Who am I?

I guess I am currently in the phase of searching for my identity, searching for meaning of life and even just understanding things from many perspective. There are many times when I have questions, but I chose not to ask because I was afraid I'll be judged. I hope I would step out of this fear and go ahead and ask. Because my worth is found in God, not in the opinion of others. I am so glad that I have so many angels in my life, popping questions that forces me to think about life. There is so much more I can do.. Let's start from now.. :)

Injustice

It breaks my heart to see my dearest friend being bullied, used and mentally+physically abused.

Bullied in the sense of having to cover colleagues' workload and completing her own work at the same time, yet, receiving only her own pay.

Used in the sense of knowing she was a helpful girl, they used words to make her stay in company to complete their undone work. Staying till as late as 12am? It sound ridiculous doesn't it?

Mentally + physically abused through all the bullying above, using words to make her feel that she has to do extra because of her incompetence when she was obviously doing more than what she can.


What is this? I deeply wonder how did the employer even have a good night sleep for mistreating someone like this for six months.


Lying to make her believe that that's the best pasture of grass she would ever find.



My heart hurts so much and yet I can't do anything much to help. Please God.. Show me how I can help.. And I want to show more patience and love as I lend her my pair of ears to lighten her burdens.

FP1 Trial Observation with Ema

Ended today pretty early because I started work at 7am. All the children were in their new year clothes!! All of them were looking so cute and makes me wanna squeeze their cheeks HAHAHA. 

Laoshi came up with the idea of having catwalk in class and all of them look so funny!! HAHA. Shared biscuits and cookies that all of them brought and they had a hard time eating lunch! HAHAH. Shirah received news that we would be having meeting at 1pm and hence they were on their mattress by 12pm+! HAHAH. SO EARLY. They usually lie down around 1pm+.. hahahah anw, because of the wrong info, Shirah suggested waking them earlier so that I could show Ema my interaction activity that I had planned. 

Guess what! Ema and Intan came over to K1 for their lunch and they bought ice-cream *SCREAMS* HAHAHAHA. The chocolate ice-cream tasted just nice and not too sweet! We then had a mini farewell for Tcr Azlin with the teachers and aunties at bay3 at 2.30pm. Initial plan was to wake them up at 2.30pm but we decided to join in the celebration and eat! EAT AGAIN. HAHA. 

After they were awake, I took over and I was feeling so nervous since it was the first time being supervised for my interactions with the kids!!! Thank God really that I had everything written down and somehow I was able to carry out and use the right words and rules with them! 

Good points: 

- Positive engagement 

~ Asking children to hold on even though children were calling for me HAHAHA. 

Gosh I can't forget that moment. I was talking to charlene or someone and this Kaitlynn wanted to show me her model... guess what she did! She kept calling Teacher Joy Teacher Joy nonstop!!! HAHAHAH. I was pretty amazed that she was patient enough to repeat for so long! HAHAHHA. But Ema said that I was patient to ask her to hold on too. HAHAHAH. 

- Laying rules and giving warnings

~V's table was pretty noisy as KH was unable to reach for the toys, but V was unhappy that he was unable to reach for the toys and started throwing toys. Quickly stopped him and explained to him and made him think in people's shoe. HAHAH. Positive interactions too! 

- Finding new toys to solve unexpected situation

~ I've always thought there were sufficient blocks for children but I was wrong today!!! It was not enough for 5 children! Quickly used another box of toys as substitute and even though I had to put them behind the shelves, I was able to move around all tables

- Allowing choices

~ Giving children choices after they are done with their work! HAHAHAHHA. That's a pretty good thing because they won't be around to disrupt the other children!!! 

- Recognising children's artwork

~ Constant praise and taking pictures for children

Things to improve: 

- Ensure sufficient materials

- Have better classroom management for transition because I just let them run off to the toilet. HAHAHAH. 

Ema said she thought it would be a challenge especially when I took all 15 children but she said I managed it well!! :) HAHAHA. PRESCHOOL TEACHER ARE FULL OF PRAISE EVEN WHEN YOU ACHEIVED A LITTLE THING! HAHAHAH. 

Because...

Little things are big things.. Big things are little things... ;) 

Demoralised.

I tried to help out Shirah for her motor skills lesson today but it didn't turn out as expected.


Half of the class that I handled were all over the place. Half of the kids I had weren't paying attention, some simply ignored my instructions and continued doing as they wish. Activities were able to carry out but it was all in a mess! :( Had to raise my voice and I felt so helpless during the lesson! :(


Times like this make me hesitant about being nice to the kiddos. Such thing wouldn't had happen if I drew the boundary with them.. Still............

Things to improve:
- Attention grabbers (11claps/ raising hands to show they're ready)
- Asking questions to allow children to participate
- Warnings to children
- Lower volume to grab children's attention
- Praise when children are paying attention/ following instructions


Things I've done well:
- Praises?!
- Activity got carried out
- Attention grabbers

Reasons why I'm fat

1) I eat when I am happy
2) I eat when I am sad
3) I eat when I am hungry
4) I am always hungry
5) I snack a lot throughout the day because I am hungry
6) I probably get by the day by eating




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Yeah, that's why I'm fat. HAHAHA

Plants craze

Fittonia Nerve Plant 

- Requires to maintain humid-like conditions (Rain forest condition)

- Well drained moist soil, water moderately

- Flourish with bright, indirect light (Low light may cause plants to revert to green) 

- May lead to root rot if overwater 

- Pest (aphids, mealybugs and thrips) 

Spider Plant

- Well drained soil, too soggy would lead to root rot.
- Bright and indirect light
- Cooler temperature
- Occasional pruning

Mother-in-law's Tongue 

- High light/full sun is best to keep the foliage full 

- Low light, root may rot and turn mushy and smelly

- Water the soil only with room temperature water

Distanced.

Every now and then.. I would be surprised when I see my Y1S1 friends having gatherings or even birthday celebration. It was not once nor twice, it was way more than that. The first thought that came to my mind was, "Woah? There's bday surprise?" and reading through their messages about how thankful they are for each other and staying around after so long.. And I wonder why they did not even bother dropping a message to ask. So I came to a conclusion that...


1) We have different mindset.
 - By "we", I meant Huixia and me? HAHAHA. Okay maybe just me. We don't meet up to chill by going for liquor, cigarettes, shisha and whatever that damages our body. And I definitely disliked the idea of "social smoke". LOL. Socialising through smoking. Sure you're socialising, and you're also damaging the body that God gave to you. You can't even love yourself, what more loving others..

- The amount of vulgarities........... For our body is the holy temple..... It's not a norm....


Can't think of any more things that set us apart.. I thought we could still stay in contact at least with Weehaw?


Well, life moves on any way. hahahahaha