cOmmEnts...

was expecting comments on my hair... *be it good or bad cos mummy & sis-s(plural) told me it wasnt nice due to the 'recoil' effect*
anw, just as expected, the guys say its not nice... looks very mature... in another words, auntie.
well, wasnt reali upset about it since i expected it and sometimes i think so tOo... hehez =) nvm about others' comment but some asked *even mary, papilio's boss asked*,"wah, your hair so long, you 'she de' arh?"...
heez... 'you(3) she(3) bi(4) you(3) de(2)' mah... besides hair will grow long one mah... keeping all these in mind made it not so regret my decision to cut it short.

the main reason is that i needed a new look... to change sthg in my life...
but right now, im stiLL as unmotivated... =|

a nEw lOok!

i cUt my hAiR!!
had the EE2005 test today. thot the test was manageable but had some mental block during the test, thot i had got the correct ans but in the end, after a check, i realised i had been wrong.
went to papilio alone to cut my hair. made an appt with Henry since Kris is no longer there (went back to m'sia to deliver baby) but still, waited for 45mins before i get to see him *expected that*
dont know if i shld cut it reali short or just trim so i left it to Henry. i knew that cos my hair is very long and heavy, cutting it short wld mean the hair wld curl in all sorts of direction, making it very untidy. so henry suggested i cut it to alil' below shoulder length.
was quite excited about the new look. it took 2 hours to cut the hair, by the time i finished, it was about 7+.
mummy called to tell me she n daddy is at Bugis and told her i was at Bugis toO so we met up and went home together.

crossrOadS...

was in school doing revision today when i suddenly lost the motivation to study...
the lib wasnt as packed as it used to be during study-break times....
the feeling is back...
im beginning to regret my decision... no! i have long started to regret this decision... one with no turning back...
taking on computer engineering in nus is a choice i always doubted since i started the course...
there were encouragement for me to persist... yes, these encouragement kept me going and i thot it cld sustain me for 4 years but it was there to stay only for a while...
what im going thru at this phase is totally not wat i expected out of this course or my university life... losing interest in the work im dealing with everyday... always rushing to meet one deadline after another... with no time to really digest what's going on thus, making the work lose meaning in itself... how m i going to face them for the coming 2 years... m i really able to sustain myself? im no longer confident neither optimistic about it...
i need to find a direction, a goal and a meaning in the work i m doing before i can carry on for the rest of the journey, i dont want to just follow the flow blindly...
at this pt in time, i can only say i m exhuasted...
maybe i just need a break from the tight and busy schedules/workload from schooL...
anw, no worries about it... just hear me lament & i'll find a heal to myself...

lost again

when i woke up this morning to do the run, i thot i wld win today's battle... yes, i did, i won sleepiness ....
but as the night creeps slowly, i realise the feeling is coming back... the same old feeling...

finally did it!

have been wanting to wake up early to go jogging but havent been successful, finally today i managed to do it after few days of procrastinating... *i just hate to leave the bed before 12+ in the noon, pig me... i know that*
also on and off, managed to do some 20+ sit-ups altogether...
used to be able to do it all at one go in no effort during school days... but since after A levels, haven been exercising regularly so...
i reallie hate it, why nus got no vball as a leisure sport and why no PE lessons...
humph... cant stand it, got alil' tummy liao... sianz...

lOst bAttLe

as i took the journey home from my tutee's place, i saw alot of people... for the 1st time, standing in the midst of the crowd, i feel so low confidence in myself...
everyday is a battle against sthg, i guess in today's battle, i lost to confidence...
i began to wonder why. i realise its not all in a day thing but my confidence level started dropping alil' day by day before this...
how can i regain it... i dont know but one thing for sure, the battle continues...

regrets...

just heard a story... with an ending which im not too sure if its good or bad... and im supposed to keep my mum shut abt it if not sthg will happen to me... *anw, no worries, the secret is safe with me*
anw, after learning that im having a heavy workload for this sem, arpan sent me a link to a music clip titled 'i want a fat babe' to help me chill, then the next minute we are into the topic of falling in love *to me, fallin' in love is one of the greatest thing to happen in life!* then to the concept of LOVE. *sighz*
conclusion reached: you wont know what LOVE means/is til it comes and regrets are the hardest things to let go in life....

exactly ten days....

*hooOoooh* havent been blogging for ten days... was a pretty busy chinese new year holidays for me... not that i've been busy collecting angbaos but was taking time to learn how to program in tasm language. *sianz, another programming module*
hmm...updated abit on wats going on...
went to the temples and pray *for those born in the year of rats must go 'bai-bai' cos this yr we 'fan tai-sui'* then go 'bai nian' til quite late on the 1st day of chinese new year and in view of the stack of work to be completed and the deadlines to be met right after the holies, i decided to stay at home on the 2nd day... forgoing some visits to my relatives' place... read the tasm textbk while at home, then in the late noon, my auntie *mum's side* came and yeahz, we are going to the 3rd auntie's 'tze-cha' stall in west coast. if going there then i want to go... cos get to eat dinner over at the stall... heez *glutton me...*
school starts on the 3rd day and unfortunately cannot skip cos friday's a tutorial day...
got home after lessons to 'pop some work from my stack' or 'dequeue some work from the queue' watever you call that... *haha*
my 'gan mei-mei' came over to our house, she's only 2 years old, but very funny... on her own, she can laugh at the slightest thing.... very fun to be with but i hardly see her... cos no time to visit her...
over the weekend slack abit then pop some work again...
monday... its v-day... stayed at home *dont be surprised!, dont know why pple are surprised to hear that* tried doing my asm proj... slpt at 4+
tuesdays skipped the engrg pro lect, slp til late noon then wake up... my uncle's wife gave birth then everyone started calling at our house... i asked mum:" you gave birth arh... y every1 calls here?" i laughed...
mum bought a device that can hold and sterilise the milk bottles for my uncle. now with technology, so different from in the past pple need to boil milk bottles in hot water. next time i also wanna buy one... hehez
for the past 2-3 days have been slping at 4+ to rush proj deadlines.... gek1030, ee2007 *lucky i finished the ee2008 assgmt earlier-involving maths, my fav*
yest was the deadline for ee2007...finally a night where i can slp peacefully... at 1st lost, then junyong taught me... but dont know why cannot get the right output then he helped me locate the problem...for about 2 hours...junyong sent me his proj to compare where is wrong then realised mine is almost same as his, dont know if the GA will penalise anot.... anw, was desperate, asked tianyao to help me also, then both of them found where the problem lies... so clever of them... *thankew guys!*
nearly went home right after the discussions ended, forgot to submit my ee2008 assgmt, luckily, last min i recalled... dont know why also, it just came to my mind all of a sudden but 'heng arh' can rem if not die....
so tired, fell aslp on the train and this time, i missed my station, oppz. woke up after yck, took the other direction back at bishan... since amk nidta take escalators, very 'mafan'... then it started to rain...rained even heavier when i alighted at semb *sianz, if i havent missed the stop, then i wld be at home, wont be drenched*
so tired now... going to take a nap after this then pop my work again... mid-term break starts tml... to next thurs... gonna be a week of revision and popping of work... *sianz, friday's tutorial classes as usual*

wasted trip...

wanted to be a 'guai guai' student, went to attend the engrg pro lect this morning. who knows, the lecturer nv come... *wah... sianz, waste my time*
luckily met chinmay, yr3 senior who just came back from dtu denmark... luckily i was compensated for... by speaking to him about his encounter at dtu and stuff...
*anw, just recall that there is a schedule given for engrg pro when i reached home... it was stated on the schedule that today no lect... so it was carelessness on my part to overlook the schedule... haiz*
then on my way home, this lady came up to me, asked me to lend her my phone... *i was playing snake coming to ard 600+ points liao* she said her phone cannot on, i was quite tired and blur... then i 'bu xiao xin' started another new game while telling her i cant... *humph, i wanted to continue the game*
as i was thinking of whether to reject her anot, i thot of the crimewatch thingy...and thot if she needs to use the phone urgently she can always use public phone so i turn her down promptly...

happie chinese new year...eve!

woke up early this morning to do some work... fell aslp last nite and if i dont catch up i'll be behind others... esp for EE2007 *yucks i hate this module*
gg for engrg pro lect later... on a chinese new year eve..
yeahz, later eat 'tuan yuan fan' ~ reunion dinner liao... *yippie*
here, i wish all... *yes, you... the one reading my blog now... its nobody but you!*
happy chinese new year eve! &
advance happie chinese new year
~ may you have a safe and prosperous year!

factory girL...

decided to make some 'spring roll' with pork floss inside... *dunoe wat you call that* so started making on my own from 2 to i tink 6 plus *cant rem exactly the time i finished*... thot was easy and fast but didnt expect it to be so tiring... like a factory girl mass-producing the products lidat...
the idea of making it came as we haven been doing this for quite some time... used to do it when i was small...
feel so delighted when completed, wanted to bring to school and share with my frens but it came out to be so lil' that if i shared it, then during cny cannot treat the guest liao.. so didnt bring to school... only passed some to sharon as promised....

last min shopping

went shopping with mom last sunday... initially just wanted to go cwp to buy new shoes but unexpectedly, i saw some pretty pretty new year clothes so bought them anw. wah, cost me a bomb... but once in a year, still not so bad...
still short of the bottom to go with the top i bought so wanted to go ps and heeren *cos often see in mag, heeren got alot of nice nice shops*, in hope of finding a suitable bottom and accessories... but too bad cant find it... went to lafon to get my earrings and bought a bottom from there hoping it will go with the top *desperate liao*.
was at far east when i saw this top quite nice, but i tink quite alot of ppl buying it. anw, since i like it so i bought it... time's running out liao... was supposed to get benny's bdae present and meet ying n gary at 6.30pm at orchard... but 6.15 liao... still at far east lookin' for my that bottom...
wanted to buy benny a mizuno sling bag but we cldnt find world of sports at orchard... so we turn to proj shop, got him the hip sling bag... quite nice... me and sharon quite like it too...
instead we met up with ying n gary at about 7++pm... reached benny's condo... *not exactly his* anw, there's was another grp celebrating the bdae too... the bbq was rite beside the pool, so as expected, benny was thrown inside the pool but after that, no more liao... was expecting more fun like flour egg or sthg lidat... wow, first time i noe benny noes chongqing from yes 93.3fm...yes the DJ... seems quite close too... anw, lastly, hope benny like out present... =)
met zhijian at benny's place toO..."zhenyao leh?" was my 1st qn to him... haha... *this is a qn we asked each other every time... an old joke of ours...* was puzzled y he was there so i asked him, so he told me about his class and benny's rite beside each other...*our classes goes by number s1...s13* so i joked about me being s3... naturally more concern about s1/s2 than the 'hou mian's' class like s6/s7 etc... wah, zhijian was stunned... he mentioned a few names but all i have no recollection of... we went back to the joke of zhenyao and i discovered his lil' secret... his 'an lian de dui xiang' haha.... but too bad... no chance for time-being... *jiayou bah, zhijian*

the birthdays...

its angelia's birthday today! its bennys 21st birthday today too... such a coincidence lor...
wanted to call benny and wish him happy birthday but hor i think his phone got sthg wrong... auto reject my call and i cant rx his call from my phone...
anw, went to the biz canteen during break for the gek lecture, by chance saw benny and my fellow juniors... so we exchange greetings and i stayed a while and chat wif benny...
wanted to call angelia today but it slipped my mind... by the time i recall, it was like 11+ liao... guess they have slpt le...

totally slacked...

well, decided to skip school today... was supposed to have a lect on engrg professonalism and have some proj discussion after that... but decided it was time to have some break for myself...
sometimes, the thot of having to travel to school for an hour to attend a two hour lect and spend another one hour to travel back is really sianz....
was hoping this lecturer wld webcast his lect like last week's lecturer but he didnt.... later to realise he actually is against webcasting his lectures... looks like i have to 'guai guai' attend his lectures for the following weeks...