllOw riBbOn!

just reached home @1am. was in school for the YRP forum-cum-concert night.
today marks the end of the Yellow Ribbon Week@NUS but it also marks the beginning of the Nationwide Yellow Ribbon Project!
was a speaker and panelist for today's programme, everything went well.. at least thats wat i was told.
met hendra just now, got my number and cracked a few jokes. recalled i act wanted to pass him sthg but it just slipped my mind. expected to see roy but he didnt turn up.
hmm, just time seeing alot of pple i have been liaising with, like edmund, singapore idol2 contestant paul twohill's bro, and angela. lastly, always thot joseph is a malay or indian, or at least thats the first impression when kailin mentioned the name, prob cos i had an indian/eurasian boy in my primary school class called joseph so it didnt cross my mind he's a chinese... and finally met him today. and in the end, he became my god brother. and so coincidentally his bdae is on 3sep, a day after my dad's.
hm.. shld get him a pressie bah.. but what shld i get ne?

yah, also met shennon today, at the event, im surprised though. she's doing her honours year tOo.. *so 了不起, i always think students who can do his/her honours, not including those direct honours ones, i tink they are damn superbly 厉害 - like lilian, she is also doing honours year.*
btw, today's event will be publicated in the Straits Times tml, under charity section. go and check it out! =D

tired le, gg to shower and sleep. finally can sleep long long liao.. *yawnz*

9hrs of sleep in the past 72hrs++~

havent got the time to blog since monday.. in fact, i havent got the time to slp also... i know i shldnt complain cos i tink sally is more a poor thing than me.. this girl, has to do real-time embedded with strict fyp supervision and 2001 together, and me, im only half hers... yes the real time embedded but my fyp sup is not as strict as hers *which i often wondered, is it good or bad?* and im not doing 2001... *sally girl, must jiayou orh!~*

this week has been exceptionally busy for me, stayed up on sunday night to prepare for fyp mtg with sup for the following day; monday to draft up some notice for YRP and tuesday to draft the YRP speech *yes, im giving a speech on my experience as a volunteer with KBC*; wednesday to compile the 4214 proposal + write on my learning responsibilities part and today, thurs, formatting/partitioning and ensuring my ext hdd which i just bought is functional.

went to comex after lessons with qianyi *comex commences today(thurs)*, always wanted to get an ext hdd so can backup my stuff... scared liao after my lappie hdd was dying when sch reopened this sem.
helped vel to buy one also. got home, rested a while before i start helping her to partition and check the disk, ensuring everything is okie.
the hdd i got was within my budget but i thot i wld spend lesser than the budget.. so ex.. pocket burnt. got a notebook cooling fan as well.. for ventilation.. meant to use it at home though.

yah, saw a few pple at comex, the boy that sold rachel the webcam, my mum's 小弟 and alan's sis. wanted to talk to the 小弟 but in the end i didnt, paiseh...

so in the end, i didnt have time to go lOok for dad's bdae pressie...

tml's a long day again and i havent practise my speech yet.. *arghhhz...* dont care just go sleep first, tml wake liao then 再打算... *im sure now its more than 72hrs and im still not slping yet!!!!*

CRP~

went for the CRP premodule session at KBC today.
when pple asked me "why do i volunteer?" for now, i really cant answer that..
then next, "y with the prisons?" in the past, i wld say its bcos i wanted to volunteer and conincidentally, the opportunity arose. and out of curiousity, about the life of an inmate + and life upon release. everything was so exciting.
the inmates always say learn sthg from us, the volunteers but actually, i tink is me learning somethings from them.
well, after today's session, i realised the curiousity is gone, but that doesnt mean i will just quit lidat.. i found a reason why... some or rather, most of them are repentant and we shld show them we accept them and by volunteering with the prisons, i just try to do my best to help.
talking abt today's crp session, i was very excited before the session but when we got into groups, i tink my grp's quite quiet, so abit discouraged. i try not to say im from nus, cos i dont know how they will feel. i just want them to feel that im sincere in befriending and helping them. it doesnt really matter what level of education they had, at least, to me.
i still rem what *diamond told me, he's appreciative of us, volunteers spending them with them when we can choose to spend the saturday afternoon in town, with friends, shopping. when he said that, deep down inside, im touched. i actually realised that all these lil' acts we nv thot it wld impact others that much, can impact them as well as myself so much! for that, it just keeps me going even when my grp's abit quiet. as long as im sincere, they sure can feel it.
to answer a common qn asked, "how are they like?" i wld say most of them at KBC is very talented, compose music and plays instruments, acts and draws! not only that, they are cOoks also.
i understand there is this social stigma on ex-offenders and its not going to change overnight or sOon...i just want to let all of u know, actually they are not as bad as what we thot like "all of them are baddies even after release", its not true. trust me, most of them are repentent and we shld give them a second chance. who doesnt make mistakes? just that theirs is probably most serious or that they got caught. people do change and grow, try to be more receptive/open abt them.

occupied...

the timetable has been rather slack but apart that, there seems so many things that i need to do, and im still way far from achieving those... like finishing the prescribe reading for fyp and doing tutorials and research for 4214 + preparing the speech and intro and for the interview on monday. *dont be mistaken its not a job interview* its some interview by the GuangXi TV station and since ms Yap asked me to help, i thot, y not?
i guess im gonna to sacrifice more sleeping time to complete them all before the weekend.
anw, happy, CRP is starting sOon, get to go to prison again to share my time with them. hm, YRP week also coming up sOon. next week. this event is open to all. and if u are free, drop by at nus lt13 on 1sep 6pm.

yah, tOok up an tuition assignment early this week. supposed to have lessons today but its cancelled last min cos my tutee wasnt feeling well. *hope she's better now*

thats the update for today.

some online tests again...

was blog-reading again and found this at weilin's site

Your dating personality profile: Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your date match profile: Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape. Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life. Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Athletic 2. Stylish 3. Liberal 4. Big-Hearted 5. Wealthy/Ambitious 6. Adventurous 7. Intellectual 8. Sensual 9. Practical 10. Religious

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Athletic 2. Big-Hearted 3. Outgoing 4. Religious 5. Wealthy/Ambitious 6. Stylish 7. Practical 8. Adventurous 9. Intellectual 10. Conservative

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

my comments: i wld say its quite true to a certain extent... hehez. =)

mixed feelings

havent been blogging for quite some time, in fact, i haven been online also.
my lappie's harddisk was dying and went to the IT cOop to change it. they had all the stuff pre-loaded in my new harddisk but i wasnt satisfied with some of the settings so i decided to format the HDD with my recovery disc. well, i knew i was going to make a mess, im always bad at installation stuff. indeed, i tink i overwrote the current windows XP OS on my lappie, not a clean installation, after seeking help, finally got it right... but just now when i startup my lappie, the time is so long leh.. its so worrying.
just hope my lappie wldnt crash halfway.. crucial year, fyp year... thinking of getting an external/portable harddisk to back up my data but no idea how to guage issit goOd or worth the money anot.. *haiz.. anyone can help me..?*

then this afternoOn, everything hit me like a tsunami, came so unexpectedly.. i felt so bad abt it.. i must say, the time, place and pple wasnt rite to break the news and i wished i cld rewind time and just break it to her anw... =s

meet-a-buddy session

met my buddy today.. its kinda like blind date, i dont know how she loOks like, i have no idea what she wore.. the only thing i told her was im wearing pink.
anw, my original plan was to bring her to bugis, simlim.. *thats where she wana go* then to the National Library *never stepped into there myself before* and then to the merlion park.
but after i met her, i was told she has been to the merlion park, so we changed the last venue to suntec.
at simlim, she bought her bluetooth adapter while i met ziyang... he was there to buy hard disk.. i also want to buy a portable hard disk drive leh... *anyone can gimme any recommendations*
then we went to the national library.. tall and spacious indeed.
lastly we headed to carrefour before home sweet homE! =)

interesting tests =)

guess i've mentioned before this bad habit i have... that is i prefer to do my stuff early in the morning or late at night. dont know why, prob its when there is not so much of distraction or less noisy or cos no one is in my way disturbing me... *which probably explains why im still awake now*

just finished writing my vip report 2 and decided to do some blog reading at others' blog before i start to backup my data on the lappie.

was at sh's blog, realise her bdae just passed, *time flies manz, i recalled i just wished her on her last bdae and so fast its one year* and also found sthg on her post... its interesting can try...

What Gender Is Your Brain?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatgenderisyourbrainquiz/

Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

How does Men see you?

Men See You As Understated

You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

How Do Men See You?

depression sinking in~

feeling really depress at this moment... how i wish i can talk to someone abt it.. but i got a feeling that everyone that is asking me how im doing is more curious than concern to know what happened.. just dont feel like chatting with them.. right now, just feel like telling them "can u guys stop being so kpo and leave me alone for a while?" *this is for those who are not genuinely concern, i can feel it! and thanks to those genuine ones, i felt ur sincerity tOo but pardon me, just dont feel like talking abt it...*
i just want a casual chat w/o pple asking me abt this abt that.. its tiring.. i wrote on my msn nick i dont feel like chatting cos tired, still got some pple coming to ask "u tired?" actually i feel like replying "isnt that obvious?"
i want to talk abt sthg that can help me 放松心情 lor..

i must say today is a good start. had home delivered breakie... *surprised* supposed to be 豆浆油条 but turned out to be macdonalds... *but i guess the sender wont be able to read this post anymore, gotta feeling he no longer frequent this page since he's so busy but overall, he is still 有心lah...*
went to the welcome tea, met alot of pple but decided to settle down with qy.
brought my lappie to schoOl to fix the wireless.. kinda regret not heeding ty's advise to dl the driver on my own, dont know what the comcenter pple did to my lappie.. haiz. plus in the end, i hafta fix everything by myself *of cos, with qy's help..thanks qy! =)*
also asked qy abt the sound my lappie's hdd is producing, she suggest i shld backup all my stuff.. its gg to die sOon.. *its alil' upset to hear but im glad she told me abt it* so shall start to backup my stuff tml, today's too tired.
after backing up, shall reformat the pc else starting up is so slow.. cant stand it.
stayed ard school in the lib to work on my vip report2. finally reached the conclusion after 3.5hrs of writing and paraphrasing...*i wonder if they will check for plagiarism?*
on my way home, saw huayi, have been bumping into him these days.. twice last friday at orchard and wdls, with his gf, and now, him, on train...
*oh yah, missed out 1 thing, andrew's back from cph, saw him today also..*=)

the mOon's round tonight... looked up as i walked home.. reminded me of him.. 他是否看到了这圆圆的月亮呢？... 第二次在向上望时，我想起了在丹麦的那段日子，想起了另一个人。。*aiyo, 也不知道为什么今天那么sentimental...?
我相信人与人之间都有一首属于他们、牵系着他们的主题曲。。。不管到哪里，只要听到这首歌就会令你想起对方。。。
今天心血来潮。。。一口气播放了好几首歌。。勾起了我对于好些人的回忆。。。

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finally strike off some tasks on the to-do list today.. still more to go..
had a conversation with rachel, glad to know she is doing well now.. =)

i shall start with my internship report and fyp reading.. sianz. =z

tired..

just came back from the airport. rachel left.
tired. thot i will feel energized enuff to clear up the mess on my table but just tOo sleepy. well, decided to take a rest and go to slp first, wake up then tidy the stuff.. and carry out my list of task as planned...

rachel's leaving..

rachel's leaving for japan... everyone's 紧张待发。。。yupz, btw, angelia and benjamin and their family came just now in the evening..
anw, yah, is talking to her now as i blog... i was telling her, 被遗忘在这里的人，时间就难过。。as in time passes quite slowly for those here, but for the one moving on into a new journey, time flies..
haha.. wld prob miss slping with her cos got the bed's still here... haha
anw, gtg and 准备 send her to the airport liao..
coming back, i shall 打扫 and 整理 my table.. and prob stop procrastinating and arrange the pics into my album..
=)

he's nervous, so m i.. haha

perhaps due to the coffee from monday, i didnt sleep a wink that night, then yest night, probably due to the excitment in going to meet him, i didnt sleep well also..
overslpt by abit this morning, but still made it in time to his office @ i2r, institute for infocomm research.
tOok a cab from clementi and the uncle was so friendly he denies being an DOM... dirty old man, that is. cos he says he likes talking to young girls.. cos he got no daughter... *its lame lah.. uncle*
anw, the person i've been talking abt is my fyp sup. quite a nice guy but i tink i fall below his expectations... cos i haven done any modules on the related stuff..
i think today's meeting is a very nice start.. we talked abt each other's expectations, frequency of meetings and he suggested i read some bOoks on digital comm..
was quite nervous but i tink everything went well.. except for some communication error cos we were tOo nervous, haha.
went to the lib to get the bOok, not the latest edition though, cos the latest one is in the RBR shelf...
i cant wait to get down on reading my bOok but my table's still in a mess.. lOoking at my schedule, i tink the only time i can tidy it is on sunday, after sending off rachel.. and perhaps then, i wld have time to arrange my photographs.. stOpped for quite some time since i started my internship..
target to complete my internship report by end of this end and get it cleared n endorse so i can submit it...

last but not least, happie birthdays to all the aUgust babies..
to him, on 1st
to him, on 2nd
to him, on 3rd
to him, on 4th
to him, on 6th
to himS, on 8th
to him, on 30th
=)

its my day!

suppose to accompany rachel to get her farewell gift but in the end, she cant decide what to get and instead, i bought 2 bags, 1 for schoOl use + 1 for shOpping use.. bought a jacket for gior junior as well.. ohoh.. its mEeeEe again...

emailed my fyp sup to arrange for a meeting, didnt expect his reply to be so friendly. he may be a friendly nice guy afterall...

=)

its time.. cArE n shAre timE

went for the iscos youth wing appreciation tea and met alot of familiar faces.. ex-boys of KBC and the CRP volunteers. its at the teenage challenge cafe at sin ming plaza.

then went for family dinner, sorta farewell dinner for rachel. went to the bottle tree village there to take pics.. then went to CWP to shop. the original plan was to drop all of them home then me n vel go shopping then in the end, all of us went together.

vel is shopping for clothes but she didnt find what she like. the most unexpected thing is i bought the denim pants for informal wear...

last day of internship...

its has been exactly one week since my last post.
today is the last day of my internship. i must say its a rather fulfilling time i have here.. having learnt VBA and Macromedia Dreamweaver n fireworks. happy moments as well. hm, of cos not forgetting those high tension times...

went for lunch, all 8 of us... tony asked me to sit beside him.. haha.. as expectedly.. anw, he was quite nice lah. the dim sum was serve in 8pics each then when he knew i didnt like the veggie one, he tOok my share n gave up his siew mai. he says, here we share what we have... hehez.

at the end of the day, he welcomed me to visit the company or even join the company when i graduated... but seriously, he is a nice boss *not forgetting his humour*

forgo-ing the student council gathering went playing billard with ziyang n thomas...
didnt turn up at the ktv session also cos i knew he wasnt gg to turn up then abit pointless... =)

decided! frustrated..

last night, made an impt decision. finally decided. its time.

today gota eat the 爱心早餐 prepared by aunlung's gf. taste great! mayo with pepper.

morning was gOod, it was until late nOon i began to dread the day, frustrated with myself.
went to esplanade with haojie after the billard session with my cOlleagues. all these programmes are not part of the plans... thot of heading straight for home right after work but god knows.. *sighz*
anw, now im home sweet home.
thanks to my mind power *a game we played in office* ziyang can get home.. hehez *but i guess w/o it, he can still get home cos got one thing call NRIC mah.. *

=)

1st billard session

went to play billard with my colleagues @ Marina Square. first time in my life though.
very bad at aiming.. but its a nice game.

anw, its the time of the year again.. to bid for modules... CORS... module planning again! *sighz*

my 1st Sari...

its a shOpping day!
set off for chinatown, pple's park to accompany rachel to buy her beady stuff and that tOok the whole nOon.. had our lunch at 3plus and continue the "crafty" shOpping after that.

headed for sim lim sq to get the webcam and SDcard. gOod sales service i must say.
then went to near the tekka mall there *lil' india* to get sari. met the nice indian shopkeeper who told us where to find cheap and nice saris.

went to the first shop. it was nice but still alil' ex. but the service is goOd.
then we proceeded to the second store. rachel wanted to but almost closing time so they are chasing us out... nonetheless, we still made a purchase.
its funny huh.. they want to close on the dot. unlike chinese businessmen, if u have business, close abit later also okie..
anw, at the second shop, they recommended us to go to another shop. we went and that's where i got my sari.
again, in this shop, they re-enacted the same episode of wanting to close on time. and rushed us to make our purchase.

its abit tiring.. went home and tested the webcam. realised its acting quite funny so decided to make an exchange tml. then 顺便 go to the tailor to sew up our sari.

PitstOp & FYP

yeay! im finally going to one board games cafe.. and its pitstop!
yupz, went with merina, sally, chris, sengfang, weilin n yng yng.
pitstop's at boat quay there and needless to say, im the first to reach raffles place. after meeting chris and sengfang, we headed straight to the cafe and who knows, we waited like 40plus mins before everyone was here..
so paiseh, the 3 of us just sat there. but there was interesting entertainment. chris and me, gossiping abt the guy who bOoked the balcony just for him and her gf, celebrating the gf's bdae.
sally was the last to reach and told us that FYP result is out..
we had a great time and had alot of laughter. happy moments!

anw, got my first choice, its a i2r project. went to the ece staff directory to check, didnt find my sup's name there.. so went to google it. found out that he's a adjunct assistant prof. *"what's ADJUNCT? and y he so special, got this post..?" was the first thots...* went to dictionary.com to check out the meaning... here it goes... Attached to a faculty or staff in a temporary or auxiliary capacity: an adjunct professor of history.
guess he's a newbie and my worst fears are he doesnt have experience and dont know how to guide me in doing the proj. and i hope he proves my fears are undue...

nus yellow ribbon project meeting

decided to help out in the NUS yellow ribbon project (YRP) for the yellow ribbon week.. giving ex-offenders a chance to turn over a new leaf, so went for the meeting/ briefing today...
anw, the meeting was at 8pm so i decided to join aunlung, ziyang and thomas to marina sq and see them play billard. sharon *aunlung's gf* was there tOo. my first impression still holds, a very friendly girl.

forgot to drop by creative shop to buy the stik-on skins.. though its available for sale online but i thot its better to make the purchase at the store.

then at the meeting, met alot of nus pple.. none of which i know.. then my job was finalised, helped out on the 'tree'... this nus YRP is a 1 whole week event with the last day staging a performance. more info will be provided once things are finalised.

was abt 11plus when i reached marsiling and met up with joy and eden again. went to 166 there.. had my dinner.. and chatted for a while. as usual, the crazy me, and them, all because the void decks didnt have litterbins.. i had to carry all the rubbish up the cab.. but its sthg for us to laugh so its worth it!

tired.. dont know tml can wake up anot... after consecutively sleeping late for days..

Germany won!

well, even though its the 3rd place, i feel that Germany is truly a winner! at least they hasnt give up and fought for it.
its a real pity that they couldnt get thru to the finals match in berlin.

was really tired, just woke up.
went to do community service yest, selling collar pins at the National Stadium. yest's show is a rehearsal but its for families of the participants to watch as well..
it was sure tiring, under the hot sun, selling flags. prior that, we were walking around, looking for the assembly point.
met a few pple, alvin, peishi and xiuxian. well, most unexpectedly is to see xiu xian there, on duty. its been years, probably the last time we shld meet is either on the day i collected my Olvls results or earlier.

this year's celebration is like the usual. but this time, the difference is, i got a seat at the grandstand area, next to where the MPs and the president usually sit. the show looks definitely more njoyable and the fireworks *though no high level fireworks is involved* looks more spectacular cos its just facing me!
for other times, im usually seated next to the choir or by the rounded sides..
but the one thing i missed, was the red lions *parachuting* + the parade where the military ppl march in.. only in time to catch the march off...

watching it this year is quite meaningful cos its the last time before they close down the stadium to renovate or sthg~...
National Stadium, didnt have much feelings abt it until 2001 when i was one of the participants at the parade. really missed those days... running ard, singing the medleys and...