Towards the end of 2015

Age it seems have finally caught up with me and I no longer enjoy long winded conversations and blabbers. Here are some records/ achievements unlocked since the last blog.

1. Building and working in my own startup now. Y5Buddy Singapore is doing alright, other products GABSYS not so satisfactory, buddynetwork and buddytravel are still in progress. Anyway, I'm planning to increase product range and revenue sources

2. Had been tirelessly practicing Brazilian Ju Jitsu and getting ready for KL competition in Jan 2016 as well as getting my blue belt. Weight dropped from almost 78kg in 2014 to 67kg in 2015. I still need to continuing cutting till 64kg for competition, got to work alot harder.

3, Just received the PAP district achievement award for my 6 years of contributions to the southwest district community.

4. Participated as election campaign assistant for 2 consecutive Singapore general elections with Jurong GRC garnering the highest vote counts this round. I guess my contribution played a small part

With great pleasure, I've managed to set myself new future goals since achieving my previous 12 years goal of completing my post grad degree in 2013;

a. Pivot my business towards the US by 2017

b. Move to Los Angeles California to continue my business startup

c. Start my Phd in a UC

d. Continue to practice BJJ with my blue belt in LA under Kron Gracie and visit Marcelo Garcia academy in New York

Dreams are far fetched as usual, will probably take an extended period of time and effort to make it a reality but since I've always been able to fulfill my dreams eventually, these ones wouldn't be any exception.

JAcky M Chua Nov 2015

New Horizon

Mid-2013, I've successfully completed my masters degree from NTU. It was quite a ride, as some would compare this exuberant rush to a skydiving experience. Now that i've safely planted my foot on the ground, I can't stop but feel a thirst for the ecstasy to continue. The intellectual challenge which forced potentials hidden within me, the endless possiblities, and most of all, the thrills of what those potential can bring. I've decided to go the final stretch in the most unlikely of scenerios, to pursue a Phd aka the final ascend to the summit of my personal achievement in studies.

In keeping up with my age and career progression, a decision was made to take up notable projects to improve my curriculum vitae thereby choosing my next project in organizing the 28th SouthEast Asian Games held in Singapore, June 2015.

As a tradition to drop notes for my future self, i'll briefly describe my current situation.

After completing my postgrad degree, I've satisfied my personal obession for academic regconition. I've accomplished what I've set out to do some 12 years ago. Although seemingly unnecessary, there are certain propositions in life that are merely self-fufilling prophecies.

I'll try my best to set new objectives in life and work towards them. If a girl does fall in place within the scope, I wouldn't reject the possiblities outright, but I highly doubt she will become a core component of my future plans.

So long for now bloggie. Hope to talk to you soon!

Still Jacky

Wow! Can't believe it's been 2 years since I last visited this blog. While reading back on previous entries, it struck me that I always had a girl in my mind when blogging in the past... Guess age has finally caught up with me.

This entry is all about me, not in a relationship with any girls nor any plans for one. Jacky Chua now age 30, currently fulfilling my dream of studying a masters degree in NTU Singapore, where my brother and best friends graduated from. Been a teacher, worked my way up to a manager's position in a corporation,played a part in the country's politics and now back to school to seek new adventures. I just hope life will be kind to me.... especially after reading this blog from the top.

Tonnes of friends and loads of activities kept me busy these years. Recently went to a wedding I've longed for with mixed feelings....

 " Although I treasure his friendship as well as that of his dear wife, also my good friend, I just hoped that they might somehow understand that it wasn't easy making it to their big day, no matter how healthy a front i tried to put up. I remembered staring at the glass of water on the dinner table the whole night, with my mind fluttering with images and heart thumping exuberantly. Always conscious about my emotions, I know that I re-ignited the dreaded situation which I have to overcome. By and by, I still miss them all alot, including their sweet sister who was once the love of my life. Just a fond piece of my life that will always be there but seldom revisited unless necessary "

 Many of my friends are getting married too! 2 most important being Jason and Shawn. Both got themselves beautiful brides with characters that came out of their "My future wife" compositions back in our teenage days. Melvin Lau got married with Ceilia after an extraordinary turn of events that seem like a joke to me but the amazing couple helped me believe in true love once more. Next up - Lee Yeow KOK! and Wendy... super looking forward to this one!

Everyone's working their so hard to make it in the real world, while my brother is stationed in the strangest location flying between Namibia and Zambia?!?! As for me, I'm kinda ticking off the to-do list from the day I left poly for the army. Its a promise I made to myself the night after my long conversation with jianwei before I enlisted.

 Going to Swiss (ticked), Graduating from Surrey Uni(done), being a teacher (been there), Studying in a local Uni(ticked), next.... :D gonna be a roller coaster ride!

 It's very taxing for me to work on social matters until I'm able to bounce back mentally. It's just a difficult time of my life again.. too much decisions to make too little time added with necessary blast from the past. I can't share this with anyone, 'cause no ones gonna be interested in knowing what lies within my hard shell.

 See you again soon bloggy! hope the next time it'd be a joyous occasion!

I'm but a little boat

I'm but a little boat in a storm that just can't be anchored, I'm but a little bird without legs that simply cant land. These are all rubbish excuses rambled out in the lights of possible commitments, building a safety shield to camoflouge my weakness with an image of an egoistic rebellious wanderer. The fact is, I'm emotionally weak and needs tender loving care.

All my girls were different, and I would like to have loved everyone of them as individuals not influence by the previous. Here are some recollection, before i start to forget them as the years go by....

S - Childhood friend, seems like the best girl in my entire life till 21. I'll never know what could have been if only i persisted.......

J - Interesting... She was so much more dilligent in the relationship category that I almost felt silly.I guess she was lustful for me, amen I never got eaten by this fox. Hahaha! congrats to her new born! you are still pretty as a mom, no doubt about that...

K - Wrong wrong wrong... never loved her, never felt love..it was all lust, well 1 of the best ever but still lust without love is like drinking a can of warm coke. Sooo tiring, so bored, so troubled, worst time of me life. Cant imagine I allowed her into my private life... Wrong all so wrong!!

E - Lucky for me it happened so fast, I couldnt react in time. If we did get tgether long enough to see her evil-ness, my life would have turned upside down. She looked so innocent at first sight...then slowly things turned so ugly, for inside this cute little thing lies an evil dark princess! scary....

K - I got raped :(

V - Never gave her a chance, great friends till this day but always asking the same old question..."why not her" hahah! She was just way over my league.. it would have been fun for a while but i'll lose a good friend.. Sorry.. it's well made decision not to start

N - Baby sister.. did i even love her before? an empty white paper for me to fill in the lines. Awesome experience for one who have never had a pure as snow relationship till then. I had a sweet time experiencing whatever i missed out during my teenage days, cool. Darn it! .. we simply couldn't communicate. It's like we are from different planets. God bless u r with someone from your planet now sista! Till we meet again.. live long and prosper~

J - College sweet heart, only love i knew thus far, thought she completed me. Was it my mistake or hers? She never came back from UK... never did. Rest was nothing but a whole load of wilfulness and stubborn ethics that hoped for the best which never came through... : (

J - A miraculous deja-vu. Felt so comfortable and felt so familiar. Guess we met at the right stage of our lives but wrong situation. I can see something about her that will satisfy my needs and wants in life. 1 step at a time... lets see what happens...

Jacky out for now....yawns... girls...........

Memories

It's quite incredible that I haven't updated this blog for exactly a year. Isn't it interesting that people only look back on their lives and try to find the wonderful memories after they have lost what they treasure most. Some try too hard to plan for the future and neglected the current, while I as a self proclaim history buff, should have continuoosly looked back and let my past teach me some lessons that I have convinently put aside.

I doubt anyone will be reading this blog anymore, so I guess I can write any rubbish I feel like rumbling.

As the previous entries showed how diffcult a process we've been through to get together, my dearest dearest Mole decided that she no longer have the deep love for her Toad.

Cryin....Brain block...... will continue laterz

The new Era - Positivity & Negativity

Back in Surrey!

Positivity: End of a gruelling n revealing holiday back to Singapore. BAck on track now, all steam ahead to get good results n get a job in London! Shall not let my brother down!

Positivity 2: Travelled back together with Janice, got upgraded to business class on our 2nd transit flight from Doha to London! IT WAS AMAZING! both of us had the opportunity to make toast with Champagne n Chardonnay for a new blissful, happy, lovely, romantic n lucky new year!

That leads me to...

Negativity: Dragging our luggages pass University court, looking up at the window i used to threw stones at .... a gush a bitter sweet sensation stinged our eyes red for a moment. No more throwing stones at Terrance's window n getting cursed.. No more callin him up to bullshit n relax, no more dinners with perry, edd n the whole gang. With him ard, life was so much easier n fun, but I guess I should be happy for him now that he is able to take care of the 2 ladies of his life instead of paying attention to silly me n his stubborn sista! haha! W/O him ard, there're so much more responsibilites I have to bear this time! but I will try my best to uphold my promises.

Anyway, Alpha male theory works only when there r 2 or more males ard... presently.. I'm the only bull with alot of work to do.

The new Era!

Promised MY 2 ladies that I'll work extra hard to get gd results n a gd job in UK. (Fingers crossed). Will be blogging more often now that I'm back..

VOTE PLEASE!

Which do u prefer?

My blog in diary style: With a record of my daily life n activities or more essays, thoughts n ponders?

Intellectual vs inner spirit

Sorry I havent updated my blog for quite a while now, mostly because I find my last entry very self -searching and hope to savour it for a bit longer.

Ok.. Now, when I talk about intellectual, its very obvious its about people with intelligence and IQ. One who speaks and write with vibrance, power and high command of language filled with a huge truck load of encylopedias worth of knowledge.

But when I talk about inner spirit? what comes to mind? religions? ghost? karma? or Nirvana?
If inner peace is your answer, I have to say its right! if u r a buddhist or one who seeks peace. What I'm referring to is much more than just peace, but what is deep inside. It could be anything, it could be heavenly yet it could be horriffic. A person who has murderous tendencies brought up in a church might look, act and speaks about GOD, but it is not the real him. A beast who thinks he is a sheep, will soon smell blood, its eyes turn red and its fangs will penetrate the flesh of his brothers, the sheeps he grew up with.

Now you must be asking, how are the two linked? n what m I trying to imply?

Well, all I want to state is a simple fact that "Don't just believe what you see and hear, theres more to a person that meets the eye"

I honestly believe that a person cant be transformed or programed totally to one so different from his origins. The power of knowledge and the emphasis on personifications in our modern society proves to be a deadly coverup for the beast.

Little red riding hood and the wolf in grandma's clothings is not just a bed time story or fairytale, it is a story written to warn little children not to believe what they see n know how to protect themselves. Sadly I have to say that the victims of the modern day story falls upon not just children but adults, who simply dont see the difference between a butcher with a bible n a professor with a cleaver.

Never judge a person by his packaging, look deeper, unwrap the covers, take a peek into his life and run as fast as your legs can bring you if you see .........HOMER SIMPSON~~~ DoHz!!!!!

~~The End~~~