The weather's madly insane these days. Once you step out of an air-conditioned room, it feels as though you're trapped in a burning oven. Imagine that!

Pin even mentioned that it was friggin 40deg last Sunday. And the heat and humidity is kinda making me feel restless, frustrated & sleepy and they aren't improving the situation of being off-focused. ):

Wake up mel! It's alr the third week of school and I'm still in a daze. The holiday mood's vanished but the mind's just not concentrating. Where's the focus?

So yes, I was finally brought back to reality when the projects and assignments started making their way to us. Tentatively, here's what's waiting for us:

Fri 2/5: Bcomm trial grp presentation
Fri 2/5: Pmkt tutorial 2
Next week: CEM, LAM, ATRM tutorials
Next week: ATRM graded class assignment; test
May 29th: Bcomm long report due
June 2nd: LAM individual assignment due
Other projects (unknown dates of submission): ATRM, LAM, CEM, PMKT, I&E EM

Omfg. Kill me please. My brain just isn't in the mood for projects now and dance was unusually tiring last night with our lesson ending near 11. You'll be seeing dark eye circles around my eyes soon due to the lack of sleep. Bless me! ((:

And before I forget,
HAPPY SWEET 18th BIRTHDAY TO PRIS & YANBING! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TEACHER MELVIN! :D

Let's all have fun tmr night! ((:

itsaweektogobeforeiturnLEGAL! Though MOS's illegal for me tonight, next fri's definitely not a prob! (: i cant wait!

Sidetracking a lil, this song reminds me of pj and I really miss pj.. It's been a year since I visited college, six months since I last saw the scappers/councilors and even longer since I saw my classmates. Boo hoo. When will we ever meet up again? Everyone's busy prep for As and the poly peeps are tied up with projects. ):

& in your eyes, i see the greatest light

♥yours truly. 7:55 PM

[edited]

Please be more understanding mel; reasons do stand at times although we may find them hard to believe. I just hope history wouldn't repeat itself. It can't, it hasn't and it won't.

And I don't feel right. Moody? Perhaps. The bunch of rowdy year 1s who're sitting beside us are not making things better by uttering a whole lot of friggin vulgarities. Omfg la.

~*
I almost died doing ATRM again. The qn totally got me seeing stars. Freak; Can someone tell me how I'm gonna pass this darn module.. Anyw, I'm trying my best not to get stressed out in both dance and studies. But I haven't even read my project briefs? Ha. Good luck mel.

보고싶어.. .

♥yours truly. 4:03 PM

Tonight's perhaps the most productive practice ever since we partnered. (: Also, I'm kinda glad that our cha's finally starting to look shaped after some hardwork. At least its a lil better than before ehh? Ha. (:

And I was such a dumbo during lesson today. For some reason, I couldnt do a 3-step turn properly and kept turning out before hopping a few steps to grab onto Tin. It's super embarrassing cus it looked damn awful and unglam. But nevertheless, I'm so gonna perfect that! :DD

So the whole of today had been allocated to dance and as a result, my tutorials are all undone. Good Job mel. Thank God Sunday's home day for me although time has been pretty much insufficient since school started. Boo hoo;

Sidetracking a lil, 9 May's fast approaching and I can't wait to go Mambo/phuture @ Zouk! With the right company and clique, I'm sure its gona be an experience! Yayness! ((:

More time.

♥yours truly. 12:59 AM

Talked. Discussed. Poured our feelings & thoughts out.

And I feel a whole lot better. Maybe that's the thing which has been bothering me all these while. Thank God for giving me the courage to do so.

And thank you too, for your patience, your time and your continuous devotion. It's greatly appreciated.

Time will tell everything. (:

So anyway, school's being more of a pain with the boring tutors and super horrible modules. Met our pmkt tutor today and omfg; her ego is ____ and her perfume is friggin strong. Bless us for having such a tutor.

Then there's also the problem of atrm. It's still unsolved cus I havent got the mood, nor is time on my side. Help?

Tmr's Sat, which means that it'll be dance for 3/4 of the day. Let's not make the actions speak louder than words phenomenon occur like it always do and prac really hard alrights! Go NP!

its amazing . (:

♥yours truly. 9:33 PM

I will kill ATRM tmr. I nearly died during today's lecture on Debit & Credit. Everyone was asking Mrs Lim whether we cld drop the friggin module or not. Sighs.. I'm just praying for my brain to be active enough to prep for the upcoming hectic schedule..

And it's only today that the stress started coming in. All of a sudden, the work load seemed to pile like they never did and I'm so not looking forward to the rest of Yr 2. ):

On a brighter note, Samba class was kinda fun although the Samba walk was shitty cos we executed it in the wrong manner. Seems weird for the front foot to slide back eh :x

Dance tmr!

& I am addicted to this song;

李玖哲 - 做你的天

你坐在我身边 我的天 我想我会失眠
想暂停时间 亲你的脸 你才不会发现

舍不得和你说再见 一秒都浪费
你每个表情 那么新鲜
催着我快一点 再多爱你一些

做你的天 做你的晴天
帮你晒干所有眼泪
你的眼 是我珍贵的宝贝

做你的天 当你需要阴天
陪你安静一整夜
别管世界怎么变 我是你的天
我是你最爱那天

过了春天 过了夏天 我们写下了季节
又过了秋天 过了冬天 我们写下永远

舍不得和你说再见 一秒都浪费
你每个表情 那么新鲜
催着我快一点 再多爱你一些

做你的天 做你的晴天
帮你晒干所有眼泪
你的眼 是我珍贵的宝贝

做你的天 当你需要阴天
陪你安静一整夜
别管世界怎么变 我是你的天

我只对你想念 对你温柔和体贴
只为你心甘情愿 永远不对你说抱歉

做你的天 做你的晴天
帮你晒干所有眼泪
你的眼 是我珍贵的宝贝

做你的天 当你需要阴天
陪你安静一整夜
别管世界怎么变 我是你的天

我是你最爱那天
我做你的天

Sarang ingayo? :)

♥yours truly. 12:26 AM

So Mrs Lim didn't turn out to be as nasty or stern after all. There's no doubt that she's strict but at least she's kinda friendly. Haha. But the accounting stuff seriously suck big time and for once, I feel that Amath is much easier and better than this friggin module.

Imagine yourself not having any background in POA and all of a sudden, you've got to learn smthg more than that in 4 months. Smthg which people take months, or even a year, to master.

How's that?

I swear I almost died of confusion during the ATRM tutorial just now. And when she mentioned that there's gonna be graded assignments for the next two weeks, my jaw dropped. Dammit;

I fear that this darn module will be the black sheep which is so gonna pull the grades down. Please don't let it happen..

And I can't wait for tonight's Samba class.
-smiles-

nevertheless,i'm a happy girl!

♥yours truly. 1:28 PM

I thought-

I thought I had an ardent love for dance.
I thought nothing would stop me from dancing my life away.
I thought the spirit of striving hard would stay forever.
I thought I'll practice even harder after the series of happenings.
I thought I'll improve as time passes.

But what's this?

I'm stuck here while others are improving.
I'm lazing around when others are dancing their hearts out.
I'm unmotivated to practice just because the partner's absent.
I'm no longer the hardworking Melody,
I'm disappointed.

The truth is, I really am. We've been prac in sch most of the time that we barely stay for night practices in s&g. And when I stayed on ystd night with the hope to brush up on my techniques, I ended up sitting most of the time. Where's the motivation? Where's the passion?

I really miss the old me who'd pay for that $5 every Sat just to prac that lil more instead of lazing around at home.. In the process of resting, I figured how much some peeps have improved and how good they are now. Yes, we're told to not judge and not compare, but I can't help doing so for the sole purpose of guilt.

I realised that I gotta do my best for June's Nationals. What papa and Pam said kinda struck me; that if we continue slacking, the juniors may overtake us v soon; that she hasn't seen us dance till we sweat like mad for ages.

And so I've thought about it. I'm gonna prac like how I did in the past and strive hard! May the burning passion unleash itself once again, and may the determination stay.

Bless me. Tmr's gonna be the start of Week 2 and the holiday mood's still on. Freak;

&I miss my darlings. ):

GWS pls! (:

♥yours truly. 12:41 AM

Here's a short but very meaningful paragraph quoted from Edna's blog.

Read and interprete it. You'll know what love and dance really means..

" What i really really wanted all these years is something equivalent to a dance partner.(although he may not know how to dance,) but what i really need is someone who can lead, to push and direct me to the right direction so that i can show my passion, my love, my thoughts and feelings.
Someone who will always catch me when i fall back, to hold me tight and never let go. I suddenly realised love is like a dance, a dance of two. Every step we take, every move we make, is like showing our passion and flare for something unique,
Something that not all will be blessed with, something that can only be devoured by two souls.
Love is like a dance, without passion and expressions, the dance is dead, so is love.
Love is like a stance, like a poise, sturdy and strong, flowy and flexible.
Emotions are shown, to express concerns."

So true, isn't it?

I've never interpreted both dance and love in such a way, neither have I tried finding a connection between the two. But the extract above is beautifully, artistically and professionally written. (:

♥yours truly. 1:27 AM

I've been taking things so lightly that it seems as though we're still enjoying the luxury of holidays. Tutorials have been ignored and neither have lectures been absorbed. In addition with the late dance nights, the motivation's barely visible. Modules are ever so dry and the past 4 days have passed amazingly fast.

To be frank, I kinda fear the upcoming days whereby we'll be tortured by those friggin projects and assignments. Though deadlines are still far, I believe time management has to be practised no matter what. Studies should always receive the most attention and thereafter, dance comes in. But with the upcoming June comp just ard the corner, I'm not sure how I'll manage. The partnership's pretty new but we'll try our best! :D

So anyw, the freshies came for this orientation session ystd and we're glad that most of them had fun. (: Just hoping that there'll be a certain no. who're willing to stay and commit wholeheartedly for passion. After all, nothing beats having an ardent love for smthg, isn't it? (:

And thank God that I&E wasn't as boring as expected. We have a pretty humorous tutor who enjoys talking and thus, was able to keep us a lil entertained. My grp's lookin great and I'm so looking forward to the trial! Hehehe.

Tmr's so gonna be a busy day. Save me fr the fatigue and hectic schedule pleasee.

Thank you. (:

♥yours truly. 2:06 PM

ATRM scared the shit out of me. Imagine yourself being a noob at accounting stuffs and all of a sudden, the lecturer bombards you with a whole lot of stuffs abt the damn module, talks abt balance sheets, assets, liabilities and blahblah. The 9am lesson was alr bad enough to kickstart the day and with the company of a super dry module which seemed ever so alien, I got even more lethargic and bored.

Luckily I had my lappie to keep me a lil more awake, otherwise I would have dozed off looking at the notes.

And yes, I'm amazed by the fab figure that the ATRM lecturer has in spite of having 4 kids. The whole lot of us were so friggin shocked when she said that she had 4 kids la. Omgg. I wanna be like that in future too.

Although its alr the 3rd day of sch, most of us are still in the holiday mood and I'm a lil amazed that we're in yr 2 alr and are no longer newbies of poly life. Dance freshies are popping by for a trial lesson tmr and I'm looking forward to seeing them. (: And we're finally starting Samba next Tues! Claps!

Let's all walk through this tough period tog with the need to juggle studies, dance, preparation for comp and other personal matters alright(:

Anyw, here's a couple of the many photos taken during CCA fiesta. Hopefully the photography club sends the photoshoots to Mich darlin's email asap. Heh. I Love these ppl loads! (: And dance just rawk!

Korkor always comes in during the last min.. ;x

♥yours truly. 8:42 PM

Runny nose, frequent moodswings, irritated nature, unsuccessful dance practices, moodless formation lessons- uhm well, a pathetic day is what I'll describe today to be.

LAM lecture was alr boring enough to bring the mood down and apparently, my nose had been giving me problems for the entire morning till lunch and it sucked. Imagine sneezing once every split second and having the need to hold things back cus it wouldnt be nice to blow on tissues in front of everyone. In other words, keeping the poise was the problem. Then the first part of CCA fiesta was no better cus most of my darlins weren't around and the crowd was pretty small then.

I guess the best part of the CCA fiesta was when our 3 dear couples performed the 3dances cus the crowd was overwhelming. Plus, the applause at the end was great! Heh. Now we wouldn't haveta worry about under-recruitment! :)

And for some reason, I started feeling a lil effed up when evening came and in addition with the mood, tiredness and lack of time, practice wasn't at all good. I couldn't seem to execute those points mentioned during p.lesson, neither did I have the stamina to even dance properly. So for once, I dreaded formation lesson cus I was soo tired, blur and moody.

Isn't it soo unlike melmel who loves every Tuesday for all she knows?

)):

I.dread.school although it doesn't really seem as though school's started with the slackish lectures and holiday moods still in place.

Oh God. Lesson's at 9am tmr again, for goodness sake. Freak. And there's Bcomm.. I'm hoping that its not her who'll be teaching us. I'll screammm if she does. like seriously!

♥yours truly. 12:22 AM

What would you do if tomorrow never comes, and that today's your last chance to live?

Mich darlin just happened to ask me this qn all of a sudden and it did hit me initially cus I was pretty lost for words. But after a series of thoughts, I figured out what my ideal answer would be.

I would tell all my loved ones, be it family, friends, lover and any other peeps who are in my heart how thankful I am to have them in my life and how much I love and cherish them. (:

What's YOUR answer then? (:

For once, dance was boring tonight cus Tin's busy to come for prac and formation was somehow not-so-fun. And tech class was cancelled cus there was too few ppl attending it and also bcus Teacher Sharon was kinda busy & tired, so that mounted up to an unproductive night spent at studio. Plus, I was kinda lazy and un-motivated to prac too..

Where did all that passion go to? Where's the old me who'll prac even when the partner isn't around? Where's the old mel mel? ):

To tell you the truth, sometimes I'm really conquered by this mind over body thing. The mind wants to do A but the body executes B instead. I wonder what's wrong. Is it the mentality that's playing a fool on you, or is it those wild imaginations? Then there's also the thing about frequent mood swings. I'd really go crazy some day..

♥yours truly. 12:19 AM

Procrastination kills. and i just can't get my eyes off this darn lappie every night for god-knows-what reason.

Freak;

I just don't understand what's going on in the mind sometimes. those million questions, those neverending doubts, and those unanswered queries just seem too many to fulfill.

On a brighter note, I'm a lil blonde now. Ha, not to the extent of blond blond but just a lil. Mom asked me not to have any colours lighter than this cus otherwise, I can jollywell become an ang-moh.

So its 3+ more days till freedom ends.. and how I wish time will just stop running on Sunday. Boo hoos..

♥yours truly. 11:13 PM

Here comes clumsy lil Melody who fell down twice in an hour due to her clumsiness and friction-less slippers.. And that silly action actually caused a cut on my left arm near the elbow. Freak. Falling in front of the my darlings & Teacher Sharon was alr bad enuff but those friggin flipflops gave way again down the stairs at KAP. How nice (:

I once promised myself that I shan't fall down any more in order to avoid additional stuff on my skin. But oh wells, I guess such things are unavoidable. :/

Thank God that the DOD comp has been postponed till god knows when.

So anyw, I'm gonna do sth to my hair colour later on. Like finally! Haha ((:

And I almost forgot to mention; the cruise scrapbook is a pain. Dammit for taking 10% of our CEM module. Argh-

1 more month! & driving, clubbing, pubbing, drinking here i come! (((((:

♥yours truly. 2:06 AM

And another week just flew past just like this; so this also means that we're left with only one pathetic week till school resumes and it stinks. Double boo boos.

I'm not ready to open my arms to those alien-like info which will flood our minds once again, nor am I prepared to welcome the countless upcoming projects. Argh- Give us a break eh? Perhaps 7weeks is a lil too short, or should we just blame time for flying past? Seems like I've spent the entire holiday enjoying, dancing and chillin so much so that I know adjustment to school life won't be easy. I've gotten so used to the weekly hangout sessions with my dance darlings that it's become a routine.. I just love dance and all my darlings! Melvin&Sharon too! ((:

I guess the worst thing you can do to me if you wanna ruine a part of my life is to take dance away, cus its really a passion and is something in which love is ardent.

Dod's comp is just this Sat and we shall all go for the sake of enjoyment and hopefully, attract Fannwong's attn eh? Go NPDS! Let the show begin! (:

On a side note, I wanna get my hair dyed/highlighted again before school starts. Suggestions anyone? Prolly gotta ignore those worries of damaged hair that I have since the past if I wanna have a new look. Haha.

And tmr had better be a productive day! Bless us! Haha! (:

♥yours truly. 12:52 AM

A fruitful day indeed. (:

Accompanied Tin to get his costume at Cindini and I'm so relieved that he managed to find suitable ones there. Thank God! (: The dance pants was a perfect offer uh. Heh. Then we had lunch with his cousin & her other vietnamese friends whom she knew from the Embassy, and I was saying how much this guy resembled a typical Korean. Coolios!

Met up with Xiaomei and we went to Yhss tog with Param. Saw the juniors dolling themselves up for the perf & chatted a while with a few teachers. I'm especially happy to see Mrs Sunil after so long! The last time we met was last yr's release of results la and that's ages long. Hugged. Chatted. Took a pic. And I love it! Let's hope that a successful outing will be planned in June, at least before she leaves for India.. ):

It's nice to return to sch athough the feeling was kinda weird given the fact that the no. of teachers/students that we know are limited. Most have either graduated/left/retired. =\ Nevertheless, I still miss those Sec.school days.. Oh well.

Had a nice chat with Min and Von and I’m so glad that we managed to catch up with each other’s lives despite our hectic schedules. Min’s still as high as ever and you made my day la, super huge ying! =p All in all, it was great to see everyone, esp Jingyi, Huimin & Yvonne. Love you girls! (:

~ithinkigottacontrolmytemperandemotions~

I ought to kick the bad habit of having random mood swings and getting pissed with nothing out of a sudden. It sucks. I’m not pmsing you see. So yea.

Freak. School’s starting in 8 day’s time and I’m so not prepared for Year2. What’s more, the scrap book’s yet to be done. Kill me please;


committee girls. (missing von) loves to all!

the best teacher one can ever have! (:

♥yours truly. 11:35 PM

There comes a point in life when you're so thankful of something that you find it utterly difficult to express your gratitude. And today's one of those days when I'd like to express a million 'thank yous' to God. Some say he does miracles; some says he's like a guardian angel who'll always be there to work things out; so all in all, He's just a wonder.

I was tossing and turning on my bed this morning, doing everything except stepping out of my room for the fear to receive that phone call which'll determine whether I'd smile or frown. Felt kinda frantic when no one called when its alr 2pm but when Dad finally returned, I heaved a sigh of relief.

Praise the lord! (:

I thank Him for everything; from my family's good health, having a comfortable life with everything in place and most of all, having wonderful friends who never fail to brighten up my life and lastly, meeting my darlings who were always there for me.

So who are these special ones?

1. Shijiao Bestie

该说的都说了，只想谢谢你一路以来无限的支持和陪伴！我们不愧是‘老婆’，也是走到哪里跟到哪里的好姐妹！爱你哦！Thank god for you bff! (:

2. Michelle darlin

Darlinn! Although you may have seen this before, I still wanna tell you that I'm really really thankful to have known you better. Thanks for all the enjoyable moments we shared; from Waltz workshop, Sentosa outing, Kster sessions, ECP gatherings, Dancefloor sessions & the list goes on. Of course, thanks for always being there when I needed you too.. It'd be nice if we got to know each other earlier in dance but I'm contented with our current friendship! I'm glad that you became a more cheerful and bubbly girl ever since and in one way or another, I thank that barrier for being destroyed! We'll go for our ear piercings, hair cut/dye sessions and enjoy the last bit of hols before next week's comp and before school starts alright! And you have my luck & word that you'll pass tmr's interview for sure! :] (although I'm gonna be so mad at Boston for taking you away from me for 2 months cus its gonna be so so horrible... ): ) Thank god for you & LOVEYA always!l Rmb to stay happy no matter what okay!
P.S: Package tmr! =p

3. Alicia sweetie

CUTIE! I just love hugging you! (: Maybe its bcos of the both of us being fun-sized which explains the affection. I still thank Dancecamp for brining us tog if not, I guess we wouldn't have been this close. Yes Paso! It'll forever be the best group and you were no doubt a great leader! I miss those times when we trained hard tog for Dance Nationals and the feeling of achieving smthg tog with you guys was simply.. wonderful! Till today, I'm proud of you! You guys are just great! I'll miss you super much.. Gonna miss those times we hug w/o caring the stares of other peeps in Canteen 1, as well as meeting each other any where in sch. You just too dear! But no worries! We'll still meet every Tues and Thurs! AND PLS DUN CRY TMR! ((: Thank god for you too! Loves!

~*~

I can't wait for tmr. It's gonna be appreciation night.. (:

♥yours truly. 11:07 PM