Gabriel :D

Babies are such a wonder. (:

I wanna go on hibernation, as in really hibernate from the real world and reflect upon myself for a period of time. But perhaps the only way to do so is to travel to a place far far away where disturbance and problems are absent, where I can finally attain a peace of mind of my own and where eternity exists.

Why? You may ask. It's simply becus I'm tired of the monotomy of everyday life, as well as the dilemmas and problems that we all face every now and then. And then again, you may argue that isn't life supposed to be like this? Isn't life filled with ups and downs? I beg to differ; sometimes the word unfairness just cant be eliminated from the dictionary after all that happened. So prolly such things are relly relly subjective in the sense that we all have different views and opinons rgding world issues.


And some things really drive me crazy. I detest myself for being so so fickle-minded, so stubborn, so indifferent, so whatever..

Ah forget it, no one's ever perfect.

Just the other day, Cheryl, Ali and myself were comparing our body sizes, heights, weights etc. and we all grumbled about the disparity of life. On one side, there're peeps who're slightly too tall and on another, there's us who're slightly below avg height. To many, height isn't a concern but to us, it is. Of course, there's no wrong in being un-tall cus we're not at fault. Its all about the genes/how we're made to be.

So anyway, Yati and I paid Mrs Alfred a visit ystd afternoon and boyy, baby gabriel is such a cutiepiee! (: His eyes are huge and I'm pretty sure that he'll grow up to be a handsome baby. :D We also got to chat with her and I love her! (: Mrs Sunil is also one whom I still miss cus we haven't seen her since the release of Os results.. It sure is nice having heart-to-heart talks with people whom you trust.

And oh btw, I'm not working at Cartel at the moment cus I stopped since Friday. Told Eric that I won't be able to work since school's starting soon and fortunately, he agreed and said that they'll call should staff be needed. I guess I wouldn't be able to escape if Irene was on duty on Thurday. Lucky me :D :D

I'm off to meet Faiz and Ali in a while for some shopping before we head for practice night! Muchloves :D

Even after everything, I still care.. :)

♥yours truly. 12:34 PM

♥yours truly. 9:33 PM

I was flipping through my photo albums this morning and I'm amazed by the rate at which time flies. Sometimes I just can't believe that I've alr walked through 17 years of life cus all this seemed to happen in a flash. I can still vividly recall those tough times we had while preparing for Olevels- the daily physics remedials we had, the before school lit consultations with mrs sunil and those unforgettable memories in Yuhua. Not to mention,I had the greatest time of my life during my stay in pj earlier this year as well as the dilemma I faced while deciding whether to remain in jc or head to poly. Now, I'm in the midst of a 7 week break after surviving 4months of poly life. And before we know it, we'll be poly graduates and that's when the next phase of life will kickstart.

All this also mean that we'll be grownups in no time and be among those millions of people in the society competing to be a successful businessman/woman. Marriage then comes in and so will a family. We'll be parents, then grandparents and finally, breathing our last days in this thing called life.

That's the life cycle for you and come to think of it, I'm really afraid of growing old. Are you?

The thought of incurable diseases and countless torturing treatments makes me shiver. Of course, who'll not want to join the lord in peace? Unfortunately, it's not up to us to decide upon this matter but when things happen, we just gotta pluck out courage and face them.

Diverting a lil, how inconsiderate can one be when a poor elderly is right in front of you in the MRT, trying his best to grip on the railing and you won't even give up your seat? My heart aches more when I see the elderly beg on overhead bridges. They curl up like a kitten while holding a glimmer of hope that some kind soul will just drop a penny or two into their coin box. And most of the time, we just walk past and ignore him/her. I feel ashamed for being so too.

So much for rantings. (: I went to catch No reservations with jiejie at Cine ystd and it was great! (: I wouldn't say its fabulous but it's worth a glance and I haveta say that Catherine Zeeta Jones is a wonderful actress. We chilled at Paragon's starbucks with Terence & Tas while waiting for Ali darling & her twin sis cus apparently, they wanted to head to Eskibar but becus the two sweethearts arrived only at 94o, jiejie & I had to head home while the rest chilled at the Balcony.

The studio's really quiet with so few seniors around. ): Des,Darren, Cheryl & Mich are currently in Shanghai for some exchange prog, Pam's in Aussie and Nikki, Tas & Terence will be flying off to Ho Chi Men tmr. Come back quick okay? :D

Won't be going down to S&G tonight cus there's a dinner at Chijmes and Tues, please arrive quickly cus I wanna dance! There's work tmr from 8-3 and I'm staying over at lovelove's house after that with Aud sweetheart! (: I can't wait!

♥yours truly. 2:46 PM

♥yours truly. 2:17 PM

S&G was really empty last night and it was pretty weird cus most of the time, the studio would be at least 3/4 packed. But less peeps meant that we had more space to dance and I swear that it was good practice! (: Thanks to Mr. Rich who finally made an effort to come after ajisheoijhio weeks and the seniors for teaching us some impt techniques. Again I realised that there's still a long way to go to the dance definition of success, or at least to the expected standard of latin dance. It takes a certain amount of time even to correct a teeny weeny step so that kinda gives you an insight of how much it takes for the entire routine to be flawless. Nevertheless, I'm determined to strive for npds and for my passion. Of course, that requires a healthy balance between studies, leisure time and dance and it ain't easy.. But take my word that I'll try my best. :D

However, I'm having a huge problem with my dance heels. It's been 3months since I bought it and I still can't balance well. Arghh, thanks to my small feet which caused me to have a narrow choice of this 3inched, ultra-slim heel shoe. Even so, it doesn't fit perfectly and Pam says that it'll be bad for my ankles if I continue like this. Cobbler cobbler, save me pleaseeeee.

Anyway, I was thinking what to take for s&w next sem last night and Yoga's still a choice but I've got a feeling that it won't be offered for my 3-5pm slot. So I'm thinking that should Dancesport be one of my choices, should I go for it and take it as an opportunity to work on my basics? :)

Btw, here's a glance of my results. I really hope I'll be able to maintain like such the following sems. ((:

Business Management: AD
Computing & Information Processing: A
Fundamentals of Mice management: B+
Individual & the community: B
Introduction to Torusim & Resort Management: B+
Life Management Skills: A
Macroeconomics: AD

GPA: 3.7500.

I'm off! There's work tonight. Holy ____.

♥yours truly. 12:45 PM

It's great to know that after countless sleepless nights and burning days of midnight oil, my efforts are finally paid off. (: I don't know if this is correct but I experienced a sense of deja vu this morning when I received the results.

I finally know that it's definitely worth it to sacrifice that little bit in order to achieve your goals. Afterall, the path to success is never easy and along the way, there're bound to be setbacks and failures. Sometimes, you just gotta take a step back and think before heading back to achieve your goals. It helps. :) So never be discouraged by these occurances. Instead, grow to be more motivated to do better the next time round. Afterall, we're all born with the same features and have a very impt organ called the brain. Perhaps it's true that some are born to be a lil more intelligent than the rest but that doesn't mean success only belongs to them. We just put in that extra lil effort to get things into our head and that's it. I know its easier said than done but the truth is, yes it can! Believe in yourself and success will eventually be yours! :D

I hope that cheers you up a bit loveloves ((:

Anyway, there was trm camp briefing in school today and we got to know our group mates and all. As usual, bonding sessions were relatively boring but the best part was that I got to see my dearest classmates after three weeks! I'm soo glad to see you darlingssssss! Loves! Went to vivo with char & audwee sweethearts and we shopped. Aud spent quite a bit and I bought a blue top; something which I've wanted since i-dont-know-when. It's rather plain though but I like the colour. Hehh. Lovelove went off earlier and Aud & I dined at Pastamania. Here are some photos! (:




















The bark which attracted countless crowds to street 42 since Tuesday.




















Blurred but lovely (:















We got bored waiting for Char.. so we started our fav pasttime :D




















& more =)))




















& this is one of the tops I tried from Esprit.. I know i'm fat.




















I love this top from F21 but its costs a bomb; so thumbsDOWN. ):

I won't be working till tmr evening and the next working day will be on Friday! Yays! I'm so gonna quit this hellish job soon. Byebye cartel, train other cashiers/bartenders.

Dance tonight at s&g! I likeeeeeeee! :D :D :D

♥yours truly. 12:11 AM

Sometimes, I really wish that words speak louder than actions or that human beings can actually think twice before acting upon things, cus regret is detrimental. Be it in one form or another, I believe that all of us have experienced this inevitable feeling; the only difference is the extent of it that we experience and how frequent it occurs.

We always say that we have a million of regrets but how true is that? For me, there's a series of events in which I've acted upon too rashly, thus causing this feeling to arise. Decipher in between the lines.

At times I love you
At times I don't
I never knew the reason
But tis' just that season

I was lovestruck;
By your million assurances.
I was dumbfounded;
By your thousand misses.

But by and by,
My heart gave hints;
That afterall, perhaps you aren't mine.
And thereafter, I kissed a last goodbye

HAHA whatever. I was just crapping my head out in the above three stanzas. If you ask me to take the Lit paper now, I'll fail. Oh how I miss our Lit lessons with Mrs Sunil in those upper sec days.. To me, Literature is really a very interesting subject cus it appreciates life through the creative use of words in poems, proses and plays. What's more is that there's alway this hidden meanings which the audience will have to decipher from the respective texts. Ambiguity yeah?

Moving on to smthg very random, the lower part of a tree's tree bark opposite my block got torn out for some reason yesterday and amazingly, there seems to be a shape of two monkeys carved on the tree after that. So from ystd night, peeps kept dropping by to take a look at this weird phenomenon cus many believed that it's some monkey God or smthg. I didn't walk over to take a look though cus I was working the whole day.. I'm just puzzled why Singaporeans can be as curious/kapo as ___ to crowd around those trees even at this unearthly hour of 1.37am. There's still a huge crowd when I came back from work 2hours ago and they were taking pics, stopping their cars by the road and going over to look at it. Dad says that its prolly gonna be on the papers tmr since its rather 'big'. Ha.

And btw, I dreamt of results day last night.! How freaky can it be when the big day is just tmr at 9am? Well I didn't exactly dream of my exact grades or GPA but its still about results. I'm soo anxious and scared for tmr cus afterall, its our first set of results in poly and its of utmost importance too. Bless me! (: There's also TRM camp briefing at 2pm tmr, which means that I'll finally get to meet my dearest class and most of all, my darlings whom I've not seen for 3weeks! I can't wait! :D

Work wise, I'm being trained to be the cashier for the 3rd day and later on, it's 4hours of cashier again. Argh. Stressstress. It's true that as the cashier, one doesn't have to walk around that much but when money is concerned, it's always a sensitive issue. What's more is that one's got to learn how to make desserts and all. I'm supposed to copy few pages of long recipes but I'm jus too lazy to do so. Someone help me pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. I wana quit but my colleages ask me to stay on. Darn..

Anyways, there's self pract tonight! I need to polish up my cha routineeeeeee, prac rumba and get jive right and going. My jive's horrible!

Till then! :D Ciao & Tata.!

♥yours truly. 12:57 AM

heyyyy! (: I'm back from dance chalet and it was uber fun! :D I'm too lazy to go into the details cus there're too many things to talk abt. I'm like a lobster now cus we tanned quite a bit while cycling, swimming and of cos while we were on the beach and by the pool too. Note: Mr Richard Chua aka my partner got buried in the sand :D:D:D

Anyways,The seniors brought bottles of liquor and that added up to quite an amount, but we din manage to finish all of em. Kai drank the most though and he still claimed that he's sober. As a result, Da Vin ki code was pronounced instead of Da Vinci, and that became the joke of the night. :x Oh yes, Melvin & Sharon popped by too and Sharon brought along a special guest whom we thought was Connie but he ended up to be Mario, an Italian dancer. So the all the guys went off to play soccer when midnight neared and the ladies stayed behind to chat. Teacher sharon is sooo hilarious I tell you; her laughter's contagious! Like Nikki darl said, she's just like one of us! (:

Oh man, I'm too lazy to continue typing alr so let the pics do the talking alrights? Enjoy!
















Byebyeee sentosa! :)















Oops! Teacher sharon's drunk! :x
















Sleeping charms..















teacher sharon :D















hehhhh.















it's only right for the girls to relax while the guys cook ((:















this proves that i'm XIAOying :)
















soaking up in the sun.. fatfats















camwhore queens :D

















Here's how many bottles of liquor they brought.. =x

♥yours truly. 12:47 AM

I need a break. Legs are swollen and I'm gonna collapse. Texted Eric just now and told him that I won't be able to work this monday & tues cus if I continue, I won't be able to dance on Tuesday night. ): I'm just praying that they get a lil better tmr so that I can cycle and stuff.. Right now, I'm limping from the 9 hours of non-stop standing. Everything just suck. Dinner period was hell cus customers and orders kept flooding in, which meant that I had to serve like mad and liaise with the rest besides being S1.. Damn stressful la. And I seriously feel like quitting cus there should be about 55 hours clocked alr. But where can I head to next? Any recommendations? :/

I wanna enjoy as much as I can later with my dearest DS peeps (: Loves! And may my legs get well soon.. I wanna danceeeeeeeeeeeee. Legs itching alr. :x

Byeeeeee. (: Till monday darlings!

Sometmes, I'm really really confused..

♥yours truly. 12:47 AM

May the __ hours of work flyyyy past later so that I can finally have a day's break. As mentioned, I was supposed to work till closing but thank goodness someone replaced me so I knocked off at 102o. The customers came in herds today; I just don't understand what's so good about cartel food. They're neither cheap nor very yummy.. Perhaps Singaporeans now adays are really rich. If so, spare me some money, will you?

I can't wait for Sundayyyyyy cus there's NPDS chalet at Sentosa! Whoots! Its been 3months since I went for a tan and I need one badly, although you won't see me in a bikini la. Ha. Looking forward to loads of fun and we're so gonna camwhore like crazy, right girls? Loves*

And I miss my clique like crazyyyyyyyyy, esp Aud, Char, Shir, Jem, Shux, Yina & Estherrrr. Meetup soon yeah? Loves too! :)

On top of all, I miss my dearest Pioneers like siao too. Esp Scap peeps, o7s27 & o7s13 peeps, 7th s.c mentors & more.. When will I ever have the time to visit pj again? It's been abt 5months since I've been there.. Sigh. ): Anyw, all the best for promos, prelims & As yeah? Hope to see you guys after promos/As! (:

Was supposed to visit both Mrs Alfred & Mrs Sunil this week to take a look at their new borns and of course, they themselves but it turned out that both appointments were cancelled/postponed. Sad.. I miss the both of them a lot as well.. esp. Mrs Sunil love ):

Oh well, I should really some sleep before I fall ill. Throat started getting sore this morning and I'm hoping that things don't progress any further. I must stay healthy.. :D

I'm off! Goodnight earthings. May I have a pleasant day at work..

♥yours truly. 12:54 AM

I'm drained.

Been working in this inhumane restaurant for a week and I'm alr close to collapsing. Yeah call me weak, call me a complain queen, call me whatever you think suits me cus I won't care. I just wana rant and rant.

I think some people really need to sit back and reflect. It's a pity that in the service line, customers are always right and we're always in the wrong. There was this Tamil woman who came to dine tog with her friend today and she happened to be a vegetarian. Told the manager to separate the fish from the pasta for the fish pasta which she ordered and it so happened that the chef forgot all abt it. So when I served her dish, she started getting all sarcastic and asked for the manager, saying things like our restaurant doesn't respect vegetarians. Note: I'm not having anything against vegetarian here, I'm just unhappy with her attitude. So Dominic and I kept apologising but she continued scolding like nobody's business. Then I went into the kitched to pack the fish as instructed and served the pasta while giving her the packed fish. God knows that she actually smiled and said that she didn't want it anymore and that I could dispose of it.

How nice!

I guess she doesn't know what's called wasting food and in the first place, she shouldn't have ordered fish pasta since she's a vegetarian.

Oh what a freak with servere AP. Disgusting piece of ____.

Speaking of food wastage, I realise that many peeps have a tendancy to have leftover food, some to the extent that half a plate of fish&chips is left behind. Perhaps they don't know how fortunate we are to have such nice food and how scarce food is in poorer areas.

It's such a pity, really. And I suppose if there's gonna be a table etiquette test, quite a handful of those customers are so gonna fail badly. I'm not saying that I eat very elegantly but their eating habits/manners just make me wana complain even more.

What's worse is when you have IMs who aren't at all friendly and think that you're a superwoman by having such high expectations. She doesn't smile at you, nor does she acknowledge your greeting. .. Luckily the rest of the staff there are nice..

Tmr and Sat are supposed to be full shifts for me but I can't work till closing. I'll prob die by the time I reach home.. Hopefully they'll gimmi a break, but I wont know if my appeal succeeds or not till tmr. sighhhhh. In addition, my left leg's swollen due to the long hours of standing and thats why I can't go for self prac tonight. I'm guilty, I'm mad. I needta practise A LOT MORE. Melvin said that the next national's prob in Dec/Nov and we gotta start to prac hard now.. Speaking of dance, bestie and I got our costumes ystd but it isn't collected yet cus some altering has to be done. I spent a bomb of 25o bucks, which is almost equivalent to this week's pay if I work full.

Btw, Suzy msg-ed us and said that they need dance couples for tmr-mon's filming @ inter-continental. Sadly, bestie & I were to slow when we got back to her cus she had alr found enough crew.. A day's pay is 100bucks/person eh, which adds up to 400bucks over 4days of 48 hours.
Contrastingly, I'll haveta work 80 hours at cartel to earn that $400. Arghhhh.

I don't know if I should continue after the 40hours is up. Dilemmaaaaa.

Dance with me, make me sway..

♥yours truly. 9:21 PM

Warning: This is so gonna be a Complain entry.

I'm gonna work a total of 45.5 hours this week and Fri & Sat's full shift. Kill me pleasee! :/ It's true that there'll be quite an amount earned but I pity my legs. Like wow, imagine standing for __ hours and not even going to the loo/having your meals. It's pure torture! And I don't know why the managers' expectations are sooo high. Fancy having to learn how to serve on the 3rd day and memorising table numbers. They think that we're super learners uh? But oh well, what can I say when all this pathetic experience is for the upcoming F&B module and not to mention, the need for money?

I relly thank F&B for being a sector of tourism. If it isn't, then all this crap wouldn't be happening. How nice would things be if tourists can skip their meals during trips.

Also, I really detest some customers. The very fact that we must always listen to their requests stay, but that doesn't mean that they can treat us like servants or maids. There was this lady who asked me to reserve the last two set meals for her straight after walking in, and later on displayed crappy attitude by asking how come the bread hasn't arrived even after 15mins of waiting with a grumpy expression. I guess she has the mentality that breads have got legs and that they can crawl by themselves.

Whatever.

Anyways, had dance ystd and it was darn tiring cus we kept repeating the first 1/4 steps of our cha routine in an attempt to perfect them. He's gonna cont shaping the rest of it 2weeks later and I can't wait! Ha. And someone forgot to lock s&g on Sat night so when bestie and I arrived in the morning, the alarm siren was triggered and we almost got deaf. Freaky.. Luckily Melvin came on time. :\

Wells, I'm off for my nap! Gonna work again from 7-12am and its my first time doing closing.. Wish me luck alright? :x

PS: Yesyesyes, there's dance tmr- JIVEEEEE (: Jumpjumpjumps around! (:

Labels: Dance to the tune of love.

♥yours truly. 4:45 PM

I haven't been dancing much and I feel really guilty about it. From the usual Tues and Thurs prac in school as well as the weekend classes at s&g, I'm now down to only Tues's class with melvin & Sun's semi-p lesson (which ends tmr ). This can't carry on cus when the comps are concerned, a lot more practise is required. Afterall, practising alone's better than not prac at all, isn't it? Even if it means sacrificing some nights of work to prac, I'll still do it. Hopefully I'll be able to work things out asap- I need to and I have to.

I'll do anything to excel in dance.

And I need to get a better job soon. For pay and all.

Oh well. That's for today. Mood's not perfect these days and there's work from 4-10 later on. Ciao!

♥yours truly. 2:45 PM