what are friends REALLY for...?

went to bed at around 9.45+ coming to 10pm.
god knows, she called at ard 10.30, ringing more than 3 times at night, if someone hasnt pick up the phone... *pls cancel the call unless i asked you to call to wake me up or if there's an emergency* i had to answer the call, tell her "yeah im sleeping" then went back to bed... but by that time i cldnt get to slp anymore...
with the wound in pain and cant getting into sleep, i became very emotional unstable... hating the caller to let it ring more than 3 times, hating why no1 picked up the phone before me, hating why i cant get back to sleep...
so it led me to thinking... my friends upon learning that i've been hospitalised sent me well-wishing msges, and i reallie do appreciate that... but actuallie deep down inside me, i expected my closer friends *perhaps they dont treat me as one but at least i do* to ring me and find out how im doing *but of cos not to kick a big fuss over it and obviously not those kpo-kind of asking "eh, what happened huh, tell me leh, tell me leh..." that kind* however i received NONE...
i was just wondering, had i have to wait till im reallie on the brink of dying then they wld care to ask... i dont know...
tossing and turning in bed... i cldnt slp... i on-ed my mobile *usu i switch it off when i go to bEd* and saw sharon's msg to meet at 6 at orchard today... i was really in foul mood, upset.... by the fact i cldnt slp and the fact that they didnt care...
i thot... if they had at least called me to ask my condition, they shld have found out i have difficulties moving around... so it is really not a good idea to go Orchard esp its new year's eve... very crowded... and having gone thru a minor surgery, im supposed to abstain from seafood and stuff... what can i eat there... fishball noodles maybe... haah.
the selfish devil in me appeared: why issit that always other pple's birthday we accomodate to the birthday girl's/boy's needs, placing priorities on them, and why when it's my turn, its always me accomodating to their needs... their priorities before mine...
back to reality... i understand that they need to work and have other commitments but it seems like 'celebrating' my birthday has became a formality, a responsibility to them... nOoOo i really dont want that! celebrate my birthday only if you sincerely hope tO...
so after i replied sharon that im not gg...only then she got anxious and gave me the 1st call ever since she learnt the news of me discharging... i rejected her calls cos like i said i wasnt ready... i wld blast at anyone im gg to talk to on the phone... *cos its the phone call that caused me my slp*
i asked her... what are we gg to do in orchard... she didnt answer my question.. she was probably too angry cos i used caps in the text msg... but she replied... "call me when you feel better... in any case, im not the one who makes you angry..."
my reply was thats why i dont want to answer her call cos i dont want to blast at her... *i noe this maybe childish of me... but i reallie didnt expect her reaction to be lidat...*
i cried again... what really are friends for... to lend you a shoulder when you are crying... wanted to call somebody to talk to... but i looked thru my phone book... no1 cld lend me hers/his...
i recall my secondary school days when guowei, zhanwei we all wld always do sthg on xmas n new year's eve *includes celebrating my birthday and staying out til my birthday that day then we go home...*... be it sthg fun, sthg silly... we always do it... and i cld sense the sincerity in them but times changed... we moved on...
there was a year when i had my birthday celebration... there was quite a number of pple present but over a quarter of them wasnt reallie interested in the celebration... they were there cos of the counting down...and maybe 'give others face' just came down to join in... i wasnt reallie happy cos like i've said... celebrate my birthday with sincerity... i sensed none but only in a few... i broke down and cried... and i had to tell them i was too happy that's why i cried... in fact i was very sad...
from that year onwards, i actuallie stopped telling pple when's my birthday... cos so what?... i dont want them to go countdown then 'shun bian' after that can celebrate...
i guess what i reallie wanted was simply a birthday celebration on the actual day where everyone sincerely is there for me and truely njoy themselves in the process... and not because of 'hey, its her birthday... then xxx came bcos xx asked, not that xxx sincerely wanted too...'
to end this entry on a lighter note, i reallie hope my friendship with sharon hasnt soured..

hospitalised...

was admitted to hospital yest morning... *worry not, im feeling better now!* well, this is my 2nd time admitting to a hospital, however to kkh * my birthplace* was the 1st time... *you know, i thot my 1st visit there wld be when i go there to give birth hehez...there goes my first time*
my very 1st experience staying in the hospital was at ttsh's cdc, that time was admitted due to dengue fever, this time to kkh was because of infection...
comparing both stays, i actuallie preferred the one at cdc *though they always had to poke the needle to take blood and examine my blood platelets count* cos the env there very quiet, had no problem slping peacefully throughout the night. the nurses wont disturb me slping in the night at least... *my family feels its too eerie there & across the block that im staying, i think its where the aids patients stay*
had problems sleeping thru'out the nite, & moving my legs... so cant toss and turn, felt numbness in my upper body becos of that... waken up twice in the night becos of this numbness... anw, i was waken up a few times thru'out the nite, the nurse wanted to take my temperature. took some time to go to slp then waken up again... to take temperature every 3 hourly, at 12/3/6am.
during the night, the patient behind me switched on her lights, making it so bright in the dark dark ward... so un-comfy... had to press the bell to ask the nurse to ask the patient to switch it off...then i can slp...
dawn time, the docs came to do the routine checks... then the nurses helped me removed the gauze.. went to the pharmacy to get my medicine... after i came back... i was told i can be discharged! yeah! the nurse came, to pass me my mCs n stuff... also the pharmacist, pass me my medicine...
there i go.... home sweet homE!

anOthEr day & story bEginS...

haiz... slpt at 3+ in the morning but was once again waken up by my dad to have breakfast...
had to give him 'face' so i 'guai guai de' rise & shine then had my breakfast...
i guess if i dont give him some 'face' then next time want him to buy breakfast for me he also dont want...

was sorting out my timetable for next sem, checking out wat are the modules i can read also...
afterwhich met weilin on msn, had a lil' chat...

spent the evening with snoopy... guess he knew i wasnt feeling too good so he was pretty 'guai' today also... at least he didnt poo so many times in a day like on other days...

ard 9+, xxx msged me, he wld sometimes sms me to find out how i'm doing but for the past few times i was pretty bz so we didnt get to catch up much with each other... but he kind of told me sthg... which i tink i took it pretty well... didnt want to hurt his feelings neither make things difficult...
well... eventually we came to a conclusion... a conclusion that we both was satisfied with...

heard another bedtime story, this time a romantic one, on why 2 people interlock their lil' finger when they are making promises...

my bEdtime stOry...& thE unExpeCtEd conversatiOnS...

as promised, i was delivered my bedtime story but abit not on time orh... *sighz...considered a belated xmas 'gift'*
the story took about an hour or so...
though i cld guess the answer to that story... cos of the story's lead character prince pig... but it was an entertaining one... *i must say the story leading to the answer is abit lame since i noe the answer liao*
come to know that the storyteller took 3 days to think of the story, im abit surprised... why, you may ask... i dont know... nv expect the storyteller to put in so many days of thinking or you can call that effort in thinking...
and yeah... im expecting more stories...
later learnt that the names of the female characters were named after me... so touched!

was chatting with lye seng *here you go, writing you in my blog* in msn... i guess that's the longest conversation we had in my chat history with him... at one point of time, we actuallie run out of things to tok... *thats wat im afraid of & happening in most of my chat conversations...* but he came up with a very 'brilliant' idea... each of us take turns to ask one another questions... in the end, it spurred on more conversations... there were times i 'copied' his qns & he 'copied' my answers... *lye seng, 'copying' answers is call cheating but not 'copying' questions, hehez*
in the end, always end up its his turn to ask... *cos i ran out of qns to ask...or rather i was lazy* haha...
anw, hope to hear from you later... *hope you will get good grades k*

was chatting with hanqiang too... think this is the longest chat we had in the holies... njoyed it tOo!

later on, tianyao came online too... at such late hour but at last, we had a decent chat since the exams started i guess...*gosh, that's been some time* but i really appreciate it...

spEciaL chriStmas giFtS!

today's christmas...
wanted to sleep past 3 o'clock so i wld not wait before the computer...wait for 3 o'clock to come...but my dad woke me up at 12noon... my dog poo-ed n ate his own poo-poo twice... making the whole cage very dirty...
dragged my feet all the way to the cage... scolded snoopy for eating his poo-poo. then looking at the cage, filled with shit.. i knew i had to wash his paws...i carried him all the way to the bathroom, turn on the water sprayed at his paws ...wah... all the 'da bian' particles hidden within the paws all being washed out...
decided to bath him instead...*have neither learn it nor done it before* so i sprayed water over him... shampoo him n rinse him...towel-ed him. done...not yet! still gotta clear his cage. *leaving the cleaning to my sister,it's her duty!* ~done! *my 1st xmas surprise, from snoopy*
then i kept myself occupied by watching tv...since today is xmas.. channel8 got more tv progs.
3.12pm... decided to log on to the net to check my results...*my 2nd xmas gift, from nUS*
haiz... caps dropped again... but glad that i no need to repeat modules...
next sem must jiayou lor... =)
my 3rd 'gift' is the bedtime story i look forward to...

xmas eve cleaning...

for these few days, have been trying to get up early in the morning to clean & tidy my study table *it has been in a mess since my exams ended* however due to sleeping late... only got to do it today... *at last*
dont know why, i actuallie njoy cleaning up the place when no1's around in the house... njoy the quietNess...taking my time... no1's there to 'obstruct' me...
thot this morning will be the same cos mum's out in the morning, thot i can quietly do some cleaning of my study area...who knows... dad's home toO... its xmas eve so he dont need to go to work...
he made some simple breakfast with eggs n white bread... after that he did his own stuff while i carry on with my cleaning after savouring the breakfast he made. *though simple but nice, dad i njoyed it!*
actuallie sharon & i thot of making simple dishes. *she wanna make western food & me, scramble eggS* she thot of having a simple partie party on xmas day but she hasnt get back to me...*think shld b no more liao...* but i still want to go ahead to try to make some dishes... so now looking for recipes...
was chatting with benit on msn...he reminded my birthiE is near... no longer 1+...but starts with 2 le... but i replied him... "im forever young" haha... *he must be thinking: puUUuiIIii, knS...*
haiz...later still hafta go ECP for the band gathering... i hate going to ecp alONe... not accessible *unlEss u drivE* + i dont noe how to go also...*siaNz*

5.09pm~in the end, i decided not to go...
-=wanted to create another entry for today but think just add in here...=-

sleepless night

cldnt sleep yest night...just dont understand why sometimes i say "no" but the inside of me, i so much wanted to say "yes"...?
still tinking about the tang yuan thingy... cldnt sleep...
then thot of the past where the situation is also lidat... i answered 'no' when i actually meant 'yes'... probably becos of pride or watsoever reasons i cldnt bring myself to say it...
wondered wat will the outcomes be, will they be different? yes, probably it will, maybe a happier me at that time but will i be leading a different life if i said 'yes' on those ocassions? or will i end up where im today? i wondered.

replied to some1's msg at 3+ in the morning but that person was slping & i tink i woke him up, im reallie sorrie, i didnt meant it. thot that person will only read the msg in the morning when he wakes up but who knows...
felt reallie bad abt disturbing him but gradually i felt too tired to think of other things... i fell aslp.

sharOn... its yOu again!

went out with sharon to bugis today after her work. we both was early. our 1st stop, again its at kelly & peishan's workplace... went again to see the watch i previously want to buy... since kelly is now at the pushcart so i thot of buying it from her but too bad think no more white liao also she n peishan both in charge of earrings... so i dreadfully approached xxx *shall nt be named here* wah seh, her attitude damn poor lor... thot of exerting my status as a customer to tell her off *the bosses were there too* but i thot since kelly, peishan n me noes her then so i forget it... even sharon can sense her poor attitude...*angry*
accompanied sharon to OG's Giordano...she's hesitating whether to buy the pink or white pants... after a walk thru the whole building she haven decide on which to buy n finally after a second try she decides to buy the white one. a very cute young saleslady told her must take note of some things when washing so i jokefully said to her...:"yah, thanks for telling her cos this girl dont have brains she wont noe...haha" sharon didnt reallie say anythg but she beat me... *very painful leh sharon*
after paying, we went back to the same saleslady *its sharon's hobby* - no lah not wat u are tinking of, she like guys not girls...hehe to ask for their carrier *she likes collecting paperbags* the 1st thing i said to her:"she's back to haunt you..." she was abit shocked cos we called her from her behind. before we left i told her...:"better pray she's not coming back..." we all laughed n said goodbye..*cos she knew we were joking*
after we left OG, i told my mum wld like the carrier also & urged sharon to go back but sharon said:"you asked her to pray we are not gg back & you want to go back now...?" then we moved on to bugis village...
saw the skirt i wana buy but its another color, though its cheaper than shops at far east & edge but its the last piece & the auntie refused to gimme further discount so i walked away...
the skirt *with the color that i want* is reallie nice lor... *haiz not fated to own that skirt*
later after dinner went back to find kelly they all & she suggested i go up to the shop and buy from her colleagues instead so i went. finally bought the watch...at discounted price also... if i had known, i wldnt go to xxx, lucky i nv 'qiu(2)' her to get the stock from upstairs.
homme sweeeet homee...both of us was tired...left my pouch in sharon's back...
saw lingyen on my way back...act i didnt recognise her let alone see her *she looks more 'gao(1) gui(4)' now lor... not like the lil' girl i've known* she was the one who called me when i was abt to alight lor... after that called huping to tell her cos the other day she said she saw lingyen too... *so excited*
reached yishun & sharon alighted...when the door was about to closed, i suddenly remember my pouch is still with sharon, dashed out of the train n call out for her... when she hand me the pouch, the doors closed & then suddenly opened...*yeahz, wont need to wait for the next train* quickly boarded the train & went home...

cynthia & levin were home too... went thru the photos cynthia brought in, 'wow' the pics are nicely taken & the sceneries also quite good!

today's 'dong(1) zhi(4)' so my mum made 'tang(1) yuan(2)' & i told her to save the handmade ones for me cos i dont like the readily-made ones available at the market but in the end she forgotten & left me one handmade & one readily made...*very disappointed cos once a year and i haven eat any of it this morning* though she did offer to make some for me but i turn it down... i didnt want to trouble her *anw, i was thinking even if i said no & she went ahead to make some more for me i wld still eat it lor cos i really want to eat lor...so disappointed when i say no she reallie didnt make* - didnt feel like toking to her... but later i also feel bad cos she meant well yet i still so hostile so i decided to take the initiative to tok to her... why... why did i say no when i mean yes...?

yeahz! finally...

finally can link the photos n song to my blog!!!
wanted to change the text colors to sthg more easier to read but lazy n no idea what colors to change to also...
hehez... thanks to weilin aka erioL...without you... i wont be able to make the changes...

thankew!!

gOsippy gAtherIng...

before meeting regine lishan & huiping, went back to Bugis to make an exchange...
finally got sthg i was satisfied with...kena 'suan' by the shop people cos when they 1st changed for me the bag still had other defects... it was like the 3rd or 4th bag den i got wat i was satisfied with...
went to find peishan for a while then left for Orchard. i was alil' earlier than 4.30pm & they were all late... but cannot blame huiping she rushed from lessons to Orchard... was to Scotts Shopping Centre's foodcourt. found a good seat n settled down.... started exchanging news about each other... reminiscing our past in sec sch... how playful we were...
i spilled my drink accidentally, wet alil' of my jeans n huiping's...*she was sitting beside me, so sorrie caroL...* it was then we decided to move ourselves quietly to the table just next to us after making the mess...
chatted n had our dinner there til 8.30++... under the pressure from the 'yindu ren' surrounding us we left. we moved to Wheelock Place's KFC... without realising time was passing very fast, we chatted til 10++ before making the move...
didnt expect to stay out just doing only the talking til so late but i guess... its the nature of girls... tend to tok alot since we've got so much to share... from wat i see... they are all basking in happiness...
reached home, showered then called lilian... havent be talking to her for some time, chatted for a long while before i called bearbear jiayi to thank her for the xmas card... she didnt have much voice left so we hung up just alil' while later... called peishan to catch up with her on how she was doing... though i saw her these few days but haven got the chance to tok to her privately...
meeting her the following morning but it's 3+ & i haven slp....

wat a luck!

had tuition class today and met yilin after that to do shopping.
went to Bugis in hope of getting a bag and do some shopping for clothes... sometimes *if in luck may be able to find some cheap & good bargain over at Bugis Village*
was shopping at the Edge, expectedly saw Kelly at Lafon, saw a white color watch, quite nice n cheap, but i wasnt that kind of impulse buyer so i told Kelly i wld b back in a while while i decide if i really want it.
went to the pushcart area to look for lianlian, unexpectedly saw aijiao & peifen. *aijiao was one of the frens whom we went to Sentosa 2 wks ago, she's really good at vbaLL & peifen was my primary schoOl mate, also plays vball*
saw them & exchange a few words since they were working, we went off to Bugis Village. started to drizzle abit so we decided to head off to the temple to 'baibai' first... went back to Bugis Village, bought a bag... kind of guilty coz i didnt reallie bargain for the price & i wasnt sure if i reallie like the bag. i always lidat after making a impulsive buy. *humphx*
went back to Lafon to find Kelly but she wasnt ard instead her boss was so i thot maybe visited her another time...
we stayed at Mac for a chat & left the place at around 8++ coming to 9.

reachEd home... idle for a while before taking a shower, showed rachel my new bag n told her i didnt reallie like the bag leh...kinda regret buying afterwhich she realised the bag had sthg missing... *yucks, we did check after the last lesson but...*
2nd time liao, the other time bought a bag at the same store with yilin also got defect. now it happened again... i tink either cannot go that store or cannot go with yilin... haha
no choice. gotta make a trip back to the store to make an exchange... *sianz*

arGhhZzz i hatE it!!!!!!!

i just managed to fall aslp ard 5+ this morning n was planning to wake at ard 10.30am but i was called up by my brother at 9.30am... just to ask... "which is singapore's second reservoir...?" ArGhZzz... anyone noEs...?
the answer iS... lOwer piErce...
lying on bed...uner my blanket... cold gloOmy sunday... started getting emotional... tears rolled down my cheeks... started tinking about lotsa things... my siblings, n my ah-ma n my granny...
ah-ma n granny... i missed you so much...
sharon msged... we are meeting at 1.15pm instead of the time we arranged earlier on... i thot since i still have time y not listen to mayday's CD for once before getting a shower... since dad just went out...

y|ngS bElatEd bdaE cE|ebrat|on cum gathEring

dec 10 was yingying's birthday... i knew it but i deliberately dont msg her.
was planning on a surprise celebration a few hours ago...*on dec11* n i wanted her to tink that i forgotten all about her...
yupz, indeed she revealed she was surprised that i didnt msg her... hehez...
was at starhub centre and we were standing on her right but she didnt notice us... benny ba(4)ba(4) peiqi n me... but we surprised her by the birthday cake n song...
orchard on a saturday is really so crowded...cant even find a proper place to sit down n 'savour' the cake *that's what benny wanted to do*
finally settled down at cineleisure's yoshinoya... we chatted, joked, wait for peishan to join us after her work n then again sang the birthday song loudly and dirtied the place with the tasty chocolate cake... help cleaned up the table...
got to know *formally* ying's boyfriend... n another shocking bad news *which i shall not mention it here*
casually asked sharon if she wld be free *i was tinking she wld be pretty occupied by work n other sutff...* but she revealed she will be free on sunday... so we agreed to meet later to go shopping...hehez
travelled back with sharon peiqi n lianlian on the last train...
trying to get some sleep but somehow i cldnt... sthg was bothering me...

the old man...

was gg back to nus to hand in some forms and on my way...
@ wdls stn...
an old man boarded the train & starting talking to me... *i didnt tink he was not in his right mind* but just thot he was lonely n needed some1 to tok to... so i entertained him but he was toking so loudly that the whole cabin was staring at me... he was telling me he wanted to go hospital to visit his friend at outram park there...*so i assume is at SGH* and he showed me his ezlink card told me a story... n the story goes on....

12.45pm @ jurong east stn...
i told him he shld change the train n he replied: "this train *the train that we were on* will take him to where he wanna go..." haha... i repeatedly told him... "nono" but he said... "nvm... you alight first..." so okie i alighted...

at nus, i met this photocopying auntie... so angry at her... dont noe wat i wan still wan to offer help... in the end waste my money... politely asked her to go away she still stick ard.. so i packed up my stuff went to chinese lib to do the copying... *haiz*

last min, my auntie asked me to go watch angelia n benjamin's performance...Evergreen Primary Charity Concert at UCC... since i have nthg to do in the evening so i obliged...

after submiting the forms i went to redhill to repair my *beloved* calculator *new ones are no match for it* and on bouna vista stn... guess who i saw...?

2.10pm at Bouna Vista...
i saw the same old man earlier... but this time i dont see the red plastic bag he was holding earlier... yet his flyer still wasnt zipped *opps, didnt see anything at all*
so i thot to myself... perhaps he wanted to go NUH at bouna vista instead of SGH... anw, he was heading back in the jurong east direction...

reached Redhill... they didnt even asked me wats wrong just took my calculator to the technician...and mins later, they had my calculator repaired! YippiE~!!!
but i haven had lunch yet...

was watching the concert's rehearsal...suddenly reminded me of the good old days in band... *i wan to form an alumni...anyone???*

was helping the boys with their make-up, they are so funny... njoy their company man...
done with the make up, we went out the the main entrance...arh... guess who i saw...?
not the old man lah... i saw kelly... hehez... her sis also performing...

geting seated...
guess wat, i was sitting right beside jingwen *junhe's sister*...junhe is one of the boys performing and he looks so much like kennedy, the guy i knew from yj's play earlier this year...

the whole performance was marvellous! awesome! a total success! the students n teachers/ instructors were all smiling. =)

went back to the school together with the students by the bus the sch arranged...
wow.. it seems like i haven gone for excursion for quite some time... n the bus trip brought me back to those days... despite the late hours, the boys were cheering for the bus uncle so that they are the faster bus between the 2... it was only until we reached the wdls swimming pool bus 960 stopped us... n a series of red lights after that so in the end we lost...

reached home... tested my calculator n its spolit again... i tink they didnt noe where the problem was... *shortlived happiness*

MAYDAY rOckS!!!!

i know i haven made the wrong decision! this album is da bEst sO faR!
includes the vcd of their live-recording at japan... i replayed it twice n i know im gg to watch it again later in the day...hehez... now must listen to the cd liao... wow... so nice.. n touched by the songs lor...
yah...i agree with mayday... the best album up til now is THIS oNE! cOOL... the video was cOol n songS arE aWesomE!!!
MAYDAY really rOcks!
gg tO orh orh liao... g'nitez! =)

1st weEkend after exams...

arranged to meet benit to see the newlook of bishan's shopping mall today but when i was all ready n done, he told me he wasnt ready to go out... *fuming*
n looking at the weather, it seems its going to rain soon so i thot its either out i go now or stay at home... eventually i chosed to go out without him since im all ready...
i arrived at bishan... looking thru the msges in my inbox i saw daoyang's msg he sent yest... n it reminded me of another senior... so thot of dropping him a msg to find out how he have been since i haven seen him on campus for quite some time...
haha... turn out that i met him in orchard for a movie n dinner at cuppage...
we saw "christmas with the kranks" it was a funny show... *though most of the time when i visit the cinema for a show i cldnt really rem wat i've seen after it ended* but the most impt thing is that i noe i njoyed it very much.

finally...
finally bought the mayday's latest album!!! sOooOoo excited!!

n thanks *to that un-named* senior, i njoyed ya company today!! =)
now im gg to watch the vcd n listen to mayday's cd before i go orh orh... hehez

a sUnNy day @ sEntoSa...

was gg to meet peishan(aka lianlian) at 0915hrs at khatib station to go habourfront together but she was late.. din have enuff sleep yest nite so when 2 trains arrived n gone, i started to become impatient n thot im gg to 'tell' her off... *lianlian, u gotta be glad that sharon came along if not...* sharon helped ease the edginess in me... thanks sharon!
lianlian called when she was approaching the station so i told her we didnt wait for her and left first... i cld sense the disappointment... thot it wld b a surprise for her if she saw us at the platform but in the end, we din meet... she left on the coming train... n finally we met on yio chu kang platform...

at yck...
while waiting for the next coming train twd merina bay, i realised that ying is not joining us... *abit disappointed cos i thot she wld be meeting us at harbourfront* n that kelly's friends are also gg to be there... *im abit AS(anti-social) so ...*

at Sentosa...
i thot its gg to be just tanning n nthg... but eventually it turn out to be the most fulfilled day ever...
i joined in kelly's friends in playing volleyball after some tanning...
in between those games i also sat by the beach, njoy the breeze, boys (& occasional girls) -watching *but they are all so young* and played a game of frisbee... wow i must say that game of frisbee is very interesting toO! *i observed that girls are not very good frisbee players...hehez*

last vball game before me sharon n lianlian wash up n leave...
wow, the last game was awesome... thanks to all the players...
playing vball with kelly as the server is so exciting... =)

leaving...
lianlian wasnt feeling well probably due to fatigue + being in the sun + ... so get well soOn k...

lastly to all, the day was fUN with the presence of each n everyone of you... without any one of ya, the day just isnt gg to be the same anymore... thankEw!!!

last paper... so RELIEVED!

losing slp... 3am in the morning i cldnt sleep... tossing n turning i finally gone into dreamland to meet up with zhou gong's son... but before i realised it, its time to wake up...
had a nightmare... dreamt of overslping til 2pm for the 1pm paper...

at last, though i didnt finished the paper on time again but i was happy...
glad that its coming to an end! so relieved the moment i handed up the scripts...

the Singapore Idol final showdown...
i supported taufik n he won!!! *my dad supports sly so me n my sister said he's a beng cos of sly's fanbase the lians n bengs...hehez*

tml is the day...

tml is the last paper...n the singapore idol final showdown... *taufik you are my singapore idOL n matter wat the outcome is...*

sianz... thot of gg school to mug cos i noe i will nua at home... true enuff...
woke up late gave me a good excuse to skip gg school... slpt til 12noon, had lunch then thot of gg back to do the past yr papers but ended up on the bed til 7 in the evening... just in time to watch tv til 10pm...haha... surf the net til 1+ then told myself i shld start revision... but went to bed again instead...

signals...

the hardEst paper!

maybe i hadnt had enuff slp + had coffee in the morning *i always feel like puking if i had coffee without enuff slp + anxiety* i was trembling.. my legs felt weak, i was very nervous though i did study... my 'half' senior *he's a EE major but we are under ECE dept* tried to reduce my anxiety... he told me to bluff my way through but i told him my greatest fear was not knowing to do that...seems easy but its tough...
i had mental block in the hall... didnt complete the paper again n skipped a few parts here n there... though i heard from ppl the paper was tough but as i looked ard me during the exams... all of them are so busy writing...
one more paper to go...

nthg new...

i must say this paper was manageable actually but i flopped again... i missed 2 slides in the lecture notes on counters and there 25 marks gone... had no idea how to tackle the question cant even write a thing... i thot i cld at least secure 13 out of 25 if i read that 2 slides... *#%(`1*$4%^*
another 25 marks gone cos i dont noe how to realise that stupid thing using PLD...

again, having flunked my midterm test, i used most of my time to revise for this module but the outcome is not wat i have expected... i thot i shld be able to do most if not all...

used to laugh at ziyang for he seems like a part-time student now i tink i feel more like one...

cs disaster....

my worst nightmare... having failed the midterm badly... didnt do well for the labs n PE... i thot i cant afford to flop again for the finals... but it happened... cldnt finish... leaving lotsa blanks... n i simply flopped again... feeling so sianz at the thot of those elites in my class will surely do very well... *elites = federick n his cliques + more... *

welcome tea...

the mno paper in the morning was a disaster... i really regretted not reading the text... i thot the text was really helpful... 1st paper already not completed... its really a sApP!!! for me....

met up with sharon, ying n peishan after the morning paper, sharon n us parted ways at clementi mrt station... me n ying was going to the alumni welcome tea @ yj... *haojie was meeting us for lunch before gg back to yj* had asked peishan to join 'us' *with some other motives* for lunch but she declined.

on our way back to yishun we tok about the 'talk of the town' => the singapore idol and peishan supported sylvester and i commented on his fanbase are all ah lians n bengs *thats what the judges said* so i gave peishan an english name:: lianlian loh... hehez... *actually there's more than being the supporter of sly*

the welcome tea for yjc alumni...
i thot the 'new' VP was trying too hard to be friendly.
i was toking to heng yeu when she approached us trying to start a conversation by telling us we both seems familiar though we haven been under her tutelage... so heng yeu tried to be polite, went on to 'entertain' her and i just cldnt help being rude n said sthg like "are you sure?" to her... i think she must have really felt embarassed... so ignoring me she continued her conversation with heng yeu...
went on to say 'halo' to mrs low... she's back! time flies...
and then to 'pan lao shi'... she still rem me as the 'vase' at the play staged in the beginning of this year... *so happy*

the speech... the 'new' VP *i " " the word new cos she was a teacher in yj before being promoted to become a VP* gave a not-so-friendly speech... *in my opinion lah* she sounded very coercive... and ying's fren said she was biased cos she only mentioned nus throughout her whole speech...*not mentioning ntu n smu at all* hehez...

at the refreshment, i saw my p5 chinese teacher... coincidentally she was an old-girl of yj toO... n is pan lao shi's fren... + she is jiawen's sister... the world is so small... n she rems mE toO! hehez....

walking/running my dog... took snoopy for a walk around the neighbourhood before bringing him across the road to the spacious hardcourt... i loosen his leash and let him chase after him... the people at the hardcourt was filled with envy... though some children thot snoopy wld chase after them if they ran too... the answer is no... i believe he will chase only after me...haha... *how conceited im*
thot snoopy wld be thirsty so brought him home... cleaned his paws and so tired... my time to 'nua' liao... starting 'nua-ing' after tat....

strEssed!

thot of using 2 days to revise for my mno paper but because of doing that stupid cheatsheet for EE2012 module and this mno modules itself, im left with about one day to read the mno textbk... i hope i'll pull through for mno... the paper seems hard....

exams in one weeks' time...

wow... today's mno lecture is awesome.... get to see the videoclips of other groups for various tutorial classes...
til now i haven get a copy of my own group's video... *have to wait til sch reopens when i see zheying again...so dont ask me for it for the time being...*
thinking of it, i even missed the chance to view the other groups' video in my tutorial class during the presentation *all thanks to the stupid programming lab...stay up til 6am on that monday morning* thot of taking a one hour power nap before going for the presentation but ended up slping til 10am *my tutorial class starts at 10am on that monday morning*
was meeting my groupmates at 9.30am but i didnt showed up and they didnt bother to call me til the tutorial class starts... *nobody but myself to blame...*
well, forget it, that was like 2-3weeks ago... on the 18th oct... that fateful day...
my exams starting on next sat... but im still not prepared.... sianz...

nov 7th...

happy birthday benjamin...see i nv forget about you... even ask my mummy to ring you justa wish you happy birthday!
well, today is exactly 2 months since my parrot went missing... i doubt we can find it back... sianZ...
last CS assessed lab liao... must 'pia' for it!
*jiayou to myself*

yilin's bElatEd bdAe trEat!

bcos of the stupid programming lab, yilin's (my 'bestEst' friend cum buddy buddy) bdae slipped my mind... luckily i was meeting her for dinner today... so i decided to give her a surprised treat at Swensen's...
i forgotten today is a saturday...dinner time, though its full house at Swensen JPT, there's a empty table for 2 outside. but i thot the table was too small for me so i turned down the offer and decided to wait... then comes another staff... asked us the same qn again... then another...yes again...he asked the same thing... finally the last one kinda threatened us saying "its full hse now u gotta wait for some time..." but before that we were just told tt the waiting time is ard 10mins... i thot to myself..."who are u trying to bluff, want to coerce us into taking up that 2 seater out of desperation?' so i replied "i dont mind we can wait!" right at that time, somebody left and a table of 4 was available to us... we sat for an hour and half...chatted..blah blah blah...
then after that went to jurong point to window-shop for a while... guess wat...i saw weiping and his girlfriend, i supposed... the surprised look on his face... like i caught him doing bad things...haha
had an enjoyable dinner...minus the dessert which made us both so fuLL...
thanks ger!

what a day....

was lunching with christina at Engin today, saw a bird doing his business...
it reminded me of my parrot which was stolen on 7th sept 2004, tuesday...exactly 8 weeks ago...and i missed him... we talked about whom my parents had suspected to have stolen the bird and christina joked about how the parrot had asked the thief to bring him away instead...
after lunch was the signals tutorial where i have kinda been ridiculed by my classmates not once but twice in a less than 10 mins ...
*well, im the only girl in my class and mind you its nothing good at all...no company... nothing!*
the guys did apologise *cos they said i looked angry and was quiet...*
anw, i didnt feel angry about it, just a'lil upset and hurt...
the tutor came in at the right time, managed to hold back my tears *seems like im a crybaby huh but im not* and focused on the tutorial.
i really have to compliment my signals tutor... he's of chinese nationality and he's dedicated in teaching *though most of the time we dont understand his chim chim ideas* unlike those i have encountered in the past...
meeting my jc-mates later after class really made my day... we hardly see each other but just by seeing them provides me with enough warmth and comfort to pull through the day...

youngEr or eldEr...?

for the past few weeks rachel wld join me to study in school... friends who saw us commented tt we looked alike... *of cos there are others who dont find it so...okie acceptable*
some, on their 1st question will ask:"your sister?" *i presumed its asking 'ya elder sister' okie, acceptable too*
others: "your twin sister?" *not so bad*
my seniors: "your younger sister?" *sianz, not the 1st time!*
our speculations were... isit because she is skinnier n thats y... or really, i look more matured...? i have been mistaken to be the elder sister for more than once...
well... my 1st reponse was where or which part are we alike... they cldnt come up with the exact details of similarity but just said sth is so similar btn the 2 of us...the hair the backview... *but i thot if we look alike bcos of the hair then all the long hair girls will look alike and same applies for those short hair or those with moustache are my father, that kinda logic...agreE?*
are we really that alike *for those who have saw us before pls give comments*, personally i dont find it so... i rem when we lunched at Engin, there was this auntie she kept looking at me with her puzzled face...i bet she thot she saw doubles, rachel had just return to the table with a tray of food earlier on, she might have saw her and now she sees me with a tray on my way back too... or maybe i was wrong...perhaps i had sthg's on my face n tat explains the puzzled look on her face....

iNdUlgence in sElf-pity or emotioNal outLEt??

i enjoy watching Get Real! hosted by Diana Ser though im not a regular/loyal fan of it... i chanced upon 1 episode where they discussed about "Blogging".
i realise people 'blog' for so many reasons... of cos i wasnt inspired by it to start blogging cos like i've said before... blogging was sth i wanted to do even before watching the show. i took some time to tink about the reasons being discussed and wat are mine for doing so...
issit for me to indulge in self-pity and sink deeper into it like one blogger from the show suggested...
the answer is... maybe not so much of it... yeSss.. i think sometimes i do but most imptly, blogging for me serves as an emotional outlet; i just wanted to pen down any event i've encountered throughout the day which had triggered some emotions in me ... i guess not everyone is so free & patient to listen to my woes/ troubles and complaints everyday, even if they do, they will get tired of me soon... *i sensed it on some of my closer frens so i try not to bother them if possible* and im grateful to those who still spent their time listening to me... a BIG THANK YOU!

y |n+ErchAn9|n9L|vEs??

perhaps i shld explain why i used "interchANgiNglIvEs"...
as you might have observed... the letters in cap make up my name...
in addition i wanted a name that has got to do with "lifE"!
wanted to use "changinglife" but it was used by some other people... *_*
realised that the daily stuff that we are doing may be repetitve in nature:: slp, eat, work but its the details::the people we meet on our way make our day! perhaps what they deem as small acts can impact us so much and unnoticingly changes us gradually, only for us to realise it after some time.
interchanging...interchange...crossroads... our lives isnt mutually xclusive! that's wat i can conclude after so many maths lessons... heez~

fish's ntU cAmpUs cOncErt!

feeling so happy yet so guilty... went to watch fish's campus concert @ ntu...
reaching home to realise that i have a test the following day... which is tOmOlO... *opPS*
anw, the concert was great! + i saw some of my ex-schoolmates at ntu...peishi, xiaojing, serene and wenpin... he's still like before... never fail to see the smile on his face...
argHhz... i was tElling my friend why nUS dOnt hOld suCH cOncErts... whYYyyy...?

my 1sT t|mE!!!

hi there... this is my 1st entry... havE been contemplating on blogging....
finally, yes! finally its up!!!
anw, credits to the designer who made the coding easily understoOd so i could edit it without swEat... *the 1st one template tag i used wasnt that user-friendly...had a hard time*
commEnts on my bog plSss.... oh ya, i din want it to look so pinky but no choice... the colour is set to pink by the dEsigner and im lazy to change the settings though i could... im afraid i'll mess it up.
btw, i haven add in the commEnting part into the codingS... perhaPs u guyS cld leave a mSg on the tagBoard...
wilL add in photOs, player and refinE the layout/ work on the colours, etc... on thiS blOg bit by bit whEn i havE the tmE...

*smilEs*