❥lovelovelove;

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Pleasant surprises- what a way to start a new day! (:

You cheered me and shocked me totally, but I loved it. Hehh.

& Baby, we'll make this love last forever.

♥yours truly. 3:43 PM

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I just can't control my temper when you insist on certain things, esp when you stick to your point soo persistently that it makes my blood boil.

Who wouldn't wanna reach home as early as possible? To think that you still have the BRAINS to insist on asking me to do so when you KNOW that dance ends late is simply bullshit.

Hahaha. I just do not understand why you like to start cold wars every now and then when we're living under the same roof. For the past 18 years its been like that, and I thought that now that I'm a lil grown up, we would not quarrel at all since I'm rarely seen at home.

Thinking aback, I find it silly that I tear over all these darn arguments and disagreements in the past. How naive. How childish.!

Go back to HK. Gooo. I won't care. I won't miss although Mom will be dearly missed.

I wanted to start work by 9pm. But look at the time now-

♥yours truly. 8:45 PM

Accounting sucks- the project's no better.. Imagine having to read through the entire financial statements for both companies and having to analyse the various sections (when we don't even know WHAT parts should be thought abt) adds on to the workload.

And why on earth do we need to put on blazers for next week's presentation? ): I will seriously look like a friggin F.B.I la. Zzz

Last night's dance was fab! (: We managed to brush up some techniques on Samba and though taxing, we had fun and learnt quite a lot. Samba formation couldn't be better with the interesting moves & I spent a whole lot of time trying to catch the steps cus M&S were demonstrating them at a super quick rate; what's worse was that steps such as the Batucadas were not taught before and thus, we fumbled through. Haha. But yeah it was FUNN! :D

And oh! We went goodie-bag shopping for Fri's wow day this morning and had a great time at Giant IMM. Tehee. With the right company and entertainment, nothing could be better! (:

I'm wondering what my table topic will be. Bless me okie.

And can someone tell me when I shld go back to hk; I need to book my tickets soon.. ): 31st Aug? 6 Sept?

To Dearest: You are my sunshine too! ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
Loads of love!
XOXO

♥yours truly. 12:45 PM

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Talk abt traveling and I'll become Little Miss Chatterbox. :D

I was blog hopping this morning and came across a few posts whereby peeps went to countries such as Poland, Aussie, Swiss, Hk.. Somehow, viewing the pics and daily happenings of their travel diary makes me miss stepping out of Singapore. Not that its not a good place to live in- it's just boredom which conquers the mind. In fact, you can't possibly deny that SG's not a nice country to live in given the high level of security, cleanliness, garden-like surroundings etc. Well of course, the weather's beside the point.

The point is, its hard to not feel the temptation when you see the beautiful pics of the vast landscapes, the overwhelming scenery, the interesting monuments/statues and the azure blue sky of the various countries. If I had the ability to do so, I will re-visit The States once again and enjoy the chilly weather of California, pay Niagra falls a visit, go to Switzerland and witness the vast landscapes and majestic scenery, to Poland and look at the Concentration camps of the Jews in the past, walk the Great Wall of China; and the list goes on..

That's when I've a stable income and have earned enough to support myself/my family in future though. But yeah, I will want to fulfill the above wishes! (: Its been 5 years since I've travelled to SFO to visit my cousins and oh boy, I can still rmb the experience till today. Its just amazing to stand in front of the Golden Gate Bridge and with a house (Dad's friend) which is directly opposite it, what more can one ask for?

I was contemplating whether to return to HK this Sept ystd cus Mom raised a point that the Summer Sale would have been over by then since they'll be launching the Autumn fashion. This means that apparels wise, I wouldn't be able to shop much but I guess there're still many other accessories/bags which I can look for! But anyw, I'm going for sure. It's just the date which is unconfirmed.

And oh boy. JessicaAlba is sizzling HOT! (credits to yixin's lj)

Totally gorgeous, isn't she?

Sexayeeee (:

hello boy. you're missed (:

♥yours truly. 12:49 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

School has been super ultra tiring to the extent that EVERYONE is extremely sleep-deprived. Rushed like mad for pmkt project presentation on thurs night and all of us only turned in when the clock struck 5am.

How bad is that?

And to think that the freaking tutor was soo strict with her rules such as having max time of 20mins, deducting marks for talking when others were presenting, downgrading most of us just because we were late, SUCKS. She is seriously a pain in the ___ and I'm starting to wonder why we're so unlucky to have her as our advisor. So what if she can explain the concepts well..

Well anyw, the first session for bcomm's table topic is finally over and I guess mine was pretty okay since the topic was still manageable.. I'm just praying that my topic next week won't be one of those which are totally-alien.

We made our final trip down to the quays yesterday and mind you, it was the 7th time going there.. I know that its our choice to have gone down so many times because of undesirable circumstances but I still thank Andy Oh for giving us such a project when we're alr super packed with the rest. Sighhhh- its another 2more weeks before the project madness ends after which, it'll be hardcore mugging for the horrible exams.

Oh god. May this nightmare end soon. I want my freedom..

Oh ya- the friggin cem wow day proj is making our blood boil.. Please please THINK before you speak and don't make all of us dislike you. Mind you: We're NOT like what you claim we are ok. So pls f____ off k Miss. Thank you.

I feel super drifted from dance because life has been revolving ard projects and more projects to the extent that the mood to dance is put away. On a side note: we're not taking part in the BP comp alr because of some financial issues and time constraints.. I wonder when I'll get back on track cus I know we've been slacking too much. I want to improve...

Alright. Its 3pm and I gotta start work. Mind you, I slept till 1.45pm. ((:

Your support & encouragement mean the world to me. Thank you!

♥yours truly. 2:42 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

I can't wait for the hols to arrive. The sleepless nights and sleep-deprived situations are really making me go crazy!

I just dozed off in front of the lappie again while working on the exec summary. God. I feel like going on a hiatus.!

And I want to go on a shopping spree; I want my hk trip to arrive fast! I miss everything there so much.. so much that sometimes, I really wonder if I'll make the choice to stay/migrate back there when I'm 21. Haha.

But I knw that there'll be tons of things which I'll miss if I really were to return. Permanently. My dear, gfs, darlings, dance, school, the Singaporean culture,.. and the list goes on..

It's just that; everyone seems to be leaving SG. Kailyn, Des, Ken, maybe Mich darlin & Cheryl darlin too.. So this was what made me tear a few days ago when I was in a conv with darlin. 6months is long enough; so how am I supposed to make do w/o you in my life for 3-4years.. ):

And oh boy. I feel so distanced from everything except school work now. Even dance. All thanks to projects!

Sometimes, it's not abt the amount of time spent but rather, the quality of the given time. Though it was barely two hours, I enjoyed the ride home; esp. with the horrible person who popped up in the bus! I love you baby! (:

♥yours truly. 12:41 AM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Although life's been about projects and more projects, the people around me have never failed to make my day! Without them, school would really be oh-so-dreadful; credits to Shux, Ley, Aud and Est. (((:

Well today was pretty well-spent considering the fact that Est and I managed to 'complete' our parts for pmkt and the others did a fab job too, although it's still miles away to completion. But yea, I have to admit that we spent a whole lot of time dilly-dallying at J8 before heading over to Aud's place, and oh boy, girls really have serious mood changes. One moment its utter silence and before you actually know it, the atmosphere is filled with laughter, screams and noise! How amazing! And the 1hour+ of bus ride to J8 didn't fail to brighten up my day too. (: xoxo to you!

Overall, we had tons of fun today and yea baby, I'm lovin' you girls loads! Thank the horrible projects for bringing us tog. Hehehe. ((:

So anyw, we made our 5th trip to Clark/boat quay last night and THANK YOU SKY for raining. We were in the midst of snapping pics for crowd level and poof came the rain droplets! And yes. Our readings were affected, which means that we gotta make ANOTHER trip down again next sat and that'll sum the total amt of trips made to 7. Omg-

I think we can win the award for the most no. of trips made. Lol; And btw, our trip turned out to be a more of a chillin' trip instead of a proj investigation cus we went to Crazy Elephant and drank/chilled. =p Something hilarious happened but I shan't elaborate on it.. Then my face turned red after drinking a few sips of Long Island Iced Tea and Sex on the beach. Oh man. I really cant drink. Est was like a lobster by the time we reached the train station la. Heh.

And today I realised how damaging and how detrimental love can do to one.. Stay strong k Esther! We'll always be behind you and we love you! ((:

I really really really love love love you girls :DDDD

and of cos, i love you too !

♥yours truly. 11:46 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

It's been two years.. Two years since she left us and since the tragic happened. Well, some may argue that life and death are part and parcel of life since everyone has to leave us someday, sometime. It's just how we deal the the after-effect I suppose.

I'll never forget her effort in bringing me up. I'll never forget the hardwork she put in to teach me Hakka and inculcate moral values in me. I'll never forget those times she spoke up for me when my dad wanted to hit me with the cane; I'll never forget her kindness..

Seeing her with all those pipes around her body and sensing her shallow breathing, accompanied by the boney look upon being attacked by the numerous disease really made my heart swell.. I literally broke down when I saw her back in HK- the only one-day-zero-night trip I made till date because the hospital claimed that her last hours were arriving.. It turned out to be a 'false alarm' kinda thingy and she managed to pull through till July 18th.

The immediate effect wasn't that bad; rather it was the afterall effect which hurted quite an amt. And till today, I'm still remorseful that I didn't return to hk for the wake all thanks to my selfishness.

Sometimes, seeing kids enjoying the company of their grandparents makes me feel so envious.. And the regret goes deeper when I know that I didn't know how to cherish her in the past.. Now that she's gone, there's no way in which I'm able to make things up or express my gratitude to her.

I wanna tell her that I appreciate everything that she's done.
I wanna tell her that I'm sorry for all the attitude I've displayed.
I wanna tell her that she's been the world's greatest grandma.
I wanna tell her that..
I love her.

So you see, it's just the nature of us human beings- not cherishing things till we lose them and by the time we realise it, its already too late. Therefore, appreciate everything's happening right now and learn to cherish. Never think that you have forever to let someone know you love them, for that day may never come.. And today, I'd like to say:

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime. (:

I love you!

-to mom&dad(:
-to you(:
-to my gfs(:
-to my dance darlings(:
-to NPDS(:
-to my classmates/coursmates(:
-to my pj friends(:
-to my sec.sch buddies(:
-to my pri.sch mates(:
and everyone who've walked into my life..

-You'll always be a part of me. I'm part of you and definitely-

Anyw, it's once again Friday. In abt 3 wks time, the project nightmare's gonna be all over.. Hang in there everyone!

We're going Clark Quay again tmr night.
-faints-

always be my baby :)

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♥yours truly. 2:15 PM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

If you ask what I desire at this moment, don't be surprised to know that I just want a day's sleep/rest. Seriously, all those projects & assignments are killing our health and the fact is, year 2 life sucks.

There barely isn't any time for leisure. There isn't time to sleep. There isn't time to concentrate on dance. There isn't time for chilling & hanging out. There isn't time to spend with my darlings. There isn't time for us.

):

And thus I wish for the hols to arrive soonnnnn..

-

So our Samba routine is rawking more and more as weeks past and we learnt the Promenade Run on Tues. Was super blur when Melvin demonstrated the steps but luckily, the 'end product' turned out to be fine. Heh. (: And btw, KL comp has also been replaced by JB comp so looks like we can't afford to slacken although Nationals are over. This mounts down to the point on time mgt & maintaining a balance between Dance and Studies. I still can't seem to grasp this tactic till now..

Note: I think we can be awarded the group which has made the most no. of trips to Clark Quay for the LAM proj. Last night was our 4th visit and we're making 2 more trips down. Do consult us if you want a tour of Clark Quay in future okay! Heh =p
You're the sweetest, baby love.

♥yours truly. 8:14 AM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

I'm starting to get sick of Clark Quay & Boat Quay- so much for targetting them as future night life hangout places. Ha. Okay maybe not, cus the feeling of going there to check things out for a project & when you're there for pure leisure & enjoyment is very diff. And yeah, it's alr the 3rd time going down to the place, but 3 more trips have still gotta be made for the darn LAM assignment.

Help. We're all super tied up by all those friggin projects and time, on the other hand, is lacking greatly.

Here's what's to be done:
1) ~~Complete I&E PPT (urgent!)~~
2) ~~BCOM E-portfolio (urgent!)~~
3) LAM Proj continuation
4) Start PMKT Proj (urgent!)
5) ATRM Proj (kiv)
6) ~~ATRM tut (urgent!)~~
7) ~~CEM tut (urgent!)~~
8) PMKT tut

Omfgg. Today wasn't productive considering the amt of time spent on doing part of I&E, and because we enjoyed till 3am last night while celebrating Des's 20th, I really ought to do some catching up.

Die, mel, dieee.

But anyw, last night was well spent and bbq was fun! ((: It was great to release some stress and emotions during the singing part and although everyone was alr shagged by the time we left, I'm sure we had fun! Des, hope you had fun too yeah! Happy 20th birthday once again! :DD

This week's been a pretty bad week excluding ystd's celebration.. Moods swung, tempers flew, quarrels began and everything just didn't go well. I was alr pretty upset on Thurs and never did I think that you'll make my mood worse. Seriously, I wanted to just scream at your face and tell you to stop being so complacent but I didn't. I detest the fact that you think you're so good just because you won smthg.. Why have you become so complacent? WPlease don't let me lose hope, will you? ): People asked me how come you're not seen frequently and all, and you gave your reasons. Oh well-

Why must all issues arise when its the peak period of the semester.? It really really sucks ..

And sometimes I feel so dumb. There seem to be a million thoughts bottled up in me that I wanna just.. explode.

I gotta run- the clock's ticking!

Thankyou for always being there. (:

♥yours truly. 12:31 AM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Blame it on me for all you want. It's my fault that things turned this way.. It's me, me, & me. (points all 5 fingers to myself) Happy? (:

You think I wanted things to turn sour?
You think I wanted us to be like what we are today?
Don't you know how much I miss those times?
Don't you know how lovely those days were?
Dont you know how much I want us to remain as one forever?

I thought we could, seriously, I thought so.. But along the way, problems arose, issues grew, and its just impossible for us to stand strong as one anymore..

If you think I change, so be it. Since it's how you feel, I respect your stand. Whatever you wanna express/scold/say/utter, just do it openly okay. Anyw, just be aware that people do change. For better, for worse, it depends. In your case I guess I've changed for the worse.. But this is me. I'm sorry but I'll continue to live my life as it is now..

Then again, try thinking. Did you change too?

-A courtesy of yours truly- (:

to think that I actually teared upon reading it makes me feel really silly-

♥yours truly. 8:32 PM

I'm loving the Samba and it's sizzling hot! (:

In the midst of the piling school work and sardine-packed schedule, my passion never fails to spice up the day! We were given a series of new choreography for the Samba last night and I'm really digging it! Though the technical part of the dance is by far, the toughest among all 5 dances, its by far the nicest looking dance.

And yeah, I felt fab after a series of dancing. Discussed a lil on our future plans and targets but we're still pretty uncertain due to other constraints. Oh well, we shall see how things go.

So yesterday was a great day spent. From a pleasant gift from you to spending a great deal of time giggling with the girls at the library when we were supposed to be working on our PMKT proj (shucks!) to the lovely samba routine given at dance, things just can't be better. (: But yeah, today kinda sucked becus of some unpleasant stuffs in the morning and the fact that my nose was like a water tap the entire day made me feel super uncomfortable. Oh yea, we finally carried out out I&E event, which was mostly done my Tim's grp today. Though the no. of participants wasn't a lot, it was well-executed! Cheers!

And before I forget, we spent almost the entire day baking at Shux's place on Sunday when we were supposed to spend only 2 hours on cookies & the rest of the time on LAM proj. It turned out to be the other way round though.. Hahaha. It was a blast and thank you once again for all the help darlings! Love(:

The clock is ticking.The work load's piling.Yet I'm doing nothing. Die mel, die.

I'm so so dead. And boy, don't kill me for stressing myself out okay!

This was taken last Sat when the bite-size club reunited. Teheeeee (: Ignore those two okay. :x

The amount of cookies we baked- a courtesy of Esther, Ley, Aud, Shux and I. Hehehee :)

I think this arrangement's cool! Ha

Sweet.

Twins for the day! :D

~~wadever.~~

♥yours truly. 8:10 PM

Sunday, July 06, 2008

And so I figured that it's impossible to be happy always. You may be satisfied with smthg now but just when another concern pops up, the overall mood is affected.

I guess it's back to how I felt back then- not exactly helpless but kinda aimless with all the various restrictions. I'm just hoping that we'll cont to strive hard and if possible, be prepared enough for Aug's comp. With ATRM paper scheduled just one day before KL comp, I really don't know what to expect. Why can't exams just end earlier for goodness sake. Now we won't have much time to prac.. Oh well. Let's just see how things go.

Meanwhile, I'll cont to work hard and do my best. Bless me. (:

Academic wise, the following weeks are packed, and I mean packed with so many projects, assignments and deadlines to meet that I'm pretty blur abt everything. Oh god-

Although those who've graduated may beg to differ, the very fact that I want to express is I hate school. If not for my dearest gfs and dance darlings, I wouldn't have survived the past year successfully.

On a side note, I got a slight glimpse of Jorene ama today! Like finally. Saw her crossing the road when I was walking to the car with mommy. But she was too far to be called so I could only text her.. Missing her and the other PJ peeps loads.. ): Was chatting with Janice sweetheart ystd night and we realised that the last time we met was during scap bbq last June. Omg la. Meet up soon ppl! :D

Anyw, Kailyn left for further studies at Melbourne today and it'll prolly be some time till we meet again. Take care and study hard yeah! Have fun over at Aussie yeah! (:

If only I have the chance to travel overseas and get a degree in future- how nice will it be? I wanna travel to the oh-so-lovely cosmopolitan country where everyone aspires to be in- The States. Its been 5years since I've visited my cousins and I kinda miss them & the SFO Bay area. Uncle Old Man's casino in LA brings back memories too cus after all, its the first time travelling to US and it was really an experience.

Alrightey, time for bed cus tmr's a whole day of fun+proj ahead with the girls over at shux's! Much loves!

though you're not there physically, i know you'll always be there.. mentally and psychologically. (:

♥yours truly. 12:28 AM

Friday, July 04, 2008

A1- Like a rose

And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from God above
For me to love
To hold and idolise

And as I hold your body near
Ill see this month through to a year
And then forever on
Til life is gone
Ill keep your loving near

And now Ive finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
Theres something new
To keep our loving strong

I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
Of how youll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears

And now Ive finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You opened doors I closed
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You opened doors I closed
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

♥yours truly. 9:30 PM

Thursday, July 03, 2008

If there's just an additional day after Sunday, I'd like to take the chance to chill out with my darlings- to catch up, to spend time with them and to let them know how much I cherish them. In the midst of the hectic schedule, it will be nice if we're able to squeeze out a day to hang out tog. Though we still meet pretty often, I'm missing you girls a whole lot. (:

Shi Jiao, Michelle, Yvonne, Alicia, Sojini, Ping Ting, Cheryl Chong, Erin.

Life's been revolving so much around two major events: Dance and projects. Now that Dance Nationals are over, we only have the choice to focus on our studies & at the same time, start preparing for KL comp if possible. Oh god. Time seems pathetically short.. and July's really a horrible month that we gota survive. Hang in there everyone!

Managed to have a lil talk and catching up session with my darlin ystd and though short, I loved it. Laughed, joked and teased each other and talked abt certain long-term issues too. All in all, I love all the time I spend with her and I love her loads. I don't want her to be sad and I want her to be happy always. (: I love you darlin! Sept come quick lehhh, hehehehee.

Was pretty moody because of a few reasons the past few days but I'm feeling better alrdy. And I'm glad you're feeling better too. Teheee.

Once again,
the sweetness of your lips
Enchants me so miraculously.
Oh baby baby,
I love you. (:

♥yours truly. 1:18 PM

Here're some overdued pics from last week's Dance Nationals & Our Site inspection at Clark/Boat quay last Sunday. Enjoy eh! But here's a warning: there's a whole lot of them!

Audrey aka my sis aka my camwhore partner aka my gf. (:

It's alcohol baby!

We were in Harry's to gain shelter from the rain

Classic!

Camwhore fever!

My pillars of support. (: i love them all!

Shux and I with Heineken haha

he ever so cheeky esther mommy! (:

these got esther & i turn into red-face girls!

Hsuehmin! (:

smiles! :)

Chacha highlight. :))

I'm super happy abt this- 2nd in Tertiary Cha!

Ken da ge!

kungfu or?

FIGHT!

Bleeding love feat Ping Ting & Darren :D

In love, inlove, in loveeee

Aww.. sweet isn't it?

Check step;

Seduction? Ha

Tassles!

Cha highlight during team match;

Team match!

Mich darlin! Ain't she prettaye & sexayeee?

Group pic with Melvin&Sharon!

NP Dancesport- my love, my life. :D

We love you, teacher Sharon!! (:

Competitors getting ready head home after a long day..

♥yours truly. 12:39 PM

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

All thanks to the 'aftermath' of the tanning lotion, I'm starting to have doubts as to whether I should apply it again in future comps. Althou it makes you look nicer on the floor, the removal process is horrible. Yes I've been complaining abt how awful my skin is since Sun and there's still more to rant.

But to, I look like a person with skin problem now. Just look at my hands..

Anyw, I finally made a trip to the hairdresser today and my head feels much lighter now. So much for frequenting the place only after 4 months.. And I chopped my nails too. (: Neat neat.

July was recalled to be a super horrible month as of 2oo7, and I'm expecting hell to be coming up in the next 29 days because of all the proj deadlines and the fact that exam's nearing once again. CT results are mostly known and I'm disappointed. There's such a huge diff btwn my prev results and the latter. So can someone pls tell me how to obtain a good GPA in yr 2? I need advice. :/

Today's dance lesson was the slackest after months of hardwork for NTU comp. Learnt a tiny part of our Samba routine and I'm digging it! (: Though there's bound to be countless changes coming the way, I'm sure that things will be sorted out asap. And when Melvin mentioned abt prep for KL comp, I know that time isn't on our side.. Mood wasn't fantastic for the day, partly bcus of the huge pile of schwork awaiting to be attended to, the unclear path relating to dance since we're unsure of how we're gonna improve if we stop lessons for the time being. And blahh;

Ok I'm off to bed. Goodnight peeps!

it hurts.. gws, will ya?

♥yours truly. 1:27 AM